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Vote for SPARK PEOPLE!!!

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

I saw this blog in my daily email and "borrowed" it to share with all my friends!! I think it would be great for Spark People to win, they sooooo deserve it for all they do for us everyday!!

The software provider Intuit is giving one small business a TV commercial on the 2014 Big Game. It's the world's biggest stage, and a lucky small business could be on it right beside some of the biggest brands.

I think that SparkPeople should take the spotlight in the February game. Check out their entry and vote!

You can vote once a day.

Please pass this on. I hope it inspires you to write a blog post of your own about this.

There are also links to other social media on the SP Story page so you can share the SP love from there!

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DIDMIS 10/1/2013 6:05PM

    Penny, I voted two days now. The lady I got it from had the featured blot of the day. Good for her.

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DIDMIS 9/30/2013 11:35AM

    Done. They deserve it.

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YJNANA 9/25/2013 4:26PM

    DONE :)

I think they deserve it

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JACKIE15108 9/25/2013 7:50AM

    Thank you - -done!

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Friday, October 14, 2011

I had an amazing ride to work this morning! Do you ever feel like your always rushing from here to there and never really take the time out to notice the beauty around you? I always feel rushed and compelled to move quickly from one thing to the next, but this morning was a little different.

I left my house and it looked a bit dreary with some sun trying to peak through, and I thought oh well more rain today...but as I drove into work (I live in the country) the sky was very dark in most places but the ground was sunny and bright, this made the fall colors look so brilliant and beautiful and I couldn't help but to slow down and really look around me! It was beautiful, there were barns with brilliant sun, yet dark skies in the background, the stuff you see in pictures!! I was amazed by how gorgeous everything looked!

Every morning as I drive to work I say a little prayer and this morning was no exception! I had been feeling a little bit down yesterday and missing my mom and my lil dog that I lost, so I asked for some inner peace and comfort and as I drove to work and was noticing all the gorgeous colors and the contrast of the sky and the land. I saw a rainbow, peeking in and out of the dark clouds and I was filled with such a sense of well being and calm, it was amazing.

I slowed right down and took in all the sights, the smells, the quiet and the beauty of the morning. I could not believe all the colors, the darkness, the brilliant sun and the rainbow, it was gorgeous. Too often we let the beauty of nature just pass us by and we miss out on so much by rushing from here to there.

I have struggled terribly since losing my mom and my dog, but this morning for some reason although I still miss them something awful, I just for a few seconds felt an incredible sense of peace and calm. I was in awe of the nature and beauty around me and I had to thank GOD for such a great ride!!

Take a few minutes people and look around you, really look, you will be amazed at what you see!! I was!

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PENNI68 11/2/2011 9:25AM

    Thank you SS...have a good day!!

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SSORENSEN1 11/1/2011 9:34PM

    I miss my Mom too! My Dad taught me to "take time to smell the roses" everyday. Nature is so wonderful and healing. Your Poms are adorable!
Thanks for your comment on my blog, Penni!

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PENNI68 10/25/2011 12:07PM

    Thanks Kay, it was a really nice ride, sometimes just taking the time to notice the nature around you is enough!!! Glad your back at it!!

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KAYWEB555 10/25/2011 10:39AM

    Just a little taste of heaven has been shared with you from you Father in heaven and you beloved Mom who wouldn't want you still grieving so hard for her. She truly is walking the streets of Gold with God. For she helped you relax and taste the calm that can be found daily when you just look around.
Loved your blog, you truly have a writing talent that not everyone has. Bet you could write some wonderful childrens books. For you word of what you saw that morning took me to my calender and I too saw newness that early morning.
This morning I was blessed with a sky filled with the colors from an Alaskin aroura blorialis.(sp) Then I just heard it on the news! I wasn't sure if that was truly what I was viewing! Miss your conversations! Stand strong, take the things you like and just eat smaller portions! Nutrionists would be pushing all those foods you really don't like !

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ABB698 10/16/2011 1:47AM

    What a truly enlightening blog, Penni! Loved it, and glad you felt at peace for a bit. Love the profile pic, gorgeous as always! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PENNI68 10/15/2011 7:49PM

    Thanks everyone!! I think your right Carol I think I had some angels on that ride!! Thank you so much everyone!!

