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Why did I stop loving myself

Monday, July 23, 2012

Hi,

Along the many side paths of my Spark journey I have stopped loving myself. Dang it, I`ve even stopped liking myself and that is just awful. I think, deep down inside, I view my ``steps off the beaten pathway`` to be quite the negative thing as opposed to what they really are and that is ``taking the road less travelled``.

I mean, really, would I really want to just go from Point A to Point B without seeing all of the far more interesting places along the way (where is my flippin` question mark gone) Yes, in two years of Spark (eek!|) I have seen many sides of myself that I had thought were long gone. I felt the pride of joining a gym and for going to it, I felt the pride of walking all of those kilometres, I felt the pride of making choices and for seeing how they made me feel.

So, did I really stop loving myself (again, that blasted question mark has disappeared!) I prefer to think that I am taking some unexpected side trips with unplanned detours. I know I will get back to the beaten path but right now I am still experimenting with establishing small changes that I can carry with me and not burden me down.

And, one of these days when I reach my weight loss goal I will be able to look back and say `this journey was about so much more than weigh loss for me` and I just as proud of reaching my destination as I am of the many sidetrips I took along the way!

  
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RUNNER12COM 7/24/2012 10:35PM

    You're in it for the long haul, and that's a good thing!

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HOPESINGH 7/24/2012 3:23AM

    Nobody walks on this path just straight ahead till they reach their goal. We all have to take the side roads from time to time, we're only human. Have you read "Being Happy", by Tal Ben Shahar? There's an illustration there of the difference between the ways people imagine their path to their goals, and the optimalist one is far from going straight ahead. But it's the recommended one.
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Q8PRINCESS 7/24/2012 2:38AM

    It doesn't all happen at once. You ARE going in the right direction and one day you will look back and realize you are loving yourself all the time.

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TXGRANDMA 7/23/2012 11:36PM

    I started this journey on Spark People with weight loss ONLY in mind. That is all I knew at the time. Now, though, it is all about being healthier to me and being more active so that as I age, I will remain active.

I am beginning to actually prefer fresh fruits and vegetables above other foods! It makes for more prep time and more frequent trips to the grocery store, but oh, so worth it!

I think all of us could benefit from more exercise, I know that I am! The weight loss now is just a side effect of a healthier lifestyle!

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MLH148 7/23/2012 10:44PM

    I like your idea of side roads making the journey richer.
I see too mant people commenting to believe the loveable nugget is gone. You just need to still yourself and let it shine bright.

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KAYDE53 7/23/2012 10:22PM

    It IS about more than weight loss; it's also about finding the reason behind the weight and it's usually different for each one. And there's the changes of better habits & exercise we can make along the way, which will help us lose too. Depression & low self-esteem are no friends to weight loss, that's true! But if I can find the real reason I overeat, I want to deal with it & remove it, so I can't move on to a better & more fit life!! emoticon emoticon

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POPSY190 7/23/2012 10:17PM

    It's the depression talking and the depression is not you! Even with only on-line knowledge of you I can see that you have much to like and love about yourself. Think about the person who supported her gran, about the woman who cherishes nature and gives animals love and care. There's much more ... Take care. emoticon

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JAMER123 7/23/2012 9:41PM

    I think all of us are finding this walk is much more than just weight loss. We are finding ourselves, what makes us tick, developing some lifelong friendships with people who understand where we came from and the difficult path we have chosen to walk to better health. I don't care how long it takes me to get to that final goal but it does matter what I learn as I go along. Friendships are the gold medal because they are all there to support you as you go! Taking one day or one hour at a time is what we look at and that makes anything attainable!! You are doing great! Keep the pace going at whatever pace you need to set!!
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_LINDA 7/23/2012 7:46PM

