Saturday, June 25, 2011
I owe many of you a big, geniune thank you for helping me through the past several weeks. As most of you know I was in yet another emotional slump. I don't know how why you all don't just write me off as this pattern seems to be a cycle. I do well, I try to be active and then the slump hits and I go into hibernation. Thank you for sticking by me and helping me through!
Speaking of which, the title of my blog comes from one of my favourite quotes. I just love it and wanted to share.
~The greatest battle is not physical but psychological ~
"The demons telling us to give up when we push ourselves to the limit can never be silenced for good. They must always be answered by the quiet, steady dignity that simply refuses to give in. Courage. We all suffer. Keep going.” -Graeme Fife
Yesterday turned out quite well. I awoke feeling a lot better emotionally and actually went for an one hour hike in the woods with my dogs and husband. We took a path deep into the forest and it was lovely. Lots of evidence of moose (both footprints and buttons), berry bushes in full flower, new little trees sprouting up, and most of all exercise and fresh air! It only rained a wee bit which was fine. I think we've discovered our new berry picking grounds for the fall. Yeah! I love berry picking!
Late in the afternoon I picked up my mom. Although she looked gorgeous and wasn't the least bit sad, she REFUSED to let me take her picture. John took one of me so here I am.....wearing one pair of my new glasses.
Mom and I had a really lovely meal together. I took her to a restaurant in Botwood, NL, which is where she was teaching when Dad asked her to marry him. She objected to me paying for the meal so I told her again of where the money came from. Thank goodness she and I laughed and we didn't shed any tears. I brought her back to the nursing home around 9:30 p.m. and my brother then called her from Australia so I think she had a good day all around. I also had some flowers delivered to her earlier in the day. She told me she had been dreading the day ever since Dad died and that Dad would have been proud of me....that meant more to me than anything!
Anyway, enough of that....here is some humour:
Oh, and remember my comment about the premier of Newfoundland and Labrador...well, I sort of ended up on the cover of our local newspaper. My friend doctored the picture up so here it is! I have to give the premier credit for running....I'm the plump one wearing the brown coat!
Now, that I have you laughing here are a few more:
This is Maddy - graduate of "The Sleep Academy"
This is Louisa - graduate of "The Lazy Academy"
And finally this is the graduate himself.....
The first two pictures (of the dogs) were taken when we arrived home from John's graduation and the last one was taken just before our yard sale! John says it is his Justin Bieber look! Somebody actually paid us $5 for that wig.....thank goodness they don't know how much fun we all had trying it on beforehand! Ha!!!!
Must go and put a roast of beef in the oven for the dogs and John. I've been invited out for pizza with two girlfriends!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Well, I'm still not back to participating on Spark as much as I would like nor am I exercising at all. I'm trying hard to pull myself out of a very deep rut but several things have happened that are affecting me emotionally and, as we all know, that is what gets me everytime! People used to tell me I wouldn't have depression if I stopped wearing my heart on my sleeve but I can't help it and to me, it is nothing to be ashamed of. I really feel things and while I think I'm strong inside (and far stronger than most would ever guess when the crunch is on) I do tend to let my emotions wash over me as the tears flow down my face. Even my psychriatrist is on board with this one as she claims crying is a great release for pent up emotions.....and boy I must have a lot of those! Ha!
To answer most of your questions, Louisa is responding to her antibiotics. The problem is she only came off a three week supply of them 7-10 days ago so nobody knows why this particular bout of infection was so virulent. She might have to be sent out of province to have the stricture in her cervix totally removed eventually. And that costs money which we don't really have right now. I'm worried about that but I know we will always find the money somewhere when the time comes.
Then I got a call from my cousin who broke the news to me that my beloved aunts shih-tzu had to be put down on Tuesday. My aunt was living her in Newfoundland when she bought Lucky 8 years ago and she was one of my Peaches' playmates. I loved Lucky like my own and really missed them when they moved across country about 4 years ago. I saw her once since when my husband and I went on a trip and Lucky almost passed out with excitement when she saw us. She slept with us during our trip and we really hoped we were going to see her again. In fact, I was going to use some of my air miles to fly out to see her but she grew too sick too soon.
Tomorrow would have been my mom and dad's 50th wedding anniversary and for some reason that is really getting to me. As most of you know my dad died of cancer 5 years ago and mom is now in a nursing home. I think I am crying for what could have been or maybe I'm just crying because that is all I have been doing the past few days!
As you also know, money has been tight for us since my husband's funding for school finished when he graduated two weeks ago. By the way, he found out yesterday that he will be receiving what is called "The President's Medal" for being the top student in his program. He worked hard but being a "mature" student actually worked to his benefit.
Anyway, the only reason I bring up money is that I would like to take Mom out somewhere special tomorrow night and I was wondering where the money was going to be borrowed from. When it occured to me.....when my father died he had given me a roll of toonies (2 dollar coins that Canada has) which he kept in the glove box of the car for emergencies. He had them kept in an old film canister case and when I counted them earlier today (yes, I kept the roll hidden away for a moment I've been waiting for) there was $50 Canadian there. So there is the answer to paying for tomorrow's night meal. A gift for Mom from Dad on what would have been their special day! After 5 years, I finally have my answer as what to spend that money on. So tomorrow evening, Mom and I will dine out at a restaurant and hopefully it will cheer us both up!
Thanks for reading! Bless you all!
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