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Tuesday, March 01, 2011


We've had another snow storm here overnight so it is nice to see the snow still pure white as opposed to the gray colour it turns as Spring progresses. I didn't get out for my walk in the woods with Maddy and Lou today so we had to make do with walking around our neighbourhood. Managed to walk 3.5 km but it just isn't as enjoyable as being in the woods.

I saw my psychiatrist yesterday for the first time in about 14 months. Actually I did see her one year ago tomorrow at her husband's funeral but that wasn't a professional visit. She has become a good friend of mine and fellow animal lover so we talk about a lot of things besides my mental state.

Yesterday we talked for 2 hours (!) and I left feeling emotionally drained. But that is how I make progress as I tend to over analyze my own situation and she basically tells me that it is perfectly normal to feel that way or explains why I feel that way.

She was amazed that I really enjoyed this winter. I think she thought I was down because the winter was long and a lot of people just get fed up with snow, even those who are not depressed. But this year has been different! This has been the first year in memory that I actually don't want winter to end! Seriously! I just love getting out in the snow with Maddy and Lou and having the cold air and sunny skies on my face.

So she ruled out that as a cause of my anxiety. She knows that I dread Spring (March is not a good month for someone with Seasonal Affectivedness Disorder) and I dread the clock's changing even more.

At the end we narrowed my "warped" thinking to two reasons: One, I have never gone this long without feeling down before and I was probably always wondering when and if it was going to raise its ugly head. Apparently this is quite common as true depression will always ebb and flow throughout your life so you learn to take the good times with a grain of salt because you know they are not going to last. I know that sounds depressing in itself but for me, it gives me a sense of hope that I have finally learned when I'm in a downward spiral and thus I can be prepared.

The other thing, is what we are going to do when and If John has to leave to find employment. Actually John came with me to the appointment so I think he got to hear how concerned I am about this. In Newfoundland it is quite common for workers to fly either off shore or to Alberta for work and return back one week out of four. We've been blessed that we have never had to do that but it might become a reality over the summer when he finishes college. I think even acknowledging the anxiety this was causing helped relieve some of it.

So, my doctor/friend also told me to "increase" my medications when I felt like I was out of sorts and to decrease it when I thought I was okay. Now, I'm not a doctor (nor do I play one on tv...sorry, couldn't resist) but I always thought psychiatric medications were the one drug you really didn't want to be playing around with. I know they always warn you about not stopping them without consulting your doctor first. So, I'm still wary of playing doctor with my medications and I'm going to leave them alone for a week or so to see if I can pull myself out of this hole I seem to be mired in

I know I haven't been very faithful to my nutrition lately so that is one thing I can definitely change with only positive results. I joined a challenge under the Newfoundland Spark team to lose 5 pounds in March so I'm going to make an honest effort with that.

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DRGOMTI 3/4/2011 2:42PM

    Hey Pcoho!! I'm back from our trip to be with our lil grandson for his 1st bday. He is so precious n his mommy/our daughter is such a good mommy it just warms my heart all over!! I've been missing your blogs and YOU!! As you probably remember I'm on antidepressants and have finally found a good balance with 2 different kinds. I'm so glad you have a good shrink/friend : )) that you can rely on. Since I've been back home, I'm having a hard time getting in tracking gear again. Those trips always throw me for a loop. I don't know why I think I should quit tracking while I'm on vacation??? One of these many trips to see our fastly growing grandson, I'll figure out how to stay on track while traveling. After all, he's one of the reasons I'm here on SP!! I LOVE your new background picture! Winter IS gorgeous!! But also, I know even if I don't have SAD, it's harder for me to get going in the winter cz I think I'm a bear, n should be hibernating all winter!! emoticon Maybe one of these days I'll get enough gumption to change my Page background. : ))
Keep on ramblin on Susan!!

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KANSASROSE67 3/3/2011 12:27PM

    Glad you had a good talk and were able to relieve some anxiety that way. There might be ups as well as downs to your DH working away. My DH and I always get along best when we don't spend every moment together!

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TEMPEST272002 3/3/2011 12:14PM

    I'm going to echo the don't mess with the meds sentiment. Talk it over with your doctor - maybe your prescription allows for this... maybe not. Why risk it?

I'm glad you got the insight & reassurances you needed from your therapist. It's nice that it's someone you already have a relationship with & don't have to start from scratch.

