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Down but not out - pictures included!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Hi,

Well, after writing yesterday's blog I forced myself to go out for a walk to clear my head. I had walked about 1km when the rain started so I had several choices:

1. I could turn around and walk back home
2. I could dart in somewhere and call John to come get me
3. I could continue my walk

I opted for number 3 and ended up walking 4 kms all of which was in the pouring rain until I was so wet through that I really had no option but to call home for a ride. Even then I was wet right through to my underwear! But, I did it! emoticon and it felt so good after a long hot shower to be able to record 4 km in my fitness tracker.

You see, I'm down BUT I'm not out! Although many of you know that I am depressed what you don't realize is that I am also very stubborn . I am NOT letting depression win the overall prize! It might knock me down a day, a week, a month or even a year at a time but when I die I want to look back and say, Take that Depression.....You Never Did Win

So, I am back to picking up the pieces

I am going to take this one day at a time and each day I feel good is a bonus! To that end I know I must keep up with my end of the bargain. I must feed my body and soul healthy foods and ideas, I must be open, and I must be willing to take my medications and use my sun lamp. Sure all days are not going to be rosy but I will get through them!

Some days I might not feel like walking and I will give myself permission not to. Some days I will struggle to stay the course but at least I'm on my way and as they say finished last beats did not finish which in turn beats didn't start!



Some well meaning friend asked if I felt cheated because I live with depression. Are you kidding me? Things could be so much worse that depression, as ugly as it can be! Yes, there are times I have the "why me" moments but then I think "why not me". There are many, many different faces to depression:




Here is mine!




And here is the look of satisfaction after resisting crawling into bed and instead getting out to walk in the rain!


  
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GERIKRAGH 4/19/2012 1:35PM

    What is worse than depression? Depression that is not treated. Thankfully you are doing everything you can. I am a depressive person. I've been on meds for years and try everything I can to feel better. I also walk when I feel like it and don't walk when I don't feel like it. I don't let it get me down!

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WAYSOFGRACE 4/19/2012 1:12PM

    Love love love this!!!



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PATIB13 4/18/2012 3:25PM

    Yeah for you!!! I hope the days after this have also been full of moments where you kick butt. Congrats!!! emoticon emoticon

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IMAVISION 4/16/2012 9:22AM

    I am so proud of your choice to be strong & do what is best for you.

Your "satisfaction photo" speaks volumes.

Be blessed with continued success!

Ima

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KANSASROSE67 4/15/2012 3:12PM

    I love your pictures! You just look like someone who finds delight in life! You will look back someday and be able to say, "I didn't let it beat me!"

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LESLIES537 4/15/2012 1:45PM

    You look awesome! Love the look of satisfaction on your face in pic #2!

And nice job finishing your walk in the rain! Isn't it amazing the sense of accomplishment from doing something you could have easily made an excuse for? Good for you, sista!! emoticon

ROCK ON!
xoxo

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SARAHCLARK5 4/13/2012 8:43AM

    Hi there ! I was rather surprised to see the name of the author of your t-shirt quote : C. Hunter Boyd. My maiden name is Boyd and my eldest brother is called Stuart Hunter Boyd ! Strange isn't it ! I'm so glad that you have decided to kick back at depression. We will help you ! Some days it's just one foot in front of the other stuff , but others , things just fly ! We hope that withour encouragement you can fly more often ! emoticon

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ILOVEMALI 4/12/2012 7:58PM

    It is brave to continue moving forward. Congratulations, Brave One! emoticon

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CALGARYNEWF 4/11/2012 7:15PM

    Well done Susan!!!!


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_LINDA 4/11/2012 1:45AM

    LOVE the photos! For sure shows Susan the winner, the depression beater, the victorious! Keep on winning that battle my friend, one step at a time!!!
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Q8PRINCESS 4/11/2012 12:16AM

    I like you poster. The t-shirt reminded me of the marathon runner in the olympics, i think form summer Montreal games, who finished his race even though the race was declared finished almost everyone had gone home. The TV filmed him coming into the stadium and finished his race.

