Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I know you could all see this coming....as I haven't been the most active nor supportive member of Spark for quite awhile. It all goes back to my all or nothing way of thinking.
It is like I am eating myself into a fantasty land where I am waiting for the healthy eating food fairy to step forward and put and end to it. I'm not drinking my water and even sit down to drink Coca-Cola with meals...me?! Even my husband is shocked because I rarely drink soda.
Give me a few days to think about it but I know something has to change and I am the one to make the changes.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Hi and Happy Sunday (early Monday for some)
I am starting to come around again from yet another cycle with S.A.D. ~ special thanks to all of you who helped pull me through yet again!
The sun has been out all weekend but there is a frost warning for tonight. I doubt it will happen because it seems too warm but one never knows. I am hoping it doesn't dip that cold!
Went for a 5 km walk in the woods last night with Maddy and Louisa which the three of us enjoyed tremendously. Poor Louisa has been under the weather with an urinary tract infection. Earlier this week she woke up one morning and really wasn't herself. Normally she is bounding around the house with those big eyes of hers glossy and that tail wagging a mile a minute. But I noticed she hung out in the spare bedroom and when John came home from work she barely wagged her tail. I wanted to call the vet right away but John and my mom thought I was over-reacting, especially where vet bills are so high and money is tight.
The next morning there was no improvement so I called the vet and got in pretty much right away. An urine test showed another infection and now she is on three weeks of antibiotics. Thankfully she is feeling much better and so what if it cost us $200 we can't afford. She could have won an Academy Award though for "acting well" at the clinic. When the vet asked what the troubles were Louisa was jumping around, wagging her tail, giving paw, rolling over for belly rubs, etc.
The vet tried to examine her and Louisa kept giving her kisses. Then it was time for an actual examine where they felt down her sides and Louisa sat down and kept giving our vet her paw. She figured that wasn't comfortable enough so she lay down and got on her back with her belly up in the air all the while whipping our vet in the legs with her tail. She is quite the little actress, she is! The pH level of her pee was way off and she had been miserable at home but a trip to the vet, hey, it is time to put her best face forward. (WOOF!)
I've been giving her her medication in "pill pockets" followed by some cheese. Maddy sits by and watches every morsel and when spit the pill pocket out Maddy spit out his cheese. You would think we were poisoning them or something. Anyway, when he saw Lou take the pill pocket back in her mouth he took his cheese back and ate it. Funny little things they are!
I have taken some pictures of our walks lately which I will post tomorrow. I doubt we will be walking much tonight as I am tired. I vacuumed our car and truck today and washed them inside before going across the road to a neighbour's house as they are taking the brick off the front of their house. I even got to swing a sledge hammer! John was over there helping all day and now we are going back there for supper. I am sure I burned some calories but I have no idea how many! Felt good just to be out and be active.
Talk to you all later!
Thursday, June 07, 2012
I thought I would take a minute to clear up an apparent misconception about S.A.D. Although it usually affects people in the months from November - March, this is not always the case. Of course, I am not talking about those who just live in the southern Hemisphere, either.
S.A.D. can occur in peak of North American summer. It is a much rarer form but some people suffer dreadfully when the daylight hours are actually longer. Mine has been diagnosed by two doctors who have taken the patterns of my mental health over the span of several years into consideration. I do not do well when we have a lot of dreary, grey weather. With the climate we have here, this can occur at any time from March on.
And, I we have thought about moving across the country to find the "ideal" climate. However, we have so much going for us here that it does seem like heaven on earth.
One of our policitians told a national film crew that you can tell all the Newfoundlanders in Heaven as they are the only ones who want to go back home!
I love it here, I don't like the weather this time of the year, I would move if circumstances allowed it and yes, I am still fighting this sense of depression that washes over me with each dark, gloomy day.
Wednesday, June 06, 2012
AAARRRGGGHH - I am really struggling with S.A.D. which coupled with my "regular" depression is really throwing a wrench into my sunny disposition. I have been reading a lot about S.A.D. and my findings are explaining a lot. Apparently, when coupled with year round depression it is like a double whammy. One sort of begets the other and you have to really watch that the combination of both doesn't put you over the proverbial edge.
Right now I feel like I am standing on that edge (but not to worry as I don't feel like flinging myself over) but I do feel like I have to find another route to continue my journey.
I don't want to see, let alone eat anything remotely healthy. I am craving sugar, salt and junk food. I don't have the energy to walk myself let alone the dogs. I want to stay in bed all day and I don't want to get out of my pjs.
I've noticed that this pattern is a reoccurring one. Which probably goes a long way to explain why I manage to lose a few pounds only to have it come back a month or so later. For me, this is the very worse time of the year. I don't mind summer (at least when we get one), I love fall and early winter because in our climate the sun is usually out but I detest spring.
So, what to do besides sitting here and whining about it. Hmmm? Here is my checklist:
Get up the same time each day
Take my medication daily
Use my light therapy
Shower daily and get dressed in real clothes (needs to be worked on)
Resume drinking my water (needs to be worked on)
Try to make sure what I eat is good for me (REALLY needs to be worked on)
Try to remember that my body and mind both work better when I get some exercise, spend sometime outdoors, eat healthy foods, stay hydrated, and most importantly remember that time spent with my husband and dogs is vital to my well being.
Any other suggestions? Anyone else out there living with S.A.D. and would care to share coping tips?
A lot of what I have read suggests an increase in your regular antidepressant medications just before the expected onset of S.A.D. each year. The problem is I am on the highest dosage of regular medication so it will involve a whole new medication and I have tried many and have found the most success with the current one.
I hope you are all having a better day than I am!
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