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INDIANOAKS 10/15/2011 7:45AM

    WOW is right!! LOVED this blog Penny!!!! AWESOME!! It IS amazing when you just slow down a bit what you can TRULY "see" and appreciate along the way. I think you had angels watching over you -- making sure you took a deep breath, slowed down and helped bring you that peace and calm feeling you were able to experience! Your blog gave me goosebumps!

emoticon emoticonSo sorry for the pain you still feel missing your mom and Little Miss Foxxie! emoticon emoticon

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 10/14/2011 9:05PM

    Thank you for sharing this! emoticon

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DIDMIS 10/14/2011 3:35PM

    Nice time of meditation and just enjoying yourself Penny.
God bless you today and every day.

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YJNANA 10/14/2011 12:08PM

    PENNY, I can relate to what you went through on your Ride :)
Sometimes I think signs are out there for us to see and know, Everything is alright.
Glad you had that experience and saw the Beauty around you

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New Wedding Photos

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Hi all, haven't had much time to be on here lately and I know a few of you have been asking me about here they are!!

Hope you all are doing well!!

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BAKER1009 5/9/2013 3:07PM

    Beautiful pictures!! Looks like a lovely wedding!

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KAYWEB555 10/25/2011 10:28AM

    Boy have I been away for sometime ! Great pix! Looks as if you had a grand time !

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PENNI68 9/6/2011 5:59PM

    Thanks Shirley and Linda, her dress was the most beautiful wedding gown I have ever seen!!! It was GORGEOUS!!!
They make a really great couple and they are soooo good for each other. I am very very happy and excited for them!

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EARTHY2 9/6/2011 11:00AM

    Great pictures Penny. I love the black and white ones. They are a lovely couple and she is stunning. For some reason this is the first time I noticed it even said anything about the pictures.

Shirley emoticon

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LKPBUTTERFLY 9/5/2011 6:23PM

    Penny, just beautiful photos of the wedding, her dress is stunning, and they are a beautiful couple, congratulations!!!!!!!

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PENNI68 8/29/2011 8:26AM

    Thanks all, it was a beautiful day and we had lots of fun!!

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SUNNYWBL 8/29/2011 1:17AM

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What wonderful memories they will have of their special day!

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ABB698 8/28/2011 11:21PM

    What a picture perfect day!!! emoticon

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INDIANOAKS 8/28/2011 9:07PM

    THANKS for taking the time to post the pics!! You got some AWESOME family photos -- and such a SPECIAL event!! Neat to have some black and white shots too!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 8/28/2011 8:19PM

    Very beautiful pictures!

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PENNI68 8/28/2011 7:52PM

    Thanks!! She is great!! They both are!

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HICKOK-HALEY 8/28/2011 7:42PM

    They made an adorable couple. He is handsome, and she is beautiful. Looked like a great day. Congrats on gaining a new Daughter!

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Wedding w/Pics

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

The wedding was gorgeous, perfect weather, beautiful day and a lovely couple!!

More to come when I get some more and have a bit more time!! Thanks everyone for the well wishes and for asking about the wedding. My stepson is a very happy man!!!

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MARLIZG 8/5/2011 5:43PM

    wonderful! emoticon

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PENNI68 8/4/2011 10:28AM

    Kay, told them they had one year now to make me a grandma!!! They said your only 42 and you want to be a grandma already, I said HECK YEH!!! I am ready!!! LOL

They are a great couple!!

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KAYWEB555 8/3/2011 8:27PM

    That second pic says it all! You can see the love between them and how sincere they are taking their vows! God bless their union and make you a Grandma !
You couldn't have planned a better day for their outdoor wedding! It was picture perfect.
Sounds like you had a wonderful time and I'm so happy that you now have a daughter!

The pups are growing up quickly ! So very cute !

It will be a wonderful day to remember!

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PENNI68 8/2/2011 9:39AM

    Thank you Sunny! They are beautiful together!!

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SUNNYWBL 8/1/2011 10:45PM

    What a handsome happy couple!

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PENNI68 8/1/2011 1:21PM

    Thanks Carol, that first pic is my favorite, he loves her so much and he is a sweet guy!!! I did not get any pics on my camera with me in my dress, my camera actually screwed up right in the middle of the wedding so I am counting on getting some pics from others and then I will see what I have!! LOL..thanks again!!

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INDIANOAKS 7/30/2011 10:55PM

    Love the FIRST pic especially!!! Looks like they had a BEAUTIFUL outdoor setting!!!! And the weather cooperated! emoticon

Thanks for posting these!! And let's see that dress -- with beautiful YOU in it!!

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PENNI68 7/29/2011 8:03AM

    Thanks everyone, I do have a beautiful daughter-in-law Yvonne, she is a sweetheart too!! I don't have any pics of me in my dress yet, once I see some and how they turned out, I may post one!! LOL...

