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Thursday, June 19, 2014

June June June

This month has not gone as planned. I can't even explain why or try to make excuses. Of course with it being Summer there is a lot of get togethers, mini trips to here and there and holidays. I have done an okay job and haven't blown up the scale or been ran over by the wagon, BUT I am not staying on track and remembering that I matter.

Yesterday I was trying to come to terms with the fact that the month was already more than half over. I looked at my son and just can't believe he will be one in two weeks. I am just overwhelmed. I wanted to be down to 200 by the time he turned one, and that is just unrealistic. It would have been achievable, but I just do not lose the 2 or more pounds that a week that I used to do. I am more on a 1 pound a week kind of thing. I am okay with this.

I have been eating like junk, still being very active, but also not on my routine of working out.

Yesterday was the first day in 2 weeks I tracked my food and I did some ST which I hadn't done since last Wednesday. That wasn't too far of a gap, but my cardio is way off. I need to refocus on that!

Okay now off to work!!!

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NOTGVGUP83 6/19/2014 4:09PM

    the important thing is that you're not giving up you're still trying to adjust and it's understandable! My son is alreayd 17 months and I'm still freaking adjusting and no where near my goal but hey I just have to keep pushing myself and I know one day things will be different. Hang in there!

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SOUL2SHINE79 6/19/2014 2:50PM

    Hey got this! I stray from my plan at least once a week...just get right back to it after. You're doing awesome! :)

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TRIXYMAHOGANY 6/19/2014 1:39PM

    Of course you matter! And everyone strays from where they want to be from time and time, the important thing is that you recognize it when it happens.

And don't forget to have fun celebrating your little one's birthday in a couple of weeks! :D

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MRSCAMACHO 6/19/2014 10:28AM

    I completely understand where you're coming from! My little one turned one in May, and I, too, became quite overwhelmed. It was exciting and so bittersweet to see him blossoming into a toddler. On top of that, he was going on his first away visit with my parents, and I hadn't been without that little man since...well, ever. So, I binged. I let myself dehydrate and crave sugary things, and I kept eating. I lost sight of my goals and gained weight I had tried hard to lose. But, it gets easier. Enjoy this time with your sweet little one and don't let the stress determine your goals for you. You've got great insight, and I believe you can do it! emoticon


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TREASURINGLIFE 6/19/2014 10:16AM

    Hey there! I guess we just need to remember that as long as we keep on keeping on then we WILL get to where we're going. Even if we veer off track...get a little lost along the way...and take some time enjoying the "sights" - provided we don't completely give up we should consider ourselves successful because we will undoubtedly get to our destination.

I hope you have a great day...enjoy your many blessings...make wise choices...and reach for the stars!


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Living without my gallbladder....

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

So it has been 6 months since I had my gallbladder removed. I have been trying to lose weight seriously since April 1st and it is just NOT working.

We went to a family bbq on Sunday and my husband's aunt asked me if I quit working out too (her daughter in law was working out with me for about a week). I said that I had not quit and that I have lost about 5 pounds but probably more since I only weigh in once a month. She said oh well I can't tell one bit. I was shocked. That really hurt and I let it ruin my mood for the rest of the day. To top it off Wes and I were supposed to have a 3 day weekend together and he got a call on Saturday around noon and had to go to Denver for work. He did not get home until yesterday afternoon. I spent the weekend doing nothing that was planned, and then being told that no one can tell just how hard I am working really made for a crap weekend.

I have been doing some research and I need to alter my diet. I really need to focus on lower fat foods because my gallbladder is no longer digesting it because it isn't there. I have been reading different stories about not having to do anything special to having to change everything. I can tell you that this is the hardest time I have ever had with losing weight so I think that it really does have an effect on me. I also know that my thyroid is fully functioning so that is not the reason either.

So I am off to go set up a new plan for the month of June! Hopefully I can finish this week strong and get an encouraging number on the scale on Sunday. I also forgot again to measure and think I will get that done sometime this week.

Happy Tueday!

