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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Thank you from the very bottom of my heart to all of you who responded so kindly to my blog about my latest "flare up" of depression! I was afraid to post how I was really feeling because some people mistakenly think you can shake it off!

I deliberately went to be very early last night and started re-reading an old familiar novel and apparently I went out like a light. I'm a firm believer that if you are not used to napping and you fall to sleep like that your body is trying to tell you something.

Anyway, today brought more rain and drizzle but I went to work and then immediately after arrving home I left again and took the dogs for a walk...err...ran triple what I did! I have to admit I trudged along for the first bit but felt better as the tension left my body. I'm really behind in my Halloween challenge but I have been tracking all week but just haven't put it on the computer yet.

Thanks again, SparkFriends, for being there for me! Bless you all!

  
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FLOWERDALEJEWEL 10/1/2010 8:42AM

   

I too am glad you are doing better today. While I haven't suffered with depression, I would never assume it is something to brush off.

Glad you got some exercise in it's supposed to help, or so they say!!

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POOH_BEAR_69 9/30/2010 11:30PM

    So glad a new day was able to give you a fresh start. I hope things continue to be on the "up" for you in the days and weeks ahead.

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TEMPEST272002 9/30/2010 5:43PM

    Glad you're feeling better today!

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KAYDE53 9/30/2010 3:14PM

    Glad to see you're feeling some better!! I have bouts of depression too, so I can totally sympathize..I take a med for it, but sometimes, even with that, I get that all too familiar feeling. It's something we just have to work through in our own way. Bless you on your fitness journey!! emoticon

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LESLIES537 9/30/2010 2:06PM

    It's so good to hear that you're feeling better...amazing what a little sleep can do for ya sometimes. I totally understand where you're coming from there. emoticon

Thanks so much for the friend add too! I've done the same! Looking forward to building a friendship and sharing our journey's of health and happiness together! emoticon emoticon

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SUZIEGREY 9/30/2010 1:50PM

    Glad you are feeling a bit better today. As S3XYDIVASMOM says, it is amazing what a good night's sleep will do for you.

Bet the dogs enjoyed the walk as much as you did.



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S3XYDIVASMOM 9/30/2010 1:08PM

    Amazing what a good night's sleep will do for you. And walking is good for the sole and the soul.

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Having a rough couple of days.....sorry friends

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I've been having a rough couple of days so I'd like to apologize to my friends on Spark for all but ignoring them. As most of you know, I suffer from depression which comes and goes much like the ocean's tide. For the past couple of days, I've been sad and overwhelmed for no apparent reason. My whole body is affected and just today I fell face first in the Tim Horton's parking lot. Thankfully I wasn't hurt but I just wanted to crawl away. Even my dogs don't bring me joy when I am like this and that bothers me the most! Anyway, I'm going to chalk the past few days up to experience and get up tomorrow morning with a smile on my face!

  
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METALLICAT1 10/1/2010 2:02AM

    You just take care of yourself first. We'll be here for you no matter what. Take you're time. There's no reason for you to feel sorry of feel like you're ignoring us. I'm sure your doggies even understand and are there for you. Prayers and hope you get better.

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POOH_BEAR_69 9/30/2010 11:32PM

    You have the best attitude, and that is a big part of winning the battle... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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OUBACHE 9/30/2010 12:37PM

    Sorry to hear you are in a bad place right now. One of the wonderful things about dogs is they sense when something is wrong, and love us unconditionally. They will be there for you, and so will your sparkfriends. Take care and I hope things look brighter soon.



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FLOWERDALEJEWEL 9/30/2010 6:18AM

   
So sorry you have been having a rough trot that past few days. That you are Sparking says alot for you at the moment. Take your time to get yourself back into gear, we will all be here when you come back to help you on your way.

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S3XYDIVASMOM 9/29/2010 5:55PM

    Take really good care of yourself. It sounds like you understand your condition. I like what you said about it: "depression " . . ."comes and goes much like the ocean's tide." I hope that being aware that it will eventually go away helps you get through.