    The journey can't be all about weight loss. For in order to lose the weight, you HAVE to love yourself. You HAVE to feel you are worth it. You KNOW you are. When you plow your way back out of the depths, you will, once again, see the light. But no journey travels in a straight line. Life happens. Things happen, we get side tracked. A wall goes up we have to try figure out how to get around. Sometimes it seems you are just pounding away at it uselessly. But the key is to NEVER give up. You WILL get through. You can be all that you want to be.
You know we all love you, so you come right on in and love yourself so we can have one big group hugs!
You CAN do this! We will all be here for support, shoulder to lean on, shoulder to cry on, what ever you need.
Me, of the many typos and fumble fingers, once pushed a wrong button of unknown origin which caused my keyboard to change so that I lost punctuation features. I couldn't figure out how to change it back, so shut off my computer which fortunately, went back to my original settings :P
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EJOY-EVELYN 7/23/2012 7:13PM

    Take the time and effort to find whatever it takes to love yourself the way you are right now! If you're a woman of faith, then know God doesn't make mistakes and had the plans designed for you before you were knit in your mother's womb. You truly are both beautiful and loved far beyond what we might fully understand. If you can love yourself -- as you also are called to share that love with others -- then the incredible high you feel when you take the healthier road becomes an even more elated one. The way I see it, bring on the joy, praise, and thanksgiving! Unfortunately, if you don't like yourself now, you probably won't like yourself when you reach your goal weight (except for that surface euphoria that may only last a few weeks or a few months) landing you right back where you're at now. It's about love, love, love!

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ILOVEMALI 7/23/2012 6:54PM

  you should be proud that you are able to be so introspective and to ask the questions. Of course you love yourself -- sometimes we just forget! xoxo

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PONYFARMER 7/23/2012 6:53PM

    Susan~
I do not think you stopped loving yourself. You may be feeling any number of things but not not loving you. I know this b/c you come here and you track and you talk to us and you work at this journey we all are on. We will get there some day, both of us and when we do, we will be jumping for joy. What you and I have (depression), makes the journey for us so much more difficult. It is like dragging a bag of mud behind us, we try to carry it, we sling it on our back and get all gooey from it and it dribbles wet, mucky mud all down our backs and legs. We grow tried of it, at least I do and I often think, why does it have to be so hard, I want to be like everyone else we see on the journey skipping and laughing and running by us and we wonder, will we ever get there. Will we? Absolutely we will and we will celebrate like no tomorrow b/c we know the depths this journey has taken us. If for some reason your really do not love you, then I will love you until you do again. Others did that for me and now I will do it for you.
Big hugs my friend,
Deborah

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Introducing our latest bundle of fur - pictures included

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Hi,

I just had a blog full of wit (ha!) and pictures written and somehow lost it all when I clicked on spell check. So here is a very condensed version of what it contained............



This is Ginger! We made the decision yesterday to go from fostering her to adopting her and have agreed that the adoption will be timed for our 12th wedding anniversary this weekend. Louisa was adopted for our 10th! John says we are not celebrating any more anniversaries with dogs BUT....ha!

Seriously, we think three is the limit for us but we are so happy to have her in our lives. Maddy has his nose out of joint a bit BUT has become a bit more cuddly since he sees Ginger climbing into my lap at every available moment!

More about them all later! Here is a cute picture of the three of them looking in through the patio screen door at me......



Bye..I'm off to play with the three fur bundles

  
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SWEETPQTE 7/24/2012 7:50AM

    what a cutie!! I agree with you - there is never a such thing as too many dogs!!

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GLORYANDME 7/23/2012 11:57AM

    I am a little bit behind on reading blogs. Glad I am catching up and got to meet your new pup, Ginger. She is such a sweet addition to your pack. I am so happy for both of you that she found a forever home. Happy anniversary! God bless! emoticon

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PONYFARMER 7/21/2012 1:07AM

    They are all very cute and you are blessed 3 times over. There is no joy like the love a dog has for their owner/family. Plus I think God blesses you for for taking in a dog that is basically homeless and needs a family.



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KARENCRANER 7/20/2012 12:46AM

    Congratulations on the new arrival! :)

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A1KAYOS 7/19/2012 9:57AM

    So cute and little!!! Hope the three of them get along famously!!!

