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Freakout Friday

Friday, September 14, 2012

Did you ever have one of those days when every person you encounter makes you feel inferior? Or is snarky, sarcastic, and condescending? No matter what or how much or how fast you complete a task, it is not good enough? Today was that select day, more than usual for me. The bad part is, when I get frustrated, angry I feel like crying. I had to force myself to NOT cry for three and a half solid hours, non-stop. It was one of the most physically draining experiences I have had in a long time. I have had this job for 22 years(tomorrow) and each week seems to fluctuate between sheer dread and okay, I will have fun today, kind of thoughts.

I still need to stick around for over five years, so leaving is never an option. It is a highly stressful and physically demanding job, so at the ripe old age of 65 I can retire and still have health insurance.. Otherwise, I would never go back there, never missing a person that works there. Medicare seems SO far away...
I Do meditate every day, I Do pray every day, I do bite my tongue every day, I have made it a practice to say something nice to every single person in the building every day and so far it has made me realize that I want to do this ,I want others to feel that somebody appreciates what they do, no matter how small the task. It started out as a Lenten thing I did ,, now it has become second nature and I love it,,

Today was just awful and the best part was, I started work later than usual and left earlier,, it still was bad..

I am now finished venting, and feel better, not good enough to go back tomorrow(I do not work weekends anymore LOL) It is done, I have purged, I will wipe that slate clean and beat the erasers clean, over the weekend and mark off days until I can have a joyful and peaceful life without a job,, I have worked, for the last 49 years and I can stick this out for another five,, tick tock.. there are people that are way worse off than me, so I whine to vent..

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FLEMIDG 9/15/2012 12:57AM

    Sorry to hear about all your problems at work. We are here for you. You can vent all you want. Enjoy your weekend and hopefully things will be less stressful for you next week.
Take one day at a time. I will be praying for you. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NORASPAT 9/14/2012 7:52PM

    So sorry about the nasty people that is too bad. They are probably not raised to be polite. I am so glad i was raised that way. People who do not have manners are missing out on the kindnesses in this world.

You have to appreciate that you are actually better than they are because you are a much nicer person. I can vent on Spark and mostly I get very good support here that is why I stay with the program. I feel good talking to people I never see but feel i know they are good people. HUGS LINDA, I am here for you if you ever need to vent some more HUGS Spark Friend. Take cared and make sure you enjoy your weekend. Pat in Maine. (((((HUGS))))) emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEBBIEANNE1124 9/14/2012 3:35PM

    If that was a boss doing this have a talk to that eprson and let them know who you are and what theya re doing.

I hear ya on the stress though.

Hang in there Lin you are strong.

(I get people here on Spark people who get that sarcastic and nasty and put me down all the time) It literally sucks and makes me feel low)

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Why NOT me?

Thursday, September 13, 2012

I was reading some people's blogs yesterday, read the comments, and some of the blogs were very sad. I have been through what a lot of the people have been through, but I remember thinking back to when I first started maturing when painful things came along. I USED to say and think, "Why me?" Why did I have to go through that pain and heartache, physical pain,etc..?

After about a million years and a LOT of misfortunes, I realized, "Why NOT me? Who do I think I am to even dare to think that I am special, that I am more worthy of protection from bad things or pain than anybody else? It is plain ignorance, vanity and immaturity. I was all three..

There is only one human who was ever that special and He decided to endure more than I could ever imagine, let His mom do the same, and still love me enough to let me grow and learn.
Now I think, "Why did He wait so long to show this to me?"

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PATRICIAAK 9/13/2012 9:47PM

    I've walked in those shoes, too, and am so grateful He loves me through it.

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NORASPAT 9/13/2012 7:06PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon ((((HUGS)))) Pat emoticon

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DEBBIEANNE1124 9/13/2012 6:15PM

    Miserable people make others miserable. Life is too short for Misery. We gotta smile through it all if we can

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DIANE7786 9/13/2012 5:59PM

    I giggle when people say, "Why me?" in times of adversity but never say "Why me?" when something good happens. It's good to know good and not so good happens to everyone.

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bathing my cells in water!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Well, after yesterday's fiasco, today was duller than dirt,, got out of work very early, watched tv through my eyelids until DD awakened me. That three in the morning wake up bites it. As much as I needed to take care of business, I really hesitate to open the door of the ladies room today. Nobody else had been in there, so I gingerly opened the door, peeked around the corner,, nothing offensive so far,, okay, ,, I kind of tried to sneak up on the commode,, flashbacks of yesterday's near-enema whirling through my head.
that was bout the extent of excitement at work..

I did come home and drink a LOT of water to compensate for the morning,, I really am paranoid about that darned sewer!! Now, I have traveled quite a bit in my eyars,, been to the barrios of Mexico City, like old hooker bars with no tables or chairs, alleyways with gnarly,creepy junkies,, getting the real feel of Mexico with our guide,,, been in the mountains of South America where a wide tree with big leaves was a must. Where the leaves with no insects or snakes or lizards were bonuses!
Been in the wilds of Thunder Bay with NO trees, only mountains and water,, the most dangerous place was Disneyworld in line for bathrooms with a lineup of fifty moms with toddlers,, THAT WAS REALLY SCARY.. But this is now a knee-jerk reaction to what could have been a facial-gone-wrong on so many levels, it is not funny. I almost leaned over that bowl yesterday, just a second before it erupted, just to see where the noise was coming from,,
Lucky!! I should have bought a lottery ticket,,,,
Story of my life:another missed opportunity.... alas...