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SOUL2SHINE79 6/6/2014 12:11PM

    What a rude comment! You are doing great sweetheart! Don't let anyone ever make you feel bad. Just keep on keep'n're doing it!! :)

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BOBCATGIRL76 5/30/2014 4:01PM

    I also had my gallbladder removed in December 2007 and had to eliminate most fatty foods in the beginning. I've slowly allowed a few back in, but when I have too much fatty food, I definitely have issues.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 5/29/2014 2:25PM

    I cannot believe how rude people can be sometimes! What a crummy thing to say and I'm so sorry it ruined your weekend. :-(

But hey - you are doing AWESOME! I know that you may not be able to see it on the outside, but if you could see it from the inside and the benefit you are doing to your body you would be THRILLED! Keep at it!

And just think how nice it will be to show your new hot bod off to that person in the near future!!!

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ASHWILLDOTHIS 5/28/2014 8:54PM

    I know its hard to stay positive when people make such rude comments like that!! That irks me sooo bad!! You're doing a great job and it seems like you've don research to see how to change some things up. Cant wait to see the results :] Stay positive and don't let those haters bring you down!

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TRIXYMAHOGANY 5/28/2014 9:54AM

    Ugh, what a nasty person! She's probably just unhappy with herself and taking it out on you. Ignore her!

Maybe you could talk to a doctor or a nutritionist about the struggles you've had losing weight? I always feel like I'd rather trust someone who paid ridiculous amount of money to go to school a ridiculous amount of time than some schlub on the internet.

But what do I know? I'm just some schlub on the internet. emoticon

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NELLJONES 5/28/2014 7:54AM

    I had my gallbladder out some years back, and I still can't eat a lot of fat. That's better than before the surgery, though, where just one molecule set off the pain.

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LLREED 5/27/2014 7:43PM

    Maeghann, I hope you find something that works for you. I have no good advice as I didn't even know that you gall bladder performed any function at all emoticon Sorry your weekend plans went to s#*t. That certainly doesn't help.

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MADMANSMAMA87 5/27/2014 6:26PM


While that comment was rather rude, try not to let it get to you! You are doing an awesome job & soon enough people are going to be able to, without a doubt, notice big changes in the way your body looks! Just keep pushing forward & don't let the negativity of others steal your joy! Be happy with how far you've come & have faith in how much further you can go! I know you can do this!

Stay Strong, Pretty Mama!!!



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How was that two weeks?

Thursday, May 22, 2014

I can't believe that my last blog was two weeks ago! Here I am still chugging along and on day 52 of this wonderful journey.

Okay so when I started strength training I would do squats just my body weight. I do 3 sets of 15 and HOLY moly was I dead right off the bat. My legs were sore for at least 3 days. That was 7 weeks ago and at the 1st of May I started squatting a bar (45lbs). It was amazing to me that I could do this and I felt so accomplished. Well last night I was getting ready to go and my hubby asked me how I felt about going up on weight. I didn't have to if I didn't want to. I sat there for a minute thinking while I was stretching. He was setting up the squat rack. I then said ya slap some tens on there. He looked at me like WTH I was only thinking fives. I went to that rack and I did it!!! I squatted 65lbs. Of course it was AMAZEBALLS!!! I am just absolutely shocked at how far I have come in a short amount of time. I can't wait to continue forward and get stronger and better. I do remember about three summers ago I could squat 85lbs about 5 times. I am so going to get there again and surpass that!

This just proves to me that a lot of this process is mental. I could have told Wes that I just didn't think I could do that. Or that I just moved up three weeks ago and needed another week before I went up. Well nope I told myself that I can do this and I DID!!

So the last two weeks have been pretty great. Just doing the normal stuff for the most part. Last weekend we took lil man out of town and did some shopping. It was our first time out of town for fun. (we had to take him to Denver Children's when he was 4 weeks old - definitely not fun)

Our little guy did amazing, and he sure had a blast riding in shopping carts, and of course eating all the food that we don't usually have at home. He is the best in the car and only screamed at me for about 15 minutes when he was absolutely exhausted and fighting his sleep. Of course he might miss something if he went to sleep you know lol

It was weird being out of town and not shopping for clothes, but I didn't want to buy anything that I don't want to fit into in a couple months. So instead I bought a new driver. It has been extremely crappy weather here with thunderstorms, hail, and tornadoes that I haven't been able to try it out. BUMMER Hopefully this weekend we can hit the links.

