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My first and hopefully last ambulance ride

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Hi,

I now my "ailment" is quite mild to those that most of you are so graciously living with and accepting of, but this breathing issue is really getting to me. Yesterday, I had to leave work mid-morning after taking my "only when needed asthma inhaler" and I basically went home and passed out with my dogs around me. At the hospital last week they told me this secondary inhaler will make me very jittery so it was okay to take an ativan tablet with it. I actually slept through my husband arriving home for lunch (what I meant to say I slept through three excited doggies all barking and banging into furniture as he got dinner and theirs!) and I pretty well slept until mid-afternoon.

I used to have panic attacks years ago when my depression/anxiety wasn't as controlled as it is today. And I think when I woke up and was having trouble breathing a panic attack ensued and then I was really in a tizzy. We have this Help Line here in our province where you can call registered nurses and discuss what is going on so she recommended an ambulance be called because of the chest pain I was also feeling.

I was seen to right away, hooked up to everything, and only when they pressed on my breast bone did I have a physical reaction in that I wanted to punch somebody! Sent home with the recommendations to return to work and not to over talk nor over exert myself. If I feel like I have to use the emergency puffer to use it but to settle down for a five or ten minute period to let it work.

I am new to all of this but apparently after pneumonia your body starts to feel better before your lungs are completely back to normal. Thus I feel okay when I get up and enjoy going to work but mid morning my lungs aren't functioning as well as they could and I get tired. The pain in the breast bone is because of the laboured breathing. Well, it explains a lot and certainly being told what to expect makes it slightly less frightening.

Needless to say I didn't get any exercise yesterday (unless coughing helps!) but I did lay out and eat my breakfast as planned. I am going to try to make that an every day habit much like my water consumption.

Setting the table the night before and having everything out and ready does make it much less tempting to grab someting while enroute to work. We were given one of those Keurig coffee machines (as a thank you gift for house sitting) so I use that. The only drawback to all of this is that by mid morning I need a second water bottle by my side so that isn't a drawback but a good thing. I also am getting breakfast in me....with bread, protein and two lots of fruit.

Have rambled on enough....beautiful sunny day here......might try the dog park later on as I can sort of take it easy while the dogs have their bit of fun.

Have a wonderful day all!

  
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KARENCRANER 10/26/2012 4:00PM

    So sorry I'm tardy reading this blog! So glad that you're getting the knowledge and support you need!

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GOANNA2 10/26/2012 9:11AM

    Glad you are OK Susan. Must be scary being in an'amulance.
Takes time to get over pneumonia, so make sure you get lots
of rest and lots of good sleep. It's great that you are sounding
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LYNNWILK2 10/25/2012 10:58AM

    Susan, I certainly hope you are feeling much better today. Breathing trouble and anxiety attacks are terrible when brought together on top of each other. Do you ever use coffee to help open the airway and make your breathing easier. It might work, but you have to drink it black. And most of the breathers will increase your heart rate and make you feel a bit wonky for a bit. Please take care and you are in my prayers.

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HOPESINGH 10/25/2012 6:26AM

    I was relieved to read that it wasn't as bad as I had imagined after reading your title. If it's all about taking it slowly for a while, no doubt you can do this. You're strong!

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/24/2012 10:39PM

    Your title gave me pause Ė Iíve never been in an ambulance and havenít given any thought about actually ever being in one. Like death, these are pretty much givens at some point in life. Are we ever ready to face our vulnerabilities? You were wise to follow through with your help line . . . far too many women ignore symptoms that can have fatal consequences.

Planning is a lifeline and Iím so glad it is getting your day started well. Having exceeded my ranges recently, I have to work to make sure I eat satisfying meals so I can lay off the late night snacking. Today was my first successful day this week. May you stay strong and focused, while allowing the healing process to work itís wonders.


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JAMER123 10/24/2012 9:49PM

    So glad you are doing better. It had to have been very frightening to have more breathing difficulties! Glad the pneumonia is improving. I used to use an inhaler a lot but haven't for a couple three yrs. now. I know if I had to use it again, I would be terribly jittery!! When one uses them regularly & the body is used to the "shot of adrenaline", the jitters are seldom felt as strong. Hoping you continue to improve!!

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GOOZLEBEAR 10/24/2012 9:28PM

    Glad you are doing good, I don't think I would like an ambulance ride either. Make sure you get your rest, will be thinking of you!