I'm sorry to hear that hubby may have to work away. My hubby has worked away many times - first in the navy & later in the oil fields. I always miss him but you get used to it. Of course, there's the built in advantage of the honeymoon effect when they are home. There are pros & cons to every situation.

It's really encouraging to me that you caught the spiral in the early stages and you still stayed with us here at spark. Those are two HUGE steps towards health. You did good girl & it's going to keep getting better as you get healthier!

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    Man, I wouldn't want to play with the doses, either. Doesn't it take a good while to even get on a balance with them? That's the way it's been with me, anyway. I wonder, did you ask her about that? I have to say that I know you're right about that ebb and flow of depression. I hate to admit that I suffer from it because people start to flee like I'm a downer going to bring them down with me, but I try not to talk about it much. I'm not sure that helps ME at all! lol

It's so good to have time to read your blog and get back in touch with you again! emoticon

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    It always breaks my heart when I hear of men having the leave their families behind in search of work...that's Newfoundland for ya emoticon
I am glad that John was there with you for support and that he got to hear first hand your concerns and how it affects your being. I hope that everything works out for you both.
I always thought it strange for people not to enjoy winter. The thing is, it comes every year, some years are harder than others but I think it goes by better when we can make the best of it.
Our family ALWAYS enjoyed winter activities. Every weekend we would go to the channel and slide, or we would snow shoe, skate, ski doo or do whatever we could do to make the best of the season...even my parents, aunts and uncles got involved...some great memories.
So I am glad that you, my friend, are making the best of our sometimes long winter days. Take care. emoticon

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JHADZHIA 3/2/2011 9:56AM

    Nice to hear you had a good chat with your therapist and hubby was there for support. I hope it all helps.. Maybe controlling your own medication will empower you more to know you have more control over your depression so you won't feel so helpless when it comes on..
Winter is beautiful and I do hate the dirty, mushy, muddy spring. It is lovely getting out in a fresh snowfall, But I sure could do without the extreme cold we have been getting, that part is just totally a downer. The other day on a path I regularly take a woman fell and broke her ankle :( There was a really bad icy area which I am very careful around.. This is the worst part of wildly fluctuating temperatures where it can melt one day then go down to -30 the next :( Wreaks havoc on my RA too. So I still prefer the green summer months far and away. If I could afford to move to somewhere green all year, I would do it.. The one part I really love staying with my Mom is the opportuntity to walk the woodsy trails. There is nothing like that near where I live.
Feel better soon,

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BOVEY63 3/1/2011 4:35PM

    So happy to hear that you had a good session and that your hubby was there for support.

Praying that March goes well for you.

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APIRLRAIN888 3/1/2011 4:31PM

    Lol reading the part about being out for so long not knowing when it all come back sound a lot like this weight loss journey. I Dont know about depression but here we just keep keeping at it, keep sparking on!

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HOPEFULANGE 3/1/2011 4:04PM

    I'm glad to hear you had a good chat and you're feeling better about naming your issues. I hope John doesn't have to go away for work....hopefully Danny has made it that not too many people will have to do that anymore. It's got to be hard on families, and especially those with children, that have to make money that way.

Good luck with the March Challenge! I have my doubts I'll be able to lose 5 pounds but I'm going to give it my best!

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KAMAPERRY 3/1/2011 3:58PM

    Hmmmm, I wouldnt want to play with my meds either. I am glad your husband went with you too for support. I pray things get better for you soon. emoticon

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Hello! I'm back and I'm determined!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Hello all!

Just to let you know that my mental state has just about returned to "normal" whatever normal means. I'm feeling proud of myself to have seen the signs and to have taken some time for me as I seem to have nipped the evil one in the proverbial bud this time.

Tomorrow I am going to see the specialist (I only say that because I can't spell psychiatrist or was that it?) which is about one hour away. It is in the same town my husband is going to college in so I am leaving early enough to have lunch with him and to meet some of his classmates. I've heard so much about them over the past few months that it will be fun to see if I can match up names to the people I have only envisioned up to now.