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FLOWERDALEJEWEL 7/19/2012 9:21AM

    She's a sweetie for sure. The others will get used to her quick smart

How wonderful

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JLITT62 7/19/2012 7:49AM

    WHAT a cutie! I've always said I can only have as many dogs as I can walk at one time.

Enjoy!

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CHLOE453 7/19/2012 5:22AM

    Adorable...how lucky they are to have such good parents!!!!

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ARTJAC 7/19/2012 12:11AM

    BEAUTIFUL

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Q8PRINCESS 7/19/2012 12:08AM

    So cute the three musketeers!

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WALKZWDOGZ 7/18/2012 11:24PM

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Congratulations! I can't imagine a nicer anniversary present that will just keep on giving love! Gosh, she's cute!

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TXGRANDMA 7/18/2012 11:22PM

    Sorry you lost the original blog! It is so frustrating when that happens! I really enjoyed reading about your latest addition and the pictures are great! I think they will be OK with Ginger, in the long run........ You have 3 very cute dogs! emoticon

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JAMER123 7/18/2012 11:04PM

    Ginger is a cutie!! And I love your other ones as well. Thank you for taking in those needing homes and taking 3 yourself!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KAYDE53 7/18/2012 10:34PM

    Oh, she's sooo cute!!! emoticon That face is adorable! emoticon

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_LINDA 7/18/2012 8:04PM

    Oh Susan, so very sorry you lost your blog :((( I know it would have been a great one!!
Such sweet, sweet fur babies!! Than you so much for rescuing another one! That is the best anniversary gift I can think of!!
Enjoy!!!
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CODEMAULER 7/18/2012 7:59PM

    There's a gang of fun! Happy Anniversary!!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 7/18/2012 7:51PM

    Cutie!!

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TEMPEST272002 7/18/2012 7:20PM

    What a sweet face. No wonder she wormed her way into your hearts. Happy anniversary!

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/18/2012 4:46PM

    Such a cute add to the family. You're building in quite the fitness opportunities, as playing with the dogs should count as "playing with kids" fitness minutes while meeting your fitness goals for the week.

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POPSY190 7/18/2012 4:27PM

    Very lucky dogs to be part of your life.

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HOPESINGH 7/18/2012 4:19PM

    What a charmer! The perfect anniversary (mutual) present emoticon emoticon

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0309COOKIE 7/18/2012 2:56PM

    What a cute little fur baby! Good luckwith her and happy anniversary!

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ILOVEMALI 7/18/2012 2:05PM

  Congratulations!!

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PHEBESS 7/18/2012 1:39PM

    What a cutie!!!!

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BOVEY63 7/18/2012 1:13PM

    Ginger is adorable (as are Louisa and Maddy) and avery lucky dog to have been adopted by you and your hubby!


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GOOZLEBEAR 7/18/2012 12:32PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonGinger is a lucky little pup to have joined your family. I love the picture of the three of them!! Congratulations on your Anniversary!!!!



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JOANNANOW 7/18/2012 11:46AM

    Oh my Ginger has landed a spot in doggy paradise! emoticon

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KANSASROSE67 7/18/2012 11:19AM

    How darling! She is a lucky dog!

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MILLISMA 7/18/2012 11:18AM

    What a wonderful way to celebrate your anniversary! Early emoticon
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hugs....Mary Anne

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PAMNANGEL 7/18/2012 11:00AM

    What a nice way to celebrate an anniversary! Congratulations on the anniversary and the puppy!

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LESLIES537 7/18/2012 10:57AM

    Ginger is the luckiest pup ever to find you guys!! Sounds like she's adapting quite well and is fitting right in. You have more than enough love in your heart for her--it was a good decision to adopt! So happy for you and John-- you're new parents again!! emoticon

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BIGPAWSUP 7/18/2012 9:53AM

    Beautiful dogs!

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Day One - the hundredth time around...or at least it feels like that

Monday, July 16, 2012

Hi,

I'm climbing out of the ditch I seem to have been stuck in over the past three or four months and am basically starting over without starting over. Does that make any sense?