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ANGRITTER 10/24/2012 4:45PM

    What are the international rates for shipping a giant bubble to you so you can stay safe and germ free??

It's been 90 degrees here in FL, and we've been cleaning the yard again - too much growth this summer and not stopping yet. But my allergies are through the roof. I felt like my nose had a body all it's own earlier as my head was so clogged up from working in all that pollen.

But please listen to the docs and REST whenever you can so you don't further damage yourself, or anyone trying to help you (by punching them in the nose). And the "coma"-like sleeping is bothersome as well. But I hope hubby takes good care of you and keeps you hydrated and clean-breathing. You may need to invest in an air purifier if this keeps up too long. I have wanted one forever, but can't afford it now.

Good luck on your recovery - and don't overdo it!

Hugs and tons of love,
Angela

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CELLISTA1 10/24/2012 3:53PM

    I had pneumonia a few years ago and all I can say is: it takes time! And: reduce stress in any and every possible way you can. It took me 6 weeks to recover and I don't have all the other issues that you do. What finally brought me back to health was a week away from home where I didn't have to work, shop, cook, take out the dog, and tend to the everyday things. Is that possible for you?

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_LINDA 10/24/2012 2:39PM

    Wow so sorry you had this frightening experience! Never knew that happened with pneumonia that residual effect. I hope things get better for you soonest!!
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KANSASROSE67 10/24/2012 12:22PM

    Glad everything is ok. Good job on breakfast and staying positive!

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ILOVEMALI 10/24/2012 12:09PM

  Please take it easy -- it takes a while for your body to heal from this illness's insult! xoxo

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BOVEY63 10/24/2012 10:59AM

    So glad all worked out well at the hospital and that you are still on the road to recovery. Take it easy and let yourself heal!
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LESLIES537 10/24/2012 10:24AM

    You better take it easy Susan! I hope that is your last ride in an ambulance too!! Bless your crazy heart!! emoticon emoticon

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JOANNANOW 10/24/2012 9:44AM

    Yikes! You have really had to go through quite a bad patch Susan. Great to hear that you are taking good care of yourself and that you have sunshine. Hope you are back in tip top shape soon.
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CODEMAULER 10/24/2012 9:22AM

    Your healthy breakfast will help those lungs heal, too!!

I do hope that you are feeling better very soon.

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CHUBRUB3 10/24/2012 9:05AM

    Oh Susan how scary for you and your DH.
Glad your mending, be careful dear friend.
Hugs,
Angela


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NIKIBOBIKI 10/24/2012 8:51AM

    Yikes! Glad you are ok!

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SANDEEB7 10/24/2012 8:37AM

    Take it easy while you heal. Thinking of you. Bet those doggies are looking after you well! ;) Great to have such a supportive hubby. x

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JLITT62 10/24/2012 8:25AM

    You probably shouldn't be exercising a whole lot right now . . . but great job on breakfast!

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AZMOMXTWO 10/24/2012 8:06AM

  It is good to see that you will be ok

keep up the good work and the good thoughts

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Small but mighty game changers - my challenge to myself

Monday, October 22, 2012

Hi,

While what I did about a year ago used to work I have slowly slid away from many of the good nutritional, living, and exercise habits I had slowly instilled into my lifestyle during my first year of Spark.

Although that is a bad thing it is also very empowering to acknowledge it and even more so to say "this has got to stop and we are going to slowly get you back to where you were by making small, yet consistent choices.

Some of my goals were so vague it would be easy to fool myself into thinking they were good choices.

Take for example my goal to eat breakfast. Well, that is kind of vague isn't it? It didn't entail where breakfast was to be eaten nor what was to consist of. Last night I set our table, set up the coffee machine, took out two whole wheat english muffins, placed a jar of peanut butter on the table along with a banana. I also had 22 almonds in a bag and an apple and a large water bottle (the latter stuff came to work with me) to eat thoroughout the morning. I feel good and John ate breakfast with me. No more bagels and muffins at McDonalds or Tim Hortons.

So, my mini goal this week is to do this every night before bed. Have breakfast thought out, planned ahead and bring fruit to work with me. Sounds so simple because it is so simple! Who would have thought!

  
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BOVEY63 10/24/2012 10:56AM

    Great plan! I do good with my meal planning weekdays when I have to work and then struggle on the weekends.

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CELLISTA1 10/23/2012 3:19PM

    Well done!