Today is a cold, yet sunny day here. When we left for our jaunt across the river the temperature was -10 celsius with a strong wind. Not sure of the actual windchill all the same. Needless to say we were dressed for it and enjoyed every minute of it. All was well until I decided to step off the beaten trail and to walk on the snow. I didn't know anything until I one leg went right through the upper crust and it was up to my groin! Then when I tried to haul my leg out (all the while I was laughing like a loon) my boot came off and was left buried in the snow! So picture this, John and I on our hands and knees on a bank of snow, me with one boot off, digging with our hands to get the other boot and Maddy and Lou digging with us because they thought it was playtime! By the time we rescued my boot it was full of snow! Ha! It was fun all the same and we did manage to walk at least 3km today over there today.

John took a picture of Maddy and I shortly after this happened so I will try to add it in before I post this blog. I have enough layers of clothes on in the picture that you are all going to think I have Lou stuffed under my coat!!!

Notice the piece of wood in one of the pictures...it is the top rail of a four foot fence!!!!

Anyway, to get to my blog title, I'm back to feeling myself. I would like to thank all of you who posted on my page, responded to my blog or sent me a message! You are a fine bunch of friends and I truly value your support and friendship.

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SLIMMERJESSE 2/28/2011 4:30PM

    Welcome back! Best wishes for success. You will do it!

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LESLIES537 2/28/2011 4:26PM

    So glad to hear you're back to 'normal'! emoticon Loved the pictures!!

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APIRLRAIN888 2/28/2011 12:28AM

    woohooo great pics and yeah to normal

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S3XYDIVASMOM 2/27/2011 11:23PM

    Lookin' good. I'm glad to hear you're feeling better.

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JHADZHIA 2/27/2011 10:57PM

    LOL, I have never had that happen to me thank goodness, lucky to have mostly beaten down trails here.. You guys get such huge amounts of snow though.. Lovely family portrait there. You are bundled up like the Michelin Man for winter, good stuff! One of the things I dislike about winter is the suiting up for it -feel like a stiff robot sometimes lol.
Glad you are coming back into the land of the living -that is good to hear! Enjoy your meeting and lunch with hubby tomorrow!

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HOPEFULANGE 2/27/2011 8:16PM

    Well, you're not a true Newfoundlander until you've had your boot stuck in the snow! emoticon Sounds like you had a great time - and it looks like you had some sunshine!!! We had a bit this morning, but it was still windy and cold all day.

I'm so happy to hear that you are feeling better and that you're getting a better handle on everything! I'll bet it has a lot to do with your journey the last few months. I've watched you evolve into a woman who respects herself and enjoys life everyday...keep spreading the joy!

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BARBARACT 2/27/2011 5:51PM

    I am glad to hear you are feeling better! Good for you!

I had to laugh myself about the you guys looks for the boot! LOL! Your foot must have been sooo cold! That is a really nice picture of you and the pups!

Thanks for sharing!


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KAMAPERRY 2/27/2011 5:23PM

    Awesome, you give me hope!

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TEMPEST272002 2/27/2011 4:31PM

    I'm so glad you're feeling better. You did a good job of taking care of yourself.

I'm glad you found your boot. Pretty funny image of you hip deep... emoticon

Maddy is such a little fluff ball. She looks like she has the perfect winter coat!

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An open letter to my evil-friend....depression

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Dear Depression,

Well, I can’t say it is nice to see you. How very unthoughtful of you to blow back into town and to try to wedge yourself into my life. But, you’ve always been like that so I’ve come to refer to you as my “evil friend” when I don’t even want you to call you a friend at all. But you are because you’ve been with me for most of my life and I have learned a thing or two about coping with your presence.

You try to tear me down and make me hate myself and others. You try to suppress my love of life and my smile. Yes, there were many times in my life that you succeeded in almost destroying me. But I’m telling you that this time is going to be different.

This time, I’ve got my suit of armour on. It is not made of steel so regardless of how much you rain on me, I won’t rust in spots to allow you to spill in. My armour is made of something more durable and it is not manmade. My armour consists of a loving husband, supportive family and friends, furry creatures, great medications, understanding doctors and, if that is not enough, I have a new found support group called SparkPeople!

So when you try your best to bore through my armour, you are going to get your sorry behind kicked by not only me but by the many members of my support team. You might think you are making progress when out of the blue one of them is going to knock you back and block any future progress. Sorry, but I’ve had enough of you in my life.