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JHADZHIA 9/29/2010 4:19PM

    So sorry to hear you suffer from this :((
Hope things get better.
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TEMPEST272002 9/29/2010 3:49PM

    emoticon I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with depression. I suffered a serious bout of depression 2 years ago - and the way you describe your feelings, well I remember feeling like that. Sometimes it's all you can do to hold onto yourself. Do what you need to to care for yourself, but remember that we are here for you. When you have a rough day, blog writing can help. Venting in my blogs often helps me clarify my own thinking and my sparkfriends' comments help me regain a sense of perspective.
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SUZIEGREY 9/29/2010 3:37PM

    Sorry to hear that you have had a rough time of it the last couple of days.

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Remember when life gives you lemons...things could be worse!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

For some unknown reason I am having an off day! In fact, I really, really wanted to call in sick because I felt so "blah" but I couldn't do it and I figured I feel better once I got on the go.

I was just thinking of all of the things that went wrong since I got up three hours ago but then I turned them around and said to myself "things could be worse".

First I balked when my husband accidently woke me an hour earlier than normal....could have been worse....he was using a flashlight to get dressed in the dark....god love that man...so he could have turned on the overhead lights!

Secondly, I fell back to sleep and was running late and therefore couldn't wash my hair....my head now looks like a crow's nest....but it could have been worse....I might have had chemotherapy like so many of my friends and not have any hair!

Thirdly, I arrived at work to realize my dress pants (black!!!) are covered in dog fur....could have been worse....I'm blessed to have them in my life!

Anyway, my list goes on but I'm trying to think of the positive side to everything and not to get discouraged! I hope everybody is having a great day and remember when life gives you lemons.....thing could be worse!

  
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TEMPEST272002 9/28/2010 10:36PM

    Life is hard... and beautiful. We have it within us to focus on the positive instead of the negative. To look at things from a different perpective. Good for you for choosing to focus on the good things in your life!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 9/28/2010 10:33PM

    Thanks for the reminder...you are so right, things could be worse!!! Hope you are having a wonderful week!!
Blessings and hugs,
Helen

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SUZIEGREY 9/28/2010 12:37PM

    You are so right. I always try to remind myself how lucky I am. We have a saying in our family that as we've never been hungry, homeless or unable to drink fresh water we are very blessed indeed. I think of that and suddenly everything takes on a better outlook.

Thank you for the reminder, and yes, we are very blessed to have our pets, too.



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GAYLE-G-63 9/28/2010 11:37AM

    Thank you for the reminder.

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JHADZHIA 9/28/2010 9:38AM

    Unfortunately, just when you think you have it bad, there is always someone out there who has it a lot worse. Its very grounding. I may have severe RA, but unlike a women who is only 3 years older than me that I see daily at the bridge club, I am not permanently stuck in a wheelchair like her..Very motivating to suck it up and do what ever I can to stay out of one..
I actually don't know what you can do about pet fur on clothing when you are lucky to have them -at my Mom's, I get long cat fur and prodigious dog fur on my clothing lol. They are a reminder of the unconditional love they give you :))
Hope the rest of your Tuesday is terrific!

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BDRFLI-TREKS 9/28/2010 8:04AM

    absolutely right! you have helped me look at things a little differently too!

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Life is good........please take the time to enjoy it!

Friday, September 24, 2010

How often do we think to ourselves "life is good" but do we really take the time to enjoy it or are we just saying it? I'm looking around my living room as I type this..my husband is gently snoring on the couch, Maddy is barely awake in his faux-fur bed and Louie is trying hard not to fall asleep as she chases her tail! It is a beautiful fall evening and we've just come back from a lovely walk in the woods. As the sun slowly sets I'm sitting here really reflecting on a good day. So many of my friends are facing tough challenges whether it be with personal illness, damages from tropical storm Igor, or the declining health and utlimate demise of their fur-babies. Tomorrow might be my turn but for now Life is Good and I'm so grateful! Thinking of all of my Spark Friends with love!

  
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JHADZHIA 9/25/2010 9:09AM

    So true! I was happy I got to see one of my nephew's volleyball games last night, after a long workday and that we finally have some beautiful weather here so we can go visit my sister's farm today!
Enjoy your weekend!