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_LINDA 10/22/2012 8:07PM

    Sounds like an awesome plan! Well done Susan!! You can do this!!
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EJOY-EVELYN 10/22/2012 6:38PM

    WooHoo! And this may provide enough incentive to make better choices in other areas. One step at a time until you have a wealth of good, nutritional strategies in place. I hope you also add a dimension of accountability as an incentive to stay true to the goals you set.

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CODEMAULER 10/22/2012 6:06PM

    Small changes add up to good habits - go you!!

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TEMPEST272002 10/22/2012 4:19PM

    Great idea! It's all the little tiny choices that add up to a healthy lifestyle.

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KANSASROSE67 10/22/2012 4:13PM

    I love it...small and simple!

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ANGRITTER 10/22/2012 1:02PM

    That's my gal!! So happy you are ready to face forward again and kick some butt! I have missed your witicism and your fun nature!

And thanks for the reminder of Almonds. I may have to grab some while I am out today. And no, I still have not moved from my bed. Yesterday kicked my tail and I am relishing in my comfy bed for a few more minutes before I have to hit the bank and the store.

A+ for you today on your activities.

Hugs,
Ang

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KADUFRESNE 10/22/2012 10:24AM

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SILVER1369 10/22/2012 10:22AM

    emoticon baby steps seem to work out best and lead to bigger steps and goals. You can and will do this. emoticon

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GRAMLORI 10/22/2012 10:01AM

    Sometimes baby steps are all we can do.....but each one moves us closer to the BIG goals!!! God bless, Susan!!!
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CHUBRUB3 10/22/2012 9:49AM

    Awesome! I have my snacks and lunch planned out for today too, to help me make the right choices.
Hugs,
Angela


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CHLOE453 10/22/2012 8:50AM

    I wish you fantastic success on your (mini) goals this week.....you can and will do this!!! Hugs

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The good news is I'm going to live - the bad news is I'm overweight

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Hello!

Well, the past weeks are ones I wish I could just erase from my memory but alas that is not the case. I've been sick off and on and have been to the doctor too many times and have been prescribed too many medications. This ended up with a five hour stint in the emergency department on Thursday night where they believed I had a blood clot! Turns out I didn't but I wasn't getting enough air so I was hooked up to four masks to help me breath and have been sent home with asthma inhalers and more prednisone. Turns out the antibiotics were actually doing me more harm than good and I was heading to very dangerous ground.

Anyway, I was treated so well at the hospital and I had a young female doctor who went over my medical history. Since I am not a smoker and never have smoked (well, except for the time when I was twenty two and stole a smoke and nearly choked to death on the fumes!!! emoticon - which taught me two important life lessons - don't steal and don't smoke!) she asked if I had any other health issues. I mentioned depression and then I piped up "well, I know I am overweight" and she said that most patients won't acknowledge that at all. So I went further and said, actually I am morbidly obese according to my BMI and she smiled and and said, let's leave it at overweight instead of labelling yourself.

Wow, that really struck me. Yes, if you go by my BMI alone (I am 5 ft 6 inches) and weigh 234 pounds I am morbidly obese. But that is putting a label on me which in itself makes it harder to break free from. So I told this doctor about Spark and how I was trying to change my life around. She was so pleased to hear this and was very encouraging. I told her how good I felt last year when I was exercising a fair bit through walking and I was eating much better and she asked what it would take for me to get back to that point and I said, not much, really.

"NOT MUCH REALLY"? But it is true. I could begin to walk again and I know from experience it won't take me long to get into the groove. I drink my water now (yay!) and I do know the basics of eating healthy.

I left the hospital feeling like a $100! And, I've continued to feel that way. I went out on Friday and stocked up our freezer and fridge with healthy items. I am going with my husband and dogs for a walk today, I am cooking a huge turkey and roasted veggies today (I will freeze leftovers), I am excited to be going back to work and I am excited to be back on Spark. YAY!

Look forward to catching up with all of you!!!!

xo Susan

P.S. I am not spell checking because my computer locks up everytime I do and I lose what I have written...time to bring it in to be serviced I think!

  
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GOANNA2 10/22/2012 8:00AM

    Welcome back Susan. Great positive blog. emoticon emoticon

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COLETTEISGREAT 10/22/2012 7:34AM

    Sounds like you ended up with a wonderful experience at the hospital. So great that you're making good changes!

