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what was on my mind last night

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Not to long ago, a few people, have commented on my weight. Some have been great, while others have been comments on the fact that Iím no longer a size 8 or something like that and I have muffin tops. Well first off, you havenít seen me in a while, and Iíve lost a lot of weight over the past months. God forbid they made those comments when I was at my heaviest. I was even going for a walk, and some idiot immature teenage boys in their souped up car honked and made comments to me about me being fat, and I shouldnít be wearing the clothing I was wearing to WORK OUT! I canít go for walks in jeans, I chafe, but itís easy to ignore them, because they are immature teenage boys who idealistic women is a size 0-4 and blonde with big boobs and a flat stomach. Ok Iím probably exaggerating that a bit but then again maybe Iím not. I donít care, I have a boyfriend who loves me, and I know that I am over weight but I donít look fat. The thing is Iím doing something about it! As I laid in bed last night this was bothering me. So, Iím not a size 8 anymore, but I did fit in a size 8 cabana dress the other day. I do say I thought I looked pretty good and I got compliments at the BBQ. However those negitive comments do eventually inch in and get the best of you for a little while.

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JULABELLE 7/20/2010 3:37PM

    Wow - you've been through a lot. Please don't let comments from ignorant fools sidetrack you from your goals. You are an amazing person who is loved for being you. Not for being some leggy blond that jiggles/giggles.

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My first shift with my new job

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

I survived my first shift. I didn't take any orders so I didn't get tips today, but that is OK. I learned to do a lot, like cleaning of the bathrooms, (ok that wasn't too difficult and it was all self explanatory.) I made salads for the guests, and did refills on pop. I did dishes and restocking. I hope come Friday, that I will be comfortable taking orders, and get to bring home some tips.

I feel like I'm going to like working there and that is important.

If you work a shift where you get a break, you are not paid for which is completely fine, and you are allowed a free meal. Which is probably not going to be a good thing for someone who is trying eat right. I can have salads so that also works out. Either way, I left my shift today feeling great and proud that I am doing something of a job again.

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MKBOELE 7/15/2010 3:58PM

    Sounds like a great first day! Good luck controlling yourself with the Pasta! You can do it!!

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KRICKET57 7/15/2010 1:56PM

    Good luck on the new job, hope you enjoy it.

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CKAYT56 7/14/2010 11:51PM

    Congrats on your new job! Glad the first day went well. Salad works!

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PHANTOMSMASK171 7/14/2010 10:45PM

    @candy58 Yes, I'm sure I'll be eating salads a lot. Even though the pasta looks amazing.

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CANDY58 7/14/2010 10:32PM

    Sounds like you will do well at the job. Good luck on Friday and enjoy the salads. emoticon emoticon

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BLONDWUNN 7/14/2010 10:10PM

    Congratulations on your new job! Waiting on people is a wonderful way to bless them. You may be the only smile they see in a day, and you can make a difference! The movement will be good for you, and the stress (as long as it's not too much) will stimulate your brain. Sounds like you'll be a winner all the way around!


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Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Today, I spent a great deal of my time with my best friend Anddi. We planned on going Geocaching Sadly, after we ran a few errands for her, by the time we were ready to go the sky's were getting dark. We figured we could one cache in so we went to this one at Kennedy Park in W. Saint Paul near her house. (all that we were going to go for were near her house) We arrived at the park and BAM we could hear THUNDER =( but we still ventured out, We threw in the coordinates on the devices we had, (my phone and my nuvi 205)

We were there for about 30 minutes when we couldn't take it anymore, the mosquitoes were too much, in the humidity and the rain was getting a little harder and making it's way threw the canopy of trees so we had to call it quits.

So we went back to her place, and watched Alice in Wonderland.

Sometimes you just need a day to spend with your best friend!

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/12/2010 8:24PM

    Sounds awesome.


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De-stressing myself

Friday, July 02, 2010

So, yesterday after everything, I made a point to do something to de-stress my mind and my body. So, I went and laid down by the pool, put on my Mp3 player and just cleared my mind. It is one thing I can do is lay in the sun and just let my mind stop thinking. Granted music is a great for a distraction as well. After just under 2 hours of laying in the sun, I feel better. I feel better today as well.

I don't know what it is about the sun, that my body craves. I know the risks and all that but yet when summer is around that is one thing I want to do. I hate being sweaty and hot, but I'll deal with that if it means I can have a few minutes of solitude in the sun.

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PHANTOMSMASK171 7/3/2010 6:08PM

    @candy58 I'm sure if I had a blood test on a few things, I'd find I'm low on a few things. The only thing I'm not low on is fat.

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CANDY58 7/2/2010 8:21PM

    I will bet if you had your blood tested your Vitamin D would be low. You get that from the sun. That is why some people use sun lamps in the winter. Glad you are feeling better. emoticon

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RUNNER4LIFE08 7/2/2010 4:15PM

    I love laying out in the sun..... so relaxing! Of course, with a little sun screen on!

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CRISTHIANE 7/2/2010 2:25PM

    I'm with you! I love laying in out in the sun... sounds so relaxing! I wish I was doing that right now :)

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If something was suppose to go right it never seems too

Thursday, July 01, 2010

Yesterday, I checked my bank account just to make sure I had the amount that I was suppose to so I could get a few things at Target. To my surprise, that isn't what I saw. What I saw, was my health insurance once again took the premium. This time there was money but that money was already to go out for 2 other bills, which included my CAR INSURANCE!! so now those bills are either bouncing or was paid, and I have no idea, yet. I so want to now cancel my health insurance since they never listen, yet I have a bill for the rest for July, through Oct.. I won't and don't have the 415 for it so I don't know what is going to happen yet I have a lot to figure out. =( Plus I have to wait now to find out what happened to my car insurance. So when I found this out last night, I not only was SAD, I was furious and it took a lot of self control, from not screaming, breaking my laptop and punching something. So, I went and cried in the bedroom because there was nothing I could do. Later Derek distracted me, with the cat, and laid some money by me to help the situation but I didn't want to accept but I eventually did. It didn't cover it all but it covered a very good portion of the negative funds just not the fees. The bad thing was is that I was settled and ready and on track again with the money part but now I don't even have money for gas once again.

I don't start my new job until the 14th =( This week was shortened hours, and next week the manager who is training is on vacation. So I start the 14th, and I am scheduled for the 16th which is a Friday so hopefully I'll be on my own then so I get the tips.

I've been great with exercising this week, maybe not eating so much but I've done pretty great with exercising. So that is good. I just want this week to be over so I can try and forget that at times I just can't handle everything and I have to just let it go.

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CAROLJEAN64 7/1/2010 3:16PM

    Money frustrations may be the worst, especially when you think you have it under control. I love that you choose to exercise. You got rid of some of those demons of negativity and are seeing the light again. Good for you!

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