What I mean is I am going back to the basics and I have decided to focus on two goals until the end of July. What these goals are might surprise all who have gotten to know me over my past two years with Spark.

Goal One: To weigh myself daily. I will do this every day in the morning and will take an average which I will record each week on Monday. Today's starting weight is 224 pounds which is basically where I started my journey 24 months ago!

Goal Two: To record the food I am eating. It might only be in a notebook but I am going to record what goes in my mouth so I can have an idea where I am going wrong and what affects me mentally and physically.

So, why these goals? Well, in the past, I really struggled with those two areas. I quickly made drinking water part of my lifestyle and I did the same with walking. Mind you, I've let both these areas slide in the past months as well but I know they will come easier to me. I've decided to take the bull by the horns and tackle the areas that are most difficult.

Today was a success - I know what I ate today was not enough but it was mostly healthy and I was mindful of what I ate. I also weighed myself as pointed out above. I can also check off walked for 40 minutes and drank 8 glasses of water...good routines to re-establish at any rate.

I also want to make it a point of checking my friend feed more often but please forgive me if I am negligent at first, okay?

I so miss being in touch with many of you and I eagerly look to catch up!

xo Susan

  
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GOANNA2 7/28/2012 8:59AM

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A1KAYOS 7/19/2012 9:58AM

    Great goals!!! I'm so proud of you for not giving up hope!!!

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/18/2012 2:46AM

    Glad to see that you found a new determination to reach your goals. The tracker continues to be one of my best friends. Say goodbye once and for all with 224. The weigh-in is but one of many victories that will bring you a sense of well being, although working through the averages is more work than I would want. While I often hop on the scale just about every day, it's only one day a week I make an official record of it here on SparkPeople.

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JOANNANOW 7/17/2012 8:55PM

    Oh you are so back on track. Wish I was! emoticon

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BOVEY63 7/17/2012 6:15PM

    Best of luck!
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KAYDE53 7/17/2012 1:13PM

    Good luck with that, sounds like a good plan; I know you can do it!!! Sometimes it is just better to start fresh!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ANNCHER 7/17/2012 9:44AM

    Great goals! Have a great day! Hugs! emoticon

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CCASKEY37 7/17/2012 7:41AM

    It's better to start over than to just totally give up. While you're at it, make sure to enjoy that summer air. Here's to wishing for your success!

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_LINDA 7/17/2012 12:05AM

    Starting with the two goals you struggled with the most is a great place to start. I am always advocating getting the task you hate out of the way first, then everything else comes easier. In a recent Spark poll I took, when people were asked what is the number one thing they would tell a new member of Sparks -tracking food came out first by a HUGE margin. Its the number one thing that put the finishing touches on my weight loss journey. I wouldn't have been able to lose the weight otherwsise in spite of how much I love to exercise, because I also loved to eat (too much of the wrong things). Good luck Susan, you know you can do this!
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RUNNER12COM 7/16/2012 11:55PM

    I think you picked two great goals to help get back on track!

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SHEILA-45 7/16/2012 8:33PM

    You can do this. One small step at a time works wonders. There is no rush. Learning what works for you is key. I can't resist not knowing every day what I weigh; somehow it keeps me accountable. Tracking my food intake on SP has helped tremendously. Mind you there are days when I go over but not nearly as many as before. emoticon emoticon I'm with you on this one!

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POPSY190 7/16/2012 7:45PM

    That's where real achievement happens. Tackling and carrying out the "don't want to" goals is great of you. You are not alone in having many Day Ones! Good fortune with this one. emoticon

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CHLOE453 7/16/2012 7:40PM

    Wishing you lots of success as I sooo know how hard this is sometimes. Sounds like you are on the right track today and I am sure it will continue. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 7/16/2012 7:28PM

    Food tracking & daily weigh ins - both of those are hard for me too. Kuddos for tackling the toughies right off the bat.

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A blog I think we all should read and re-read!