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GOOZLEBEAR 4/10/2012 10:11PM

    Congratulations on getting that walk in instead of giving in, You are awesome!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHLOE453 4/10/2012 9:20PM

    You are truly an inspiration!!! emoticon emoticon

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ARLENE_MOVES 4/10/2012 8:21PM

    What a great attitude! And I love your page background. Doggies are the best!

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SUNNYSHINE- 4/10/2012 8:15PM

    Congratulations on digging deep and continuing your walk in the rain! I was picturing as you walked all the little seeds of depression being washed away. Have a great rest-of-the-week!

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REJ7777 4/10/2012 7:49PM

    Congratulations on getting a 4 km walk in, in spite of the rain and the depression. I'm impressed! emoticon

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MILLISMA 4/10/2012 7:19PM

    What a great job! You gave depression a kick in the butt. Keep up that wonderful attitude.

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CODEMAULER 4/10/2012 6:31PM

    Often the best workout is the one you don't skip - way to go!!

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HEALTHYBARB1 4/10/2012 5:41PM

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So proud of you! I think depression is just like my long term pain and autoimmune issue...it never seems to go away!! We always have a choice to get up each day and do the best we can. Your smile in the last picture and your rosy cheeks say it all....this is how success feels!! One day at a time is what we do and each day that we do our best is another day closer to that healthier lady we strive for!! Hugs to you today and and great big Way to Go!!! Smiles Barb
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POPSY190 4/10/2012 5:37PM

    I think "I did it! Despite how I felt!" can sometimes be a huge tonic. Good for you sticking it out. And isn't it a good feeling when home again, warm and dry? emoticon
Your pictures say it all!

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SPARKLISE 4/10/2012 4:49PM

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KAYDE53 4/10/2012 4:13PM

    Great job, Susan!!! Keep on, keeping on!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EJOY-EVELYN 4/10/2012 1:51PM

    You are such a winner in my book . . . although my book doesn't mean all that much. I see you have one of the most resilient and beautiful spirits around. Love the smile, too . . . it's contagious!

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NEWMAC2011 4/10/2012 1:24PM

    Way to go! And great outlook!

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CHUBRUB3 4/10/2012 1:13PM

    You are an amazingly beautiful, resilient and successful woman.
You can do this!
you are.
Hugs,
Angela

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BOVEY63 4/10/2012 12:47PM

    So awesome that you "Just Did It!"
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I love the saying on the shirt!
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GUNNSGIRL91303 4/10/2012 12:03PM

    I struggle with depression too, in a big way. Good for you to go out and walk despite the rain! Victories like that help us get through the dark times. Keep up the great work and take care!

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CCASKEY37 4/10/2012 11:25AM

    I am right there with you. It's seems so easy sometimes to sit indoors and rot but you feel so much better when you get out and get going. When the weather is crappy, you're cold and wet and the wind is in your face, you feel ten times better for having finished what you started. Good for you!

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JOANNANOW 4/10/2012 10:43AM

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You are wonderful!
Keep on keeping on... it's the only way and you are on the only path.
Sending hugs
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THETURTLEBEAR 4/10/2012 9:27AM

    Good for you! I think that at least 70% of Sparkers suffer from mood disorders ranging from depression to bi-polar disorder to OCD. You're in the right club!

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Starting over but just don't know when

Monday, April 09, 2012

Hello,

May I please have a "do-over"? Nothing seems to be working for me right now and although that does sound a bit whiny, it is the plain and simple truth. I've stopped logging in, I have allowed some fantastic Spark friendships to lapse, I'm not active on any of my teams. Maybe it is time to take a Spark break? I don't know.

For some reason, deep within, I can't even fathom my life without Spark (which is a good thing, isn't it?) so maybe I will just step back and take a breather. Has anybody else gone through this? Would you share what worked for you to get you back as an active Sparker?

