Fessing up!

Thursday, April 08, 2010

I feel the need to fess up about how bad I have been the past 2 1/2 weeks. I received some news that just sent me into a panic and I got all stressed out and totally lost sight of what I was doing to try and lose this weight. I stopped truthfully using the nutrition tracker, I started searching out comfort foods again, and started drinking soda every day again. Now that I have calmed down and I look back, I can not believe how much I let my emotions control what I am putting into my mouth. It is unreal to me that I was aware of what I was doing and felt effortless to stop it. It kinda scares me that I could not take control of myself in a stressful situation. I really need to work harder when that happens to have some kind of strategies in place for when I receive really stressful news or get in a funk. It is so hard to shake how you are feeling some days.
I am going to look at the positive side though....a few months ago in that situation it would have been fast food and chocolate every single day and lots of it!! I did not do that this time, I was nowhere near that out of control this time, I slipped up a bit and gained back 1 lb. but I did not binge and go nuts, I made a few bad choices, but did not throw in the towel. I think that is many thanks to my new friends here on SP and my lovely ladies of the "518" Team!! Thanks girls!!
So I guess here's to baby steps and I hope they get easier and become more habit as I go along on this journey.

  

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KAYWEB555 4/9/2010 11:44PM

I'm so happy that you didn't really go all the way back to eating everything in sight. You have come a long way, if you only put on 1 single pound and didn't lose complete control. Just think what will happen when you start being serious again ! Looking forward to see what happens after a week of getting back to tracking your food and fitness! forgive yourself and get back in the game. We still love you, we are not going to give you holy heck! Just let it go! Remeber to be as easy with me. I will needed it if I don't wake up in a better frame of mind. I did make it today! Just barely. Report Inappropriate Comment

LKPBUTTERFLY 4/9/2010 9:23AM

Schmoxie is right girlfriend! Two steps forward and one step back sometimes, but as long as we catch ourselves. We that eat under stress have a problem though and I am working on it as well, I have been doing some inner searching to find a way to conquer my own.. There must be a method to treat the madness!!!! If you see what works, please share! for your new start!! Linda Report Inappropriate Comment

PENNI68 4/9/2010 8:14AM

Thanks for the support girls, it means alot!! Report Inappropriate Comment

FMREES 4/8/2010 7:34PM

Seeing what you are doing and when is one of the first biggest steps! It gives you such power and helps set you up to make the decisions next time another situation tempts you. And thus you learn to take control! Congrats on the steps you did take! Report Inappropriate Comment

SHMOXIE 4/8/2010 4:27PM

This is what happens... it is life! a few steps forward, a little fall back. But the key is to keep making those steps forward! The best thing is you are still here and recommitting! Great job! :D Report Inappropriate Comment

Baby Steps

Monday, March 22, 2010

Well I had a few bad days recently, and was dreading the scale on Sunday, but I got on it and lost 1 lb. I was very excited as this past week was not a great one for me at all. I made some bad choices and have felt kind of in a funk the past few days. So here is to getting back on the program! I am going to continue with the baby steps that I have been taking it seems like so much less of a daunting task and somehow seems to be working!

  

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KAYWEB555 3/24/2010 10:03AM

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SLHOLMES7 3/24/2010 12:41AM

Good job Penni! I knew you could do it! Losing anything when you're having a bad week is great! You are definitely moving in the right direction, let the adrenaline rush from that carry you into the coming week! Report Inappropriate Comment

MAMMABEAR-THIRY 3/22/2010 1:59PM

Congratulations on the 1 pound that you have lost. We all have bad times during our journeys but the main thing is to get back on the program. You can do it. We are here to help. Just keep working the program and if you have a bad day/week don't let it get you down and out, just start fresh and continue. Take care Thiry Report Inappropriate Comment

MEGANC1988 3/22/2010 12:28PM

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CELIASYEAR 3/22/2010 11:31AM

