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Wednesday, March 27, 2013

I was just looking at my last blog: the pictures of my size 18 jeans. Right now they're hanging in my closet with the "too small" clothes. Along with my size 20 jeans. AND that size 12/14 shirt I had on in those pictures. In fact, my I am fighting to not have to put my size 22 jeans in with the small clothes too.

Here's what's happened since I left you about a year ago:

I was doing fantastic in school and finally started to believe I belonged in a department, when I became ill. I lost strength and control in some of my muscles. For example, I could not stand and laugh at the same time - I would literally fall down because my legs wouldn't hold me. It felt like they were gone. Also, if I was sitting and started to laugh I lost all control of my neck muscles. My chin would drop to my chest, and I would have to physically pick my head back up with my hands.

It gets worse. I moved home because I couldn't live alone. After a few weeks, my muscles weakened to the point that I could not cough up the sinus mucus in my throat (it was allergy season) and I stopped peeing (as in I couldn't go.) I was admitted to the hospital, given a catheter, received breathing treatments, and underwent tests (such as a spinal tap). The diagnosis was an incredibly long word that meant GVHD (Graft vs. Host disease). They started my on IV antibody therapy immediately (which I still receive once a month).

I was discharged after 4 days or so, but at home I pretty much remained in bed. I still had the catheter and it seemed to keep coming apart or finding some way to leak (I have the worst luck sometimes). Plus, my parents house does not have central air conditioning and the downstairs was unbearably hot. So I pretty much stayed upstairs in bed watching tv, reading, etc.

I believe it was at this point when I started becoming depressed and eating the worst possible foods a person can eat (I won't list them so you aren't tempted ;)).

Finally, in the beginning on July I was relieved of my catheter! yay! My family and I spend some time in our home away from home (camper at our district church camp). We went down about one weekend a month until October. Still, I continued to recuperate at home by taking things slow.

Then November came. My church had a choir for Christmas, and I wanted to participate. I went to rehearsals until I realize stairs were involved and I couldn't do it without handrails. It was at this point my mom and I discovered that I had foot drop. Basically, because I sat in bed or on the couch with my feet up all the time, my leg muscles weakened and the tendons and muscles in my achilles area shortened because I had my toes pointed all the time. I was in fact climbing stairs by pulling with my arms, and walking/standing on my toes. Uh-oh.

In December I started Physical Therapy. I did stretches and exercises at home, wore braces for 4-5 hours every day, and had personal therapy sessions 2-3 times a week when I was able to attend. I made a lot of progress at first, but then it was like we hit a brick wall. My insurance decided they wouldn't pay anymore, so I am not rehabbing myself at home.

It took a couple weeks for me to wrap my head around losing PT, but then I made a plan to do it myself at home. A better plan, i think, because I am incorporating healthy eating and strengthening all muscles, but especially my legs.

I got on the scale and realize I had gained about 45lbs in a year. That was unacceptable. So, I am now on a vegetarian meal plan that I love. Also, I need to move to rehab myself, so I walk on the treadmill (not very fast) every day and i do some of the feet exercises shown at PT as well as some Spark People strength training routines. So far I have lost 6lbs in 2 weeks.

I cannot and will not accept the person I am now as me. I need to be better physically, mentally, and spiritually. I am working on that every day.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KKTODAY 3/27/2013 9:39PM

    emoticon So sorry you've had to deal with all of that! It must've been scary and frustrating. Good for you, though, for deciding to work at it on your own!! You'll get there!

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MOM2ACAT 3/27/2013 4:15PM

    emoticon Welcome back! With all you have been through, I admire your determination to fight back and get better!

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BECOMING_HOLLY 3/27/2013 1:21PM

    Welcome back. I am so sorry to hear about all of the medical issues you have had last year. Here's to a healthy and happy 2013!

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Pictures of my size 18 jeans on 12/3/11 243 lbs.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Here are the pictures I promised!

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LIVING_FREE 12/28/2011 7:44PM

    U look Great!

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AIMEESINGS 12/14/2011 4:46AM

    Ow ow!!! Looking good girl!

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PUDLECRAZY 12/12/2011 5:52PM

    Lookin' good!

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MOM2ACAT 12/12/2011 5:08PM

    You look great!

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SMILESHINE81 12/12/2011 4:20PM

    Woo hoo! You look great!

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SARABENGSCH 12/12/2011 2:30PM

    Awesome job girl! So excited for you!

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KIBAISREADY 12/11/2011 9:24PM

    ALRIGHT NOW! GET IT GIRL! emoticon emoticon

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End of BLC#12 Blog. New goals for 4 weeks

Saturday, December 10, 2011

These past 4 weeks have been different. They started out really great, and then I lost my motivation. My results might not be as I had hoped, but at least they are results (meaning at least I didn't quit).

Weight 247-->242
Chest 46--> 46
Waist 44--> 43
Hips 50--> 49
Neck 15--> 15
Thigh 30--> 31
Calf 19--> 19
Upper Arm 17--> 16
Waist to Hip 0.86--> 0.88
Energy Level 4--> 3
Stress Level 3-->3
Sleep Quality 4--> 3
Self esteem level 4--> 4

I decided not to measure the pushups, crunches, and step test anymore b/c it is suppose to measure progress, and I can see my progress in the gym when I have to increase weights and treadmill settings.

