Thursday, January 27, 2011
Pilot to bombardier: Went to nursing home, visited with mom, asked her more memory questions just for my peace of mind that she truly has dementia,, OH YEAH! She did not remember anything about her two visits to the neurosurgeon, any xrays(had four sets of them), nothing,, did not remember who gave her plants or cards in her room..
Sw came in after ra half hour, presented the whole scenario as if we had not talked, like she was telling us both at the same time that mom must leave, but needs a stepping-stone to get her sea legs,,
mom just looked at me and asked what I thought,, great, now I know what my daughter will be tricking ME with!!
I then left there and kept appointment with marketing director at assisted living facility a couple miles from nursing home..
I LOVE IT! In fact, if I was able, I WOULD MOVE THERE!!! A Brookdale facility, only 26 residents in this house,, it was just like being in someones home,, clean, homey, tons of activities, field trips, great food, private mini-apartments..
unfortunately, it also does not have an opening yet,, a person on the waiting list has not decided if they want o go there or not, but I told her that I want immediate placement,, she is going to talk to the Director and call me back tomorrow afternoon.. also see if mom is eligible for Dad's veterans benefits,,
I need prayers for this,, more so than my health, I need her to get in there,, that would be a major relief to me..
I NEED IT MORE THAN SHE DOES...
I know God will provide for her needs too,, but secretly I hope this is the biggie!!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Worked extra hours today, got home,nursing home called again,, time to shop fo r assisted living for her,, teh wonderful place right across the road from m street will not have an opening for two weeks, so it will probably be the one way across town,,,
tomorrow afte rwork I amgoing to meet with socail worker and drop this bomb to mom with SW as my armed guard,, staying clear of her hands and feet, do not want to get punched,kicked or gouged,,,
this is wha tI do in my SPARE TIME!!
I am liking my thermal back brace so far,, helping with the spinal arthritis an d fibromyalgia somewhat,,,
going to bite the bullet and start taking the pain pill )Rx) when I go to bed..
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Went to rheumatologist today instead of projected appointment next month: they had a cancellation so I went,,
guess it is better to get the bad news early..
I first went to the eye doc for new glasses last year,:he told me I have cataracts.
Next was the family doc for hand pain:found out I probably had carpal tunnel..he referred me to neurosurgeon: that guy wanted me to see a rheumatologist and get an MRI before surgery to rule out something else going on in my body to cause all the pain and things,,
Big news from the rheumatologist: NO, I do not have rheumatoid arthritis,YET, do have severe arthritis, osteoporosis, bursitis in both knees, and the best part: I have fibromyalgia!!
I have had the symptoms and pain for over fifteen years, but with everything else going wrong, it never got diagnosed as this..
So now instead of getting off some meds, I am now on three more Rx's,, he ordered a dozen blood tests, a whole page of xrays,,
So I am not having carpal tunnel surgery,, yet,, he also told me that diabetes can cause this,, tee-riff-ick! Also, while I was sat the doctors,. again the nursing home called to tell us mom's rehab is finished, she can leave,,
that call return will be tomorrow,, after work,, oh, I also was supposed to buy a back brace(which I did, insurance does not cover it) and special arch supports(not covered either) but did not purchase them,, cannot afford this,, will have to pay most of all the tests he ordered too..
I already wear WALKFIT insoles, they are miracle workers,,
so that is my wonderful day,,
I am so glad it was not worse, but those two diagnoses threw me for a loop..
I told him that the bright side to all this is: I cannot get prostate or testicular cancer !
Sunday, January 23, 2011
So glad I got to hea rthe Scripture last night at church,, helping me today be motivated, grateful and smiling..
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Ever have one of those days that goes so downhill that you can actually FEEl the greased road?
It is always a pleasure to work on my birhtday anyway(sarcasm..) tehn to have my boss call me and tell me I was supposed to eb there an hour ago(they changed my schedule without my knowledge) so I jump up n the dark to get dresed, , skip my breakfast, race out to garage to start car(temp is 0), dash to car checking as I go to make sure I have underwear on(no sense in sending the whole town to the E.R looking at me),, feel rushed all day,, got my work hours cut in half,
get home to discover that teh rheumitologist that was referred by my doc, will not accept my insurance, so I have to fins another, also discover that an MRI costs $1,200+; my hwol annual insurance coverage is only $1,500, which includes all my labs quarterly,, office visits, prescriptions(I have four every 30 days) and outpatient anything. My carpal tunnel surgery is outpatient, so the MRI basically wipes out all my coverage until December 31,2011...
Trying to find a way to pay fo rit without selling a working organ.. trying hospital grant here that MAY qualify me for help with it,,
I NEVER get tests, only visit the doc when I am very ill , ready to go to E.R(which I cannot afford,see above) so I know God will perovide this too for me,,
My Bible study spark group this week is a sign fo rme,, all about how God provided for Noah when he saw that Noah was disgusted buy sinners..
I am still a sinner, but try to haul myself to the front of the line each night for my "whuppin"" asking for love, understanding, forgiveness and patience from HiM.. trying to give these thigns to others too,, very hard sometimes, but it is our job, our responsibility to HIM and others to JUST DO IT!!
ON a lighter note, I decided to stay home fo rmy birhtday this year,, DD and I always go out to dinner for each other's birthday,, did not go out to dinner, had leftovers,, knowing I will be out of work for six unpaid weeks soon, all the bills I will be liable for, makes me just stay home, praying for the gift of use of my hand again, if I could cross my fingrs or toes, I would do it to NOT have rheumatoid arthritis,,
If it is so, HE has HIs plan for me, hope it includes a bod that holds out till I can be eligible for medicare,,(8 years more)..I ramble, but this is my only vent,, fo rthos ewho are bored to trears, sorry,,
I feel better,, tears of hope now,,,
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