Monday, May 07, 2012
Once again, I haven't been as active on Spark as I would like to be or think I should be so I am starting to see a pattern here in my behaviour. I think I should be doing more than I am doing instead of being happy with my involvement on a whole. It is that pursuit of perfectionism that gets me every time....so time to get rid of it.
My declaration: SPARK is a tool - how I use it is up to me . Nobody is grading us or keeping tabs on how active we are, how many SparkFriends we have, or how we use Spark. I think that is what makes SparkPeople so unique from other programs.
Anyway, I digress from my progress. I took my measurements yesterday...and it was painful! I have always known that I don't have a shape (well, I guess rectangular is a shape) but I am just the same measurement from top to bottom....48 bust, 48 waist and 48 hips. Add two legs and two arms and a head and I could be a character off of Sesame Street!
But I love myself - there I said it! I love that I have a boyish figure - well, it is boyish buried under all of those inches. But they will come off and I am still me underneath.
To get those inches off I have been walking, walking and walking. Did I mention walking? Every night we take the dogs and head across the river into the never ending forest and walk the many roads. Here is where it gets comical...and yes, you know with me it has to be comical.
I am typically dressed in yoga pants that are too short, dark socks, my Merrill hikers, some hand me down jacket, another jacket on top, a wool hat pulled down over my eyes (well, my husband says it is pulled down that far), mittens and the piece de resistance ....... carrying a GPS, and a long handled pickeroon.
Okay, for those that don't have spouses that worked in the pulp industry, a pickeroon is a long axe like tool with an extremely pointed end for "picking" at jammed wood, etc....but I use it for a) deterrent against moose, bears, and more importantly humans because there isn't anybody crazy enough out there to attack a woman clad in such attire and armed with such a tool!!!! But the other reason (which is actually the real reason) that I carry such a thing is to pick cans and bottles out of the ditch which we recycle and give the money to our animal rescue program. It sure adds up and I am ashamed by the amount of stuff we have picked up. We have such beautiful forests and yet the people who use these roads think nothing of tossing their beer cans and bottles into the ditches. I guess it does give us some exercise and it raises a bit of money but still....people are pigs which is an insult to pigs everywhere!
Since my lay off on April 25th I have walked 58 km which is 58 more km than I would have done if I stayed on my bum! Not doing so great with the eating - although I have only had one meal of junk food - KFC and had no chips or chocolate. Still finding it very hard to get my calories in each day.
So, boys and girls that is where I am. Satisfied with my exercise, dressing like a redneck fashionista, and enjoying my time off with my dogs and John.
I love you all!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
As I said in an earlier blog, I joined the Biggest Loser Challenge when it started on Wednesday, April 25th and I have been doing okay with it. Actually better than okay as I have walked every day ( ), am tracking my food , am playing with my doggies and and am spending a lot of time with my dear husband and my good friend Judy.
I am sleeping better now as well and plan to start aquafit this week - all part of my mission to knock depression to the curb where I hope it will be totally thrashed by the garbage compactor!!!!
But seriously, I do hope that the small changes I am making do help me mentally as well as physically. Yes, I know I will always have some sort of depression BUT a healthy body will surely help, right?
Today, the weather was pretty typical for Newfoundland in Spring. It was sunny, very chilly and we did have some snowflakes floating by. Mind you, that didn't stop us from walking nor did it stop Louisa from jumping into the river to swim. Brrrr.....
I am planning a pretty quiet night at home with my posse (John, Maddy and Louisa) and am hoping my day in the fresh air lulls me to sleep like a baby!
Thursday, April 26, 2012
As most of you know I used to be a fairly active member of SparkPeople since I joined in August 2010. And, if you've been following my journey you will realize that while I have not been successful with weight loss (I started out at 222 pounds, went down to 206 and now am back at 222) Spark has played a tremendous role in my life.
I life with clinical depression and had an equally depressing lifestyle. I didn't loathed exercise in any form, I ate poorly and water was something to wash my face in! I am proud to say I now am a walker, I am aware of what I eat and I love to drink my water! I also have made some wonderful SparkFriends and they have seen me through my many detours off the journey's path.
I am now recommitting to doing my best. I have joined up with the Biggest Loser Team and I will remain faithful to my previous teams because they are the ones who got me as far as I now.
I have to get some of this weight off because I remember how good it felt last summer to weight almost 20 pounds lighter! I will get there again and then some! Today was the first day of my "summer" holiday and I don't go back to work until early September so no excuses! I got up this morning and walked my dogs and I was truly thankful to share that time with them. Louisa though nothing of jumping into the river and going for a swim despite this being much too early in the season for the water to be much above 0 degrees! Silly thing but she had fun and I had fun laughing at her! Maddy was not impressed but managed to get his toes wet which is basically all he will ever do.
The rest of the day I spent on errands and then I ran into Walmart where I bought myself a skipping rope! Yep, age 46 and I am going to take up skipping! I figured it is something I can do anywhere and every bit of exercise will help.