My little guy was ill yesterday and today. Coughing, itchy eyes, runny nose, and a small fever. I think it is a combo of teething and allergies, but he surely gets crabby. The only person he wants is me and I hated to leave him this morning.

So there is a small summary of the past two weeks. I feel like I have been a major boss and am accomplishing things that I am setting out to do. I think that I might take some measurements tonight just to see if I can get into a bigger spectrum of results instead of the dang old meany scale.

I just love how I ramble and ramble. I could sit here and type all afternoon if someone would let me. I guess I better get back to work.. WHOOPS

Have a fabulous Thursday!

P.S. I had a Venti Iced White Chocolate Mocha at Starbucks and it was the most divine cheat EVER!! I never regretted it and just kept on going the next day. I honestly think this is going to stick!!

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SOUL2SHINE79 5/28/2014 10:59PM

    Way to go girly! I used to do weighted squats in high school...loved it! Makes me want to get the weight sets again. The funny thing was, back then I wasn't watching my weight or anything and the lifting class just automatically helped with getting in shape without thinking about it! Keep it up...weight lifting is the way to go to get in shape extra fast! I hope your little one is feeling better baby is getting more teeth now too..feel bad for them. emoticon emoticon

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NELLJONES 5/23/2014 7:39AM

    You're sounding upbeat! The magic is working!

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MADMANSMAMA87 5/22/2014 6:26PM


Awesome job with the weighted squats! That is absolutely wonderful that you are making such great progress!! I would definitely take measurements so you have more ways to track your progression! I actually just took mine a couple days ago because I hadn't realized that it had been about a month & a half since I'd tracked them on here & it was awesome to see that I'd lost just over 12 inches since then!

I'm glad you had fun getting out with your family! Maddox is also a champ with the car! We actually drove straight from Iowa to North Carolina when he was six months old which is around 24 hours each way & he did awesome! Got a little fussy on the way back but only for maybe 10-15 minutes which was AMAZING since it was such a long ride!!! It is great to have such a laid back baby!

That stinks that your little guy is sick right now! I hope he gets to feeling better soon! Maddox has only been sick a couple times but it is hard to see your little guy in pain & know that you can't fix it! :(

Hope you're having a fabulous day, Darling!!! Keep up the great work!!!

Stay Positive,


P.S. I may have to get an Iced White Chocolate Mocha from Starbucks for my next cheat meal!!! That sounds delish!!! :D :D :D

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4 years ago today

Thursday, May 08, 2014

I was fresh out of a disastrous 7 year relationship. I went out with friends for a birthday and it was at around 11:45 at night when I met my husband.

I look back to that night today, and I can't even grasp how amazing my life is now. Wes swept me immediately off my feet and asked me to marry him two months from meeting and we where married 96 days later.

I was about 20 lbs less than I am now, but that was due to stress and zero eating. I want to get back into that outfit I was wearing the night I met him, and I will get there. I will look better than that night because I am doing this the right way.

I have been going strong for 38 days, and that to me seems like a great start to a wonderful new lifestyle and honestly everyday it is a little easier. I still have to fight my inner junk food demon, but it does seem just a little less hard.

Hopefully spring will decide to show up some time this year, I want to be able to take my family outside and soak up some vitamin D!!

Happy Thursday everyone!

Here is a picture from my wedding day, but it is in front of the bar where we met!!

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ASHWILLDOTHIS 5/16/2014 11:12AM

    It's amazing how the perfect person just comes into your life :)

Keep up the great work!!


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4EVERADONEGIRL 5/14/2014 7:12PM

    You are doing great and what a sweet way to remember how far you've come!!!

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SOUL2SHINE79 5/8/2014 8:09PM

    Love, love love this! Sounds like my husband and me! I was in a bad relationship, ended sister and I got an apartment..we would go out- and I met my husband at a bar years of my life! Got married and started our family! Love it! You look so beautiful in the pic! You go girly! :)

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MADMANSMAMA87 5/8/2014 6:25PM

    Awwww!!! Great blog! I met Al shortly after getting out of a bad 5 year relationship so I can relate to what you are saying! It is an amazing feeling when you find someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated! I thank God everyday for all the bad things because it led me to the best! I couldn't imagine my life any other way! You & I are both VERY blessed!!!