Sunday, July 15, 2012

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4971301


As I sat here today totally discouraged with the latest detour on my Spark journey I randomly flipped through blogs. Somehow and for some reason, I found this one BRAVENEWGRL and I cannot begin to explain how it has impacted me. I am going to print it off and read it and re-read it.

You all know I have been struggling. I've been struggling with my weigh, with finances, with depression, etc. I fell like crap to be completely honest and I know it is me and only me who holds the key to feeling better.

Repeat of my Day One starts tomorrow...look out because I'm back and I'm getting serious!

Susan

  
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A1KAYOS 7/19/2012 9:59AM

    emoticon emoticon You have an inner strength goddess that is just waiting to come out!!!

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BOVEY63 7/17/2012 6:14PM

    Thanks for sharing the link. It sure was an awesome blog!

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MISSDAISY23 7/16/2012 5:11PM

    Thanks for sharing!
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CCASKEY37 7/16/2012 7:49AM

    Thanks for sharing.

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MLH148 7/16/2012 7:24AM

    Thanks for the link. Don't you wish you could just stop the depression by acknowleging it? Keep plugging.

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SLIMMERKIWI 7/16/2012 4:42AM

    That was one mighty long but very powerful blog - thank you for sharing it with others :-)

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POPSY190 7/16/2012 3:02AM

    Thank you. emoticon

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HOPESINGH 7/16/2012 2:34AM

    thanks, that blog post was very interesting.
Good luck with your new Day 1 - we're all behind you! emoticon

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_LINDA 7/16/2012 1:26AM

    Great blog, thank you for the link. So glad this has Sparked you to get back on track! You ARE worth it!
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KARENCRANER 7/16/2012 12:45AM

    Amazing! Thank you!

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GOANNA2 7/16/2012 12:09AM

    Welcome back to the first day of renwal. I loved the blog.
Thanks for sharing. Together we can do this. emoticon emoticon

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JAMER123 7/15/2012 11:47PM

    Glad you shared this blog with us! Thanks!! Keep it handy & read as it is a good list of what we tend to do to ourselves!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KAYDE53 7/15/2012 11:05PM

    That was a great blog, thanks for sharing the link!!! She's exactly right, and I know it spoke to me too!! emoticon

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PONYFARMER 7/15/2012 10:16PM

    I love hearing this. I am with you, standing by your side, good or bad, we are friends for life and I will support you and you will support me.

I will be praying!

Love and hugs,
Debs

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/15/2012 8:25PM

    Such beautiful motivation! Welcome back to the first day of the rest of your life! Make it a good one.
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KANSASROSE67 7/15/2012 7:01PM

    That was a great blog...thanks for sharing it. And I'm glad it hit you in the right spot!

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ILOVEMALI 7/15/2012 4:59PM

  Excellent. I got a great pick me up from a SP blog/now pal. Printed it out and have taken it with me on vacation. Time to read it.

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GEORGIAK25 7/15/2012 4:33PM

    Well done. I had the same revelation this morning. Day one revisited with a new attitude. Together we can do this. emoticon

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What to do

Saturday, July 07, 2012

I am in a pickle right now in several areas of my life. I have lost my Spark and I don't know how to go about finding it, igniting it, and keeping it carefully nurtured so the winds of change in my life don't blow it out.

While at my latest therapy appointment I was asked how I felt and I blurted out "unmotivated". I don't have the energy to get off the couch nor do I have the self-discipline to do something constructive about it.

Have others felt like this?

I make an attempt to eat well. Well, to be honest my attempts right now are to cut my nightly inhale the bag of Reese's mini peanut butter cups down to three nights a week.

I am drinking my water

I am getting enough sleep

Where have I gone off track? When I was a faithful and dedicated Sparker I was much happier. I knew that the changes I was making were making a real difference to me in ways that I simply can't describe. The problem is I know what to do but I am unmotivated to make the changes. AAARRGGGH. Talk about self-sabotage!

