Monday, May 16, 2011
Today, I dedicate my blog to the very fond memories of my dear little furball who left this earthly life a year ago. Although I did have a dog growing up, it was Peaches who stole my heart and made me the animal lover that I am today.
For those who have followed my blogs, you know that my Sparkname is her initials and the date of her death...051610. Nothing complicated but just another way to keep her in my thoughts on a daily basis.
I thought I would be sad today but instead I'm filled with enough funny memories of her and her exploits that I can laugh and miss her in a good way. She was a funny old broad and only did what she wanted to do. She would go off to bed when she felt tired, she would eat when she was hungry and not on some human's schedule, she would play with squeaky toys at all hours, and most of all she knew she was loved by many.
Her vet marvelled at her! She lived a long life (17.5 years) mainly because she was walked 4 times a day, was taken for car rides at least once a day, was played with, was cuddled and was fed a balanced diet. She was loved and she loved us back. She taught us how to love a dog so much that a year later we still talk about her and can laugh. We have no regrets about her life.
Now, how does that relate to my journey? Well, I've got to give that same dedication and compassion to myself. Right now, I know what to do to make this program work for me but I'm afraid of it. I don't know how to be any different that who I am right now. I'm used to shopping in plus-sized stores, I'm used to being overlooked and I'm comfortable in my own skin. The only thing is, I'm not happy.
I have to make some small, yet attainable changes. So for this week, it will be breakfast. No more eating little throughout the day and gorging at night. I am going to have oatmeal for breakfast and I pledge to get 6 glasses of water in this week as well. I will still walk the dogs as per usual. The oatmeal works for me because it a) fills me up, b) makes me ultimately consume less calories, and c) gets me back into a routine.
So Peaches, although I wish you were still on this earth with me, I know you are out there somewhere painfree and cheering me on. I love you "Little Miss" and was so blessed to have you teach me what is really important in life cannot be bought or bargained for. Woof-woof! xo Susan
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I sort of vented in a blog entry for today and the more I thought about it, the more I felt like I should just erase the whole thing and chaulk it up to a bad day.
I really appreciate all the support ALL of my friends so freely give me...
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Oh dear, the weather gods seem to playing another one of their favourite tricks on us Newfoundlanders. Yesterday it was an ever so balmy 2 degrees with a very cold northeasterly gale blowing through you. Yes, I'm being sarcastic when I used the word balmy! This morning Lou and Maddy raced out the patio door to do their business and slipped on the frost covered steps. Their facial expressions were a riot and Lou even stopped and stared at her paws. "Mom, I lost traction...cool....can I try it again"
Tonight the weather hasn't improved although the wet snow has stopped and I can hear the birds out. Poor little things must be half-frozen to death. No wonder they are busy because they are just trying to keep warm!
Needless to say, I've begged off all dog walking duties and have very sneakily encourage my husband that some "fresh, brisk air would do him good" after a week of being in school. In my mind, nothing makes me lazier than blah weather......please somebody send me a ray of sunshine!
Funny enough, I'm not depressed! Usually this would send me over the deep edge but I know that this too will pass. Talk to me in few days, however, and I might have a different tune to sing.
Have done absolutely dreadful with the eating. Who knew that autumns' comfort food would extend to this time in May! Unfortunately, I'm not talking about warming soups and stews here but rather truckloads of chocolate, chips, etc. Last night we even ordered pizza! Crap!
Have some doggie news. Louisa has been scratching her privates a lot so after two courses of antibiotics, the vet clinic did an internal exam on Thursday. It was very similar to what we know as the ever-dreaded Pap Test and she came home very sedated and pitiful looking. Other than they've discovered some "abnormalities" we don't know what is going on. Please keep your fingers and paws crossed that all is well with her and that if it isn't, God gives us the strength to provide love and compassion to her? It was a year ago this weekend that we lost the love of our lives.....Peaches....still hurts.
Well, with that, I'm going to say goodbye before I start to cry. Once again, please send some warm weather our way......seal it up in an envelope if you have to and mail it to me.....