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ABB698 7/28/2011 10:39PM

    Gorgeous couple! Congrats on extending your family! I want to see YOU in your beautiful dress!!

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YJNANA 7/28/2011 1:25PM

    Darling pictures, what a gorgeous couple :) looking forward to seeing more.
You now have a beautiful Daughter in law.

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PENNI68 7/28/2011 8:12AM

    Thank you!

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KAYELENE 7/27/2011 8:20PM

    Lovely pictures. It looked just perfect! emoticon

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Last night I cried...

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Last night I cried….

At first I was not even sure why and then I realized I am lonely. I miss my mother and I miss having a best friend, someone to talk to about anything and everything. I mean isn’t that every little girls dream, to have a friend you can share your whole life with, talk to about anything, trust completely?? I have had friends that I thought were my best friend only to trust them and get hurt terribly by them. Now I have a hard time trusting people in general. It was okay when my mom was alive because I could turn to her and I knew she would always listen and always have my back no matter what. That is a very peaceful feeling that you don’t realize is even there until it is gone.

Now when I am happy or sad, excited or mad I don’t have that one person that I can call up and just say “Hey…guess what!!”…don’t get me wrong I have friends, acquaintances but noone that I am really close with. I use to have so much fun with my coworkers and laugh everyday at work so that helped me alot, and life was okay…but I chose to chase the almighty dollar and now have a position that I hate, that is unfulfilling and where the people do not “connect” any way at all with me. I sit alone at work all day and then go home. It is a very isolated feeling.

My husband is great and my marriage has never been better, but it is just not the same as having a girlfriend to talk to and share with, a “female” who gets your emotions and understands where you are coming from or even coworkers that you can enjoy your day with and have a few laughs and then go home at the end of the day.

So anyways…I cried…and I felt sorry for myself and I beat myself up about sabotaging my weight loss efforts every time I am emotional or moody. I see all these people on here that are always so positive and always portray life as “the glass half full”, I want to be like that, I WANT to feel like that. How do they do it? Choose to be happy?? Is it really that easy and if it is easy howcome so many of us can’t seem to achieve it. I keep thinking that if I just lost this weight I would be happy…silly…I know…but I can’t help how I feel.

Oh well today is a new day…maybe today is the day my world will change, I will trust again and be able to find a “best” friend, or I will find a job that is truly fulfilling and satisfying, and if not…

…well, sometimes it just helps to have a good cry!

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PENNI68 5/26/2011 11:31AM

    Wow, thanks everyone for all the support and ideas and comments! I do have "friends", and coworkers that I get along well with, I just miss having a "best" friend and I miss my mom lots!! Time will heal I am sure! Thanks again and everyone have a great weekend, I am off work for 4 days after my second job is over tonight at 8pm!! WhoooHooooo

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JUDY1676 5/25/2011 11:25PM

    I do hope you can find that special friend that you are comfortable sharing everything with. emoticon

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LKPBUTTERFLY 5/25/2011 8:31PM

    Oh Penny, you touched me, it is just an inconceivable idea to lose our Mother, the only one person that loved us unconditionally. Nothing we say could make it better but you have had good advice here and it is up to you to know what feels right for you. I just want to remind you that you are not alone, your family loves you and you are not walking alone, there is our faith that our Mothers are in a good place, and we can still feel their love for us. It is hard to find a true friend, but I know by our conversations you will find that special friend one day, maybe not when you are expecting or waiting for it. God does not close one door without opening another. It has been proven to me over and over so I have to believe that. emoticon

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AZHURE_SUNSOAR 5/25/2011 7:45PM

    I know first hand what your talking about with the friend issue. all through school I can only remember ONE person who was made more fun of than me. I had 4 main friends I grew up with. It was about grade 9 that I realized(over heard one of them) they were saying the same sh!t behind my back everyone else was saying to my face. I cried so long over the people that I had thought were the ones that got me. I don't trust people anymore and I don't really have people I call friends. I have a few aquaintances(I have less than 30 people on my facebook and at least 6 are family)I have been alone a long time and made it work for me. I'm happiest with my immediate family, and I have one man in my life(but thats a complicated situation), or by's rough but I know how you feel.

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DEBBIE_J 5/25/2011 6:47PM

    Hi Penny, I also chased after the almighty dollar in my career and worked myself into having no friends. I travelled all the time and managed teams of folks all over the world, but due to the nature of the career I chose, my teams were full of people that rotated from project to project so it was rare to work with any one person for more than a few weeks. It was a bummer to be able to be home for only a weekend or two each month and it was hard to keep a friendships going.

