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Walking across water

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Hi,

I've noticed that I am not blogging as much anymore (which is probably a blessing for those of you who have to plow through my drivel emoticon) but I miss its role in my Spark journey so much that I've decided to resume my ramblings. Consider yourselves forewarned emoticon

Dare I think it, much less write about it? Yes, my depression seems to be lifting emoticon and I am slowly but surely regaining my sunny optimism. Seems to so contradictory to be sunny most of the times yet prone to those moments of deep darkness, doesn't it? I know many of you can understand what I mean and for those that can't just be thankful you don't!

One key thing in my shorter "life under the dark cloud" episode was talking about it. Yes, admitting to others about how I felt and how disappointed I felt in myself for somehow "allowing" myself to be depressed. See, even after a lifetime I still play the blame game. I think it is natural to do so and in a way it makes me self-analyze to determine what in my life needs to be changed or looked at in a magnifying glass.

I will be on my anti-depressants for life or at least I imagine I will so. So I am dealing with it in a chemical way. As for the other areas in my life - I didn't really see a connection between depression and food craving overload until this most recent blip. I didn't want to see or hear tell of anything healthy (hence my weight has gone up to 218 pounds!) and I somehow thought taming the beast with chocolate and fast food was going to make it more bearable. All it did was add to my guilt!

Last week, my husband and I went through all that was going on in my life and I soon determined that I was at a low point due to many things that are beyond my control. The SAD, the fact we are short on money, etc...but then we looked at all of the things I have control over.

I have Spark! I have wonderful SparkFriends! I have an understanding husband! I have two funny and lovable dogs! I have a job I love! Co-workers I care about! I have access to a gym! I have a roof over my head and a house that is paid for and is comfortable! I have fulfillment doing animal rescue work! I have two great doctors! I have my mom! I have a close relationship with my brother! We have caring neighbours! I have a SAD light!

And it was then that it struck me! I have a SAD light but I wasn't using it. Duh! I started in very reluctantly sitting in front of it for the required 20 minutes a day and it was a start in my feeling better process. I have used it every day since and I have even managed to push myself outside for fun with the dogs. I am sleeping better once I stopped worrying about it.

And you know another thing that really got me through this time? It is quite simple - I looked at all of the exercise minutes I have under my belt. Although I document my physical activity on Spark the best motivator for me is to look at my scribbles on a log sheet that I made up when I completed my virtual walk across Newfoundland. I have got five pages full.....yes, me!!!

So, you know where this is going - I started another virtual challenge walk with myself.....I am going to leave the safety of my island and walk the equivalent of the ferry route between Port-aux-Basques, Newfoundland and North Sydney, Nova Scotia which is approximately 550 miles. Yes, I am going to walk across the water emoticon and who knows where I will end up.

Great chatting with you all as always!

xo Susan

  
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SPARKLISE 4/1/2012 9:15PM

    I've got a sad light too! Quite useful! emoticon

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DOTMUL 3/31/2012 4:11PM

    Walking on water!! WOW!! So glad to see that you are feeling more positive. It's important at times to take inventor of all that we do have. You are a beautiful person, so glad to read your blog.
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POPSY190 3/28/2012 9:48PM

    Enjoyed this blog, and its title. I like to tell people I have walked across Lake Wendouree which is in Ballaarat in Victoria, Australia. The lake is about 2km across and is shallow so in a drought it actually dried up and was passable, if a little muddy! The depression is not you, so it's no good blaming yourself. It's an affliction and you should be sympathetic to yourself for having to put up with this incubus. Glad to hear you are showing it the door. Repel the siege engines, smash the battering rams, let down the portcullis, fill up the moat, position the archers, load the cannon. Let's hope it gets the message and stays away for a long time.

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CHUBRUB3 3/28/2012 6:48PM

    SAD lights are great!
Thanks for your chat and update. Your doing great!
Hugs my friend,
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KAYDE53 3/28/2012 6:45PM

    emoticonGood for you!! I'm glad you're feeling better! You'll do great on your walk!! emoticon

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GEORGIAK25 3/28/2012 3:55PM

    You have made many firsts steps here. I am pleased to see you walking in the right direction. Sometimes we have to write down the many blessings we have to see we are truly blesses. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BOVEY63 3/28/2012 1:45PM

    So happy to hear the depression cloud is drifting away. Here's to lots of sunny skies coming your way.
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_LINDA 3/28/2012 12:41PM

    Welcome back my friend -its wonderful to hear, once again, the humour in your words and the smile in your attitude :) Several lashes with a wet noodle for forgetting to use your SAD lamp -that couldn't have helped your situation any..
When things get low it is always a good thing to take stock of all the postives you do have in your life and those you have are pretty awesome -so glad you can talk things out with your wonderful hubby.
Love your latest self challenge -good one!! You are going to rock it!!
Keep on being the bright light you truly are!
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KANSASROSE67 3/28/2012 11:39AM

    Glad to hear you're heading back to sunnier weather (in more ways than one)! I always think it's eye-opening to look at the positives...they always seem to outweigh the negatives.