I am going away this upcoming week with a dear friend of mine named Judy. I think I wrote about her last summer and how I felt like her food choices when we were together were playing havoc with the healthy choices I was trying to make. Anyway, around Christmas she was out of the province and was rushed to ICU and was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes. She has since taken complete control over her eating and she is now influencing me in a more positive way. Maybe it will be the kick in the pants I need!

As for our little foster dog, she is settling into our lives and our hearts. She has been with us for 10 days now and has changed dramatically! She is eating like a horse, no longer guards her kennel, has discovered what grass is and now loves to roll in it, has gone swimming with LouLou and Maddy and is very attached to me. Wherever I am she is there - pressed up against me or sitting on me. She goes back to the vet on July 17th for followup needles and I hope they see some positive progress.

I hope this finds you all well and happy! For those of you with those horribly high temperatures be kind to yourselves and keep hydrated. It reached a high of 31 degrees celcius here last week and we all thought we were dying. Fortunately, we don't have a humidity problem!

Take care!

Susan

  
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VICKILYN4 7/10/2012 10:32PM

    One step at a time....that is what helps me. You can do this Susan...I know you can. Enjoy your visit with Judy.

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WENDYSPARKS 7/9/2012 2:33PM

    Sometimes I get unmotivated also...but i just try to get back on track again....i staying hydrated and making sure to get my exercises in each day and going for a walk/jog...and eating healthy foods...have a nice day!!

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PAMNANGEL 7/9/2012 1:55PM

    I get that way myself. Mostly because of depression, although the heat lately hasn't helped. Upping my vitamin D has helped a lot.

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RUNNER12COM 7/9/2012 1:50PM

    When I don't have motivation, I fake it. I just make myself do what I need to do. And ultimately, faking becomes real.

Good luck!

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SLIMMERKIWI 7/8/2012 7:52PM

    I wonder if your lack of energy to get off the couch comes down to your food/drink choices. I know you mention drinking your water, but as a diabetic are you keeping a close eye on your sugar levels? Are you using the Nutrition Tracker? Often people say that they are making good choices, but those good choices might just be "good compared to previously!" I would suggest if you aren't already, start using the tracker. Go back to baby steps with any changes you need to make, exercise being one, because you already know that exercise helps depression and helps to improve energy and how we feel about ourselves overall. You have diabetes - have you been checked out for other metabolic disorders? If not, ask your Dr about this, because they could also cause the problems you describe.

You have a great excuse for your exercise being 'upped' - you have a little foster dog who appears to love you and would like to play with you as well as her other new friend :-) That would also be very therapeutic for you :-)

Kris

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HOPESINGH 7/8/2012 10:33AM

    Hi! Lack of energy to get off the couch and do something sounds very familiar to me. A slight depression, fatigue (the weather?), burnout? There are so many reasons. But every day is a chance to start anew, do what you can! At least that's what I tell myself. I spent about 2 months with no workouts whatsoever. I may have had an excuse (fertility treatments, which will resume in a short while), but it did not feel good at all. So I decided to start afresh, and it feels wonderful!
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MLH148 7/8/2012 9:14AM

    I appreciate your honesty. We all have bad days and you are reminding us we're not alone --and you aren't either.
As has been said, enjoy your friend and her helping you, make smallsteps. Everything cycles.

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POPSY190 7/8/2012 3:34AM

    The lethargy is a symptom of the depression; very hard to deal with but no good getting annoyed with yourself which only makes you feel worse. Walking the dogs regularly must help and people are right - take it slowly, and small steps. emoticon

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Q8PRINCESS 7/8/2012 12:23AM

    Sometimes just small steps make a big difference

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PONYFARMER 7/7/2012 11:33PM

    First and foremost, do not keep those Reeses in your house. If you cannot live without them, then be forced to have to get dressed, get into your car and drive to get them. Don't buy them on sale, b/c anything in your house will go into y our mouth.

Second, you may need to talk with your doctor to see about a change in meds, upping them or trying new ones. It happens all the time.

Third and last, small burst of exercise is like a shot in the arm with adrenaline. the more you do the more you get. It is addicting and a total rush.

