Thursday, October 10, 2013
i need some with trying to lose weight and living with the IN-LAWS. my in laws moved in my house cuz they had no were to go . well that ok my girlfriend didn't get to see them much so this will give her the time to spend with them. i never knew how hard it would be to have so many heads in the same house. when its my paycheck and my money comes in not much is said to what is bought for the house as in the means of food. i buy it, it gets cooked, if i dont want junk food in the house just dont buy it. now here comes the problem once a month my in laws get there food stamps and want to use them to help with food. that nice and all but then when we go shopping they spend most of it on junk food. things i should no eat. when i talk to my girlfriend about it all she tells me is that they dont have much to help out with the house so i should be happy that they are helping out. i am happy they want to help but i dont want the junk in the house. i find when its in front of my face i eat it.
and this problem alone makes me mad. how is it 15 years ago i could walk away from drugs"when i got pregent" but i cant walk away from food? how is it that food has more hold over me then drugs? i am always told buy people its imposable to walk away from drugs with out help. but that is what i did 15 years ago i just turned my back on drugs and walked away and that it was so easy but i cant walk away from food? what makes my problem worse is my girlfriend says if we could use the help and it makes them feel good but then because its there money i dont get to always pick what i want and dont want in the house. but once its in the house its "food" seems to have more control over me . how do i et them help out without seeming like a A** when they bring food i my house i dont like and how do i work on telling my mind no?