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SANDEEB7 3/28/2012 11:06AM

    Way to go, girl!!! Proud of you. :D
Good luck with the challenge. x emoticon

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HOPESINGH 3/28/2012 10:59AM

    Your new challenge sounds like fun! I'm going to google these places, to see what they look like...
It's amazing what we can do when we remember we CAN do something, right? Being proactive is so helpful. Way to go!
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JOANNANOW 3/28/2012 10:37AM

    Wow .... you are really back! I once said you are the queen of positive thinking and now you are walking on water! I am so happy this morning to find your blog and hear that you are feeling so much better. I love your writing. Sending hugs. emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHYBARB1 3/28/2012 10:10AM

    Great Blog Susan...I call looking at what is positive in life looking at my donuts instead of my donut holes!!! You have a great list of love going on there and keeping your eyes on what you have and sitting next to your "un" SAD light sounds like a great way to brighten the day!! Glad you are feeling better! Hugs Barb

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EJOY-EVELYN 3/28/2012 10:01AM

    Well done, my dear! Your blessings are great and managing the ugly stuff becomes bearable with the wonderful support group you have.

I love it . . . if anyone can walk on water, you will find a way!

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ANNCHER 3/28/2012 10:00AM

    Life can be good! Have a great day! Extra hugs! emoticon

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JLITT62 3/28/2012 9:30AM

    I always enjoy your ramblings. For a person that struggles so with depression your blog always leaves me smiling!

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IMIN2GENES 3/28/2012 9:26AM

    Glad to see the cloud is lifting! I just knew it would. Walk toward the east coast of US and we can go walk around the capitol together...
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I am such a dork! (Pictures)

Friday, March 23, 2012

Hi,

Many of you have realized long before now that not only am I a complete dork and I have to say I am proud of it!

I say, do and think some of the stupidest things without even questioning it but I also have been blessed with the great ability to laugh at myself. I think without that ability I would have to crawl away somewhere during my bouts of depression.

My latest dorkism happened today. My good friend, worried about my state of mind, invited me to go to a small gift shop with her as she had something to buy. I was half-heartedly browsing when I saw................. and honest to goodness blurted out

"Oh, how nice they are making canes now with wide supportive bases" before I quickly realized it was a toilet paper holder! Thank goodness only my friend heard me but then we had to explain why we were in tears over in the corner and holding unto our stomachs.

Maybe I am more of a ditz than a dork but regardless I am some glad I can laugh at myself!!!

  
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MOXY31 4/1/2012 8:13PM

    Love it

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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 4/1/2012 7:15PM

    Too very funny!!

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SPARKLISE 4/1/2012 6:17PM

    Sounds like something i wouldve said! emoticon

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CCASKEY37 3/28/2012 5:15AM

    Dork is something everyone should strive to become.

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BOVEY63 3/25/2012 2:53PM

    I love dorks!
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TDWANDD2MYK9 3/24/2012 1:28PM

    Hilarious! emoticon

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NWILKER 3/24/2012 11:51AM

    Love it!!!

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MARTHAWILL 3/24/2012 11:42AM

    Too funny ;))))))

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MILLIE5522 3/24/2012 9:47AM

    Thank you for the laugh! emoticon

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CODEMAULER 3/24/2012 7:09AM

    I have moments like that all the time. It makes me super happy to crack myself up!!

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ASL191 3/24/2012 6:24AM

    you should use it as a cane and see the reactions then...

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REJ7777 3/24/2012 2:29AM

    Too funny! emoticon

You DO know that's it's not just between you and your friend anymore, don't you! emoticon emoticon

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_LINDA 3/24/2012 1:38AM

    emoticon I probably wouldn't have even guessed what it was.
Its great you can laugh with and at yourself!
Thanks for the chuckle!

