Monday, September 17, 2012
Beautiful sunny day here again today with a temperature at 7:30 a.m. of about 10 degrees celsius. It should warm up to the low to mid-twenties by lunch hour which is quite nice for this time of the year. In other words, it is a great day to get out with the dogs!
I've had a very productive weekend in my continuing attempts to clear up the clutter. Another bag of clothes gone to goodwill AND I'm starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I never knew how liberating this could all be. I have always had too much of everything (what a good complaint to have) - whether it be food in our pantry, food in our freezer, clothes, cleaning supplies, etc. I'm slowly whittling it down to manageable amounts by putting a spending freeze on and only buying when stuff runs out. When I looked under my bathroom vanity this weekend and I actually had space I felt a ridiculous amount of pleasure. Now, my basement is still a complete mess but I am going to get there when I get finished with the upstairs. Everything in its time!
Tomorrow we officially sign the mortgage papers and my credit cards are going into the freezer. We are going to live on cash (we don't use our debit cards) as I think it will give us a good idea where the money goes each month. I cannot believe how liberating this feels. I now know how much money I make (okay, I have nobody to blame that on but myself and my tendency to put my head in the sand), I know how much John makes and I know how much money we spend on routine bills.
For some, unknown reason, I thought ignorance is bliss. But heck, no! Knowledge is empowering and it is providing me with a sense of fulfillment and relief that I have never quite mastered before.
So, how does this apply to Spark? Well, when I was more aware of my physical activity and my food consumption I succeeded with my weight loss. As soon as I put my head back in the sand, however, I started to slip up. I confess to taking the past few weeks completely off from Spark but it was just that I had so many other things to do and I didn't want to go off the deep end. What I have realized, however, is that there is a balance. When I get settled away and have just the day-to-day clutter to deal with I know Spark will be paramount in my life again. I am giving myself until the end of September for this. Then I will be back for real!!! Look out!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Well, we our island is getting slammed today by "tropical storm" Leslie which is good as at least she isn't a full blown hurricane. Of course, she could be by now because the weather forecasters were divided on that topic. All I can tell you that here in my cozy house (a true blessing!) all I can hear is the wind outside and the rain beating against the windows. My three doggies are sleeping with very full bladders but they would rather that than attempt a "pee break".
As for where I am (aside from being in my living room!), I have a lot accomplished and I am starting to feel good about it. The mortgage has been applied for, we have an appointment to help me learn about budgets, and I am taking over the finances. This is a big step for someone who up until a few weeks ago didn't even know how much money she made! Honestly. The three years of unfiled taxes are filed and refund is being processed. Yes, a refund!!!
I have been letting my physical health slide lately which isn't a good thing at all but I know I have what it takes to get that under control as well. Unfortunately, I've somehow torn muscles in my lower back and yesterday could barely walk. I went to a walk in clinic and was told to take it easy but to continue to walk daily. Then he told me I have another ear and sinus infection which he thinks might be an allergy to my dogs. Thankfully he is a dog lover too and understood my horror! I have to wait a month to see if this clears up once an for all and then see my own doctor to see an ears, nose and throat specialist. I WILL NOT BE PARTING WITH MY DOGS!!!!
Maddy hasn't been well either lately which is bothersome. At first we figured it was jealousy so we've been spending time just with him. But now he won't eat and has been throwing up. Took him to see his doctor yesterday who did complete blood work ($300) and wants him to fast for 24 hours and then introduce him to a very bland diet. Little buggar. Louisa was stung on the face by hornets on Friday night so we have had an interesting weekend with our pups. Benadryl really helped out there thanks to a plea I put out on Facebook at 11:00 p.m. and had three offers of the stuff within minutes. Ginger is still having "accidents" although we kind of think she is marking her territory. I've been watching her like a hawk and at least now know her signals but that doesn't work if John leaves our bedroom door open! Ha! She likes to do her business in our closet!
My mom bought me some nice work clothes last week. I now have clothes that fit the body I have now and not the body I want to have in a year from now! I was actually getting by with hand me downs but Mom dragged me out and bought some tops that actually fit me. Oh, and she did sneak a skirt into the pile which should be interesting as I haven't worn one since my weight gain....ahem....10-12 years ago. This one is a black and white tweed which will be nice with tights and boots and perhaps a top unless of course I really want to shock people.
So project weight loss is really on the back burner right now BUT at least it is still on the stove! I can sense that I am feeling better with getting the other areas in my life straightened out. It is like a weight lifted from my shoulders!
Talk to you all later!
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Yes, I've been missing in action, yet again but to tell the truth I have been mentally exhausted. I'm realizing I married a hoarder (we've been married for 12 years so, yes, I am a very slow learner) and I realized that this is playing a major role in my depression.