I am fighting hard against this depression and SAD. It ebbs and flows so some days are a lot better than others. Most people with SAD find the winter tough but my worse time is March - May and sometimes even June depending on the weather. I've been sitting in front of my SAD light, I take my vitamin D, and I try to get out and walk regardless of the weather because time with my dogs cheers me up.

I finish work in two weeks which right now seems great. I want to focus on getting more physically active and will do so by resuming water aerobics in the mornings. I need something to get me up and out the door.

Maybe this will pass and I will be back to blogging tomorrow but right now I feel I need some me time..which is probably the last thing I really need! emoticon

Hold tight my friends. I am down but not out!

Susan

  
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CODEMAULER 4/10/2012 8:01AM

    I think all things in life have cycles. I know that I've been 'coasting' a bit lately as other things have bubbled up. As those things subside, I find myself reaching for the things that didn't get as much attention. It happens to all of us.

Keep you and your loved ones in the important places. Everything else is available as you need/want it.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 4/10/2012 12:09AM

    Maybe just Spark a little every day?? Maybe keep in touch with just one or two Spark friends? You always have to do what you feel is best for you. What ever you decide please know that you are cared for greatly

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KAYDE53 4/10/2012 12:06AM

    I never really quit SP, but I have gone through times where I do the bare minimum, log in, look over what interests me, & that's all, just to stay active. But whatever works for you, Susan, only you know! Maybe you do need to just take time off & re-evaluate!! We'll be here waiting!!! emoticon

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YIWEN39 4/9/2012 8:17PM

    Hey Susan, you gotta do what you gotta do. And that is: for YOU. So if you feel like you need a break... we'll be here for you when you get back :-)
It sounds great that you will start water aerobics again very soon, I hope it will help! And don't forget those vitamins and light ;-)
Take good care of yourself!
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_LINDA 4/9/2012 2:32PM

    Its pretty hard to feel like doing much when you are fighting the double whammy of depression and SAD. But one thing you should never feel is obligated to the people on here. We are all in this to improve our own lives. We understand that. Making yourself a priority is is your first concern and finding out what works for you, whether its Sparkpeople or something in your own real life.. Your loyal friends will always be here when ever you decide to come back. That is what friends are for. But do what ever you can to make yourself feel better. I hope your days get sunny and warm, because being out in nature really is uplifting.
Take care of yourself, my thoughts are with you in this struggle,
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CHUBRUB3 4/9/2012 1:54PM

    You can rally Susan! You can do this!
So glad to hear your doing your SAD and vitamins. Try to rally your friends and family to help get you out and about.
Love and hugs,
Angela

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NEWMAC2011 4/9/2012 1:23PM

    I think we all have to do what works for ourselves. I've taken a few weeks off from SP every now & then. Do what you need for your own journey.

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NWILKER 4/9/2012 1:21PM

    Definitely do what is good for you and i think we have all taken a break. I was totally a lurker, so I kind of felt connected and in touch.

No-one should expect you to comment or say hello every day! Think about your regular real world friends - you don't send them an email or phone them every single day, you do it when the mood strikes!!

Take care of you and the rest will fall into place!

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OUBACHE 4/9/2012 12:04PM

    I struggle with some of these same issues. If anyone were paying attention (and I hope they're not), they would notice I haven't blogged in quite some time. I just haven't been "able" to -- hard to explain, but maybe you'll understand. I sometimes feel like taking a spark break, but have found what works for me is to be kind of a spark lurker. I'll log in, often huddle and track water at least, take a poll, and just poke around. I guess I'm kind of playing mind games with myself, because by doing this I don't feel like I've quit or given up, but it gives me kind of a break. Sometimes I feel like I sit in front of the computer too much, anyway, when I should be outside moving around and burning some calories, so it's all a matter of balance. Just try some different things and combination of things until you find what feels comfortable right now. Switch it up later when you feel like it. BE GOOD TO YOURSELF. Come chat with us anytime...we're here for you.

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BOVEY63 4/9/2012 12:00PM

    I was feeling the same way a little over a month ago but then realized how much this site, and my awesome friends here, help me through it all.