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JAMER123 3/24/2012 1:15AM

    Oh Susan, too funny!! emoticon An honest mistake & one I might make myself. Sure is go that we can laugh at ourselves with others.
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LYNMEINDERS 3/24/2012 1:04AM

    Thats brilliant....Love it and don't put you in either catagory.....
Enjoy being you

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NEWMAC2011 3/24/2012 12:23AM

    That is hysterical! You're a comedienne, not a dork LOL!

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GRACEMCDOG 3/24/2012 12:07AM

    You did an Edith Bunker blunder! :-)

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 3/23/2012 11:37PM

    Love that you instantly laughed about it!!

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LUVMYCRAZYKIDS 3/23/2012 11:34PM

    emoticon Totally something I would say!! DORKS UNITE!!!

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JOANNANOW 3/23/2012 10:12PM

    Ah nothing like a belly laugh to brighten up the day! You are so funny... and you think so too... that's the best part!
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SVELTEWARRIOR 3/23/2012 9:59PM

    Ok if you are a dork then I must be one too...cause I totally can see myself doing that. I loved it and your ability to laugh at yourself!!!

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HEALTHYBARB1 3/23/2012 9:58PM

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Isn't amazing how many new things they make that look like other things...dorky comes with our wonderful middle age!!! Thanks for making me smile today!! Would have loved to have been in the corner of the gift shop laughing with you!!! Barb

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IMIN2GENES 3/23/2012 9:53PM

    emoticon Dorks rule!!!
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 3/23/2012 9:03PM

    Oh, Susan, that IS funny, and I would have been holding my stomach along with you two had I been there! I love it when I can find something funny about life, especially when I'm depressed! I love you to pieces, girlfriend! emoticon

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GOOZLEBEAR 3/23/2012 8:00PM

    Susan, you are great and it is good when we can laugh at ourselves!!!!

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CHUBRUB3 3/23/2012 7:58PM

    Oh I love you Susan! This is priceless as are you!
Hugs,
Angela

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EJOY-EVELYN 3/23/2012 7:42PM

    Oh what fun you had . . . I probably would have peed my pants, too! . . . and I didn't say Pirates of Pizance! (smile, smile from Pretty Woman)

One of the funniest things I remember from 40-50 years ago was a sign in two huge discount store-front windows. One window read DOME. Another window read like STICKS. My cousin blurted out, "What are DOME STICKS?" . . . then realized she was looking at the word "domestics."

Laughter is G-R-E-A-T medicine!

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YIWEN39 3/23/2012 7:11PM

    emoticon Hey, laughter is good for you ;-) Thanks for sharing your moment!

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RUNNER12COM 3/23/2012 6:31PM

    Ha, that is awesome!

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POPSY190 3/23/2012 6:31PM

    Liked it! I do things like that all the time! :)

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SPARKCHANTAL 3/23/2012 5:23PM

    you certainly have a functional imagination! this is how mankind has progressed, through 'mistakes'! the secret of starting something new...

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0309COOKIE 3/23/2012 4:55PM

    I'm not so sure I would have known that was a toilet paper holder, so who is the bigger dork?

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FLORIDAJOE1 3/23/2012 4:42PM

    If that's the kind of cane you were looking for, more power to ya.
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HEATHERNL 3/23/2012 4:39PM

    It's great that you can have a laugh at yourself. :)

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RRP546 3/23/2012 4:37PM

  doaks are cool though

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I'm in the hole....yet again. A blog about mental illness

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Hi,

If you don't know what depression is I suggest you google it and research it thoroughly before you make the assumption that it merely is feeling down. Yes, we feel down at many times but when you are depressed it is much more than that.

During an episode of depression you lose your self-confidence, you read criticism into everything, you are probably very irritable and you probably loathe yourself for allowing this into your life once again. Well, that is how I feel at least and everybody's depression is there own.

Up until yesterday, I was full of denial. I even went to two doctors and denied being depressed. Instead I said I was completely exhausted but was quick to point out I wasn't suicidal (which I have been in the past) so "this" couldn't be depression but something more like exhaustion.

I had it all categorized into compartments and this is what I believed. I knew I was okay when Nan got sick but I certainly neglected my own mental and physical needs during her illness. I wanted to be super woman and despite the warnings I kept up such a hectic pace that I didn't stop to think.

Then she died and again, I was the strong one who didn't grieve or cry but chose to remember the good times. Then there was the family squabble and I took the high road and wouldn't get into it with any of them and instead just ignored them and pretended that I was okay.