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POPSY190 10/22/2012 7:23AM

    It's an I'll wind ....l sorry about the emergency visit but at least some of the medicine issues are sorted out and you have encountered a doctor who is a skilled in human relations. You sound so much better than before. emoticon

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MILLIE-MILOU 10/22/2012 4:16AM

    emoticon What a great blog. You have such a great attitude (and a huge freezer by the sounds of it). I will follow your blogs so I can keep up with such a positive poster if that's ok with you.

Oh, don't tell anyone but I too pinched a ciggy and nearly choked to death on the fumes, passed out and everything but I was 14 at the time. Never did it again emoticon

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HICKOK-HALEY 10/22/2012 3:46AM

    I like the Doctor. She is on the ball. Glad you are back. emoticon

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_LINDA 10/21/2012 9:42PM

    This is so wonderful to hear! You met a great Dr. there. But really, she was just helping you voice what you already knew deep down inside. You CAN live a healthy lifestyle, get fit and lose the weight. Its your spirit and your never say die attitude that defines you, not a number on the scale, your depression or an illness! Enjoy the walk!
So very, very happy to have you back!
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CASE4GRACE 10/21/2012 9:14PM

    So glad you are feeling better and are up and around again. Hope you just keep getting better. What a nice doctor to just "leave it at overweight" and it sounds like that conversation may be a turning point for you. So proud of the good choices you have already made. Keep up the good work and keep sparking!!
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GOOZLEBEAR 10/21/2012 8:56PM

    Great to have you back and I know you can reach your goals! We are here to support you!!! Sounds like you finally have a very understanding and caring doctor.
Thanks for sharing this great blog with us!!!

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    Welcome back!!! Sounds like a smart doctor!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/21/2012 7:55PM

    For me, saying those ugly words (morbidly obese) was a part of my motivation to lose a hundred pounds to work through my obesity and overweight towards a healthy BMI. I'm at the top of the line for a healthy BMI without going over 25 and I feel miserable as I sit here and write this: I'm now a size 14 when I have so many beautiful size 12 clothes awaiting my enjoyment again. That said, do I need a little perspective? Absolutely! It's a constant battle I cannot afford to let beat me.

You can do this!

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ILOVEMALI 10/21/2012 4:52PM

  Feel better and keep on sparking!!

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SARAWALKS 10/21/2012 3:09PM

    Hurrah for you, go for it, you can do it! What a marvelous attitude that doctor has, she really knows people, she will do a lot of good in this world!
BTW I really love your swirly swishy orange-y page background!
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ANGRITTER 10/21/2012 1:58PM

    So glad you are feeling better. Maybe you'll feel like $1000 after you get back to walking with your hubby and children! Then I know you are back for good!

I havea friend who actually died for a few minutes while she was being given antibiotics for afoot surgery. She sis diabetic and actually died in the ambulance after an IV does of antibiotics. There were too many things going wrong in her body at one time and the last dose pushed her over the edge.

I thank God that you caught it in time before the same scary thing happens to you! She is now scared to be alone in her home for fear of what might happen. I am right there with her if it ever happened to me.

But I am so happy to read your smile in this blog! You really are back! YAY. I have missed you so much!! I knew you were busy so I didn't e-mail you much, but now that you are back at it, I won't let you out of my sight for long before I check in. But I promise not to be a stalker!!

Love and hugs,
Ang

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CELLISTA1 10/21/2012 12:45PM

    What do they call that? Oh, yeah: A WAKEUP CALL! How great that it created a positive response in you. Excellent!

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CHUBRUB3 10/21/2012 11:20AM

    Well the good news far outweighs the bad!
Yay for you! So glad your on the road to recovery, especially after the scare at the hospital.
Hugs and take care of your self!
Angela

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GAYLE-G-63 10/21/2012 11:12AM

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Susan,

You are one of my favorite people! I wish you for nothing but the best! You can do it!!!

~Gayle~

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BOVEY63 10/21/2012 11:00AM

    So glad you are on the road to recovery and back on Spark!
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JOANNANOW 10/21/2012 10:48AM

    So happy to hear you are feeling better! The dogs are so cute. Ginger looks like the dog in the Pedigree ad.
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MAMADWARF 10/21/2012 10:15AM

    Awesome! Good stuff!

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LIBBYG7 10/21/2012 9:16AM

    Susan....
What a lovely, positive blog!! So good to hear you sounding so happy and motivated. This doctor is a keeper ...... can you keep her??

