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I just had a "lightbulb" moment

Saturday, November 01, 2008

You know the moment. When a lightbulb goes off in your head, the way it does in a cartoon.

A moment of brilliant realization. An epiphany.

I was logging in last night's meal. We moved last week, I've been unpacking after work, my dinner was a quick scrambled egg and multigrain bagel, I was tired and didn't go online.

About 8 PM (after I had eaten), DH decided we needed to do a garbage dumpster run, and get rid of all the empty boxes. And grab a bite of dessert while we were out.

I knew I was mid-range in my calories for the day. I had skim milk with my morning coffee, had reasonable meals, and was doing okay. But in the restaurant, hearing about the chocolate cheesecake, well, my resolve crumbled.

But I knew, from the Spark Food Showdowns, that cheesecake was a better dessert option than many. For example, better than the peanut butter ice cream pie that DH had. Possibly better than the key lime pie smothered in whipped cream.

So I had a slice of chocolate cheesecake (well, DH had several bites of it). It was delicious, it sated my ever-present desire for dark chocolate, it felt like a nice Halloween celebration.

Fast forward to today - log in time - and my .75 slice of cheesecake (based on the fact that it was 1/8 of a cake, not 1/6 as measured in the SP tracker) was all of 193 cals.

I'm only 23 cals over range!!!!!!!!

So the lightbulb - THE CHEESECAKE WAS A GOOD OPTION FOR MY SPLURGE!!!!!!!!! I realized that I don't need to mentally calculate each and every calorie, I have been fairly well educated in my 660+ days on SparkPeople, I have the information to make good decisions about my cals!!!!!

THIS IS HUGE!!!!!!!! I feel like I've earned a Spark PhD!!!!!!

It just made me feel so smart and competent.

And I know I'll make the occasional not-the-best choice. And there will be days when I'll backslide.

But just for this one day, and this one decision, I was brilliant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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and it is very good news to hear that cheesecake was a good choice (under the circumstances)! I had no idea!


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Virtual rewards

Friday, October 24, 2008

I won 50 SparkGoodie points on the spin wheel today.

And I promptly bought myself SparkGoodie chocolate.

Yes, I crave chocolate. Yes, my DH offers to meet me at Ben & Jerry's. Yes, I'd love to eat some real chocolate. And yes, I splurge occasionally on some chocolate (as in this morning's non-fat mocha).

But virtual chocolate, while not as tasty, still feels like a splurge. An extravagance. Something special and out of the ordinary.

And it's my reward for turning down a trip for Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream yesterday. Virtual chocolate. Almost all of the pleasure, minus the extra lbs in my midsection.


With my life, who needs to exercise?

Saturday, October 18, 2008

10/13 - schlep all over the San Juan airport, with luggage, waiting for our flight (delayed 2 hours) and getting tickets and finding something edible.

10/14 - prep my classroom for the coming hurricane. Remove everything from the leaking side of the classroom and office.

10/15 - prep home for the hurricane - bring in everything from the porch (tons of plants, grill, furniture, etc. Pack boxes for our upcoming move.

10/16 - pack boxes.

10/17 - wash the porch floor (peeling paint and rain make a mess); move plants and furniture back outside; vacuum house where the plants made a mess. Pack.

10/18 - 4 hours of packing boxes.

Scheduled - packing all week, cleaning, and then moving on Saturday. Cardio and strength training all in one.

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SHORTY20 10/21/2008 1:10PM

    You are constantly a woman on the move :)

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IMAOFSEVEN 10/20/2008 1:37AM

    I am so glad that you can find the humor in this...

I hope that things calm down soon so that you can go back to your regular schedule. Good luck with the storm and the move!

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I'm not used to my new size

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

I was admiring a jacket in a store yesterday - the only size left was a medium, and so I wasn't going to bother trying it on. After all, I've spent most of my adult life as a L, XL, or even 2X - who was I to try on an M?

The store owner looked and said she only had that one left, but she thought it would fit me.

It did! And it looked great! So I bought it.

What is it going to take for me to get it? I am now an M/L - I no longer need to buy XL. So what is keeping my brain from getting that??????

And do my eyes still see me as bigger than I am? Do other people think I look medium?????

I don't know. Because just as I didn't see myself getting as big as I was, I don't think I see how small I've become.

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CHANARO 10/16/2008 10:37PM

    Amazing! Ah, so those little labels in clothes have a positive purpose as well, eh? Who knew? WTG, Phebess!

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PHEBESS 10/9/2008 2:58PM

    Wearing it today (over a little black silk tank dress by Eileen Fischer - I look so Junior League, except for the bright red birks and purse).

And feeling LITTLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SHORTY20 10/9/2008 12:54PM

    Woohoo!!!! emoticon

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TARABEAR 10/8/2008 2:08PM

    Congrats on your MEDIUM, Phebe!!! You've earned it!

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SECRETFUN 10/8/2008 11:09AM

  I think it is hard to get used to and others esp clothing store owners are better at seeing it. They also (hopefully) know their brands and what fits in what way.

For me, I can range all over the place now, depending on what part of the body, cut, etc. so I rely more and more on the people at the stores. I also have been fairly stable for about a year and am only know getting the hang of it.

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OAKDALE3 10/8/2008 8:36AM

    A Medium!! YEAH for you!! Enjoy the jacket. It will take some time for your brain to realize that the new person in the mirror is you. But your brain will catch up. We are all so proud of you. You are an inspiration.

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IMAOFSEVEN 10/8/2008 2:11AM


Relish in the thought of your new size. And enjoy the jacket. I'm sure you look beautiful in it.

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MALEFICENT1964 10/7/2008 6:07PM

    I think that's a fairly normal reaction... I think most people tend to see themselves bigger than what reality is - and it's really bigger for people who've lost weight and really aren't the size they once were.

Well done on a medium -that's too cool...

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Dress update

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I ended up buying a heather grey little dress (by BCBG) that I can wear with a sweater for Yom Kippur, could dress up or down for my life in St. Thomas, and that I really liked and it looked good on me.

And the best part about this dress?

IT WAS A SIZE MEDIUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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PHEBESS 10/2/2008 11:41AM

    Okay, I should add that it's a knit fabric, with a stretchy empire waist - but still, I haven't worn a medium in this century!!!!!!!

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OAKDALE3 10/2/2008 9:02AM

    I love BCBG!! One day I too shall be able to fit into their great clothes!! Congratulations Phebe!!. Post a picture so we can see it.

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MAUISHOPGIRL 10/2/2008 4:04AM

    & BCBG runs small too!!

I am sure you look fantastic in it :)

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PHEBESS 10/1/2008 9:16PM

    I know!!!!!!

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SECRETFUN 10/1/2008 8:43PM

  BCBG medium! wow!

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