I doesn't take Nancy Drew or the Hardy Boys to see a problem here, now does it? Sheessh, sometimes I am my own worse enemy! It all bubbled over yesterday when I was doing a Sudoku puzzle and started crying because I couldn't concentrate long enough to see a number much less solve the darn thing. Lucky for me, I have a very understanding husband who listened to me talk without interrupting. Then I listened to him.

First of all, he said, If it walks like a duck, talks like a duck and swims like a duck...it is most likely not a rabbit but a real duck. For all you non-mystery solvers out there....I think he used duck for depression!

Well, it hit me like I was a complete failure. Honestly, I was floored because deep down I knew it but thought nobody else could "see" it. So, what are my choices in dealing with it?
The obvious first choice among health professionals would to up my medication but I am scared of that. And this is where I should have knocked myself over the head with a hammer!

Last fall, I managed to lower the dose of one of my anti-depressants by 20 mg. It was the best non-scale victory I had under my belt. I was flying high! I did it by putting myself first, living a pretty active lifestyle and eating healthy. I was in a good place both mentally and physically.

Now depression doesn't come on suddenly and whack you over the head to announce its arrival...it sneaks in on little paws and you don't know it is there until it is all around you. I cannot believe that this is my 30th year of living with depression that it arrival still surprises me.

So I have my check list of symptoms and pretty much all can be attributed to depression. I also have my arsenal of things that make it easier for me but do you think I do them? NO! Don't even ask why as it is another great mystery of depression. We know what will help and yet we are powerless to do anything about it.

Right now Spark is taking on a familiar role for me. It will not be about weight loss, it will not be about using the nutrition and fitness tracker and nor will it be about getting a new trophy or answering trivia questions.

Instead Spark for me will be about establishing a routine. I have to use my light therapy every morning for 20-30 minutes, I am going to exercise in some shape or form for 10 minutes each day, I am going to take care of me by listening to my body and my mind and I am going to be honest with myself. IF I think I need to resume the medication I haven't needed in six months I am not going to think less of myself. I am going to think more of myself for having the courage to realize that I have come this far with the help of medication but I wouldn't need this medication if I didn't have a chemical imbalance. The latter is something I can't change, plain and simple. It is who I am and is something I have to accept and live with.

So as I am busy crawling out from under my rock I hope you all will have patience with me. I will be my "normal" self soon enough and I cannot wait to get there. In the meantime I have this ugly black hole to contend with and I am doing my best to crawl out.

Susan

  
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REJ7777 3/24/2012 2:53AM

    I'm sorry that you're going through such a dark time. I hope that you'll pamper yourself and take time to heal. I'm glad that you have an understanding husband. May the light soon shine again. emoticon

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SVELTEWARRIOR 3/23/2012 10:39PM

    You are a strong couragous lady. You are making good choices .

Take good care of yourself and if you need an ear to listen feel free to Spark Mail me....I am a pretty good listener. Remember to take care of yourself

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IMIN2GENES 3/23/2012 11:21AM

    Susan, kudos to you - you are one courageous woman! Take care of yourself. I hope you know that you can count me as one of those who will be here with you to help keep you on track, listen if you need and cheer you on! Take care of you and give your DH extra hugs... he's one smart cookie! I think you should keep him... LOL!
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_LINDA 3/23/2012 1:39AM

    Do what ever you can to help yourself. You are worth the best possible care, doing what ever it takes to get you out of the abyss. Thinking warm and comforting thoughts for you, will be here for you..
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GLORYANDME 3/23/2012 12:44AM

    Susan it sounds like you are crawling out from under that dark rock already . . . talking, listening, blogging, having a game plan! Sending lots of prayers and cares your way to help you on your journey! God's peace be with you!
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EJOY-EVELYN 3/22/2012 7:14PM

    You are one of the most "together" people I know. I wish you well as you battle this demon that takes hold of you and shakes you to your very core. Remain courageous in doing what you already know needs to be done and know that we all want to see you healthy in all ways.

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YIWEN39 3/22/2012 7:10PM

    Take care of yourself Susan. Use SP in ways that help you and do what helps you right now, even if it means you need a little nudge from meds.
Thinking of you and wishing you all the best emoticon emoticon.
Oh, and remember: you are under NO pressure to answer us, OK? Now is the time to care for YOURSELF. We'll come check on you ;-) HUGS!!!!

