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Peering Into the Looking Glass

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Looking into my reflection,
not recognizing who I see,
What happend to the chubby cheeks,
that used to hide my eyes?
The person that is looking back is literally half my size,
Im afraid that Ill wake up and that this will all be a dream,
something made up a pranksters scheme,
the smile on the face is mine,
and for once its really real,
even though my body is saggy,
and everything isnt perfect,
Ill embrace it all the same,
vanity or not but im loving what I see,
the unfinished canvas in the looking glass,
That is peering back at me

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LEXUSIASIS 2/20/2010 10:28AM

    There is no better way to say this. You have done beautifully.

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MSEMBERSTORM 10/20/2009 12:17AM

    This is really nice!

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LADYDI2049 10/17/2009 1:06PM

    That is beautiful. I to know how that feels. I was 260 lbs at one time and am now down to 155 and sometimes don't recognize myself. Thank you for sharing this with us.


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MAMONTOYA 10/17/2009 9:43AM

    What a beautiful reflection you must see.!!!!!!!!!

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Floating by....

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Im in a 190 to 180 pound rut right now..Its hard but im doing my best to get outta it its very frustrating...This fluctuation is drivng me crazy!!!
Ugg what do u ladies do when u get stuck??

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MSEMBERSTORM 10/20/2009 12:19AM

    First cry, second think about pigging out, third cry more for thinking about pigging out, fourth I agree with the others. Re-evaluate, shake things up a bit, change the routine. You will get out of this rut. Keep moving forward!

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PHATCHIC411 10/17/2009 8:52AM

    thank you ladies

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VIRTOPIA 10/14/2009 10:13PM

    I just fight through it; I just think about the end goal and keep fighting through.

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DRAGONWOLF 10/14/2009 4:05PM

    Re-evaluate what I am doing. Change up my workout. Right now I am in that 138-140 rut and really have not gotten myself motivated to get out of the rut.

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Gained a Few pounds...disapointed yes....Defeated heck no!!!!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

After a "fun" sugary easter a whole bunch of Spring Birthday parties, I realized I havent been sparking/exercizing/eating right I stepped on the scale and to my dismay 190 flashed back at me.I am very upset, but im driven to see better numbers on it, I will not let this setback define who I am im getting over it and getting moving again and beginning to make healthier eating choices yet again.Still over 100 pounds lost I will not let them creep back on me and become morbidly obese again I enjoy feeling healthy and Fit. Today I set my goal to a realistic number for me 170 , 150 would be a tad bit too skinny for me, I would love to be healthy without looking sick and overly tiny, Im a big tall country girl who wants a little bit of meat on my bones,If I reach 150 someday fantastic, but Im looking forward to seeing 170 on my scale.
I hope you all are not dissapointed on my lack of willpower and the weight Ive gained, I hope you all realize im human and I make mistakes too, im trying to make things right, and I will succeed.I love all my fellow Sparkmates and im sorry i have not been keeping in touch, I want to tell you all im proud of you and your victories for ones going through similar things like im going through Hang on we will succeed we can do it!!!

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VRR1970 5/2/2009 1:47PM

    I am proud of you not letting this deter you. You have a lot to be proud of. Just remember you are not alone and we CAN and we WILL do it! Have a great weekend!

Take Care,
Vicky emoticon emoticon

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BEL_RIOSE 4/24/2009 11:25AM

    Woohoo, you can do it!

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PHATCHIC411 4/24/2009 7:19AM

    Awww thats why I love you girls and guys,I have good news just one day of healthy eating and exercize has lead me to drop 2 pounds I am absoulutely thrilled, but you all are my best birthday present ever *hugz and kissez* for everyone =)

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MSEMBERSTORM 4/24/2009 12:42AM

    What a wonderful attitude! You will so do this! You have made such great strides. No one is disappointed you are an inspiration gal! Keep up the awesome attitude and work it gal!!!!