After doing some major soul searching, I decided that although I had invested so much time and money in my chosen vocation, that was absolutely not what I wanted to spend my life doing and I started trying to figure out what it was that would make me happy. It was so hard, I had no clue what to do and I felt so isolated from my life and the world in general. Eventually I figured out my true calling and went for it. I'm so glad I did, even though I make a little less money than before, I'm so much happier and more satisfied with life. I've decided that the secret of life (for me, anyway), is to find happiness. All the money in the world can buy a lot of things, but in the end, happiness must be found, not bought.

One thing that I might suggest to help you find new friends that you can hang out with in person, is to join a club or activity that is of interest to you. You will meet many new people that have your same interests and you'll have fun doing it. My interest was taking country western dance lessons and I had a blast. It's sometimes hard for us to make "true" long-term friends once we're adults, but there were always some really neat people to hang out with to have fun. I did find a couple of really neat friends over time and I'm confident you will too.

Keep your chin up and don't let yourself stay down. You CAN do ANYTHING you set your mind to. Always remember that. emoticon

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LADYJANE35 5/25/2011 3:18PM

    I wish I could give you a hug right now. I know exactly how you feel, with the exception that God let me keep my Mom for a little longer. She had a terrible accident 3 yrs ago and we didn't the she would make it. Let alone walk again. That is when I realized just how much I needed my Mother. She is and always will be my best friend.
As for having "female" friends. I don't, or should I say I didn't. Just like you I was repeatedly betrayed and trust for any human being went right out the window - FOR YEARS! But here lately, I do have this one girlfriend who I've become a little closer to. It's still not that "best friend" we all hope for, but it will do for now.
Give yourself time to heal. Cry about it. I think a good cry is God's way of helping us clean up. Wash away the stuff that bothers us.
And just like you I thought if I could loose weight it would get better. Then at some point since I started this a few months ago...I realized - you can't do this for any one but you! I was trying to be something I wasn't. I will say that challenging myself with exercise and other things of the sort has made me happier, but it's because of me. No one else. I did this. And that is always something to be proud of. So don't let me fool ya girl - I ain't always rainbows and sunshine. Sometimes life just sucks! :) But it almost always gets better!
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and are loved...probably by many more people than you realize :) emoticon

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PENNI68 5/25/2011 1:07PM

    Foxy (Penny), that was not rambling at all, that was beautiful and insightful as well!! Thank you!!

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FOXYPSYCHO 5/25/2011 12:33PM

    I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. My mom has not been well for some time how she stays strong and keeps fighting I don't know. I could never do it . She sees a doctor at least once a day. I talk to her everyday and have always been close. But I can only imagine how you must feel. I think way to often lately about losing her. It really scares me. I have but one true friend and that's my husband. I have had good friends through my life and a couple that say I am their best friend. But I don't feel like I ever had a best friend. I have never trusted anyone 100%. And I am beginning to think it's my fears of rejection and my fears of being hurt that causes me to put up a wall. No one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. I guess I just don't want to make the mistake of trusting someone.

Maybe the answer is to trust ourselves first and honor our loved ones by living the life they would want us to live. Live for them because now your mom lives on through you. She is apart of you. Ugh, sorry for rambling. And I am so very sorry for your loss. emoticon emoticon

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PENNI68 5/25/2011 12:33PM

    Wow, thank you all so much for the kind words and advice! Sometimes I think women are their own worst enemies, judging each other and competing all the time instead of holding each other up and supporting each other no matter what. Is it pathetic that you have to come online to a site like SP to find those kind of women? I am grateful that I have found them in all of you!! Thanks so much for being my "Sparked" friends, it is good to know your all here!! emoticon emoticon

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INDIANOAKS 5/25/2011 12:03PM

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I'm SO sorry you miss your mom.... From "knowing" you here on Spark it always sounds like you two had a VERY special relationship and her death obviously left a huge hole in your life. My heart goes out to you!!! SO WISH I could take that pain away from you!!!!

Grieving the loss of your mother is going to take time. I once heard a quote that I loved -- something to the effect of "how lucky you are to have loved someone so much that it makes saying goodbye so hard" or some such... The "saying goodbye" part sucks -- but being blessed with the love is WONDERFUL. You loved your mom beyond words -- and the loss of that relationship DESERVES to be grieved -- the loss of a wonderful woman DESERVES to be grieved -- because she was worth SO much to you!! `As time goes on, hopefully you'll be able to hold onto the love part more and not feel the grief part quite as much...

