Saturday, October 17, 2009
Looking into my reflection,
not recognizing who I see,
What happend to the chubby cheeks,
that used to hide my eyes?
The person that is looking back is literally half my size,
Im afraid that Ill wake up and that this will all be a dream,
something made up a pranksters scheme,
the smile on the face is mine,
and for once its really real,
even though my body is saggy,
and everything isnt perfect,
Ill embrace it all the same,
vanity or not but im loving what I see,
the unfinished canvas in the looking glass,
That is peering back at me
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Im in a 190 to 180 pound rut right now..Its hard but im doing my best to get outta it its very frustrating...This fluctuation is drivng me crazy!!!
Ugg what do u ladies do when u get stuck??
Thursday, April 23, 2009
After a "fun" sugary easter a whole bunch of Spring Birthday parties, I realized I havent been sparking/exercizing/eating right I stepped on the scale and to my dismay 190 flashed back at me.I am very upset, but im driven to see better numbers on it, I will not let this setback define who I am im getting over it and getting moving again and beginning to make healthier eating choices yet again.Still over 100 pounds lost I will not let them creep back on me and become morbidly obese again I enjoy feeling healthy and Fit. Today I set my goal to a realistic number for me 170 , 150 would be a tad bit too skinny for me, I would love to be healthy without looking sick and overly tiny, Im a big tall country girl who wants a little bit of meat on my bones,If I reach 150 someday fantastic, but Im looking forward to seeing 170 on my scale.
I hope you all are not dissapointed on my lack of willpower and the weight Ive gained, I hope you all realize im human and I make mistakes too, im trying to make things right, and I will succeed.I love all my fellow Sparkmates and im sorry i have not been keeping in touch, I want to tell you all im proud of you and your victories for ones going through similar things like im going through Hang on we will succeed we can do it!!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Mirror Mirror on the wall ,
Biggest Liar of them all,
Tears in eyes let them Fall,
Hair is a mess, makeup all blurry,
No time to look nice in a hurry,
Hide the Bags and Imperfections,
Dotting Makeup in Different Directions,
Spread, Blot,Swipe, Smear,
Never mind the Neglected Tear,
Perfection will never be,
This image looking back at me,
Time to throw down the makeup and my hair,
give everyone a good ol scare,
Embrace the mess,my Quirks, my flaws,
never mind the gibberish coming out of peoples jaws,
so what if I look insane,
its good for the soul and my brain,
Mirror ,mirror on the wall
Biggest Liar of them all,
harshest critic, biggest shame,
but im the only one to blame,
to love who I am and what I see,
its the hardest problem for me,
fashion models, actresses, singers
have such perfect hair, and bodies thier images linger,
What parts of them are real?
Do they ever feel?
no wrinkles, no gray hairs,
not even a scar here or there,
they live a privledged life,
perfect thier beauty with a surgeons knife,
nip and tuck,
fold and suck,
beauty is purchased for a price,
you can tell vanity is their biggest vice,
but for some they cant hide the ugly within,
its written all over thier face encoded in thier skin,
but why the worship and the fame,
and everyone remembers thier name,
Mirror mirror on the wall,
Biggest liar of them all,
Why cant you reflect what lies within,
until im comfterable in my own skin...
Sunday, February 08, 2009
I gained afew pounds back but i lost in inches around my waist, arms,thighs and abdomen...
hmmmm wierd lol but not a setback
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