What I don't understand.....were you taking more than one anti-biotic at a time?? That's very dangerous.... I'm glad you are better and coming back to SP.....you were missed.
Welcome Back, Luv.

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JLITT62 10/21/2012 8:55AM

    Too bad she can't be your primary care dr! She sounds awesome!

Go Susan!

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DARJR50 10/21/2012 8:47AM

  Welcome back. It sounds like you have the right attitude. You have a doctor who understands people, not just medicne. Stick with her, she will help keep you focused and motivated.

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RAPUNZEL53 10/21/2012 8:41AM

  Good Luck!

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ONE-HOT-MAMA1 10/21/2012 8:38AM

    way to go welcome back to spark you can reach your goals


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Chicken soup - the answer to all of your woes

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Hi,

I have to thank many, many of my great SparkFriends who have yet again pulled me out of a dark spot and who continue to support me when I really haven't been the most reliable Spark buddy to them.

Round four of antibiotics seems to be doing the trick....I'm so thrilled to be feeling even a wee bit better. I did make the chicken soup afterall....I was so exhausted I literally chopped up an onion which I put in the slow cooker. I added three frozen skinless, boneless chicken breast and poured in some vegetable broth. After cooking a few hours I tossed in a small bag of mini carrots that I had to sit down to chop up and also added some chopped celery and turnip. More broth (I also removed the chicken and cubed it) and some egg noodles and seasoning to taste.....I was so hungry I ate two huge bowls with a glass of milk.

This made me feel better physically and mentally. I prepared something healthy and I ate it which did more more good than the medication I am on. It wasn't a fancy meal by any means nor was it the best soup I have ever made but it did me wonders. Even my husband commented on it. Funny thing, isn't it.

Yesterday I managed to go to the dog park where I stayed for an entire fifteen minutes before getting too skakey to stay. Today, I spent about one hour out on our back patio just resting in the sun and then this afternoon I took the hounds for a short walk in the woods. I had to sit down twice along the way but I accomplished something.Yay!!! I'm starting to feel like me again.

I took some pictures today of the dogs which I hope to upload someday soon. They are quite the characters and keep me very happy and entertained.

xo Susan

P.S. guess what I am having for supper? You got it...chicken soup........

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JLITT62 10/21/2012 5:32AM

    Glad the soup is helping!

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BOVEY63 10/19/2012 9:34PM

    So glad you are beginning to feel better. Gotta love chicken soup!
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GOANNA2 10/19/2012 5:23AM

    Like you, I went back to the doctor on Tuesday and I also
have another round of antibiotics. I asked the doc for a
referral for a chest X-Ray. It is the 4th time this year that
I have been on antibiotics for 3 -4 weeks at a time.
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LESLIES537 10/18/2012 5:43PM

    Oh man, I hope this round of antibiotics kicks it for good this time! That chicken soup sounds easy and soooo yummy! I will have to try that. (I've never even made it before! Amateur cook here. ;)

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p.s. I have been a horrible spark buddy--sorry! I'll be around more, promise!
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_LINDA 10/18/2012 1:37AM

    Wow. I didn't realize how very sick you have been Susan. So sorry to hear that :( I am glad you can get out and enjoy a few things at least. Dogs are good caregivers aren't they? Always there for you and to lift your spirits. They know when you aren't feeling well.
Well done with the soup! You are far ahead of me on that as I don't cook. I miss my Mom's hearty soups. She is always giving me muffins but never offers me soup.
Enjoy your soup and feel better soon..
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JOANNANOW 10/17/2012 10:20PM

    Good to hear that you are feeling better. MMMM that soup must be wonderful! I should make some too. See what a good influence you are? emoticon

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T1DMOM 10/17/2012 9:18PM

    Chicken soup is a huge favorite in the Walsh household lol.
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PAMNANGEL 10/17/2012 7:59PM

    Chicken soup, the original wonder drug.

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LJCANNON 10/17/2012 7:52PM

    emoticon Best Recipe for Feeling Better I have seen this week!! You are on the Road to Recovery. Chicken Soup really is a Magical Food!!

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CHUBRUB3 10/17/2012 7:45PM

    Awesome!!!
Soup is the best! So glad you cooked and partook of it.
hugs,
Angela
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ANGRITTER 10/17/2012 7:06PM

    Man, I knew as soon as I didn't check in here every day that I would miss something... and I did. I am so sorry that you have been feeling so sick! It seems like everyone is sick right now but me and that's because I refuse to let anyone even remotely sick into my house!!