I am sure the depression and SAD have a lot to do with how you are feeling. Maybe try scaling back for a few days and see how you feel ~ you will know the answer.

Take care Sweetie!
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CHLOE453 4/9/2012 11:26AM

    Oh Susan...you will know when the right time comes to get actively involved again. Sometimes we just need a few days/weeks of "just me time" to get refocused and decide what our goals are in life. I wish you nothing but fantastic luck on finding that path. Take care of yourself. Hugs~~Kelly

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GLORYANDME 4/9/2012 10:45AM

    Take it one day at a time and do what you can do each day. You might have days where you don't even want to log into SP, and that is okay. Don't project and don't beat yourself up. Take care of yourself. SP will always be here. (((((Susan)))))

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REJ7777 4/9/2012 9:19AM

    It can be awfully difficult to be motivated when struggling with depression and SAD. I hope that you'll get outdoors and *do* things. Some fresh air and exercise can put a brighter spin on things. The challenge is opening the door and taking those first few steps. And sometimes that means walking instead of Sparking. (Sparking is easier, and it can become self-deceptive if we sit and spark too much.) I wish you well, my friend! emoticon

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IMIN2GENES 4/9/2012 9:17AM

    I think Mimi left you some very sage advice. It's true. You don't need to apologize and you certainly aren't disappointing anyone. That is something we do to ourselves. It's okay to take the time and find the balance that suits you. It's so easy to make me feel guilty. So when I'm not commenting on everything, I start to get down on myself. The hardest thing for me was to let go of that. I have to remind myself all the time that my friends will still be here and will understand. We're here to share and support. Sometimes you'll need more support and sometimes you'll be able to give more support. That's just the way life rolls and that's okay. Take care of you!
Chris
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Q8PRINCESS 4/9/2012 9:11AM

    I think it's common to feel like this. I almost quit a couple of weeks ago myself. Hang in there! You have to do what is best for you. It could be down that slippery slope or the best thing for you. A real help right? No matter what, I still be here.
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THETURTLEBEAR 4/9/2012 9:08AM

    I have recently "emerged" from something similar. The hardest thing for me was cutting myself some slack. You are not "disappointing" anyone, nor do you need to apologize - those are just things we do to ourselves I think (at least I do). What I did was really "dial down" my Sparking so that it wasn't causing stress to me, and then slowly add things back in when I was ready, instead of quitting. I do my friend connection via Friend Feed - I see what's in my feed and comment on statuses and blogs. So I shut off everything except the thing most important to me - blogs - until I felt like I could handle more. Now I have on blogs and status. I used to also have on weight loss and fitness minutes, but I can't deal with that all yet. I also have "allowed" myself to NOT read every blog and definitely NOT comment - something I used to do religiously. I am slowly trying to not "feel bad" for not doing this. And of course getting down to basics...the tracking is the most important thing, and so I've started again. I'm not perfect - but I'm okay if I track for part of the day and not all - it's still better than not tracking at all.

Here are my thoughts on the subject:

http://www.sparkpeo
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An interesting exercise idea - its free!

Friday, April 06, 2012

Happy Easter to my Christian friends,

It is so nice to be off work today and I am using that time to do lots of little things that have been piling up around me. First I swept the mounds of dog fur that somehow seems to accumulate in our living room on a daily basis. I'm sure any dog owner can undertand! emoticon

Then I pulled out a pile of magazines that have built up over the winter and went through them and pulled out a bunch of easy, tasty, and healthy recipes that didn't seem too intimidating. The magazines themeselves are now ready to bring to the senior's home where mom lives.

Then I put on the dishwasher which is humming away and doing my dishes as we speak. Now if it would only put them away for me. Hmm......calling all inventor's out there!

I've got a turkey thawing in the basement fridge for Sunday, I've got my grocery list written up for tomorrow and I have my exercise planned out for today.

Oh, and I am taking a few minutes to Spark. Which is where, I might add, that I came across the inspriration for today's blog. Today I was inspired by a fellow TeddyBear who goes by the SparkName of YIWEN39.

