Monday, January 10, 2011
Because you all have agreed not to judge me (can't remember agreeing to THAT, now can you?), I am going to tell you something I'm ashamed of. I am a terrible housekeeper! I've written about this before but now I've got a "plan".
Anyway, first of all, let me tell you what I did that I am ashamed about. I had a huge racket with my husband that basically brought up the idea of a trial separation. He was floored and to be honest, I don't know how those words came out of my mouth. All because of housework and my feeling that I have to do "everything". Which for the record, is never true but we tend to say that in moments of anger.
I cried so much last night that my cold has renewed itself and now I feel miserable both physically and mentally. We've patched things up but I'm really ashamed at how I blew up at him and then for what I said.
One of my dear SparkFriends, recently suggested the website FlyLady.com to me after a previous blog in which I basically complained about being totally disorganized. So, I'm going to give it a try, It sounds so easy that I doubt it will really work but then again, that is how I felt about SparkPeople too.
I've always balked at the idea of doing household chores on assigned days as a way of rebelling against the way I was brought up. I still hate Tuesdays to this day because it was roast beef night and vacuuming day for my mother. She was a demon with the latter and would obsess over making sure buttons on clothes were even dusted! That and she would keep the house freezing cold because she was sweating so much. My brother and I both hate Tuesdays to this day but love Mondays which was just laundry day and sausages!!! Oh, and we weren't allowed to help out in any way, shape or form. I left home for university without ever turning on a washer or dryer, knowing how to iron, bake, cook, peel vegetables, dust, etc.
I know she did this because she thought she was giving us a break but really, it backfired! We both ended up being A students and mannerly but we never were given the chance to develop lifestyle skills Did I mention that I didn't leave home (except for my four years in university) until I was 34! Are you beginning to see a problem here!?
So, I am adding housekeeping and organizing to my Spark Journey! I am going to come up with a plan to have assigned days for assigned housework. BOTH of us are going to have chores to do and they will be clearly written down. Poor John is one of those men who would gladly help out but needs a bit of direction and apparently I do too!
Like my Spark Journey, this is not going to happen overnight and I am preparing myself for that. Wish me luck and I will keep you updated on my progress!
P.S. I really don't want to leave my husband and I know he doesn't want to leave me! WHY did I blurt that out!?!?!
Sunday, January 09, 2011
Okay, to be quite honest with all of you, I have not been doing the best with my weight loss journey over the past few weeks and I know why. It is the same old story of food begging to be eaten, treats to be had too often, and not exercising the way I should be. I know most of you can understand and have been there at some point or another.
So, I'm not going to belabor the point. I'm not reaching my potential and it is my own doing. I have to change this and only I can do this. For once in my life I have to be totally selfish (okay, I'm not a saint, I have been selfish at other points too) and do this for me.
One of the things that worked several years ago was meal planning. John and I tend to eat out a lot which is not good. It is mainly because I use the excuse that I don't know what to make, I don't have time, etc. What a pile of baloney we try to make ourselves believe.
I work mornings only, I don't have children, so I should have all the time in the world. I do really but I just don't maximize its potential!
I gained weight this past week which makes about four weeks of consistently gaining. Can you see a pattern here...eating out, not exercising, weight gain. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what I'm doing wrong.
So, back to my blog title. I'm tackling two of my problems at once. I made up a list of meal plans for the week, went to the store and picked up what we needed, and now I'm making lasagne one for tonight, making two others to freeze, and making two sheppard's pies to freeze. Can you tell that extra-lean ground beef was on sale and that I stocked up!?
I also have chicken breasts bought that I will cook all at once but will be the base of several meals. Then I picked up a frozen pizza (not a big fan) but I figure it will be okay on the night that I am just too lazy or tired to cook. Paired with some salad and fruit and it will sure beat going out to eat.
Okay, so I've got this thought through but why can't I do this all of the time? Why do I do things in spurts? I know right from wrong when it comes to healthy eating but I still slip up. Am I stunned or am I human? I'm thinking both!!!
By the way, the hairnet is to keep my hair from falling in the meals I'm preparing and the dog fur is what I'm hoping won't be present in any meal I prepare. Wish you could all see me in my hairnet......quite funny.......not to mention my ragged old jeans and t-shirt! ha!!!!
Saturday, January 08, 2011
Was on another mission today to take a dog from its owners who found the shedding to be too much. I think that has to be one of the stupidest excuses for relinquishing ownership of an animal but that is just my humble opinion. This little dog is only about 8 months old, was adopted from a shelter about 4 months ago, and now the novelty has worn off.
Luckily we had a foster family in mind so John and I were asked to find some kennels and to sanitize them before we delivered the equipment to the foster home. Now you are all thinking they had to be sanitized from being at our house, but the kennels were actually borrowed from us and were at a dog grooming place. Hence the need to make sure they were free of other dog's germs.
What a little sweetie pie! She looks like a small terrier, all white except for an eye-patch black spot right above one of her eyes! I said she looks like a wee little pirate with her eye patch resting on her forehead. We saw no excess fur coming off of her but she did seem to crave attention. Apparently, she was either left tied on all day or left in a porch with no human contact except in passing. WHY would somebody do this to an animal?
The woman who had Maddy before us, would take away all water and food from him at 6:00 p.m. and lock him in a dark room and only let him out at 10:00 the next morning. Again, why have a dog if you are going to do that to them. No wonder Maddy is known as a Cling-On for his mommy! Ha.
I really wanted to take this little dog today but I'm finally learning to accept my limitations. I know I can give Maddy and Lou a good life but at this point, any more than two would cause me more harm than good.
So, I would like all of you out there who have pets, to please give them a good belly rub tonight in honour of all of those homeless, sheltered, abused fur-covered souls out there. We think that we are rescuing them but how many times does a little pet actually bring us pure joy and fulfillment.....everyday if you let them!
Again, thanks for reading and putting up with my opinions.
Friday, January 07, 2011
All I can say to begin with is "Thank goodness it is Friday" because I'm pooped! There is nothing like a two week break from work to make you tired the very first week back. I'm glad to be back though, all the same, as I really need structure in my life. Oh dear, I'm turning into a fuddy duddy!
My question of the night is "how do you keep the names of your SparkFriends straight"? I know most of you sign off your blog responses to me with your real names but when I look at your pictures I "see" your Spark names and not your real names. Then I feel bad when I send a message because I can't seem to keep the names straight.
There used to be a television program here in Newfoundland called Romper Room. Mind you, this was back in the 2 channel universe, one of which was the CBC (Canadian Broadcasting Company) and NTV (Newfoundland Television). CBC was traditionally really structured while NTV was mostly local.
Anyway, the hostess of Romper Room was a young lady you called herself "Miss Anne" and she would have sing-a-longs and other fun things children would enjoy. The fun part of Miss Anne was that she would have a mirror-like thing and she would look right at the camera and say "and I see Johnny, and I see Susie, etc" so all of us children watched eagerly to see if Miss Anne would somehow magically "see" them through their television sets. Oh the miracles of television and young minds!
Okay, so you are wondering what the connection is to Miss Anne? Well, I wish I had a device that would flash my friends real names across my screen when I'm trying desperately to remember if "FatinSeattle" (I made that up!) is Judy, Joanne, or Dwayne! Ha!
So, here I sit, going to send out messages to all of you and I hate to get your names mixed up....hopefully that will explain the generic "To Whom it May Concern"!!! Just joking!
I hope all is well with each and everyone of you in your respective corners of this world!
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