View of Navy Pier from that big Ferris wheel. Cool ride!

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KASEYCOFF 9/13/2012 3:34AM

    On the plus side, you (narrowly) avoided being hit by lightning, so you were lucky indeed!

I think an experience like that would leave anyone with at least a minor temporary phobia... I know it would me, and probably more than minor OR temporary!

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CAROLIAN 9/13/2012 2:37AM

    emoticon emoticon

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AUNTRENEE 9/12/2012 10:35PM

    Hope that you had a better day.

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ALDEBARANIAN 9/12/2012 7:14PM

    beware of post traumatic stress syndrome. emoticon

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DEBBIEANNE1124 9/12/2012 2:39PM

    Sounds li,ke fun. the Ferris Wheel. Back in the day i ahd fun on them but not anymore.

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NORASPAT 9/12/2012 12:53PM

    I hope all is well today, you sure have seen the world Lucky You!!

HUGS Pat in Maine.

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Poor man's fountains! Read with caution!!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Strange day at work,, was just getting into the swing of things when I went to the ladies room. Just as I was prepared to sit down(I know, not delicate), WHOOSH!!!!!!!
This huge ball of water and RAW sewage came shooting out of the stool!!! Both stools actually, then both sinks!!!!
Now, most people would run screaming out of the room, BUT not those who take lasix twice a day!! I just stood there, trying to figure out how I was still going to take care of business, so to speak.. but finally the sights and sounds, and mainly, SMELLS, got to me and I retreated out of the room and got the boss to go in and watch the water show. It was a poor man's Bellagio` fountain!!!!! Kind of synchronized too, actually. One stool would blow up to the ceiling, then the other, then the sinks..
but I digress..
I went to the men's rest room and it put the ladies room to shame!! Two stalls, two urinals , two sinks!!! It was almost too much entertainment for even me!!

Turns out, the city decided to work on the MAIN SEWER LINE without informing anybody..
Lock the doors, sanitize everything with bleach, close down business for half the day. Lovely...

BTW, I was SECONDS from getting a nasty , unwanted enema!!!!!
It's always something,, either you're untangling printer paper or you're the victim of a sewage conspiracy and wiping doo off everything,,
You can't BUY that kind of excitement folks, at any price,, even in VEGAS!

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AUNTRENEE 9/12/2012 10:40PM

    oy vey. yuck.

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NORASPAT 9/12/2012 12:57PM

    UGH!! stomach churned. Reminded me of the perils of youth -One holers, not on the golf course either! emoticon .

So sorry you were in THAT MESS. Pat in Maine.

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ALDEBARANIAN 9/11/2012 9:14PM

    Wow! Holy Mackerel! Glad you didn't get yourself deluged. What a mess!

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ADKISTLER 9/11/2012 7:18PM

    We have a port-a-potty at work. I never thought I would be happy about it, until now!

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DEBALDERMAN 9/11/2012 6:29PM

    Oh, Lin... That makes my day feel like a walk in the park. Hope the rest of your week is ten times better!

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KASEYCOFF 9/11/2012 5:40PM

    Oh, gah, the health department would have a field day--!!!

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DONBOB1 9/11/2012 5:36PM

    Sounds like a normal day at the office for you.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 9/11/2012 4:02PM

    Talk about colonoscopies... Gees I'll take thaAnd no ANESTHESIA!t anyday over what you went through. Poor Lin!

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MIATIA1 9/11/2012 1:54PM

    I've heard of having a shower at the office but that puts a new spin on the picture. Time to ask for a raise ! emoticon

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THINAGIN2 9/11/2012 1:49PM

    I know that to you, this was not even close to funny! On the other hand your rendition of this tale was quite amusing to me! I am sorry that you had to face the mess but thanks for sharing your experience, anyway! You are right you can't buy that kind of amusement anywhere it just happens!

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PARKERB2 9/11/2012 1:44PM

    Whew, odors, odors everywhere.

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Monday morning passed me by

Monday, September 10, 2012

Rising at 3 a.m. to go to work just made me groggy, more tired, happy I do not do it everyday..
I get to sleep in until four tomorrow morning! Back to three the next day,,
I am already cold and it is still summer!! Hot flashes last night, then cold, then hot,, back to sleep, finally watched the clock the last hour I was in bed,, that fibro causes dashes of sleep, but I took that 3/4 of a pain pill Friday night, and again, slept most of the weekend..

I wish I had a good friend that invited me to warmer climes this winter, and that I could afford a long vacation from work,,, ready to go back up north...
sending s ome more pics from vacation

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ALDEBARANIAN 9/10/2012 8:21PM

    OMG. You have my sympathy. It doesn't help any, but there it is. I feel about as useless as the guy I read about somewhere who said, "Be warm, be filled," but didn't offer any food or a coat.
I'll pray though.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 9/10/2012 4:08PM

    you ahve a friend in Florida and another one in California. I'm in warmer climate than you I think...

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