I know you will continue to make rare and unannounced visits throughout the rest of my life but you have to learn that you are not welcome in my home and especially not in my life. You’ve caused enough havoc with your mind games. You try your best to worm into people’s lives mostly when they are not up to receiving such nasty visitors. To be hospitable, I will not send you to the curb but you had better pack really light because more than one day or night is not going to be tolerated. You will be at the curb before you know what hit you if you try to stay longer than that.

I have learned a few things from you and all of them haven’t been too bad. I’ve learned that when you have a great support team they will get you through the toughest times. You tried to tell me that nobody cared and that I would be better off dead but you were wrong….again! So really, you got me to question everything you stand for. I give you credit for that one!

Now, my only question for you is “how does it feel when somebody kicks back at you”….I thought so!



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    can I just say how much I agree with Ange. You are one of the strongest women that I have ever had the pleasure of....well...not meeting emoticon
...but knowing.... emoticon and I just loves ya to pieces.
and as for that nasty friend of yours...

emoticonthese boots were made for walking,and that's just what they'll do, one of these days these boots are gonna walk all over you!!!

and if not that,they will kick you butt!!!!

emoticon emoticon emoticonKnow that you are never alone!!

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HOPEFULANGE 2/24/2011 9:09PM

    You may not think this...but you are one of the strongest women I know. I love your outlook on life, and you deserve to be happy for just being you!

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JHADZHIA 2/24/2011 8:52PM

    You are stronger and more self confident then you have ever been before. Your evil friend doesn't stand a chance. You will kick her out in short order:
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And your friends will be ther to make sure she is down and out!
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Go Susan Go!

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APIRLRAIN888 2/24/2011 6:28PM

    great attitude as usual and great letter!
"Now, my only question for you is “how does it feel when somebody kicks back at you”….I thought so!"

LOVE it!! tons of HUGS, you can do it
I don't have depression can't relate but here for support! don't want you to go my mom's road ;p

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KAMAPERRY 2/24/2011 4:39PM

    Oh!!!! I can soooooo relate!!!!!! I have depression too, and it has been kicking MY butt lately, it is evil all right!! Thanks for posting this! emoticon

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GOOZLEBEAR 2/24/2011 4:29PM

    Susan, I know you can send your "evil friend" packin' this time. You will overcome this and we are here for you. Good for you not letting it get a hold on you this time.!!

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BARBARACT 2/24/2011 3:46PM

    There you go! You tell it! I think it is great that you wrote that terrible thing a letter and letting you say how you really feel about it! That in itself had to be very therapeutic for you!

good for you!!!

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GEORGIAK25 2/24/2011 3:36PM

    Susan try and get some sunshine and exerfcise. It is hard when that monster rears his head. I am going through it right now with my DH and he is having a very bad time of it. Please know we understand emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 2/24/2011 3:27PM

    emoticon That's right Susan, you remember what a fighter you are and how much support you have around you. This visit is only temporary & you will make it through.

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WILLOW-WALKING 2/24/2011 2:50PM

    'Evil friend' didn't have a chance that time emoticon
United we stand, divided we fall emoticon emoticon

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LESLIES537 2/24/2011 2:43PM

    That's right!! You show 'em, warrior! TAKE THAT Depression!!! emoticon emoticon

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KAYDE53 2/24/2011 2:32PM

    Let your old "evil-friend" have it between the eyes, Susan!! It 's awful the way depression sneaks in on us, isn't it!! Good job of giving depression the boot, before it really has time to take hold of you!! Bless you and have a great day!!

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Taking some me time

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


I felt so drained emotionally today that I went to a walk-in clinic and spoke to a doctor from my own little neighbourhood. He was very understanding and thought I was very positive about my depression. Funny how positive and depression can be used in the same sentence!

Anyway, I understood what he meant. He said it was a good thing I could see this coming on instead of waiting for a full-blown case of mind and body numbing depression. I told him about Spark and how I was actually getting outdoors to enjoy this winter because he mentioned SAD (seasonal affectivedness disorder) and I said that usually gets me when the rain doesn't stop and not in mid-winter.

He called the psychiatrist's office for me and spoke the her receptionist so now I have an appointment for this coming Monday. Since I wasn't keen on increasing my meds right during the next few days he put me off work for one week. I'm glad of that. I know many of you think I should still go to work but I have a gut feeling that I needed some me time. I'm not planning on staying in bed or lying around the house. I want to get up each day and do what I can around our home and get outdoors for my walks with the dogs. I haven't been sleeping well either which hasn't been the case since I started Spark.

