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I got injured during my 5K this morning! (funny, not bad)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

So you would think that a race injury might be running related, like a turned ankle or a pulled muscle, both of which I have done. I've even fallen down while running! (A few times, actually, but never during a race. Not yet anyway...) But today was a new one.

Let me start by saying that I like to wear hats while I run. They keep the sun off my face and the sweat out of my eyes. They cover my crazy halo of frizz that can't seem to control. I do, however, have a hard time with finding hats that fit and stay DOWN on my head, so I am constantly pulling the brim down. All of my older hats have stains on the brim from the contstant tugging and adjusting. The hat I wore today is relatively new, and I have only worn it on a few runs. I knew as soon as the race started that this hat was going to drive me bonkers. It wouldn't stay in place, and it was a breezy morning to boot, so I was having a hard time keeping it on.

So there I was, somewhere in Mile 2 of my race, when a big gust of wind swept in. I felt my hat lift off my head and tried to grab it, but ended up poking myself in the eye. HARD! Like stabbing pain and blurry vision hard. I managed to recover, but YOWZA, it really hurt. Well, I kind of forgot about it until I saw myself in the mirror later, only to discover that I have a big red patch in the white of my eye -- you know the kind you get when you burst a bunch of blood vessels. So there it is, physical evidence of my clumsiness.

Oh well, I still had a great race, even injured. emoticon

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KKLAJOIE 6/27/2009 10:40PM

    I had my hat blow off twice last night during a bicycle ride. Both times my son doubled back to get it. I didn't slow down though, because I knew he'd catch up with me in a heartbeat! Great job, fantastic finish!

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DMR3673 6/27/2009 3:48PM

    Thanks for making me smile :0 and glad you weren't hurt too bad :)
Happy Running


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TAMTAM64 6/27/2009 12:26PM

    Oh my gosh... but soooo funny!


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NATURALSTYLE 6/27/2009 11:49AM

    lol!!!! The race was completed and you have two medals to show for it.....hhhaaa

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TRILLIUM22 6/27/2009 11:24AM

    I'm thinking I need to clip my hat to my head. Maybe you need to wear eye protection.

I'm feeling silly, I'm picturing you running in a motorcycle helmet and giggling. My teenage dd is asking what are you laughing at.

It was pouring rain on my last half and I've got my hat pulled down to keep the rain out of my eyes and hopefully it on my head. Anyway none of the race pictures look good at all. My husband got one that was not too bad.

Take care and I'm glad you poked the white part.

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    Okay...I initally read the I got injured during my 5K and thought oh no. Glad you are laughing about your injury that your hat caused. That would be interesting to see how an inusrance company would handle that....

Glad after all that you had a good race. emoticon

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You take the good, you take the bad.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

THE BAD: I binged last night. It was pretty bad. In the past, my binges have been very frantic and out of control. Lately (and I have binged once a week for the past three weeks straight), I feel like I am almost "choosing" to binge. The pattern of binging, feeling bad, and recovering from the binge is so familiar that it is almost comforting. The idea of NOT binging, of dealing with the feelings that make me want to binge in another way, is NOT familiar, and therefore, not comforting. I feel like I'm really getting to the bottom of the issue, but I still haven't stopped the behavior.

THE GOOD: I got up today, and I went for a run, achy belly and all. Then I did my usual circuit/sculpt class at the gym. Because in this battle between the binge eater and the healthy runner, the binge eater does NOT win. She just doesn't. The binge eater may have won last night, but the strong, healthy woman in me fought back this morning. I'll keep fighting those demons, and I will settle the score.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 6/25/2009 11:09AM

    Just don't ever, EVER give up.

I binged last night, too. I was up too late (which is always the first step). I was watching a TV show on Hulu (which is also a trigger - this is why I refuse to pay for cable - I eat in front of the TV).

So I ate a bunch of baby carrots, raw broccoli, celery, and 2 cups of salsa. I keep these things in the fridge for such emergencies.

I have to be careful, though, because baby carrots are a "gateway vegetable" and can lead to the harder stuff that contains carbs and fat.
Much more disturbing than the TYPE of food eaten is the PATTERN of the eating. And that has to be handled.

