Saturday, September 15, 2012
So many grand plans for eh day, but fatigue and a half pain pill took over. I did manage to get some things done in the house, but no hedges trimmed today. Got another call from assisted living place.. mother's pitting edema still the same, she refuses to use the new ottoman I bought for her to elevate her legs. She never adds salt to anything, they cook almost naked there, but she is very inactive. I told nurse that if they did not make her be more active, I may have to take steps, however, now, they cannot force anybody to do anything,, shed is lazy and stubborn, as she has always been, so I will have to go out there and threaten her with going back to the hospital,,she hates that.. I told nurse to tell her that I am very angry that she is refusing to move or raise her legs while sitting around doing nothing,, she has this kind of fear of me for some reason,, the roles have reversed I guess,,
she used to beat me and scream at me on a daily basis, now I guess she feels threatened by me...
her doc has ordered some more blood work to see why the diuretic has not worked, but she does not care about anything, so we will see..
I finally get my blood pressure down from work stress, and she manages to perform to get attention again.. my BP no longer goes high from her anymore,,,,
more will get accomplished tomorrow...
Friday, September 14, 2012
Did you ever have one of those days when every person you encounter makes you feel inferior? Or is snarky, sarcastic, and condescending? No matter what or how much or how fast you complete a task, it is not good enough? Today was that select day, more than usual for me. The bad part is, when I get frustrated, angry I feel like crying. I had to force myself to NOT cry for three and a half solid hours, non-stop. It was one of the most physically draining experiences I have had in a long time. I have had this job for 22 years(tomorrow) and each week seems to fluctuate between sheer dread and okay, I will have fun today, kind of thoughts.
I still need to stick around for over five years, so leaving is never an option. It is a highly stressful and physically demanding job, so at the ripe old age of 65 I can retire and still have health insurance.. Otherwise, I would never go back there, never missing a person that works there. Medicare seems SO far away...
I Do meditate every day, I Do pray every day, I do bite my tongue every day, I have made it a practice to say something nice to every single person in the building every day and so far it has made me realize that I want to do this ,I want others to feel that somebody appreciates what they do, no matter how small the task. It started out as a Lenten thing I did ,, now it has become second nature and I love it,,
Today was just awful and the best part was, I started work later than usual and left earlier,, it still was bad..
I am now finished venting, and feel better, not good enough to go back tomorrow(I do not work weekends anymore LOL) It is done, I have purged, I will wipe that slate clean and beat the erasers clean, over the weekend and mark off days until I can have a joyful and peaceful life without a job,, I have worked, for the last 49 years and I can stick this out for another five,, tick tock.. there are people that are way worse off than me, so I whine to vent..
Thursday, September 13, 2012
I was reading some people's blogs yesterday, read the comments, and some of the blogs were very sad. I have been through what a lot of the people have been through, but I remember thinking back to when I first started maturing when painful things came along. I USED to say and think, "Why me?" Why did I have to go through that pain and heartache, physical pain,etc..?
After about a million years and a LOT of misfortunes, I realized, "Why NOT me? Who do I think I am to even dare to think that I am special, that I am more worthy of protection from bad things or pain than anybody else? It is plain ignorance, vanity and immaturity. I was all three..
There is only one human who was ever that special and He decided to endure more than I could ever imagine, let His mom do the same, and still love me enough to let me grow and learn.
Now I think, "Why did He wait so long to show this to me?"
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Well, after yesterday's fiasco, today was duller than dirt,, got out of work very early, watched tv through my eyelids until DD awakened me. That three in the morning wake up bites it. As much as I needed to take care of business, I really hesitate to open the door of the ladies room today. Nobody else had been in there, so I gingerly opened the door, peeked around the corner,, nothing offensive so far,, okay, ,, I kind of tried to sneak up on the commode,, flashbacks of yesterday's near-enema whirling through my head.
that was bout the extent of excitement at work..
I did come home and drink a LOT of water to compensate for the morning,, I really am paranoid about that darned sewer!! Now, I have traveled quite a bit in my eyars,, been to the barrios of Mexico City, like old hooker bars with no tables or chairs, alleyways with gnarly,creepy junkies,, getting the real feel of Mexico with our guide,,, been in the mountains of South America where a wide tree with big leaves was a must. Where the leaves with no insects or snakes or lizards were bonuses!
Been in the wilds of Thunder Bay with NO trees, only mountains and water,, the most dangerous place was Disneyworld in line for bathrooms with a lineup of fifty moms with toddlers,, THAT WAS REALLY SCARY.. But this is now a knee-jerk reaction to what could have been a facial-gone-wrong on so many levels, it is not funny. I almost leaned over that bowl yesterday, just a second before it erupted, just to see where the noise was coming from,,
Lucky!! I should have bought a lottery ticket,,,,
Story of my life:another missed opportunity.... alas...
View of Navy Pier from that big Ferris wheel. Cool ride!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Strange day at work,, was just getting into the swing of things when I went to the ladies room. Just as I was prepared to sit down(I know, not delicate), WHOOSH!!!!!!!
This huge ball of water and RAW sewage came shooting out of the stool!!! Both stools actually, then both sinks!!!!
Now, most people would run screaming out of the room, BUT not those who take lasix twice a day!! I just stood there, trying to figure out how I was still going to take care of business, so to speak.. but finally the sights and sounds, and mainly, SMELLS, got to me and I retreated out of the room and got the boss to go in and watch the water show. It was a poor man's Bellagio` fountain!!!!! Kind of synchronized too, actually. One stool would blow up to the ceiling, then the other, then the sinks..
but I digress..
I went to the men's rest room and it put the ladies room to shame!! Two stalls, two urinals , two sinks!!! It was almost too much entertainment for even me!!
Turns out, the city decided to work on the MAIN SEWER LINE without informing anybody..
Lock the doors, sanitize everything with bleach, close down business for half the day. Lovely...
BTW, I was SECONDS from getting a nasty , unwanted enema!!!!!
It's always something,, either you're untangling printer paper or you're the victim of a sewage conspiracy and wiping doo off everything,,
You can't BUY that kind of excitement folks, at any price,, even in VEGAS!
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