She wrote a blog about walking in place while watching your favouorite television show. I don't watch a lot of television and to honest when I do I seem to use it as an excuse to eat emoticon so this might really help me. The Big Bang Theory might be even more enjoyable to me when I exercise during it. Maybe I could start off slow and vow to exercise during the first and third commercial breaks. Who knows where this could lead? And who says it has to be limited to walking in place. Why not dig out a few hand weights? I could do that with my lower back problem and it wouldn't be too much trouble.

Anyway, have a great weekend all. I'm off to do some more tidying in my life!

  
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GUNNSGIRL91303 4/10/2012 12:08PM

    I like to do step-ups when I am watching tv in the evening. I take the tallest fanny lifter step and do step ups for about 20 minutes. After a good 5-7 minute warm up I grab my little 3 lb weights and do some light upper body exercises and really get a good cardio/toning workout. I drop the weights the last 3 minutes and cool down then stretch out when I'm done. I burn a lot of calories in 20 minutes and get in a cardio workout that seems like a bonus since I don't feel like I'm working hard as I watch tv or a movie, but when I'm done I'm sweating!
Oh, and I know what you mean about the animal hair! I have 2 cats and a dog and that adds up to a bunch of fur floating around!

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SOFT_VAL67 4/9/2012 11:40AM

    Leslie Sansone has made a killing off walking in place videos, might want to check some of them out, in the bargain bin or if you have a dollar rent a day place, i know about the dog hair, my dog never shed alot, but my sons dog has blown out three vacuum cleaners haha

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CHUBRUB3 4/8/2012 10:26PM

    Great Susan!
I grab a skipping rope and jump for the commercials, but I have to be so careful that I don't hit anything (LOL).
Hugs,
Angela

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POPSY190 4/7/2012 3:54AM

    I'm cleaning up cat fur, the never-ending dust from liquefaction silt (it's windy so it's worse!) and trying to move stored things off the floor so that the new lino and carpet can come some time next week. The dishwasher is loaded (only 2 of us!), the clothes washer too and I'll soon be off to bed to read. I found some Leslie Sansone walking videos on the internet (the DVDs won't play in this part of the world) and I sometimes do some of her routines when watching tv. They aren't complicated so I can manage to do them and watch at the same time! Enjoy the rest of the weekend.

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KAYDE53 4/7/2012 12:17AM

    Sweeping fur is an endless job here too, but as much as I grumble, I still wouldn't trade my pets for a clean house! Sounds like a good exercise trick, let us know how it works for you!! Happy Easter!

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GLORYANDME 4/7/2012 12:08AM

    The dog fur is never ending! I thnk we should get exercise points everytime we have to sweep it up! lol I like the idea of walking in place while watching tv. That would have definitely come in handy for me this past week since I have been staying inside due to bronchitis. My doc told me no walking the pup outside as it really aggravates my lungs. Have a wonderful Easter weekend with family and friends! emoticon emoticon

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YIWEN39 4/6/2012 7:14PM

    emoticon Susan ;-)
Have a great Easter weekend, and let us know how you like our new little exercise trick ;-) emoticon emoticon

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_LINDA 4/6/2012 1:54PM

    That is the one thing I don't miss living without a pet -the massive amounts of fur. Mom has a long haired cat and that stuff just goes floating everywhere, not to mention all the hair the long haired owners leave around too ;) Getting a strand of long hair wrapped around my fingers is no fun when trying to wash up in the restroom!!
You need a dishwasher for just two people? Wow! We have never had one in our lives, none of my family has one -although its one of the first things my nephew wanted in his new house -I love washing dishes, drying and putting them away -keeps me in motion and satisfaction of a job well done -I suspect those dishwashers don't always get things as clean as handwashing as some of my experience of dirty restaurant dishes shows.
The turkey sounds fabulous! Mom is making up shish kabobs for our family meal for a change.. with pineapple and peppers yummy!
One of the first things Sparks suggested for people new to exercise was to try it in front of their TV to get started as that is where they spent a lot of time. The smart ones plunked down a bike or something in front of it to make sure they couldn't avoid it. Giving up TV was one of the best things I did for myself. It also controlled the snack monster as that is where I used to snack heavy in front of. Another idea is use a swiss ball -passively gets your core worked and no sweating (and is good for a bad back)!
Good luck with it! Hope you have a fabulous long weekend of fun with your DH and doggies!
Hugs,
Linda

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BOVEY63 4/6/2012 12:10PM

    Must be the day for house cleaning - I'm doing that and laundry until heading out for Easter Bunny picture duty.