May I please encourage you to stay consistent and never give up. We only have such a short time on earth that I would hate to see someone as lovely as you fear that dreaded scale! If you can only find one thing out of the healthy lifestyle choices that you can remain consistent on for three months, that FABULOUS! Be proud, and happy, and motivated. THAT's where motivation comes from, really, just being able to see that you have a goal and each baby step toward it is GOLD! Report Inappropriate Comment

SROUS1340 3/22/2010 11:30AM

Stick with it! Keep moving, you will see results! I have been sparking for just under 2 months and today I had the "lost 15lbs" mark. Focus on how you feel as you drink water and move. The scale will give you a nod and a wink, but the real results are in how you feel! Report Inappropriate Comment

Blog 2

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Well here is another day of trying to lose weight and remain positive while doing so! I wish I could be positive everyday but I do have those days when I just can't seem to get there. I am positive today however so I am going to bask in it! It is sunny outside, I almost caved and talked myself into going and getting a bad lunch but instead I am going to eat my smart ones meal and go for a walk. I hope all these baby steps start adding up big really soon! LOL

  

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KAYWEB555 3/16/2010 2:29PM

Even if big is one pound every week, that would really in the end be perfect. I don't think that I put it on more than one pound a week. I mean I have never really given it time in my mind. Was that you walking by my house? Could be! I'm glad that you are having a positive day because it really is so beautiful out side today. So much wonderful Vit. D shining down. Every one better get out and get their 10-15 min. of healthy sunshine! Thanks for being a very big part of TEAM 518 ! Report Inappropriate Comment

MEGANC1988 3/16/2010 12:20PM

They will! Report Inappropriate Comment

First Time

Monday, March 15, 2010

This is my first blog ever. I am not sure what a "blog" actually is besides a person talking about their life??? Anways, I have struggled for years with my weight, I use to be thin and could eat whatever I wanted but that all changed after I had a hysterectomy at the ripe old age of 26yrs. That is when I started packing on the pounds, then I quit smoking and gained another 22lbs. UUgghhh....so my whole 30's were me gaining weight and trying to lose it. Now that I have passed the "40" marker, I think it is time to finally lose this weight. I have tried and failed many times but this time I am in it for the long run, baby steps and I don't care if it takes me 2 years to do it, at least at this time next year, I won't be 20lbs heavier, I will hopefully be lighter, MUCH lighter and not hating myself nearly as much as I do or have every New Year for the past 10 years! Since beginning this journey in the middle of January I have lost 10lbs...slow and steady wins the race or so they say, I would like to see better results than that but I will take what I can get as long as it stays off! I am glad to have found spark and a some great people to help me along this journey.

  

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PENNI68 3/15/2010 1:32PM

Thanks everyone for the encouragement and words of kindness! I appreicate your support, as it is what is keeping me on this path! Kay, You make me laugh!! Thanks for being there for me everyday!! I am proud of you for not having to buy bigger clothes, you are doing so good g/f!! I keep telling myself I need to do the measurment part of this site but I am scared to see my waist size for sure not to mention the bootie or the arms or thighs...ouch!! Hehehehehehehe Report Inappropriate Comment

CJKOMODO 3/15/2010 12:01PM

Thank you for sharing your life! Report Inappropriate Comment

KAYWEB555 3/15/2010 11:25AM

Lost 10 pounds of fat, & Blogged all on the same day! Way to go girl friend! Fat, yes has to be for it took time to come off. Water drops off right away. Then off comes the fat that took time to get there. You are a motivator! Thanks for sharing your story with us. Have you measured yet? That has been the surprising area for me. I have thigthed up the fat! It feel so good to know that I will not be going out to get bigger clothes. I can go to the closet and find things that haven't fit! Keep up the Fantastic JOB Report Inappropriate Comment

TEEKEE04 3/15/2010 11:18AM

In the same boat!! Thanks for the post Report Inappropriate Comment

MEGANC1988 3/15/2010 11:02AM

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LOLEMA 3/15/2010 10:37AM

Your story is my story and we can do this. Report Inappropriate Comment