Be gentle with your beautiful self because we love you.

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_LINDA 7/7/2012 11:31PM

    That is your depression talking, not you.. We all get off track, right now I can't seem to stop snacking on junk food and the hot weather has been making me crave my old baddie, the calorie sugar laden slushes.. My usual thirst quencher, water, just isn't doing it for me. I have been having ice cream too. Fortunately, there is nothing available near my apartment, so I don't have any of this stuff at home, but at Mom's there is a confectionery and a Dairy Queen within walking distance. Not good.
Like they say, if you don't buy it, you can't have it. But not so easy. I am stressing over my long time bridge partner having terminal, inoperable cancer and another one who I discovered is an alcoholic. Makes me so sad, and helpless to do anything for them :( How do you get your mojo back? One little positive tiny step at a time. Your walks used to rejuvenate you -time to get back to them. When Ginger is used to all the local stuff, maybe the next step is showing her there is a world beyond the grass patch. How exciting to introduce this precious life to the wonders of the bigger 'world.'
I am pulling for you Susan,
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JOANNANOW 7/7/2012 9:38PM

    What is the new puppy's name? Sounds like she loves you! Don't worry ... you will get your spark back. I'm in the same boat the get up and go got up and went when my foot was so sore.
Today was the first swim of the year for me and I feel reborn. I was afraid that I was getting too old and crotchety to enjoy it this year but it was heaven!
Hope your weekend is a good one.
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S3XYDIVASMOM 7/7/2012 9:38PM

    I'm not exactly motivated either, but I have set a goal. I'm going to win a consistency award this month. I'm assuming that it just means I regularly showed up. I'm hoping that others' enthusiasm will rub off. Hope to see your spark back soon as your spark brightens mine.

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BOVEY63 7/7/2012 9:32PM

    I understand being unmotivated - I have felt that way lately too and really don't know why. I log onto Spark, go through the motions but have been having a difficult time with eating right and getting enough exercise. Maybe we can cheer each other on and get moving in the right direction.
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Great news about the foster puppy. You are an angel to our 4-legged friends!

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TEMPEST272002 7/7/2012 4:01PM

    Yes, I've felt like that too. Some of the things that help me get out of a slump:
- remembering that the very next healthy choice I make puts me back "on track"
- making small baby step goals and tracking my progress on them
- sitting quietly and visualising what it looks like when things are going well
- making lists of strategies that have worked for me before... and also making a list of strategies I've never tried before.
- writing out motivational quotes and posting them where I can see them
- making an effort to ensure that I'm eating 2-3 servings a day of "anti-depression" foods (like walnuts, fish, etc)
- telling myself, out loud, "I am worth the effort. I will be kind to myself. I will take care of myself."

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/7/2012 3:05PM

    This is one technique I try to think might shake me into reality: picture yourself unmotivated for a full year . . . what do you see? Are you a total wreck? Do you weigh an extra 25or 35 lbs? Are you drowning in self pity? Okay, now snap back into the here and now. Say goodbye to those failing thoughts as best you can. Push the limits of your sanity. Picture what it is you want to look and feel like and take the steps you know you need to take in order to achieve success! Keep the Spark!

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ILOVEMALI 7/7/2012 2:56PM

  Take one little step. Don't buy your Reeses. A tiny little thing, but it is what you are mentioning as your danger food. Baby steps. xoxo emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 7/7/2012 12:56PM

    Hugs to you Susan.
We got to get your Mojo back!
It will come, my friend.
I felt broken (blog same name) recently and have had to make a mental effort to change. NO one else can change for me.
You can do it.
Love your new foster pup, as she loves you.
Lending you strenght.
Angela


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PEDODGEBALL 7/7/2012 12:16PM

    We all get off track sometimes, I am right now but I am trying to get back on board. Have a great weekend . I am glad your new addition is getting along better.
Jeanne


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KARENCRANER 7/7/2012 10:50AM

    You are SO worth the effort of getting back on track! I hope you have a sparktastic weekend!

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