Wednesday, October 10, 2012
I am just kind of walking around, thinking of what COULD have been, how my life would change if my tests turned out differently. They could in the future, but I let God take care of that.. I do ponder what if's, a LOT.. I am a ponderer,, always did sit and wonder, daydream,,
I feel my Dad's presence every single day,, we are so much alike, when he died, I was relieved and happy for him, but so miss his everyday wisdom and laugh, his help. When I was getting my ultrasound, I knew he was in the room with me, as was my Savior,, both of them one on either side, ,, knowing the outcome, sending me there to be taken care of by a skilled medical staff. I was anxious, but not afraid,, .. now I can start to crank up my everyday life again,, but more aware of my fragile mortality. I am ready to be rewarded, but want to see so much more before I leave.
Nothing profound, but truthful, humble, and selfless leaders to guide us back to our country.
and knee socks and barrettes coming back into style.