I have thought about the exercising during commercials too and need to put those thoughts into action. Love the Big Bang Theory - one of mine and youngest son's favorites to watch together.

Happy Easter!

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CODEMAULER 4/6/2012 11:43AM

    I'm tidying, too. It's such a bright and sunny day that all more chores are popping up, LOL!!

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~YOU are in the driver's seat~

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

Hi,

It was another sunny, yet, cool day here on the Rock and Spring Fever has hit big time. Yesterday we saw a young man out for a stroll wearing shorts and it was "shiver your liver" weather with a high of 4 degrees C. Today, the temperature rose to 5 degrees and people had their motorcycles out! Meanwhile, while walking the hounds, I was decked out in my wool hat and mittens and even then the wind was cool on my face. Might I be getting old or am I being realistic? Hmm?

Had an interesting moment after our walk today. We had stopped into a grocery store on the way home looking for grapes (no, couldn't find any, nor any strawberries, etc) so while John was paying for the few things we had I decided to go back to the truck to keep Maddy and Louisa company. I was in the truck and they were gone wild (despite having just returned from a long walk in the woods) so I opened one of the windows to let them hang their heads out. Out of nowhere Missy Louisa decides to jump out the window (!) and ran across the parking lot and up to the automatic doors. Thankfully John was just coming out and was carrying her leash across his chest and quickly snapped her on. The little bugger! I can only imagine the chaos if the doors had opened and she went sailing through the aisles! Glutton on four legs!

Okay, so I will get to my point of my blog and I have to credit emoticonJOANNANOW emoticon for bringing this up in her recent blog. Our journeys are just that...OUR journeys. There is no WE in this despite all the encouragement we give to one another. Just because we surround ourselves with successful SparkFriends doesn't mean we are going to be successful.

YOU are in the driver's seat of your journey. YOU decide if you are going to exercise and, if so, how much is good enough for you. YOU decide choice by choice what goes into your mouth.

I am taking this journey extremely slow and yes, I ridden on some of your coat tails at times. I wanted to lie down this afternoon and rest my back but I walked 3 km instead as I know the walking does really help my back pain in the end. Likewise, at the grocery store, I wanted to pick up something quick and easy for supper but I made the choice to simply buy yogurt and milk and go home to healthy leftovers.

Class dismissed. Next lecture will be on canine restraints for your vehicles....written by Louisa! Woof - woof!

  
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LESLIES537 4/5/2012 5:41PM

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TERESA159 4/4/2012 3:39PM

    Dogs do the craziest things! So happy it turned out ok.
And yes, you are so right about the journey. We can help each other, encourage each other, bitch to each other but in the end, it's a really lonely journey and no one is going to get it done but yourself. I thank god I found Spark and the friends I've made here but I know at the end of the day, it's what I DO that will make or break it. Congrats on making the good decisions you made today and you wisely understand that you will need to keep doing that, everyday. For me, it's easy until the weekend comes, then I have the darnedest time saying no to patio dining and cocktails, especially with the nice weather and my husband finally being home. This weekend, I will prevail!!! Because I'm not making all these good decisions all week for nothing.

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BOVEY63 4/4/2012 1:55PM

    Awesome job in the driver's seat!
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Some people are doing the same here as far as the weather. I was walking in a light jacket with a sweater underneath this morning and met up with a young woman wearing a t-shirt.

Loved the Louisa story!