I do have the crappy duty of driving to my doc's office to pick up my info for my attorney. I am sure I can catch a germ or two in there if you'd like a buddy to suffer through this with you? It's the only offer I can give you today. Except maybe make you smile.

So let me ask the BIG question everyone always asks me afterI have been sick: Did you lose any weight? (Hope you found that funny!)

Hoping you are getting stronger and stronger. I got my cast off last Monday and I am outside walking in my shorts every day still. We can open the windows, but it as still 83 here today. Coming down for a visit? emoticon

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/17/2012 3:24PM

    Ah yes, the wonders of chicken soup. May you succeed in every fine challenge that comes your way.

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ILOVEMALI 10/17/2012 2:34PM

  so glad to know that you are feeling better!

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I need help please and I don't even know what I need help with

Monday, October 15, 2012

Hi,

How do you go about asking for help when you are not even sure what help you are in need of? I feel like I'm so far away from Spark that I will never get back to where I was. Perhaps that is the problem...I don't need to go back to where I was but rather I need to dust myself off and get back on the path. Some of you might have passed me, some of you might have left me in the ditch, some of you might be lagging behind, but the point is this is a lifelong journey for me and not a race.

I've gone downhill lately but my mental strength is surprising myself. Mind you, I almost was in tears at the doctor today because I am still struggling with whatever flu/cold that has it grip on me. Another week off work and the fourth round of antibiotics. Aaarrgghh.

I wanted to get back to my journey by October 1st but that really didn't work out. But that is okay, right? The doctor says I have to take care of me right now and my husband is wonderfully supportive. He is not a cook but did make me some Kraft Dinner last night which is the first food I really ate in a few days. Tomorrow we are going to make some chicken noodle soup on the slow cooker. We will fill it with good for us veggies so even if I just eat a bit it is something nutritious.

Does this sound as pitiful as it seems? Sorry! I am struggling not to get down mentally and maybe this is a wake up call not to take my phyical health for granted!

Miss you all and will talk soon!

  
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ANGRITTER 10/17/2012 7:09PM

    I am so happy you had so many people who love you to help you through this. Wonder why my subscription to your page went away. Dang! I will have to make sure it is back on again.

I did read your next blog and I am so sorry that you are ill, but you made it out of the house today and I am proud of you for that! And I am sure you pups are super happy to see their momma up and moving around again!

Lots of hugs, but I'm keeping a mask on when I hug you!
Ang

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ADELE66 10/16/2012 1:19PM

    Am sending some positive thoughts your way.

Sometimes, when we don't know what help to ask for, we find out when we start talking to people who understand and care about us. Try just talking about whatever you feel.... and see where the conversation takes you....

Hang in there... you'll start to feel better soon.

Adele

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MLH148 10/16/2012 12:07PM

    no words I can really add -- just take care, rest but maybe a short walk might help raise your spirits (if it's a nice fall day outside) emoticon

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JOANNANOW 10/16/2012 10:35AM

    oh Susan I didn't realize you had been so ill! I hope the chicken soup turns things around and that your recovery will be quick. Sending out healing vibes and virtual hugs emoticon

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JLITT62 10/16/2012 7:55AM

    Chicken noodle soup, especially made with love, is just the ticket. Love yourself with rest, not food.

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GOANNA2 10/16/2012 6:51AM

    It's so great to see a blog from you again Susan.
You just do waht the doctor said and take care of yourself.
I have also had a chest/ bronchial infection and am on
another round of antiobiotics and also have been feeling down.
With me, I have spent so much time on Spark and not enough
time on physical activity. I'm the opposite - too much sitting
around so as not to think about things. I realize we each have
different coping mechanisms and I just want you to stop being
so hard on yourself. You will know when you are ready to come
back. Love yourself. Remember, I'm OK - You're OK emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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POPSY190 10/16/2012 4:53AM

    Good to read a blog from you again - missed you! You have had a massive amount of stress lately which has probably drained your immunity a lot. You are doing what you can to come through it all. In the meantime just keep touching base with your SFs and we will be here for you! emoticon

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ILOVEMALI 10/16/2012 3:28AM

  Take your time and get well. I had pneumonia in January 2011 and was on oxygen for 3 weeks. It took a few months for me to get back to what passes for normal. You DO NOT want to get worse or to relapse. Take care of yourself!