I know why I did it this time. I had been planning a trip to WY with a friend at the end of July but she didn't get back to me about whether she could go in time for me to get a decent plane fare. And there is no lodging left anywhere near where we wanted to go. So we had to scrap the trip. And I was disappointed. So I ate.

Did I feel better after eating? A little bit, yes.

Do I feel better about the trip now, that I've gained a pound? Not really.

Am I relieved that it was nothing worse than veggies and salsa? Definitely.

Am I going to think twice before engaging in this behavior again? I truly hope so.

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A nice weekend away...

Monday, June 08, 2009

I just got back from a four-day weekend in Minnesota, and I am happy to report that I stayed on track. I wasn't perfect -- not by a stretch -- but in general, I made good food choices and stayed as active as I could.

In the past, I have always treated vacations (or any time spent away from home, really) as "free zones" where calories don't count and exercise is not on the menu. I always used traveling as an excuse to overindulge and eat as much as possible, knowing that I would have to be "good" as soon as I got back to normal life.

This time, I actually took my healthy habits on the road. I did a few things I've always known were good ideas but never really put into practice.

1. I made sure to eat a healthy breakfast at the hotel every morning. Instead of having french toast and bacon, I opted for fruit, yogurt, and cereal. Breakfast was the meal I had the most control over, since most of my other meals were catered, served off of a fixed menu, or at someone's home.

2. I watched my portion sizes. Vacation does not have to mean double servings or cleaning my plate. I enjoyed all of my meals, but I did not throw portion control out the window.

3. I set a rule for myself that I could choose to have dessert/sweets no more than one time per day, even if more was offered. So I had homemade cinnamon cookies at a friend's house but I passed on the ice cream at the groom's dinner that night. I passed on dessert at lunch the next day because I knew I wanted wedding cake. (And now for the NOT perfect part, there were TWO kinds of wedding cake, and I did have a piece of each! But no guilt there!!)

4. I brought my running shoes with me. And I actually used them!!! This is a real first for me. I've always known that hotels have exercise rooms, but I've never actually used one. This was actually really easy to fit into my day. I got up early for a run one morning, and I snuck in a quick workout during afternoon downtime another day. I am very proud of myself for this one -- I think it helped relieve stress and served as a good reminder that healthy habits are part of my life no matter where I am.

All in all, it was a great trip, and it feels really good to come home and not feel like I have to kill myself trying to make up for being bad. It's nice to have a little balance in my life for a change!

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CINELO123 6/8/2009 8:44PM

    That is great!! It's always hard for me to keep on track when I go out of town. Way to go!!!

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    Fantastic. You should be proud of yourself. Congrats.

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I feel like I set myself up for the fall...

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

So I had a small binge episode tonight. I did manage to pull myself out of it before I did any real damage, which is a true sign of progress. As I look at my day today, I see that several small choices/influences came together, and I responded in my typical way -- stress eating! Here's what happened.

1. I am leaving town tomorrow to go attend and participate in a friend's wedding. I have 101 things to do and am feeling stressed.
2. I had to stay at work 3 hours late. More stress. I inhaled a Fiber One bar within seconds of my boss delivering this news.
3. I was trying to finish up a few random foods before leaving town, so I didn't really have lunch. I just had a few snacky things that did not leave me feeling satisfied.
4. Before I even got home from work, I decided that I needed a super quick dinner so I could get to packing. I felt I "deserved" a treat because it had been such a long day. So I brilliantly decided that I should have peanut butter and cool whip on a bagel. For dinner.

Now, all three of these foods are trigger foods for me. Why, oh why, would I think it was okay to eat trigger foods for dinner? This is a lesson I thought I had learned. I used to eat ice cream and cookies for dinner all the time. I thought calories were calories, and I didn't care where they came from. I have since learned that eating REAL food and REAL meals really helps me control my emotional eating.

So I ate my planned dinner treat, then promptly ate more, and some more. I ate 1,000 calories in less than 5 minutes. It was one of those frantic moments where I had to eat one bagel while the other was toasting because my need to eat was so intense that I could not wait one more minute.

