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A good Monday

Monday, June 21, 2010

So far so good, at least I think so. I slept well, and slept in and haven't needed to take a nap, I started to feel like I could nap but I went outside to call my mom, but she ended up calling me instead while I was outside. (that's twice in 3 days that, that has happened) I told her about my job interview it went very well, but until I hear one way or another I'm not going to jinx myself. Though she said I made a Great impression on her. That in it self is something I don't think I've ever heard.

So after I got off the phone with mom, I decided that since the pool was empty of kids I could go and do a few laps. The pool isn't a regular size pool, and I can't take the rope for the deep end off but I could do a few swimming on my own. It's been so long since I've been swimming that I tired quickly. I would have liked to have done a few more modified laps but I was the only one out there and you can't risk things like that when swimming especially alone. Anyway since I was tired I got out, it felt great to swim again even for a little bit like that and I feel it so I got some minutes in of exercise today =) Tonight is chicken breasts and relaxing.


I started off strong

Saturday, June 19, 2010

It's Saturday- The week started great, I ate and I exercised. by the end of the week I was drinking pop and feeling ill instead of drinking water and feeling good. Thursday, I applied for like 10 jobs and at 8:30 last night one called me back for a job interview. It's very part time and I've never done that type of work exactly but I can learn and it's only a small pizza joint so I'm not worried about not being able to handle it say I get this job. Wednesday was my day off but I suppose it shouldn't have been because it kept me from staying on track. Tuesday was good, or at least at that time I thought so. Not only did phone calls and paperwork get signed to change my billing of my health insurance get taken care I felt I could relax on that since I had no funds to pay for this necessary evil in my life. Ok, So far doing well enough. Monday I exercised and felt great doing so. Monday and Tuesday great, Thursday didn't exercise enough but accomplished a lot. Friday a day I'd like to forget!

What good did Friday accomplish? Well other than getting a job interview, NOTHING! My health insurance that I was told was taken care of has not been taken care of, and I 'm over drawn by 155 dollars, not including fees. I have yet to know if this will bounce or not or if the bank will pay it. I doubt it will pay. So, since I forgot all day to check my account because I didn't think it totally necessary because I was told it will be taken care of by said agent. A lot of emotional eating, Pizza, icecream and that wasn't even what I had for dinner.

Oh my sleep schedule is so off it's not even funny, I can't fall asleep until after 2am because I've been sleeping too much during the day. Plus when I'm tired in the evening I can't just go to bed because D watches TV in bed so that doesn't help lately. I don't want to watch it but it's almost the only time I get to spend time with him if he works in the evening, and when the lights are off it's usually the time we have a chance to talk, because he is usually always online chatting with friends or reading something on one of his many sites he visits, so to get his full attention it's usually before sleep. Plus it's been hot this week at night and we've had a battle of the sheets. Last night I tucked in another sheet just for him and I think it worked at least for me, I didn't have to keep pulling a sheet for me since I have the fan on right next to me hot or no hot the fan can make me cold if I'm sweating and at times that is the case.

So this morning around 5:30 the cat decided to wake me up, my eyes are burning from allergies so I'm up venting about my week.

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DAWNDMOORE40 6/19/2010 10:08AM

    I believe that talking with someone about your emotions is a great thing to do. It will allow you to get all that pent up frustration out of your body. Do you have a journal that you can write your feelings down? I do this occasionally when I have a bad day, and it helps alot.

I completely understand about how frustrating it is when a business tells you they are going to do something and then you find your account overdrawn! The bank doesn't care that it's their fault! They want to hold you accountable! Life just isn't fair! I know it's difficult, but try really hard to allow that joy you get from all the happy things in life, to help sustain you when the bad things happen!

Keep up the good work on your weight loss! Try to remember what is going good in your life, instead of focusing too much on the bad stuff! I know that's easier said then done, and I don't know you, so how could I walk in your shoes. Please don't take this as critisim. I just want to help! I have been in those situations, and it just makes you want to scream! I try really hard now to pray and to focus on the good stuff so I can get through the hurdles that life throws my way. We are always here when you need support! Have a fabulous day!

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PHANTOMSMASK171 6/19/2010 7:51AM

    At this point anything, from data entry to PCA work. The job interview is for a server job.

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AUNTKATHY 6/19/2010 7:41AM

    Venting is good, it releases pent up anger. I vent a lot. What kind of a job are you looking for?
I live in N KY and my allergies are crazy! Good luck with today and forget about the week.

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Day 106

Monday, June 14, 2010

This is crazy. How did I let myself get so behind? How did I let depression take my life over once again? I accomplished a great goal and hiked the 10k volksmarch, yet I allowed myself to have emotional eating, weight gain, and not exercising. So, this week I promise to get back to that part of my life back. I exercised today, and I feel great about it.

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GINGERKAYL 6/14/2010 6:17PM

    You go!!! I'm right there with you!! Don't you wish you had the answers...I am getting my 10,000 steps in..but excercise just isnt my cup of tea...I'm hoping that will change.

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CANDY58 6/14/2010 5:26PM

    Good for you. I like that you are getting back on track emoticon it is amazing how good you feel after exercising. emoticon

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Pictures from South Dakota

Saturday, June 12, 2010

@ A rest stop in Mitchell South Dakota
@ The badlands
@ Devils Tower
@ The top of Crazy Horse
@ The Finish line
Mount Rushmore

This was one trip that was fun, and exhausting. I will probably always remember it.

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GINGERKAYL 6/12/2010 11:11PM

    I love that last picture of you and Derek! I like them all...but that last one is sooooo cute! emoticon

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MNNICE 6/12/2010 7:24PM

    Lots to see and do in SD - Badlands and Black Hills are awesome!

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What's wrong with me?

Friday, June 11, 2010

I'm not sure there is anything I can do? All I want to do is sleep, I have no ambition to do anything. If I go and do something, I'm fine but just sitting around the apartment there is no motivation or ambition to lift a finger. I have felt ill all week since returning from South Dakota. I didn't exactly eat very healthy yet I drank plenty of water. between sneezing, itchy skin, watery eyes, headaches, no wonder I gained 4.4 lbs since last time. I've been drinking pop =( and probably not eating very well. I feel I'm back to my old habits and I've lost my support from Derek, because that is what is at the house, foods I shouldn't eat yet that is what there is. Plus, being a sloth this week I swear I'm sleeping almost 20 hours a day and just getting up to do something is hard. I've tried to do my goals but they end up getting put to the side because sleep sounds so much better. At least when I'm sleeping I am ignoring the fact that my body is itching all over. Lotion isn't working, benadryl cream isn't working what it is that I'm not drinking as much water once again as I should that is making me this way. I do drink water every day just not as much. It is also the cat, he is shedding a lot and I can't keep up with it. His hair is everywhere, I feel it like it's covering me. Wow, I'm just a big debby downer today. I hope starting tomorrow I can pick things back up.

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PHANTOMSMASK171 6/11/2010 8:52PM

    That's the thing, I don't know if it's allergies or something else. I just took a bath with Epsom salt, and I feel a little better. I take zyrtec for allergies. Benadryl only works for me if I have hives, and Claritin never works for me unless I have a cold. Plus I have prescription allergy meds I take on top of the zyrtec

Thanks, I hope I start feeling better too.

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SEANSAUNT 6/11/2010 8:46PM

    Are you itching from allergies? Have you tried taking anything orally, like Claritin, Zyrtec, or Benadryl? Sometimes rest is really what we need.

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

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