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8 lbs down in two weeks.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

I saved up a bit of money since the last time I posted and went out to buy The South Beach Diet, and also one of the South Beach Diet cook books. I'll have been on the diet for two weeks starting tomorrow. The wonderful thing is I don't particularly crave sugar anymore. I still eye chocolate, but I think that's a stress thing.

I'll admit, on Monday I caved in and had birthday cake. I wasn't planning on it, but I am a stress eater and I've had unfortunate news. My father was hospitalized last week, and we found out he had cancer on Saturday.. but not what type until Wednesday. They were putting him through all sorts of tests and kept saying conflicting things. At first they told us they ruled out colon cancer... and yeah, that's what he turns out to have. He's stage 4, and it has mestatsis in his stomach.

I feel bitter on that topic. He's been sick for so long but they kept saying it was a virus, or GERD, or he's been too stressed lately. They never ever bothered to pursue it further even after all the times he was in the hospital.. and now he's in the last stage of cancer. After chemo he was so weak, and the chemical they put in your arm is toxic to the nerves.. so it's painful to the touch. He looked so miserable.

I still have managed to stay mostly on track with the diet despite the devastating news. I never want to find out test results on my birthday again, though. It was the first year I didn't have a birthday party in my life... though, I do understand the circumstances. It was still horrible depressing. I'm ready for this year to be over. I know it's negative and all... but it seems like every other month or so I'm dealing with the next disaster. I know life is full of them, but these have been brutal. The loss of my home, assaulted in my own home, fire, and now cancer... It's hard to stay positive.

I canceled my Y membership. The price is going up next month and we were having a hard time paying it as it was. I never took advantage of the classes, so it also didn't make sense to pay 62 a month to run on a treadmill. We switched over to Snap Fitness. I'm a night owl, so the 24 hour nature of the place makes it more convenient to me. Plus, Ms. Critters gets a military discount AND it's in walking distance. I'm looking forward to using their Basic 8 program. I'll report if I find it useful or not.

  
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METTA4ME 9/19/2011 1:10PM

    I feel your pain and sense of hopelessness. Life hits hard sometimes, but there is always a reason. I believe that with my whole heart. Try yoga and meditation as well as the gym, and pray if you are a believer. All three things make a huge difference. Hang in there, you aren't alone. Remember that food is like a drug, it may up your seratonin levels for awhile, or ease the stress....but only for as long as it takes to chew and swallow. Then it is over, and all you feel is worse.

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REGABA 9/18/2011 10:00PM

    It's hard getting news like that. My dad has been fighting cancer since I was 13. This last year they found three tumors. I haven't quite been able to process it. I just keep reminding myself that every year since 1986 (when they first found it) has been a gift.

There is no such thing as a good time to make a change. There is also no such thing as a bad time.

My heart goes out to you. emoticon

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It's a start.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I made it to the gym today. I managed to do 18 minutes on the treadmill before I had to go stretch. I was so excited to be at the Y that I just jumped on without stretching first. My right calf felt like it was going to pop after a while. Lesson learned, STRETCH.

Also, I did the same thing I always do and pushed myself too hard at the beginning. I haven't exercised in three months and pushed myself straight into jogging. I was exhausted by the 12 minute mark. So, I need to once again learn pacing and control.

But, hey, I made it to the gym! I would be returning Friday but we're -( my family )- going to Six Flags. I'll be going on Saturday instead... hopefully my legs don't fall off. My sister bought me a season pass this year, so I already went once.. and it took nearly three weeks for my legs to stop hurting.

I will start counting calories next week. Right now I'm going to focus on exercising every day and patting myself on the back for progress. I'm thinking about going on South Beach, I want to go pick up a couple books on it. Has anyone had success on it?

  
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REGABA 8/11/2011 10:33AM

    I did south beach and lost ten lb a few years ago--but I'm very low on money and I found I couldn't afford a lot of the options so I got tired of it pretty quick.

