Thursday, October 10, 2013
I've been doing Coach Nicole's 10 minute Jump Rope workout consistently for 4 days now. I find that though I push myself just as hard every time I'm less and less short of breath once done with the whole routine. This feels good.
I'm doing it without a rope, not that I don't own one, I do, but the little one is usually around when I do the workout and likes to turn around me, so the rope would not be a good idea as he'd keep messing with it. It's funny to hear him breath heavily to join me when I start huffing and puffing, like he thinks I'm playing some sort of game where you're supposed to breath like that...
Tuesday, October 08, 2013
I forgot to step on the scale yesterday for my weekly weight in so I did it this morning. Even though I didn't do as well as I intended to regarding to my food intake (2 birthdays in the family last week...), even though I didn't consistently exercise, I did loose weight - which I'm hoping never to find again). Not as much as planned, but close enough to my goal so that I'm actually feeling successful instead of a failure.
Yesterday was a tough day. I almost went to bed without exercising but had second thoughts about that... so I just put Coach Nicole's Jump Rope video on and did the full workout. Ok, it's only ten minutes and I remember a time when this was no challenge for me, when it didn't leave me short breathed. But that's ok, I'll reach that point again, later. And I felt really good after this short workout, first for sticking with the commitment and also because, well, one does really feel good after a workout, no matter how small provided it's been challenging.
So this morning, right after I got up and prepared my kid's breakfast, I put the video on again and did the full workout. And then, during the day, we went out for a walk the little one and I. We only walked for 40 minutes but that's better than if we had stayed home not being active.
So there's progress and I celebrate that progress tonight (not with food though, I just rejoice ;)).
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
I did walk yesterday but didn't do my TMT workout. I ate some chocolate and cookies.
Today is not over yet, but all the kids are home and I don't think I'll be able to squeeze in a workout.
I feel tired (not anough sleep).
I could feel bad about how I am a failure for not sticking to my plan. But I know better now. Ok, yesterday didn't go as planned, and today hasn't been good so far but I still have to ability to make the rest of the day better than it started, even if I don't workout : I can be mindful of what I eat, try to meditate, do some squats here and there. I might even take the jumping ropes out and organize a jump rope challenge with the kids.
My oldest will turn 14 tomorrow, so there will be cake. And I'll jump rope, and workout.
I'm not doing good, but I'm still doing good : not blaming myself, standing right back up after I fall and making sure to aim not for pefection but for progress.
Monday, September 30, 2013
It seems that I'm finally out of post-partum depression for good this time. The past 23 months have not been fun, some times I've felt better than aother and thought I could "be myself" again, only to find out that, nope, I was still struggling and sometimes loosing the battle.
I'm slowly getting better at making healthy eating choices again and I've even started to excercice a bit, again. Not much, though, but I committed myself to doing 75 squats a day and I've been doing good for almost a week now. Yeah, not much, but that little tiny step has really been enough to boost my confidence back. A bit.
I'm now at my highest weight ever (not counting pregnancies), and it doesn't feel comfortable at all. I'm turning 40 next March, and I remembered last week that in 2009 I wanted to run the NYC marathon the year I turn 40. I don't think I'll be able to run a full marathon next year, and running it in NYC seems impossible given our financial situation, but I can still meet the "fit & toned at 40" goal that I had set up for myself back then.
I have 26 weeks to make a difference. I want to get rid of 20 kilos (44 pounds) and at the same time turn this flabby post-pregnancy body into a fitter & toned one. I'm really out of shape so I'll need to take it slowly. And I have to take into account the not yet 2 yo who's with me all day long : I realistically can't commit to very long workouts, not on a daily basis. I might be able to squeeze in longer workouts here and there when someone can watch after him, but I'll have first to get back in shape so that I CAN do longer workouts. For now, Tony Horton's 10 Minute Trainer seems just perfect for me.
My goal for week 1 is to do ONE workout each day, walk for 20 minutes and eat no dairy. I'll of course try and do better in regards to food, like eating a fruit instead of a cookie if I'm hungry, but I just want to focus on one thing at a time. When I'm again consitently good at not eating any dairy, I'll pick up another goal... small and steady wins the race.
I took some before photos this morning, not going to post them, but they'll hopefully keep me motivated. I also took my measurements because I know the scale won't tell the whole truth and those for now scary numbers will soon turn into good motivators.
I am now on my way to buy a resistance band in order to do my first workout this afternoon...
Friday, April 20, 2012
I was pleased this morning to see that the scale was down again. I'm quite happy with my food intake, essentially because I don't splurge on cakes or chocolate. I know I could improve things greatly in that area, but I don't want to put too much pressure right now : cutting off "comfort food" is already a huge step for me and as I eat my fruits & veggies and have enough proteins, I'll fine tune the nutrition later on.
I walked, again not 10,000 steps but I'm working towards being better organized when I'm solo with all kids so I can go for a long walk. Today my 2 boys were not here and I could have walked with my daughter but the weather was not nice at all (had some snow last night and while it melted pretty quickly it was cold and windy) and she is still coughing so going out for a long walk with her was not really an option. I know I'll do better next week, and the week after that when they're back to school : I plan on driving them there in the morning, walking back hom and then walking back to school to pick them up and voila, my 10,000 steps.
I don't know what happened, I went from being totally frustrated that I did not give into something close to a mystic experience a couple of weeks ago to being at peace in some way. I do lack the words and ability to express exactely how I feel and what's going on in a language that's not mine, but it's like something deep inside was finally letting it go. This is a wonderful gift as this is making me a better mother, more present... it's like I'm having more depth. I really don't know how to express this, even in my own language, it's more something that I feel, deeply.
I received some books today that I ordered on amazon the other day. Three books by Thich Nhat Hanh who is someone I really admire; his book on anger helped me, a bit, but I do have issues with this emotion and was not as far down my personnal journey when I read it as I am now. The books I ordered are "Savor", because I feel that I'm ready to tackle the remaining issues in my relationship with food and somehow I got the idea it would help me. Also, there's a discussion thread about this book in one of my teams :). I also got a copy of Peace Is Every Breath: A Practice for Our Busy Lives and another one in French called Toucher la vie (Touching life... the book is actually a transcript of a series of conference TNH gave in Plum village).
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