I'll be on here checking for messages, etc. Please don't think I'm giving up. I'm just taking some much needed me time.

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TEMPEST272002 2/23/2011 1:54PM

    I woke up thinking about you this morning, wondering how you were doing. I'm so glad to hear that you are taking care of yourself. It's the hardest thing to do when you're depressed. I know how tempting it is to just sink down and how how much effort you had to have made to take those necessary steps.

Next week is an opportunity for you to rest up a bit. Getting out of bed is important - but so is taking a mid-day nap if you need to. Doing housework will give your days purpose - but expecting too much will leave you disappointed & exhausted. Try to keep the tasks short & managable, eh?

Long walks in the countryside with the dogs, OTH, I recommend you do excessively! OK, maybe not excessively, just often and as long as you are comfortable. The dogs & nature will refresh your spirit.

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

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LESLIES537 2/23/2011 11:02AM

    Good for you. 'Me time' is so vital to our mental health! Go DO YOU and we'll be here for when you get back! emoticon

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BARBARACT 2/23/2011 2:32AM

    I am glad you got to see someone and got input.

Enjoy your me time!


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APIRLRAIN888 2/23/2011 12:01AM

    I think it's a great idea!!! I know you post positivity like me! go and take sometime for yourself

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BTRTHANEVA 2/22/2011 10:05PM

    The only person you should be concerned with right now is you. Take whatever time you need. Be comforted with the knowledge that many of us have been where you are and have an understanding of how dilapitating depression can be. Like the commercial so aptly states, depression hurts.

Take care of yourself. We'll be waiting with open arms and hearts when you're up to some sparkin' time...


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HOPEFULANGE 2/22/2011 9:26PM

    Good decision to go to the walk-in. Glad you were able to get a closer appointment with your psychiatrist. Take care of yourself!

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GOOZLEBEAR 2/22/2011 8:03PM

    I think you are correct in taking some "me" time, there is certainly nothing wrong with that. I think it is great that you have an appt. to see where you stand with things in your life. Enjoy your walks with your pups!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JHADZHIA 2/22/2011 7:54PM

    That is good the Dr. agreed with you! Only you really know what your body needs.
You can check back here for accountability so we know you really haven't turned into a couch potato ;)
Enjoy your time off!
Make the most of it!
Maybe a short trip away would perk things up for you..
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Ever feel like you need a break~my mental health blog

Monday, February 21, 2011


Just came back from the funeral service for my friend Cathy and I most say it was a really nice tribute to her. Cried a few tears but overall felt a sense of peace when I left the church. I know I've been feeling under the weather lately thinking about her and I hope now she is at peace and thankfully is pain-free.

To cut to the chase ~ this is for those who live with mental illness. How do you know when life becomes too much and you just need a break? I haven't seen my psychiatrist in 18 months and my family doctor in about 4 months. My psychiatrist is finally back to work (her husband died last year and she had her own health issues) but getting an appointment is proving to be difficult. It is not like I can just drop in as she lives about one hour's drive away. Called my family doctor's office...earliest to get in is on March 10th. Mind you, I'm free to go see somebody else....I'm just quoting his receptionist.....like I would just show up to a new doctor and say "I need some time off work".

That is what I feel like....I need a break. Actually the fact that I THINK I need a break scares me. I only work part-time, I enjoy my job, I'm enjoying my Spark journey, my life with my husband is better than ever and yet, I feel like I am going down a slippery slope. I could cry at the drop of a hat (despite what my humour says!) and I'm just tired. Can't figure that one out at all. I'm the healthiest I've been in years, I am walking at least 6 out of 7 days, I'm beginning to see some changes physically but yet, I want to bury my head in the sand like an ostrich!

AAARRRGGGHHH...this is the frustrating thing about depression! There often is no cause and effect that is readily apparent. I've had this discussion with John when he arrived home from college today. He said, what would you do with a week off and you know what my answer was???? To do housework! What's up with that? I'm feeling like everything is getting to be too much effort.....please......don't laugh.......I know how silly this sounds but I'm just trying to be honest! What would I do if I had a full-time job, a family of children, a demanding husband???? It kind of makes me disappointed in myself that often times I can't handle normal stress.