I lost 5 lbs, which is good, but missed my goal by 3 lbs.
I wanted to lose 12" and I only lost 3 (and gained 1). This is probably because I have been slacking on the gym.
I wanted to up my water and freggie intake, which I did most of the time.
I did not meet my goal of the gym 3x a week plus added cardio 2x a week.

New goals for January 7th:
Weight: 236
Inches to lose: 10
Days to stay in my calorie range per week: 5
Glasses of water to drink each day: 8+
Number of visits to the gym: 3-5

Sorry about the lack on pictures of my 18 size jeans. I temporarily lost my microSD converter, so I cannot upload the pics from my phone to my computer just yet.

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KIBAISREADY 12/13/2011 12:42AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon NEXT GOALS! emoticon

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FLABTOFABWSANA 12/12/2011 10:07PM

    Hey that's a lot of accomplishments. As you said you didn't quit so its something better than nothing. You are a very strong girl. I am sure you will be there eventually.

Good luck Steph :)

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Day 155 after Transplant. 50 lbs from Heaviest weight!

Saturday, December 03, 2011

My new form of counting days is from my Transplant day (July 1) being day 0, and July 2 as day 1, etc. That's the way they count it at the hospital, at least. It represents my new life without a ton of medical problems.

I lost albs this week! I am now at 243. I cannot remember the last time I weighed 243. After I write this, I am going to go try on my size 18s to see if they fit comfortably yet. Before, pre-transplant when I was 245, they fit, but they were tight. Even though I'm only 2lbs from where I was before, I feel like my muscles are toner now, and so maybe I will be smaller haha. Idk.

I am 6 lbs away from my "no longer severely obese" goal and 41 lbs away from my "no longer obese " goal. emoticon emoticon -- That's honestly how I feel. If I tried on my size 24s I wore my senior year of HS and freshman year of college, they would probably fall off. Actually, I don't even have them anymore - I passes them on to my mom haha.

Another success - I am starting to eat my regular amount of food, and eat at least 5 freggies a day without really thinking about it emoticon Now, instead of trying to find what won't make me go over my calories, I am trying to find foods soI can meet my minimum.

Also, I can see little progresses in the gym. For example, I have upped the difficulty on the treadmill. They have pre-set workouts I do, and I am now officially on the 2nd one. Also, I have been upping the amount of weights I'm using. For example, yesterday I went to use to hip abduction machine, and after the first set, I couldn't feel it, so I got to increase the weight emoticon

Here'a a non spark related success - I was re accepted into college this week, and I made my schedule. I have 18 credit hours scheduled, but I have done 18 successfully before, and it will mean I get to graduate in Music, and then hopefully start my human nutrition degree in the fall emoticon

These are the classes I am taking:

Written Theory 4
Music Convocation
Choral Union
20th Century Music
Introduction to Human Nutrition
Families Across the Lifespan
Piano Lessons
Voice Lessons
Capstone Study

AND, I've planned my classes so I can go to the gym on MWF, and get a good walk around campus on TR (R means Thursday)

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ANTEEKER 12/30/2011 2:32PM

    You are Amazing! Wishing you a wonderful happy and healthy 2012 emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PUDLECRAZY 12/3/2011 5:50PM


Your classes sound like fun, but a heavy load.


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KIBAISREADY 12/3/2011 12:37PM

    SIMPLY AMAZING! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU GIRL... YOU ARE MAKING IT HAPPEN! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MACKIEFISMOM 12/3/2011 10:48AM

    You have such a good attitude and such a spark! Way to go losing and staying on track! Lean muscles do help!! Good luck with all those classes! Makes my head hurt just thinking about all those hours studying :) Hope you have a great week!!

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BLC#12 Halfway Blog.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Have I made progress in this challenge? The answer is yes, but not as much as I had hoped. It took me a couple of weeks to really get back into the groove of eating healthy and working out (I am still not where I want to be, but I am doing better). However, I am making progress, no matter how little.

Starting --> Current
Weight 249 --> 247
Chest 49 --> 46
Waist 44 --> 44
Hips 51 --> 50
Neck 16 -->15
Thigh 32 --> 30
Calf 20 -->19
Upper Arm 18 --> 17
Waist to Hip 0.86 --> 0.86
Energy Level 3 --> 4
Stress Level 3 --> 3
Sleep Quality 3 --> 4
Self- Esteem 3 --> 4 *I actually semi-flaunted it for a couple guy at the gym yesterday emoticon
Push ups (wall) 25 -->Will update later
Crunches 40 --> Will update later
Step Test 135 -->Will update later

I have made progress, and my new weight loss goal for the end of the challenge is: 239
I have lost 8" so far, and hope to lose another 12.
I also hope to up my water intake, and freggies.
I hope to keep up going to the gym 3x a week, and hopefully add some other kind of cardio (maybe a dance game) 2x a week.

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ZARHIMOTO 11/18/2011 5:37PM

    Way to go!! You're doing great!! And, you're staying motivated - which is half the battle! :)

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MOM2ACAT 11/12/2011 3:43PM

    I think you are doing great!

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SMILESHINE81 11/12/2011 2:13PM

    Great job so far! Progress is progress, no matter if it isn't at the speed you want. You're doing amazing, and I'm sure the second half of the challenge will be even better!

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MACKIEFISMOM 11/12/2011 1:59PM

    Great job! Progress is better than nothing!! Keep working hard and you will see results. Perfection is not required :)

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