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CELLISTA1 10/16/2012 1:23AM

    When you're feeling under the weather, everything seems worse. Concentrate on getting well. Eat foods that support your immune system so you don't get sick again and don't be tempted to do more stuff than you can. Once you're feeling stronger, I bet everything will fall into place and you will know what you need.

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JAMER123 10/16/2012 12:30AM

    Hi Susan! We want you to get back to us but we want you to get healthy before!! Your health is the most important. We are walking beside you and are here to help you up when you need us! Take care and enjoy that wonderful chicken noodle soup. I made that the other night and that add of mixed veggies made it even better!!
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CASE4GRACE 10/15/2012 11:24PM

    Don't put any pressure on yourself, the journey will still be there waiting. Just take good care of you and get to feeling better soon. That's most important. Your body needs rest and nourishment. Sending hugs and hoping you are better quickly!

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/15/2012 10:37PM

    We all can use help at times. You are strong and the journey was never intended to be an "easy" one. Lord knows, I wouldn't be here if it were. I find that the Spark Community is an incredible one at helping us be who we want to be. My best support comes through team participation where accountability is the greatest. You're a great writer, so updating us through your status lines or blogs are a great way to share your successes. Let us know through your written goals (ie SMART goals) where you want to be and how you want to be there, and you'll undoubtedly find many people there to offer support, advice (when desired), or some proverbial kick in the butt. How would you like to report in, so to speak, so we can both support you and allow for some added accountability? Welcome back, dear! Hug, hug -- Evelyn

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MAMADWARF 10/15/2012 9:45PM

    Well we are all here at a different part of our journey. Just jump back wherever you are whenever you can. I do a Sunday check in that helps me touch base. You are welcome to comment and tune in. Even if it is only on Sunday, feel better,

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MBGUYER 10/15/2012 9:26PM

  I'm with some of the other commenters, and your doctor, take care of yourself right now. Maybe concentrate on your fluid intake and make sure that it is where you want it to be.

Feel better -- you have a long time to get back to this healthy lifestyle!


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RUNNER12COM 10/15/2012 9:03PM

    You don't have to know what you need, just that the answer is here somewhere in the Spark Community.

Reach out. We're here. And you'll find your way back.

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HDHAWK 10/15/2012 8:18PM

    Get all the rest you need for now and eat as well as you can. Hope you feel better soon!

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SPARKLISE 10/15/2012 8:17PM

    There is really no rush.
When your health is back, you will jump right back in.
I've had to take 4 weeks of in the spring because of illness,but now i'm back stronger than ever! emoticon

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CAROLYNVIL 10/15/2012 8:03PM

    take one day at a time,get better soon.

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CHUBRUB3 10/15/2012 7:02PM

    Hugs Susan, I hope you feel better soon.
Start with some healthy soup if you can manage making it, Chicken noodle is always good for the soul and body.
Then when you feel better you can carry on.
Hugs,
Angela

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ANDI571 10/15/2012 5:51PM

    Don't be hard on yourself, we have all walked in your shoes. When you are sick, it makes the journey that much harder. Just make good choices where you can. You can fit a Kraft dinner in, just don't eat as much as you might a healthier dish. Every meal we eat is one out of many meals to come. If we don't eat exactly what we need to, we just do it next meal. We only lose if we quit the battle.

Take care of yourself. That is as important as any food you will eat. emoticon

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KANSASROSE67 10/15/2012 5:32PM

    It's hard to care about anything when you're sick. Take care of yourself...we are here for you!

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BOVEY63 10/15/2012 5:17PM

    Wherever you are in this journey, know that I am with you my friend! Take care of yourself and when you are ready to jump back on the path, you will not be alone.
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LIBBYG7 10/15/2012 4:51PM

    Hi Susan,
I'm so sorry you are so sick. I've been where you are many times in my life -- colds/flus I couldn't shake - that would hang on for weeks and weeks - and then relapse! My problem is a weak immune system.....and weak lungs. Has the doctor checked your lungs? If you are coughing/wheezing - it would be wise to get a chest x-ray. It couldn't hurt...
In the meantime let your hubby and furballs comfort you - and do what you can to feel better. Getting rest is top of the list!
And don't worry about your weight just now. Eat healthy stuff - lots of fluids.....and indulge in a little forbidden stuff (a little!) :)

Take good care and hugs,
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