Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Well, it was a year yesterday that I wrote my very fist blog although I had joined up a few weeks earlier. The reason I waited was because I simply dreaded starting and supposedly starving myself to death while exercising until I dropped. Neither of which has happened, mind you, but what has happened (and so it shouldn't !) is amazing.
My accomplishments might seem quite insurmountable for some while trivial to others but that is the whole point of Spark. What works for one might not work for somebody else and we, as Sparkers, have to find what works best for us.
So, on the day after my unofficial 1st Spark Anniversary I am thankful for many things. First, I'm thankful for my friend who casually mentioned the Spark website to me in July 2010 (and who I am going to thank on Facebook later on today). Second, I would like to thank YOU, because you keep me going. Third, I would like to thank my husband for being supportive and finally I would like to thank ME because all this has been possible because I started to care for myself in ways I never thought of before.
The following is a letter to me from me....feel free to read if you wish!
You've always considered yourself a quitter which is probably the first clue that you really had self-esteem issues along with some mental health ones. Yes, depression and anxiety have been a part of your life for as long as you can remember and they have contributed to your failure to ever see yourself as anything but, well, a failure.
So, you started your Spark journey thinking it was going to be yet another crazy idea to throw yourself into only to abandon when the self doubt crept in several weeks or months down the road. But you know what? The anxiety, self doubt and waves of depression came as usual but this time you blogged about them, binged for a few days, and took them in your stride. It was your new found obsession with your SparkFriends that carried you through the tough days because they, although perfect strangers, showed that they cared for you....yes....cared for YOU!
Not to be a complete idiot, you started experimenting with different aspects of Spark life. You bought sneakers (and actually wore them), you started making conscious decisions about food, you started walking the dogs (even when it was raining or snowing), you started drinking more water, you joined a few SparkTeams, you started using the fitness tracker and off and on used the nutrition tracker.
The key to all of this was that YOU didn't give up! Now, I know your weight loss hasn't been great but that is only secondary to all that you have accomplished. You've established a few key lifestyle changes that are making a difference. You didn't accumulate 13,968 fitness minutes by sitting on the couch nor did you walk those 750 km in one day! If one day of your life was crappy you called it a day and waited until the next to continue on....you didn't quit!
So, here it is one year later. You know drink your water without even thinking about it, you really like how those fitness minutes are building up, and you've not only joined the YMCA, but you actually go! So, what is wrong with this equation? Nothing! But what can be improved....well, several things.
Starting now, I want you to put more emphasis on tracking your nutrition since it has been effective in the past. I know it isn't your favourite thing to do but a year ago you also couldn't walk the length of yourself! If you are honest with yourself, you will admit you are lazy when it comes to taking the time to record your food. Okay, that is fair but why don't you make it a point once a day to keep track. AND, here is the catch. Each week that you do track your food for 7 full days, I will give you $10.00 in gift certificates. You and I both know your favourite store is Shoppers Drug Mart so it is an incentive to start tracking! You will have a few gift certificates to spend on you and you alone but only if you challenge yourself and are true to yourself. In time, of course, it will become a habit to track your food just as tracking your exercise is a habit now!
So, self, you have had an extraordinary first year so lets do our best to make sure year two is just as good. Starting September 1st we are going to earn those Shoppers Drug Mart gift cards and in a few months you will have a new perfume or a new lip gloss to go along with your new habit of tracking your food! Just watch the pounds come off then! Woo-hoo.......
I love you dear self!
P.S. Didn't it feel good the past couple of days to have co-workers who haven't seen you in four months say "you look so calm and happy" and asked what I've been doing!? And didn't it feel good when John looked at you and said, you are really glowing these past few weeks! You bet it did, sister!
Monday, August 29, 2011
I'm just not in the mood to write one of my normal blogs but I gotta share this news with you all.....last night I took along our GPS on my normal dog walking route. The route I always logged as 2.5 km is actually 2.67 km but the best news is.......I can now walk that in 25 minutes whereas it used to take me 40 minutes!