I also stopped at the grocery store (our Walmart does not have much of a grocery aisle) and stocked up on good foods. I balked at paying $12 for a bag of frozen fruit but then I figured it would last me a week and the Reese's Peanut Butter mini cups I was eating were almost $4 a bag and they would only last me one night. Gross, hey? At least the fruit is yummy and is good for me! That and popcorn will be my nightly snacks if I am hungry.
Okay, time to get off here and start making some changes.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Today's blog inspiration has been brought to you by two of my wonderful SparkFriends - Chloe453 and BrightPenny so I want to thank them both upfront!
Chloe wrote a blog just the other day about "natural highs" and I want to share some my own with you. Here is my list:
~ Waking up each morning and being on "this side of the sod" (my father's mantra before he died
~ My dogs and their antics
~ My husband and the way we connect over the silliest of things
~ Finding money in a coat pocket you haven't worn in a while
~ The contentment I feel during and after a relaxing walk
~ Hanging clothes on the clothesline and watching it blow gently in the breeze
~ The thrill of getting a package in the mail. Bonus thrill if it arrives from my brother
~ Hearing my mother's voice on the phone (when she isn't complaining about her health!)
~ Puddles are being dressed in rubber boots so I can jump in them!
~ Pansies and violas
~ The woods roads and trails surrounding my town - lots of places to explore
~ The warmth of the sun on my face and the smell of sunscreen
~ An outdoor fire (with the obligatory marshmallow on a stick)
~ Rain at night and waking up to hearing in and knowing you are comfortable where you are
~ My SparkFriends
~ My little house with the white sheer curtains blowing in the breeze
~ Berry picking (LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!)
~ Cold, yet sunny winters
~ All of the seasons except Spring but appreciating the first robin of spring, the first dandelion etc
~ Knowing that at the end of each day life is good
Okay, and the reason BrightPenny has touched me is, well, despite a great loss in her life, she has managed to be on of the most pleasant people I have met and most successful. She has lost over 60 pounds in 8 months and has done it all with a smile.
I wrote in a SparkMail message to her about my personal journey. This is what I said to her "I have to be careful to use SparkPeople as a tool along my journey and not to let it become my journey".
Her response was basically to make sure I used SparkPeople as a tool but a tool for what. If I wanted to use it for social engagement primarily or did I want to get serious about my physical health. I know the social aspect of SparkPeople has indeed helped my mental growth but there is a fine line between going with the flow and deciding to focus my efforts on my nutrition and exercise.
It is time for me to realize that until I put as much effort into my nutrition and exercise as I do with the social aspects of SparkPeople, my weight is probably going to remain the same. Only I can do this!!!! And I just might do it! Scratch that last sentence ....I AM GOING to do this!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Hello fellow Sparkers!
Well, it appears that some of you seem to think that I can write which I find quite funny because I tend to just write whatever pops into my head and I don't spend hours figuring out what I am going to say. It somehow just comes out of me which my brother claims is a great characteristic because reading my e-mails is like having me there in person. (His words and not mine). Whenever I tell him a funny story I always lead up to it by warning him to put down any hot beverages because I don't want to be responsible for his spitting it out on his clothes and/or burning his privates. He gets a real kick out of that and (according to him) has saved him from scalding himself many times.
So, speaking of which, did I tell you these stories I wonder? Just recently, my groomer (well, she is actually our DOGS groomer and not mine) was dogsitting for her sister's dog. The dog has always been quite good do my friend didn't think anything of leaving her at home unattended. She also didn't give a second thought to setting up her Roomba to vac her floors when she was gone. Well, when she returned home that evening she found out the dog had several accidents throughout the house which the Roomba (a robotic type of vacuum) took and dragged everywhere!!! Honest to goodness!
Then there is the dog my cousin knows who was in the basement where several young chicks were hatched in an incubator. As each one hatched the dog reaches in and takes the chick in his mouth and gently cleans it off. Then when the chicks make a sound he goes to the incubator and takes them out and nestles them into his fur. This is a huge German Sheppard that has half the town terrorized just by its looks!!
My final story is about a good friend of my brothers who lives outside of Sydney, Australia. Fran was dogsitting her mom's elderly, half-blind, half-deaf, ancient poodle when she decided walk her off leash. Without warning the poodle took off down the block and turned into a church garden which apparently was having a BBQ for the area's homeless. Before she knew what was happening the dog stole a bunch of sausages and was quite proud of herself while Fran arrived trying to make excuses and apologies!
Oh, and before I forget I promised a friend of mine that I would start to eat better. That is why I am turning over a new leaf. This is the same friend who last year was eating herself sick and who ended up in ICU over Christmas with what turned out to be Type 1 (!) diabetes at age 55! She has gone from living on chocolate for breakfast to salads, cut out diet coke completely, and is losing a lot of excess weight. Last summer I wrote about how I felt she was sabotaging my efforts and now she is the one encouraging me to log my food! Wow! So, I am going to do it.....look out!
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