And you're RIGHT -- there's nothing like a good girlfriend -- guys just don't "get it" alot of times!! But, sadly, like you I have also recently experienced betrayal from a couple of people that I THOUGHT were CLOSE I empathize... It's REALLY hard to know WHO you can trust!! No answers for you in THAT one...Been there, Done that -- and done it again...!!

Please don't "compare" yourself to all the "people on here that are always so positive and always portray life as “the glass half full"......." First of all -- EVERYONE is human and has bad days. PLUS alot of what you read on here may NOT be very "truthful" -- they MAY portray themselves as being one way when they're really not... I'm not saying everyone's "fake" but it goes back to "trusting people" etc... Don't base how you feel about YOURSELF because of stuff people say on here when alot of it MIGHT be an "illusion"....

I LOVE that you're honest and open about what you're feeling at that particular time. I've actually read blogs on here where people say they are ONLY going to blog or post when they're feeling "good" or that they're ONLY going to talk about weight loss etc (thus no OTHER "life stuff" that might have them in tears etc).... That's fine -- and that's their choice -- but that's also not "real life" and we're all here to SUPPORT each other -- ESPECIALLY when it's bad (in my opinion) away and don't believe everything you read....!

Sorry -- I digressed a bit -- guess I just wanted to say that "choosing to be happy" IS a great "option" -- and I'm working on that one myself.... BUT at the same time I also think it's important to be WHO you ARE!! So work on the things you might like to improve on or change, but do NOT beat yourself for being who you ARE!! BECAUSE -- as I'm sure ANY of your SparkFriends would say, YOU are a BEAUTIFUL, caring, loving woman and you're a GREAT friend -- at least you are to me, here on Spark!! So you're not "Sally Sunshine"...WHO CARES??!! So you're not "happy" all the time...who IS??! You're the way you are, because you're YOU! Most of us have extra weight we're carrying around -- most of us don't like it either -- but that doesn't change who we are on the INSIDE -- and THAT is what's MOST important!! You're an AWESOME person, Penny!! Do NOT beat yourself up!

Ultimately, I'm with you though too -- sometimes a good cry IS the answer and we feel MUCH better afterwards!!! I hope you felt better last night when you got done...!!

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FREES1 5/25/2011 11:23AM

    Penny- I am sorry you feel so lonely so isolated.. wish there were something I could do to help... you're always welcomed to call but we sure couldn't do much together with the distance between us...

you used the phrase 'choose to be happy'... first I don't know that happy is the word I'd use because happiness is a fleeting emotion... good spirits, positive, 'glass half full' yes, those are choices.. life comes and how we react is a choice... if you expect things to be not so good they won't be... if you expect things to be ok or better then they will... we tend to get what we want, what we expect...

you can sit in your office or cubicle and not interact with those with whom you work, or you can try to make inroads... can you not still connect with the folks with whom you used to work? can you go back? is there no one on SP in your area with whom you can get together? sometimes we have to reach out to meet someone where they are, rather than expect them to come to us...

and to Feisty1949 its too bad that you and your friend of so many years have let some issue come between you... sorry you cannot agree to disagree and go on with your friendship.. is anything worth not speaking to someone who was (is) dear to you?

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ABB698 5/25/2011 11:17AM

    Penni-You are not alone! I do know what you are saying and how you are feeling. I actually used to be that close to my mom until recently, and she wasn't letting me be my own person and make my own decisions, so I backed off the friendship part a little, of our relationship. She will always be my mom, but I too, wish there was someone who you could always be 100% honest with your feelings with and not be judged. And yes, my hubby is awesome too, but girlfriends ARE different. About those who seem happy all the time, they're not! Trust me. I'm not happy ALL the time. About my weight loss issues, honestly I haven't had a bad day so far...I mean yes, I've had days where I ate poorly, or didn't exercise, but I am not unhappy on this journey. That's the mental part that makes it successful. I HAVE to be positive about this to make it work, because I see the value in it. I'm glad you were able to express your emotions and felt free to be yourself here. Crying is good for the soul, it allowed you to let go some of the stress in your feelings. HUGS to you my Spark friend. I'm here if you need to talk!!

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FEISTY1949 5/25/2011 11:10AM

    Penny, hugs to you, my on-line friend. I wish there was something I could say. I wish I had a magic wand I could wave and make it better. We know that's not possible. Being happy is a transient state. Being content is what I strive for with moments of happiness tossed in. Right now I don't have a call-anytime friend either. I had one, someone I'd known since I was 3 years old, but there were differences we couldn't resolve and we haven't spoken in over a year. So I too am lonely sometimes. And I soooo agree about crying! It's a better way to release emotions than throwing something, which I've done! Hang in.

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