Stay Positive,


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DNJEN471 5/8/2014 6:24PM

    You can do it! That's quite the streak! Keep pushing!

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What April Taught Me

Friday, May 02, 2014

Okay so I have started this weight loss journey a hundred billion and one times. As you can tell I have been a member with Sparks for almost 8 years! I have several times of short lived success, seems I would get to a comfortable weight and loss (not anywhere close to my goal, but at about 190) and I would feel great and then WHAM it seemed some sort of "catastrophe" would come along and upward I climbed back to the 230s before I would catch myself. I have not let myself get back to the 250s thankfully, but I don't understand why I can keep my butt out of the 200s.

I had my son and a major surgery last year and WOW is it hard to take weight off now. I lost 4 pounds in April, it is not as much as I wanted, but it is a loss and I feel good about it. I am going to switch a few things up in May and see if I can lose 6 this month. I am happy because I know I will be more likely to keep it off if I lose it the right way and slowly.

I started this journey again on April Fool's Day and here is what I figured out.

* I have time to workout * emoticon

No matter how busy I am, and let's be honest I am a very busy full time working mother (which I am sure all mother's are busy) who is very particular about the way the house looks, by always doing dishes, laundry, sweep, mop, vacuum and the other chores... I always told myself I did not have time to workout. Well guess what?? I do have time, the thing is I had to make the time. I had always heard that, but it is so true. I have made time for 31 days in a row and will make time tonight and it is an amazing thing. I of course can't do the over hour type of time that I would like to but I make sure that I get at least 30 minutes and all of my lights on my SPAT every day since I have gotten it.

*Cooking at home is so rewarding* emoticon

Just like working out, most nights I just felt like I didn't have time. Well that too was a lie. Again I am making time to make meal plans, so when we go grocery shopping I buy everything we need, look at the plan at dinner time, pick something and run with it. Of course there are a million dishes and I have to do them every night, it is worth it. I get to choose what goes into my meal, I LOVE my food scale, and the barcode scanner on the SP app. I am to the point where I am actually turned off with eating out, and haven't even really wanted to go out. That is a huge huge huge accomplishment. I will still eat out, as that is inevitable, but I feel like I won the lottery and I know my hubby loves all the home cooked meals.

*I deserve to feel pretty* emoticon

Seems that before I started this again, I was stuck in the "mom" appearance. I never really did anything with my hair, makeup and jewelry YA RIGHT and the clothes I wore was scrubs to work and sweats at home. It wasn't until I went to put a pair of jeans on, that I realized I had crept back up to being a weight I did not want. So now I am taking more time on myself and it feels good to feel good lol

*I Love water* emoticon

I like to drink water, like when I was pregnant I think I craved water. Well then I let that slip to where I was only drinking coffee, diet soda and juice. Then comes April and wham I am drinking water like a maniac and I love it. Bought myself an expensive water bottle and have water on the 24/7!!

*I am going to have hard days* emoticon

I need to continue to work on the whole not beating myself up when I have a bad day. I will always have a bad day here and there, and it is not going to be the end all be all and will not let it stop me.

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I am sure I have learned a bunch more, that is what I have for now. I need to get back to work. Then of course golf tonight if the wind stays down and who knows what the weekend will bring!


Much Love Spark Peeps

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4EVERADONEGIRL 5/6/2014 11:31AM

    Looks like you learned a whole LOT of valuable lessons this past month! Can't wait to see what May brings you!!!


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VITCHY-VICKI 5/3/2014 5:41AM

    I am in the same boat been with sparks now for 6 years and lost 30lbs but can't get these last 30lbs off - think your on the right path now - I need to stop and look over what I need to do to get back on track - now keep up the good work and you will see your goal - someone from sparks when I first joined said as long as your trying your on the right path - so just keep trying we will see the light at the end of the tunnel soon
God's Blessings

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HECKYAH 5/2/2014 4:24PM

    emoticon Thank you for sharing -- and I totally get you! LOL. I wish you the best and enjoy your weekend!! emoticon

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TRIXYMAHOGANY 5/2/2014 12:24PM


Here's hoping for an even more rewarding May! :D

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