John and I are sticking it out, so no worries there although to tell the truth I have been sorely tempted to stick him in the paper shredder more than a few times. Wouldn't do much good, though would it because think of the mess that would create! I mean, the stupid shredder overheats enough now as it is! Please say you are understanding my humour and are not calling 911 to report me.
At my last doctor's appointment I cautiously mentioned that although I deeply love my husband there are times I would cheerfully stick a needle in his eyeball or drill out his belly button. My doctor laughed and said "welcome to married life, my dear". So, I then mentioned this same thing to John and he burst out laughing too and said "at least we are honest about it". We talked about it and both agreed that these moments are very fleeting and have agreed that we will refer to them as "the five minute death curse" where we will tell each other "I have to walk away right now - five minute death curse is upon me".
Yes, I used that expression this weekend when John had the dogs out and let Ginger wander off and she was gone for 2 and 1/2 hours in the woods near our house. I was sick with a really bad headache and was sitting on a overturned bucket in the pouring rain calling "Ginger" every few minutes while he walked the trails. When he came back to check on me he took one look at my expression and said, "you could stick a sharp alder branch through my eye sockets right now, couldn't you?" which made us both laugh. Oh, and little miss Ginger trots out of the woods a few minutes later with an expression that said, "oh, were you calling me".
Well, the good news is, I have six large garbage bags of shredded paper out of my house, I have our taxes sent in for the past three years (oops!) and we have our final bank appointment tomorrow which means our debt will be consolidated. No more phone calls from credit card companies and it means that I am taking a more active role in our household spending and budgeting.
So, how does this apply to my life on Spark? Well, I am walking the dogs everyday for 20-30 minutes and I am drinking my water. Not doing very good with the eating (as usual) but later this week we are setting up a budget for our household and that will really lend itself to meal planning which is turn will lead to eating regularly and more healthy.
I think I will feel better mentally too when the pressure is off and I become more content in my own home. While doing all of this the past couple of weeks, I have realized that I need a schedule in my life to keep my sanity in check. Again, my doctor reassured me that this is normal and, in fact, quite a positive step.
On other notes, I handled my very first dog adoption this weekend with the little one our group had in foster care. I spent Saturday night with this dog and its foster care provider so I expected to be a little sad when the adoption went through but they turned out to be so positive and caring that I was really glad to be of assistance. They had a three hour drive to get here and they brought in their other dog to see how it would go and within minutes the two dogs were running together and playing. Shelley was one of those that touched my heart and if we hadn't just rescued Ginger I would have taken her in. I guess it made me a little more protective over her but I am very happy that the adoption went well and she is in the kind of home she needs.
Well, I must go and stop "talking your ears off". I hope all is well with each and every one of you!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Sorry if I had some of you worried when I posted in my feed that I was angry and it wasn't a pretty sight. Well, both parts were true but it isn't even worth blogging about. Just extended family stuff that is still lingering since Nan died and how they announced to me through Facebook when her ashes will be buried. All because I spoke my mind which in my family is a big no-no as everybody keeps things bottled up and grudges go on forever. This is my father's family I am talking about and thankfully he wasn't like that! Perhaps it is years of therapy that have taught me to speak my mind, albeit tactfully, when needed.
So, if you are scanning this quickly to see what my title refers to here it is. I am gutting my house of paperwork. Our finances are in a complete wreck, we haven't filed a tax return in three years (how did I become this person?) so we have a lot of digging to do. Problem is, dear Johnno, who is a hoarder in training. He claims he is one bag of marbles away from being on that Amercian television series so at least he still has his humour. Every grocery receipt for the past five years, every pay stub since the mid-80's, every bank statement, every gas receipt, hmm...you get the picture.
If he fights me one more time over the need to keep things HE is going through the paper shredder! We even had the receipt and care information for the dusty rose carpet that Mom had installed in the living room 20+ years ago and which was torn up seven years ago for the hardwood floor!
He knows he has a problem with paperwork and is actually being a lot more accomodating than I thought he would. Mind you, it took me a few tears to explain that I couldn't continue to live like this but he has been good about it all once he fully realized the toll is is having on both of us. I still have a basement full of stuff to go through in the attempts to find the stuff needed for our taxes but it will get done!
Oh, and the dog poo? Well, suffice it to say we have to deal with quite a bit of that with three dogs but yesterday John had a hearty chuckle at me when I came home after walking Louisa and told him that the poo bags had malfunctioned (my fingers went through!!!) . I realize only pet owners would find this the least bit amusing but to get him back for his laughter at my expense, I have put plastic dog poo in our bedroom closet where little Ginger did her business the first few days as she was adjusting. He hates that plastic dog poo and doesn't quite find it as funny as I do but just you wait...........
Signed the sicko!
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