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JOANNANOW 3/22/2012 6:36PM

    I don't have to look it up ... it runs in my family. We have lost family members to suicide. My grandson is the latest victim. I wake up at night worrying about him. It's so hard for a young person to deal with. He started meds again recently and the adjustment period is hard. I feel for you Susan... and hope your light helps.

It sounds like your plan for now should succeed. I admire your effort to stay connected to the world and share your thoughts about this.
It was such a secret affliction in the past. I wish I had had the courage to share my history with my kids because my daughter may have had a better life if she knew more about depression. I think the message she got from me was "don't be like me" and that was so unhelpful. There were no meds, no full spectrum lights and very little understanding in her world.

Leonard Cohen is our 4th cousin and he is a pretty famous depressive. I heard him on the radio the other day.
In answer to the question "How did depression affect your life?" He answered "it informed everything I did". I thought, yup ... it definitely runs in families.

Any how I'm rambling on ... hope your day was a good one.
Sending out healing vibes.
Joanna


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LJCANNON 3/22/2012 4:44PM

    emoticonTake all the time you need. One of the Beautiful Things about Spark--In My Opinion--is that you can use it in many different ways to help you achieve Your Own Goals, not necessarily Weight Related.
emoticon emoticonKeep On Sparking Your Way To Health, Physical AND Mental!!

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ASL191 3/22/2012 4:38PM

    It sounds as though you are making good choices at the moment, nobody wants you to feel depressed, it can't be a nice place to be, but recognising what you need to do certainly sounds like you are making the right descisions.
Take care of yourself, put yourself first and get better soon.

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ANNCHER 3/22/2012 4:30PM

    Take care of yourself.... Extra Hugs to you! emoticon emoticon

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 3/22/2012 3:52PM

    Love you, my dear friend! emoticon emoticon

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KANSASROSE67 3/22/2012 3:40PM

    Thinking of you.

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POPSY190 3/22/2012 3:07PM

    It's so hard to live with the gap between what you know and how you feel. But when the latter takes over try not to beat yourself up for it - the brain can only do so much in these circumstances. I'm glad you can see the medication as an aid rather than a prop. emoticon too for all kinds of reasons; you are certainly planning to make the best of what it offers. Take care of yourself. emoticon

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HEATHERNL 3/22/2012 2:42PM

    First may I say "You are NOT alone!!!!"
You are not weak.
You ARE a wonderful woman who happens to have depression and the strongest thing you can do is ask for help and reach out just like you are doing here. I am impressed by you!
Medications are not for everyone but they are needed for me and I compare it to being a diabetic. No one would tell a diabetic to try to get off their insulin. Their body needs it to function properly. Some people need antidepressants in the same way. There is no shame to that.
I am also going through a rough patch with depression right now and relate to everything you said. If you ever want a friendly chat, I am here. Inbox me for my phone number or if you don;t have a plan, I could call you. The offer is open for you.
Hugs to you!!!

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KAYDE53 3/22/2012 2:13PM

    Susan, you had all the added stress of your nana's illness & death, and your relatives treatment ; it just was so hard on you. You can do it Susan, you'll see your way through this, I know it!! We're all here for you too!! emoticon

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THETURTLEBEAR 3/22/2012 1:39PM

    I have used Spark in the same way to help provide routine and normalcy to deal with my own mood disorders. Amazingly enough it also provided an anchor when my dad died, for the same reasons. Hang in there, girl.

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SPARKLISE 3/22/2012 1:23PM

    I have been off depression meds since November,but I agree that we don't see it coming no matter how many times it happened in the past. Don't know why,but it just does.
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BOVEY63 3/22/2012 1:18PM

    I am so sorry you are going through this again. Know that I am praying for you and sending lots of positive vibes your way.
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Cycling and I don't mean on a bicycle!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Short and sweet and to the point......so you know I am not myself if I can be brief!

I am off work again due to the insomnia and subsequent exhaustion that often follows my depressive episodes.

Am going to try to fight back with my light therapy and walking.

Might be missing in action for a few days - just wanted to touch base.

Susan

  
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CHRISTINA791 3/22/2012 12:22PM

    emoticon Thinking of you.

A lot of people don't know just how brutal the combination of insomnia and depression can be. The both feed on each other.