Glad you made it to the gym. Keep it up.

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EUPHRATES 8/11/2011 8:06AM

    It's a GREAT start! Go you!
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Trying to get back to my goals.

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

This year has seriously been the biggest challenge I think I have ever faced in terms of general survival. I had lost the internet for the last 4 months, and thus I wasn't posting. I moved in safely, but not everything went smoothly afterwards.

Balancing bills and time became very hard, and along the way Ms. Critters and I ended up falling off the exercise wagon completely. We kept saying we'd go a certain day, then reschedule. I have been paying for a Y membership for 3 months without stepping foot inside because of this stupidity. And I feel it every bill cycle. My diet also took a dive. I had friends come into town, and then a room mate move in. And.. that's where things take an even worse turn.

I had known this man for 12 years, and I needed a room mate to make rent and the rest of my bills.. so we invited him to move here from Florida. Unfortunately it was the worst decision I ended up making. He was so argumentative that I spent all my time hiding in my bedroom. I ended up making fast food decision, whatever I could just heat up quickly and then dive back into my room. I started drinking to cope with the stress of it all. My sister started to lean on me and I wasn't even doing that well standing on my own.

"Convince me" is what the room mate would say all the time, even if he agreed with my opinion on anything. He just liked "debating" all. the. time. He would also say things about my sexual affect I had on him, though he worded in such a way that it really felt quite harmless. Other times, though, I would make it very clear to him that I would not tolerate anyone trying to get between me and Ms. Critters.

About a month ago the three of us were playing a drinking game. Ms. Critters went to the bedroom and passed out.. and he and I were talking. I was very drunk, and so was he. I remember I tried to get Ms. Critters to wake up at some point because I was scared... though I really can't remember why. I went to talk to him to try and get him to sleep and told him to stay on the other side of the exercise ball ( I use mine as a chair. ), but he didn't. This is where it gets extremely strange and scary, at least for me. I was talking, and suddenly he was strangling me. I wish for the life of me.. I wish I could explain what the hell lead to it. I wasn't insulting him, I wasn't talking hitting on him. I was just rambling about life.

I've had some people tell me there's no way, that I had to have done something. But, no. I knew the man for 12 years.. I wish I knew what the hell made him snap. It would be a BIG comfort. The idea that someone I loved and trusted for so long just suddenly doing something so violent without a trigger it the most terrifying part of it for me.

It went on for a bit, when he would loosen his grip I would tell him, "You're choking me!" and then he'd choke harder again. I had my phone on me and tried to text my sister, and call Ms. Critters. I don't know why I didn't call 911, I was so drunk and so scared I just couldn't think. He started to do.. other highly inappropriate things I don't really wish to put into words at this time, while continuing to choke me. I couldn't scream for help. My phone rang and he pulled back. At the time I thought Ms. Critters had drunk dialed me back, but it turns out her voice mail called me back after I hung up. It would be very chilling later on to hear my shaking voice as I repeatedly said "Hello??" He must have thought someone could hear what was going on and it stopped, he moved away. I ran into the room by Ms. Critters.

I cried. I called friends. When Ms. Critters sobered up enough and tossed her cookies a few times we took our animals and fled to her parents house. She spent the next day fighting with him over texts, kicking him out. I went to the police and talked to them. Thanks to the text evidence they were going to arrest him.. but that would mean him being stuck in Milwaukee.. and considering I showed him everywhere I shop and hang out at.. It was too terrifying an option. I knew he didn't have enough money left to stay here, he'd back to go back to Florida. So, I cowered out. I just wanted him back across the country. I pray my decision doesn't end up hurting some other girl. I'm not proud of it.

I've lost a lot of confidence through out the past four months.. and oooh, the stress eating. I started to try and do what I did earlier this year for inspiration, read fitness and weightloss blogs.. but it would make me tear up to remember just how well I had been doing and how far I've fallen back.