But then, I stopped. I was sitting there on my kitchen floor with my spoon in the peanut butter jar, and I stopped. I thought about the great weekend I have coming up. I thought about how nice it would be to be able to have dessert and coffee with friends and not be feeling guilty about my binge earlier in the week. I thought about not having to worry about my bridesmaid's dress being to tight because I'm bloated. I thought about wanting to share pleasurable moments with people I love instead of sneaking and hiding and feeling guilty. So I stopped.

This is really big for me. I'm glad I'm getting on that plane tomorrow. There's nothing like a change of scenery to help me reset and get those pesky binge thoughts out of my head.

Until Monday...

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    You did well to stop yourself. Somedays are so stressful, that food is the only comfort that is quick. You know you would of gotten out and run IF ONLY YOU HAD THE TIME. But that is what you didn't have lots of. Forget today is a new day, learn that you need to plan ahead better for these times - prepack or a packing list, to do list - you can start a few days before leaving.

Now enjoy the wedding this weekend. We will all be waiting for you.

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SALDRU 6/4/2009 8:02AM

    I'm so proud of you. Have a great weekend. You deserve it!

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HICALGAL 6/4/2009 3:23AM

    great blog...glad to see you overcame what could've been a major all out binge! enjoy and have a wonderful time at the wedding.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 6/3/2009 11:21PM

    Dude. Tell me about it.

I'm learning what causes me to fall, too, and every time I think I've got it figured out, I find new ways! (I had my own small binge episode tonight, and managed to escape under 1500 cal for the day, but just barely.)

Good for you, stopping in time to minimize the damage. I am increasingly convinced that this process is about staying aware and dancing on the edge without falling over. No matter how well I plan things, situations and triggers crop up, and then it's a matter of flying by the seat of my pants, to stay balanced and upright.

You managed that tonight, by interrupting the peanut butter with constructive thoughts. So good on you!!! :-)

And have a great time at the wedding.

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Lesson learned during today's run: how "fast" I am is all in my head.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

I've been training for a 20K that I'm doing later this summer. I'm using a 14-week Smart Coach program. I didn't have a recent race time to put in when I created the program, so I just put in an approximate 10K time (this means I picked a random number out of the sky). Smart Coach did its thing and crunched the numbers, and it gave me a target pace for my easy runs, tempo runs, long runs, etc. And I've been following that just fine. When Smart Coach told me to run 5 miles easy @ 10:35, I ran 5 miles easy @ 10:35. Sure, it felt easy, but I thought it was supposed to.

Well, I finally did a 10K last weekend, and as I mentioned in my last post, I ran MUCH faster than I expected. This was my first clue that speed is all in my head. Then yesterday, I got back on Smart Coach, put in a REAL 10K time, and it gave me new target paces for my running. So today, I went out to do my long run (yes, a long run on a Tuesday morning. Planning ahead because I'll be out of town this weekend). Smart Coach told me to run 9 miles @ 9:29. So what did I do? I ran 9 miles @ 9:29. Hmmmm... Is it really all in my head? Could I have been running faster all along? What is going on here?

It will take many more runs for this to sink in, but I think I've maybe I've been running slow because I thought I was slow. I mean, I'm still slow, but not as slow. Ha! My point is that I have had a number/pace/10K time stuck in my head, so I have used that as my upper limit, my maximum, the fastest I could ever go. I get on the treadmill and set the speed, or I go outside and shuffle along. I haven't been trying to run faster, because I thought I knew how fast I could run. Lesson learned.

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ESBELL 6/2/2009 12:37PM

    I read your blog this morning, and really liked it. I went for a 3 mile run today, and got so discouraged because I wasn't feeling I could finish strong. Then I remembered what you had written and I was able to get it together and sprint to a finish. 2 minutes faster than I did it last month!!! I don't believe I'll be doing a 9:36 mile any time soon, but I can AND WILL improve every time lace up my shoes and hit the trail!

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    I wish I could say it is all in my head. I am slow and I know it. I am so excited for you that you can run that fast. I bow to your speed. I hope that I can sometime in the future learn your lesson, but I guess I should complain too much - I have only been running again since 3 months it will happen when it is to happen.

A great big emoticon on your new found knowledge that fast is all in your head, but I betcha your legs had something to do with it.


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TRILLIUM22 6/2/2009 9:29AM

    Maybe you're going to have to change your profile from a penguin. Great times.

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