Take care of yourself.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 3/22/2012 9:36AM

    Susan, you know I totally understand! Totally! Last night was the first night in a week that I slept most of the night! *notice I said "most" and not all!* emoticon emoticon emoticon

You are always missed when you're MIA, but we know you have to take care of our wonderful, wonderful friend, Susan! emoticon

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JLITT62 3/22/2012 7:47AM

    Thanks for touching base - I was beginning to worry. Be well.

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POPSY190 3/22/2012 3:05AM

    Hello Susan, Minutes, hours, days at a time. You'll get there. The last month or so has been particularly hard on you and your personality has been drained by it. Hope you can get some rest and feel less exhausted, physically at least. Thoughts from emoticon

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JOANNANOW 3/22/2012 1:00AM

    The light is coming ... you will get there. Sending love.

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Q8PRINCESS 3/21/2012 11:36PM

    Sorry to hear you're feeling depressed. It's spring now, so the calendar say so even if you are still aving snow there, so the beginning of a season of new growth. After your grandmother's passing, you can start a new season for yourself as well. There's lots of people here who are interested in what is happening in your life. Be kind to yourself!

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KAYDE53 3/21/2012 11:27PM

    Hope you're feeling better soon!! emoticon

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EJOY-EVELYN 3/21/2012 11:04PM

    May this transition go smoothly. You know we care.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 3/21/2012 10:30PM

    I hope you feel better soon!

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NANCYLRAGS 3/21/2012 9:42PM

    Hope you are better soon!

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HEATHERNL 3/21/2012 9:21PM

    I'm here if you need ANYTHING!

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PONYFARMER 3/21/2012 8:11PM

    OK, this just goes to show you how much I need the help. I wrote you and then much like the dog in the "UP" movie who lost all focus at the word or site of "SQUIRREL," I saw a different blog of yours and off I went.

So, what I said before was that I understand this lack of sleep issue and the D issue with you as well. They both plague me and usually connected. I was wondering what kind of light and where you get it, as I will try anything to fix the problem.

Hugs To you Susan, look forward to your return.

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YIWEN39 3/21/2012 7:51PM

    Best of luck Susan! I hope you feel better soon!

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A must see! Video Clip......please share and pass it along!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUaInS6HIGo

This link was sent to me by another Newfoundland Sparker named HEATHERNL.

She has made some amazing progress and I am thrilled to be one of her new friends

  
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 3/22/2012 8:56AM

    Susan, that's great! You are an amazing source of wisdom! Thank you for sharing that video! emoticonIt's funny that so many people want a secret potion to getting healthy, and will pay any amount of money to get it, and the things we can do to help our health the MOST are FREE, and just take a little bit of time and EFFORT! emoticon emoticon

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JAMER123 3/22/2012 12:24AM

    emoticon learning tool! emoticon

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 3/22/2012 12:03AM

    This video really makes a person think. Great educational tool. Thanks for sharing!

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TXGRANDMA 3/21/2012 11:47PM

    Very powerful! Thanks so much for sharing. It will make me realize the importance of my daily walk!

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PONYFARMER 3/21/2012 8:08PM

    Wow, powerful Vid.

Now I am getting off the computer to go do some walking with my dog.

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GLORYANDME 3/19/2012 12:06AM

    What did I do in the gym today? My question to myself is what did I do for exercise today thanks to SP!! Now that is some motivation! emoticonm Thanks for posting!

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MILLIE5522 3/17/2012 6:17PM

    emoticon Try to do my 30 minutes a day.

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NEWMAC2011 3/16/2012 12:26AM

    Exercise is so important to overall mental and physical health. Very cool video!

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EJOY-EVELYN 3/15/2012 7:19PM

    Great illustration. This confirms my earlier thought: My mate is living on borrowed time. Yikes!

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ASL191 3/15/2012 5:24PM

    Great video!

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Q8PRINCESS 3/15/2012 1:15PM

    Very cool

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BOVEY63 3/15/2012 12:15PM

    Thanks for sharing this awesome video!
Hope you're having a wonderful day!
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HEATHERNL 3/15/2012 10:06AM

    Thanks! It's been GREAT getting to know you too!!!

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LESLIES537 3/15/2012 10:03AM

    Great video!! Thanks so much for sharing! emoticon


P.S. I just love the crap outta YOU! emoticon emoticon

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JOANNANOW 3/15/2012 9:37AM

    Thanks Susan... just brilliant. Loved the simplicity of it too.
Sending hugs
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_LINDA 3/15/2012 9:22AM

    I have seen this already, it was a good video! Hopefully, more will see it now..
Have a Totally Terrific Thursday!

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