I'm going to attempt the Green Smoothie Diet, and supposedly we're going to the YMCA later on today. I really want to run and hope my foot doesn't act up ( I injured it while barefoot and outside. ) I miss the feeling right after a run with numb legs and accomplishment sitting on my shoulders.

  


Weigh in Wednesday - Week 8

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Goodness, I've been at this for 2 months now!



Soo.. Since Friday I lost another .5 lbs. I'm content with that. Monday's running course was the first real time I felt annoyed with running. I get a little grumpy because their idea of a warm up is stretching and jumping jacks.. then straight into running! On a treadmill I always brisk walk as a warm up. It hurts to go straight into running, but I'm trying not to be a baby about it.

We did 1.25 miles and on it turns out we were starting inclines this week. I had no idea.. but I was so grateful that I had practiced inclines at the Y last week. I had to brisk walk up the hills, but I could sure as heck jog down them. I've discovered part of my problem is boredom at this point. The longer the run, the longer it takes.. and I lose patience. I'm going to try and find a cheap arm iPod holder so I can borrow Ms. Critter's iPod. I'm hoping it makes a difference.

They did feet assessments this week. I have a mid arch with good flexibility - ( I have no idea what that means for me. ) - but wide feet. So.. I think that's good news.

We'll be moving in Friday evening, and Saturday and Sunday. I'm starting to get more and more excited. I almost landed an interview for a gift shop.. but it turns out they meant a different location then I had thought so I had to turn them down. It is a bit of a confidence boost that someone was interested in possibly hiring me, however. :) Does anyone know of any place that hires weekend employees?

  
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DJS-DEBBIE 3/31/2011 5:33AM

    A lot of retail stores hire more help for just the weekends.

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Late Weigh in Friday - Week 7

Saturday, March 26, 2011



225... This was the first time in my weight loss journey that I felt truly excited about a loss. I'm 5 lbs away from the 2-teens! I felt so disappointed with myself.. missing the workout on Wednesday and the diet that is failing.. that I've just been over all depressed and feeling like giving up. I thought for sure I would have a weight gain.. especially since I ate pie and mozzarella sticks like.. twice. So, with three lbs down I feel very very happy.

This week I walk/jogged on Monday, rested Tuesday and then Wednesday... did Candlelight Yoga on Thursday and walked today. I don't know if my body just really needed to rest a couple days to make up for the abuse it's been taking or what...

Today I worked on my stamina. Instead of doing intervals and I tried to maintain a higher speed for as long as I could hold out. I managed to do 3.5 for around 13-14 minutes without stopping and completed a mile in 17 minutes. I did this with an incline on 2... my first day doing an incline. I heard that to simulate the outdoors setting on a treadmill you should at least do an incline on 1. It felt great other then the intense burn in my calves and then aching right foot. I came home and gave it a massage the physical therapist showed our running class to do last Monday.

Oh! Yes, on Monday at the running class there was a physical therapist and she was going over the many ways to avoid injury for beginning runners. Afterwards Ms. Critters and I went and bought a foam roller, so I'll be doing that on my run/job/walk days from now on.

Over all.. YAY. Aaannd.. supposedly one more week until I get to move in to my new apartment! So the diet will be kicking in soon to help support this weightloss! I'm super stoked. :D

  
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EUPHRATES 3/27/2011 2:19PM

    You're doing fantastic!
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FITJOY1 3/26/2011 7:24AM

    Great Job, Keep up the Good Work. I have also noticed that sometimes I need to rest for the weight loss to show. I think my body sometimes swells when I start new intensity with exercise and so I am trying to go slow and take a few days to do just walking, yoga or stretching to help. I also try to get a massage once a month or so just for my healthy and well-being.

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ASHUPE1 3/26/2011 1:02AM

    Yay on your weight loss! You're doing great! And, I agree, sometimes you really do need rest.

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