So, I'm still obese, I'm still fighting to lose a pound and not regain it but my fitness ability obviously is improving! Can I say woo-hoo!?!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Well, it started out a crappy week for me despite the beautiful weather which we are so thankful to be having, albeit a bit late in summer. But, I'm feeling much better now and have made my appointment to discuss these mood "bumps" (they aren't quite full-fledge swings) with my therapist. I am also making an appointment with my family doctor to get a check up to see if there is actually a physical cause to all of this.
Enough of that foolishness, because that is basically what it is. I know when I get like it that it will pass but I still get like it and cannot shake it despite fulling acknowleging what a moody cow I can be! Deep breath......
I got recalled back to work for this coming week so that is a little bit of pressure off of me. Every year it gets later and later as to when we find out when and if we are returning. I'd swear I only found out today because I bothered to check into it myself through a casual e-mail. Anyway, I'm lucky enough to work mornings only and all weekdays so it will leave plenty of time for exercise and enjoying life.
Speaking of enjoying life, we've certainly been doing that the past several days. We left yesterday morning to drive about two hours to line up for another hour to catch a ferry. But we didn't make the ferry as there were too many big trucks on board so we were kind of disappointed. Instead we ended up in one of the most beloved tourist areas and had a wonderful time. The island we were going to is called Fogo Island but the area we went to was Twillingate.
The weather was gorgeous, the dogs were in their glee and we just walked and walked amid the rocks and cliffs. Here are some pictures:
You can see what a nice day it was and Lou really enjoyed the experience of swimming in salt water...her first time ever! Maddy was quite nimble climbing the rocky cliffs and apparently had no fear! John did take some silly pictures of me pretending to fall off the side of a cliff but I will have to post them later. He did those for the goofy challenge!!!!
Talk to you all later.....I will get in touch with you all soon!
P.S. Here are the pictures from John's phone.....I'm not at all convincing in my "falling off the cliff" pictures but hey, it was fun!
Monday, August 22, 2011
That is my question for all of you....how do you do it? By "it", I mean find the time to exercise, eat correctly, log it in, write blogs, read blogs, write responses and be as supportive as you can be?
I'm starting to notice a trend with the readers of my blogs; they are always the same people and I feel really bad because half the time it takes me a week or so to catch up. Even then I only pick one or two of you and read all of your posts for a week and try to reply.
This isn't a bad thing I know. I know I'm busy exercising a lot lately and therefore that cuts into some of my computer time. I also don't like to use the computer late at night (I have this wild theory that it keeps me awake and thus try to put it away by 8:00 p.m.), I am loving my new exercise committment but I still feel guily.
When I get back to work in the fall it is usually not a problem as I go in a half hour early and settle into reading blogs before my actual shift starts and the library officially opens for the day. I usually eat my breakfast while Sparking and get half of my daily water in then as well.
But this is not the fall, although it soon will be, and I'm still off work and enjoying every minute of it. We have been blessed the past few days with the warmest weather of the summer....yay!!! Saturday we had a family birthday party to attend in the afternoon so I walked in the evening when it cooled down. Then yesterday we headed to a lake and spent the afternoon walking the shoreline while the dogs played in the water. Again after it cooled down I headed out last night and walked another 5 km.
So, I've upped my exercise but I still manged to gain two pounds this week. Funny, because as I sort of fell off the scale with disappointment, I'm sure I could hear many of you chanting "but its not about the scale"...and it worked. The disappointment was fleeting and I have given myself three months to "see" changes. In the meantime I will continue to work out and eat as best as I can knowing that good things come to those who wait. They do, right? I mean, nobody has ever spoken about working out and following the nutritional guidelines and it not working, or have they? Ha!
In closing, I want each of you to know how much I value your comments and support. I want to have the time to read all of your blogs and to keep in touch the way I think I should be but it is hard at times. I guess everyone goes through this, and I will find a way to work around it too!
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