Anybody out there care to share how they knew when they needed a break? I'm really debating calling said psychiatrist tomorrow and saying I need a note for taking some time off from work. I know she will do that for me but is that really the best thing to do or should I soldier on and get over this?

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TEMPEST272002 2/22/2011 12:34PM

    emoticon I do know how you feel. You must not be angry at yourself. This isn't your fault, it's simply brain chemistry.

Since you say that you enjoy your job, I have to agree with Barbaract. I think you would be better off going to work and not isolating yourself at home.

I think you should take the March 10th appointment with your doctor - but see if you can get in to see another doctor in the meantime. At least they could order some blood tests to be forwarded to your regular doctor. I'm just thinking you should have your thyroid tested.

Take care and keep exercising and blogging. We're here for you.

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TEXAS38 2/21/2011 10:19PM

    Sorry, having computer difficulties!

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TEXAS38 2/21/2011 10:19PM

    I have been on your slippery slope and it leads to the pit you have no doubt been in before. I think a lot of people cannot get out of depression without medication and therapy, and I believe they work together. Please seek the help you need, and don't get too caught up in only seeing someone you have seen before. You might find someone that gives you better care than the last time. Also, please don't beat yourself up over everything being hard or "normal stress" being overwhelming. That's the nature of the beast - depression, it has nothing to do with you personally, it is the illness, and that can be treated. Take care and keep us posted.

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TEXAS38 2/21/2011 10:19PM

    I have been on your slippery slope and it leads to the pit you have no doubt been in before. I think a lot of people cannot get out of depression without medication and therapy, and I believe they work together. Please seek the help you need, and don't get too caught up in only seeing someone you have seen before. You might find someone that gives you better care than the last time. Also, please don't beat yourself up over everything being hard or "normal stress" being overwhelming. That's the nature of the beast - depression, it has nothing to do with you personally, it is the illness, and that can be treated. Take care and keep us posted.

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TEXAS38 2/21/2011 10:18PM

    I have been on your slippery slope and it leads to the pit you have no doubt been in before. I think a lot of people cannot get out of depression without medication and therapy, and I believe they work together. Please seek the help you need, and don't get too caught up in only seeing someone you have seen before. You might find someone that gives you better care than the last time. Also, please don't beat yourself up over everything being hard or "normal stress" being overwhelming. That's the nature of the beast - depression, it has nothing to do with you personally, it is the illness, and that can be treated. Take care and keep us posted.

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JHADZHIA 2/21/2011 9:50PM

    I agree with the others, seek help before doing anything. You don't really want to withdraw..You have to monitor what you are feeling very closely and not let yourself slip into a deeper depression.
My thoughts are with you, hoping you can get some help soon..
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APIRLRAIN888 2/21/2011 6:48PM

    first kudos for writing it out! I think if my mom was more open she would be here today! she bottled everything up! and exploded and was down the slippery slope!

I don't have said depression! but I do have times I NEED A BREAK! like today! I just felt fatigued!! it was stress from last night! I must be doing awesome bc I haven't stress out about anything in a while (choices, decision to stay clear of drama)

so it's funny to say that little thing with my hubby's plane delay stressed me out! lol! I dont handle stress well! SO I just veggied out today, went to walmart. will do p90x and walked already!

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BARBARACT 2/21/2011 5:31PM

    In my opinion, I feel that if you don't continue going to work you will go down the slope further. I know for me, not that I suffer from depression - but I do have my down days - that if I give in to it for more than a day I don't do well. I have a harder time picking myself up and getting moving again.

I think you should really see a therapist about what is going on BEFORE taking time off from work. If the therapist thinks it is a good idea then do it. I wouldn't just do it on your own. Especially if your answer is just to do housework. I feel like you are isolating yourself..and will sink further. Just doing housework to me can be depressing as well.

You really need to talk to someone and see what is going on.


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SHERRYTOO 2/21/2011 5:02PM

    Depression should be taken very seriously. When you start sliding down that depression pit, it's hard to pull yourself out of it on your own. After my son died 6 months ago, I immediately went on anti-depressants and found a therapist. A couple of weeks ago I found myself really, really down. I blamed it on the cold dreary weather but I do try to monitor my emotions just in case I start to slide.

My advice -- find a professional! I personally think everyone needs to see one every now and then!


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