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FLOWERDALEJEWEL 9/25/2010 7:23AM

   

I do this often. Many times when I first get into bed, I lie there and think to myself "how lucky I am"

I don't have a ton of money, I'm not the best looking lady in the world and I could stand to lose a few pounds, but all in all I have nothing to complain about. I'm free, comfortable, have a loving family, am needed and I like who I am.

What more could one ask for. So yes I can understand you feeling that "life is good" you are able to see the important things in life.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 9/25/2010 4:13AM

    So happy for you that you can look around and see your positives and blessings. AWESOME!!! Hope your weekend is just as wonderful with you counting your blessings!!!
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POOH_BEAR_69 9/24/2010 10:33PM

    How very true! A nice reminder to appreciate all of our many blessings!

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S3XYDIVASMOM 9/24/2010 5:36PM

    Thanks for this. I could be a little grumpy, today. But I had a wonderful evening last night with my daughter (thus the tired grumpy me today). It is a beautiful, fall day. My husband has been very helpful and patient today. I really have nothing to complain about.

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MARYLQ11 9/24/2010 5:30PM

  I sooo agree

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LHACKING13 9/24/2010 5:25PM

    You are so right, we need to look at the wonderful things in life more. emoticon

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LYNNDE65 9/24/2010 5:20PM

    That was beautiful...Life is good today! emoticon

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Fell off the treadmill........

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Decided to return to work last night as we are blessed to have a mini-gym at our college. Not being familiar with many the pieces of gym equipment I picked the treadmill and turned it on. Well, it appears it had been preset to do automatically increase and decrease the speed at regular intervals. I was going along fine until the speed jumped by 2 km and I tried to hang on to the side rails but eventually flipped off the back end! Thank goodness, nobody was there to witness it! I feel like crying...not because I was hurt....I wasn't.....but because the little voice in my head was saying "hey, you are so stupid and so out of shape that you can't stay on the treadmill". Anway, I got determined and hopped back on and stayed on (albeit with some speed adjustments) for 30 minutes.

  
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MZLADY77 9/23/2010 2:21PM

    Yes I know what you mean. That almost happen to me. I managed to stop the belt by pushing the button. I like your attitude at least you got back on the treadmill..Keep it up and do not give up. emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 9/23/2010 2:15PM

    emoticon Been there, done that!! I am so glad that you weren't hurt. WAY TO GO on getting right back on and finishing your workout!! You are AWESOME!!!

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EXPRESSIONISM 9/23/2010 2:12PM

    oh my goodness. I would have cried out of embarassment! congrats for getting back on there tohugh! you're luck you weren't more hurt..!!

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POOH_BEAR_69 9/22/2010 10:08PM

    I think everybody has an "equipment malfunction" story... Most with their own degree of embarassment. I am VERY glad that you weren't hurt. I'm also glad that you jumped right back on and kept at it. That deserves a big...

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JHADZHIA 9/22/2010 8:03PM

    Good for you getting back on it!! It would be kind of intimidating to have that happen. Also you usually need to be a computer scientist to know how to set those fancy things!!
Keep up the great work!!

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MARIE625 9/22/2010 4:45PM

    I've fallen off the treadmill many a time. And I only seem to fall when there a zillion people around. Most of the times I've fallen, its because I've gotten sloppy and my foot landed half way on the edge of the machine and half on the belt. Which not only immediately throws you off the machine, it also makes you twist so you most likely end up looking right at the people you fell in front of.
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Glad you weren't hurt.

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TEMPEST272002 9/22/2010 4:33PM

    You're description had me laughing. Too funny. I've been there! I did the exact same thing - the machine was pre-set & I couldn't keep up. Next time, pull the STOP button!

On a more serious note, good for you for getting back on there! Who cares what the person before you was moving at? For all you know, they could have been on the college track team! What is important is that you got in your 30 minute workout. Hooray!

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PCOH051610 9/22/2010 3:13PM

    Oops, I seem to have spelled Fell wrong....oops!

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SUZIEGREY 9/22/2010 2:11PM

    So glad to hear that you are not hurt. Congratulations on getting back on.

Sue

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