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JOANNANOW 4/4/2012 12:08PM

    Thanks for reminding me that I am supposed to be "in the drivers seat" ! Dispite my early morning ramblings a while back.... I need to be more concious. It's easy to think in a rational fashiion not so easy to hang on to! I do make a little progress and things change but slowly. I so appreciate your input and love to find your blogs when I check in. I will continue to blog but can't promise when the spirit will move me to write. You are an inspiration when it comes to writing and with your discussion of good choices. I love your dogs too!

It sounds like you have similar weather, out there on the rock, to northern BC. The mittens are still in our pockets. We hear about spring everywhere else and we do have a bit of mud on the roads but there are still piles of snow. The promise of spring and grass is there in the bird song. The geese are back and the chorus of redwing blackbirds at the lake was magnificent!

Wishing you a Happy Easter and sending hugs.
Joanna



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JLITT62 4/4/2012 5:12AM

    My dogs are hooked up to something while in the car . . . obviously, you just never know what they might take it into their heads to do!

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Q8PRINCESS 4/3/2012 11:46PM

    We might be in the drivers seat but Missy Louisa didn't even want to be in the car! Can just see her out and and about the the grocery store!

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KEEPITUP05 4/3/2012 10:22PM

    Yes we certainly are in the drivers seat. The support is great and I definitely need it but regardless I have to make the choices everyday.

My furry friend would definitely jump out! It's funny to imagine her going through the grocery store though...lol. emoticon emoticon

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EJOY-EVELYN 4/3/2012 9:45PM

    However your journey goes (whether it be a wonderfully dynamic mix of yours, mine or ours), may you find JOY around each and every corner while learning to become a better and healthier person. You most assuredly are in the drivers seat!

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HEALTHYBARB1 4/3/2012 9:42PM

    When people ask me how I have lost the weight I have lost so far I tell them about spark and my journey and I always say that I had to want it really bad!!! I had to want to be thinner and healthier or I would not get on my bike and sweat every day and I would not chose to eat more fiber or eat healthier. I so agree with you we are in the drivers seat and we get to choose...for now I am choosing me and my health and dreaming of my betty boop bikini that will some day fit in a little black dress or not but I will give this body it's best chance of living and enjoying life on the active side!!! Thanks for the lecture of a blog of truth!!! Smiles Barb

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POPSY190 4/3/2012 5:26PM

    Very true, we are the only people who can really help ourselves. But it's good to know there are others with the same problems, aims and aspirations. Your self-talk is positive! Don't you feel virtuous when you make these "against the want" decisions? emoticon

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Dear Easter Bunny - I love you but please stay away from our house!

Monday, April 02, 2012

Good Morning! And a beautiful one it is here in central Newfoundland. Sunny and cold (I had to scrape the frost off of my car) but this is the kind of weather that I do best in, especially from a mental health point of view.

Several of you made some great suggestions and we all know this is something one has to make a personal commitment to. I can have ideas coming out of my ying yang and unless I put them into action they are just going to be ideas and not practices.

So, yesterday I went back to tracking my food. Therefore I didn't eat a whole bag of Reese's Peanut butter cups as I wouldn't want to track it. Ah, I just shed some light on my own problem!

emoticon I tend to track only when I eat healthy and give up when I lapse. emoticon

So, what can I do? I have to learn to track everything regardless how awful it looks on my nutrition tracker. That being the case I tracked the muffin I bought this morning and was appalled to see on my tracker that one muffin was 400 calories. Wow.

Easter is coming up and with it brings chocolate....come on, now, you know that is what most of us think of Easter as.....a Chocolate frenzy! Well, this year I have decided to tell the Easter Bunny to stay away from our house. Maddy and Louisa can't eat it and John and I really shouldn't be eating it.

I have to come up with a nice way of telling the Easter Bunny that I would much prefer a bag of mini carrots instead. We could all eat those. Is it only my dogs that love to eat carrots? They aren't too big on broccoli but I do chop up some and "hide" it with their dry nasty crap!