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Although I haven't been the most active member of Spark, nor the most aware of what I've been eating, I noticed yesterday that since I joined Spark I have walked a little over 500 km. Now this might be pitiful to some and a miracle to others but the point is I....as in ME.....walked 500km since September 1st. I'm amazed and I'm so glad that I've kept track of my mileage. This is something to be proud of so in my moments of doubt and self-defeat, I have to remind myself that a year ago this time I couldn't (and didn't want to) walk the length of myself!
So, I've learned a valuable lesson. If I started out and said I'm going to walk a minimum of ____km a week, I would have given up within the first few days. The days when the sweat poured down or when the weather became cold would have been enough to send me back to my comfortable chesterfield. But, no, I started out by just saying I was going to try to walk the dogs. I didn't say I was going to do it everyday but I would do it when I felt like I could. And there you have it.....I started out very slowly and never made a conscious effort to pick things up or to do it more regularly. After a time, our walks became a habit and now if I miss a day I really miss it. I don't knock myself out with regret, but I do miss it and miss my lungs breathing in fresh air and looking at two happy and contented dogs.
What else can I learn from this? I can put the same "formula" to work with my nutrition. I am stating here for all of you to read that I am going to become more aware. The days when I can look back and use the 80/20 rule, I am going to applaud but the other not so successful days are not going to be enough to send me off the beaten path! No more all or nothing thinking! If I had that attitude with walking I'd still be on the sofa waiting for the magical moment.
Anyway, like I said, 500 km may not be much to some of you while others may think that amount is out of reach. But I'm ME, and you are YOU, so we have to find what works for us. I can say with pride that over the fall and winter of 2010-2011 I logged 500 km..yeah for me! For once I feel a sense of pride in an accomplishment and that self-appreciation is what makes this our own unique journey!
Sunday, May 08, 2011
This blog was inspired by a friends blog in which she encouraged us to try new things. I am in total agreement but does anybody else live where grocery shopping largely depends on what is available?
I live on the island portion of the province of Newfoundland and Labrador. For produce to arrive on our shelves, it has to be trucked to Nova Scotia, be put on a ferry, and driven halfway across the island. The ferry crossing takes about 6 hours and the drive to here is about 7. That is in good weather when the highways are open and the ocean is calm enough to sail on!
We have two grocery stores. Yesterday I wanted some sweet potatoes and there were none in the first store and in the second one they looked shrivelled up. Same goes for bananas, ginger, spinach, strawberries etc,
I'm not complaining! I grew up this way and have become quite used to the store clerks shaking their heads and saying, "no, the trucks are all stuck in North Sydney and won't be here for a few day". It just makes trying new things a game of hit and miss.
Come on now, the staples of the traditional Newfoundland diet has for generations been salt or fresh cod, moose meat, rabbits, ducks, berries and the few vegetables like potatoes and beets. There are parts of northern Newfoundland and most of Labrador for which the growing season is too short for even carrots! Salt beef is something that most people have with every cooked meal...basically meat, soaked in brine and stored in buckets....salted so much that refrigeration is only a polite suggestion.
Now, I'm lucky. I live in a town of about 20,000 people but this is the hub for a lot of communities. So imagine planning your meals, driving four hours to get here to find out the trucks haven't been in and there is slim pickings in the produce section. Is it any wonder people are eating the convenience foods? I watch with horror as people fill up their grocery carts with drink mixes instead of juice, tin milk instead of fresh, tin fruit (packed in sugar) instead of fresh, etc.
This summer I am planning on expanding my food choices. I have never had artichokes, avocados, leeks, papaya, black beans, fiddle heads, but if I can find it I am going to try things out. I found out I love asparagus (we never could get it growing up) and sweet potatoes weren't bought because we had a perfectly good supply of regular potatoes. Maybe this will be the year I try out Ugli fruit (I've only seen them once in our town), Passion Fruit (have never seen them), or try squash of any kind......or maybe I will have to wait for the trucks to come in!
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