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IWANT2LOVEME4ME 4/23/2009 10:16AM

    Girl great attitude, things happen, you will not lose every weigh in, as long as you know what you need to do, you will be okay, and no one should be disappointed at have accomplished a great deal, so do you, and if you feel comfy at 170 by all means, its all about YOU...nobody else...but YOU and how YOU feel and how YOU want to congrats..and press on to victory... emoticon

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MALEXANDER4 4/23/2009 8:42AM

    why would anyone be disappointed in you losing over a hundred pounds? man i'm just trying to lose 33 and i'm having a time of that. you give me hope and i'm stuck at a plateau at this time and haven't seen much movement(except up, down,up) so i feel your pain. today is a new day and all we can do is move forward. so good luck and keep sparking. we are going to get there from here.

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When will the Battle Be won?

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Mirror Mirror on the wall ,
Biggest Liar of them all,
Tears in eyes let them Fall,
Hair is a mess, makeup all blurry,
No time to look nice in a hurry,
Hide the Bags and Imperfections,
Dotting Makeup in Different Directions,
Spread, Blot,Swipe, Smear,
Never mind the Neglected Tear,
Perfection will never be,
This image looking back at me,
Time to throw down the makeup and my hair,
give everyone a good ol scare,
Embrace the mess,my Quirks, my flaws,
never mind the gibberish coming out of peoples jaws,
so what if I look insane,
its good for the soul and my brain,
Mirror ,mirror on the wall
Biggest Liar of them all,
harshest critic, biggest shame,
but im the only one to blame,
to love who I am and what I see,
its the hardest problem for me,
fashion models, actresses, singers
have such perfect hair, and bodies thier images linger,
What parts of them are real?
Do they ever feel?
no wrinkles, no gray hairs,
not even a scar here or there,
they live a privledged life,
perfect thier beauty with a surgeons knife,
nip and tuck,
fold and suck,
beauty is purchased for a price,
you can tell vanity is their biggest vice,
but for some they cant hide the ugly within,
its written all over thier face encoded in thier skin,
but why the worship and the fame,
and everyone remembers thier name,
Mirror mirror on the wall,
Biggest liar of them all,
Why cant you reflect what lies within,
until im comfterable in my own skin...

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ICEMANSGRL247 3/21/2009 2:26PM

    This is an amazing poem! So true in so many people's eyes. I wish I could write like this! Congratulations on your weight loss & lifestyle changes & Good luck ON the rest of your journey!! emoticon

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OBNURSE3 2/22/2009 10:57PM

    Love the poem but I love the changes you have made in your life and lives of your beautiful family. Yes, I agree you have been given two miracles but I believe they too have been given a blessing of a strong mother who will be an inspiration to them throughout their lives. I am a maternity nurse and believe me when I say that often times mothers take for granted the gift of childbearing/parenting. It is very apparent how appreciative you are of these two miracles. It is particularly difficult to make such life improving changes when your children are so young. By taking care of yourself you are taking wonderful care of your family. Congratulations and much happiness to you and your family.
Oh, happy belated birthday to that sweet 1 yr old daughter emoticon Heather

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MSEMBERSTORM 2/14/2009 10:39PM

    Wow! I really like this! Very very good!

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GLITTERGIRL69 2/12/2009 1:13AM

I really like your poem. I like to write poems as well. You know I watched a interview on cindy crawford, a long time ago while she was still modeling. She said that she wished she looked as good as Cindy Crawford. You see in those magazines the pictures are taken by their own publishers. They are all touched up, she talked about it and I read about it in another magazine. When we look good it is by our own doing. Hard work and time. People don't realize that though. If an ordinary person looks hot they really are 100 times prettier than anybody in a magazine or on TV.

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ALISONSLP 2/11/2009 10:08PM

    This is beautiful. I think we all struggle with these same thoughts but can't express it so eloquently. Thanks

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Sunday, February 08, 2009

I gained afew pounds back but i lost in inches around my waist, arms,thighs and abdomen...
hmmmm wierd lol but not a setback

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PHATCHIC411 2/11/2009 6:57AM

    now i lost the 2 pounds I put on lol
ehhhh the body is a mysterious thing

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MSEMBERSTORM 2/9/2009 10:43PM

    Definitely not a set back! Keep up the great work!

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MOTHER-NATURE 2/8/2009 4:06PM


This is not weird, but very normal .. you have more then likely gained muscle which is a GOOD thing ... keeping working your program, you are doing great !!!

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