Anyway, I must go for a stroll around campus in a few minutes to see if I can work out the pain in my back. Oh, for those wondering, I injured my back several years ago and during treatment it was discovered that I am missing part of a vertebrae that holds everything together in the lower back area. Usuallly I get it clicked back in place by the chiropractor. then I feel while cleaning the bathroom just before Christmas (further argument that housecleaning is bad for us!) and it just won't go back into place and stay there. AAARRGGH. Walking does seem to help so I am doing that...albeit a bit slowly!

Have a good one folks!

xo Susan

  
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KAYDE53 4/2/2012 9:08PM

    My dogs love carrots too, but not broccoli! As for Easter bunny treats, not buying any either! Hope your back gets to feeling better! emoticon

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YIWEN39 4/2/2012 8:30PM

    I hope Bunny takes the hint ;-)

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EJOY-EVELYN 4/2/2012 6:30PM

    No Easter Bunny here, except perhaps, me: My nickname used to be Bunny growing up. Guess thatís why I canít sit still for long even today.

Hope that back of yours sees a healing touch soon.

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HEALTHYBARB1 4/2/2012 2:39PM

    I love the idea of having the Easter bunny bring mini carrots...I think I will make sure they are on our table for Easter dinner with some dip for fun!!! It is true that we don not like to have to log anything that we shouldn't eat and it does stop me from eating to much of the things that aren't good for me...I love chocolate and bought myself some little individual chocolate promises to take care of my need...but limit myself to not more than on little piece a day!! Hope you have a great week and that tracking goes well!! Smiles eBarb

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BOVEY63 4/2/2012 12:47PM

    Sure hope your back feels better real soon.
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The Easter Bunny will be coming to our house but I have left orders for healthy snacks.
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CHUBRUB3 4/2/2012 11:20AM

    Love it!
You make me smile!
Hugs,
Angela


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_LINDA 4/2/2012 11:20AM

    Wouldn't you know it, most falls happen in the bathroom :( Its so hard dealing with back issues, its really a shame that chiropractor can't get you sorted out again :((
Its a sunny day here, 3 below freezing, which I don't mind, but the wind is up, which I sure do get tired of, but it never stops Mom and I for going for our walks or hikes.
I am glad I don't have to worry about sweet temptations, no one would ever buy me any. Never heard of dogs liking carrots, that is pretty good!
I have always tracked my food, the good, bad and ugly. You got off easy with the muffin -the big Superstore or Costco ones are 600 calories! I have to confess my favourite is almond or lemon poppyseed ones. Good thing I don't buy them for myself -too many of them, but if Mom happens to buy them, I don't refuse one. We try eating it in quarters, but they disappear fast throughout the day ;)
Have a Marvelous Movong Monday -enjoy your walk!

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GLORYANDME 4/2/2012 10:53AM

    I am keeping my pup posted at the door to chase the bunny away should he get anywhere close! lol Enjoy your week! emoticon

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Q8PRINCESS 4/2/2012 9:51AM

    Why not just ask for carrots instead of chocolate?

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IMIN2GENES 4/2/2012 9:31AM

    emoticon Hope you're back is feeling better!
Chris

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CODEMAULER 4/2/2012 9:15AM

    Hawthorn - our kitty that recently left us - had all sorts of veggies in the canned food. Sure enough, the only thing we'd find left on the plate was carrot bits. The image of her trying to spit out carrot is one that makes me laugh.

The Easter Bunny need not stop here, either... and we have plenty of carrots!

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MILLIE5522 4/2/2012 9:06AM

    Yes my dog loves carrots too! He will even eat the guinea pigs food when/if he gets the chance which is full of grains and dried veggies lol!
As for the Easter bunny ....he has arrived early in my house this year. As I work in a school the children gave me loads of chocolate in all its yummy forms just before we broke up for the Easter holidays. As soon as I got home I put them all away in the cupboard (out of sight , out of mind) and gave the biggest choccy egg to my teenage son who will no doubt work off the calories (all 1350 of them!) in no time. Now I have just got to deal with all the others....wish me luck! emoticon

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