Monday, July 23, 2012
Along the many side paths of my Spark journey I have stopped loving myself. Dang it, I`ve even stopped liking myself and that is just awful. I think, deep down inside, I view my ``steps off the beaten pathway`` to be quite the negative thing as opposed to what they really are and that is ``taking the road less travelled``.
I mean, really, would I really want to just go from Point A to Point B without seeing all of the far more interesting places along the way (where is my flippin` question mark gone) Yes, in two years of Spark (eek!|) I have seen many sides of myself that I had thought were long gone. I felt the pride of joining a gym and for going to it, I felt the pride of walking all of those kilometres, I felt the pride of making choices and for seeing how they made me feel.
So, did I really stop loving myself (again, that blasted question mark has disappeared!) I prefer to think that I am taking some unexpected side trips with unplanned detours. I know I will get back to the beaten path but right now I am still experimenting with establishing small changes that I can carry with me and not burden me down.
And, one of these days when I reach my weight loss goal I will be able to look back and say `this journey was about so much more than weigh loss for me` and I just as proud of reaching my destination as I am of the many sidetrips I took along the way!