Thursday, January 06, 2011
Although I nothing earth shattering to share, I thought I would continue on with my blog writing, for my own benefit, it not for anyone elses.
I've been walking more this week which is really helping my mental health. I guess it is helping my physical health as well but that is something you don't really notice on a day to day basis.
Speaking of mentally, does anybody else find that the weather really affects their state of mind? It does nutty things to me! Whenever we have rain, drizzle, and fog I would just as soon stay in bed or at least indoors with the lights on and the curtains closed.
That being said, I was thrilled that the past few days have finally turned cooler and the sun has come out! We still don't have any snow.....unless you count the 1/2 inch that is lying on the grass. I've been walking wearing my sneakers rather than warm winter boots because of the warm temperatures. Sneakers are much more comfortable and allow me to walk the dogs and me further!
Funny dog story....well, not so funny for poor Maddy. Yesterday we went our normal route and met up with a Rhodesian Ridgeback named Blaze. Blaze is about two and is WILD! Well, I think Lou now has a boyfriend because didn't they have fun chasing each other and knocking into one another. Of course, they are both 60+ pounds so it was kind of even.
Enter, our ferocious ball of fluff, Maddy who eagerly joined in the play. All was going well until Blaze slipped, crashed into Lou who knocked Maddy off his feet. The expression on Maddy's face was priceless. He ran up to me, and looked at me as if to say "Mom, did you see what they did to me" before he took off racing again. Needless to say, they both crashed when they got home and were well-behaved doggies all night. LOL.
I hope all of you are doing well on your journeys. I will try to get in touch with each of you over the weekend.
P.S. Thanks to those of you who suggested some great organizing tips! I checked out the FlyLady website...wow!
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Just got back from a nice stroll with the dogs during which I did some more thinking. I think I should earn "brownie points" for all the calories I burn when I think too much.....ha!
Anyway, I have to confess that I'm chronically disorganized. My husband refers to me as the most disorganized-organized person he knows. I try to be organized but then life happens and it all goes out the window.
So, along with fanning the flames of my Spark, I am going to embark on trying to get myself organized. I'm going to approach it with the same game plan I did when I joined Spark. I'm going to take it slow and steady. I am teaching myself to always put my keys in the same spot when I come home. Same goes for my wallet and cell phone.
I think I'm so messy because a) we never had kids so we act like two teenagers and b) I was raised to be anal about any clutter that I rebelled. But now, I'm ashamed of myself.
Any ideas on setting up routines for housework, meal planning, laundry, etc.? I'm going to try to write down my plan and keep it out where I can see it. Maybe then life will seem a little less crazy.
I don't know what I would be like if I had children or worked full time?! Maybe, I'd be okay because then I would only have a set period of time to do stuff. Right now it feels like I spend half of my life cleaning up and there always seems to be a mess, of some sort, around.
Talk to you later!
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
Today was my first day back to work since December 21st, so I'm a bit tired tonight. Funny how that is, isn't it? I was up half the night again coughing and to cope I kept sipping on honey which probably put me in sugar overload! Ha!
Speaking of sugar, I had to take Mom to a diabetes clinic today as starting tomorrow she has to start taking insulin injections twice a day. She was first diagnosed 20 years ago and except for the first year, she did not make any lifestyle or dietary adjustments.
When we were talking to the nurse today, I found out that I have an increased risk of developing diabetes as well since both Mom and her sister had/have it. Plus, I'm overweight.....by a lot!
I was reading a newspaper article yesterday that stated that Newfoundland has the highest rate of diabetes in all of Canada and we are double the national average. That is scary!
So, what can I do? I guess I have to accept the family history but I can change my diet and lifestyle. I think I'm working on both of that now. I'm also exercising and trying to get my weight down to an acceptable range. Apparently, it has a lot to do with the circumference of your waist. I'm doomed....or am I?
The same nurse told me that the changes I am making are great. She also explained that I should be eating my fruit with meals rather than as snacks because the other foods help prevent spikes in blood sugar, Interesting.
Anyway, I'm not going to worry about it but I will make an effort to become more informed to see if I can beat the odds!
Thanks for reading! Still a balmy 5 degrees Celsius here!
Sunday, January 02, 2011
Happy New Year to all of my old SparkFriends and to my newest ones!
If you've been reading my blogs lately you will notice that I haven't been my normal upbeat self. In fact, it has been over a week since I've walked my dogs, drank my 8 glasses of water, felt normal. Do you see a trend here? I do! So I'm officially declaring that 2011 is going to be all about me!
This self-centred attitude flies in the face of everything I've been brainwashed into believing. I was raised to never consider my personal needs and to always think of the other person first. Well, this made me a "nice" person, I was and have been searching to find out who I really am...deep down.
I've so lacked in the self-confidence department that I've failed to ever decorate my house in the fears that others won't like it, I wouldn't wear makeup because heaven forbid, I thought something of myself. My poor mom still believes that using hair conditioner is a sign of vanity and I won't begin to tell you how she feels about skin care, let alone makeup.
2010 brought along a lot of changes in my life, most of which were self-made. I started blowdrying my hair (another sign of vanity), experimenting with makeup, (a big no-no!), wearing clothing colours other than neutrals (don't want to draw attention to oneself), etc.
Now, don't get me wrong, I love my mother and I think she has her own issues that are making her into the woman she is today. But now, thanks to my self-journey, I'm starting to realize that they are her problems and not mine. I can help her through them, I can listen to what she says, but I don't have to believe her negative self-talk and choke myself in the process.
So, this is a big step for me! I'm officially declaring that I am going to delve deeper into my journey of self-discovery this year. I'm going against everything I was brought up to believe in and I'm putting myself on the pedestal! My decisions will be mine and not directed by my negative body image and self-loathing. I've always known I've had very poor self-esteem and I had always tried to find a quick fix for it. But, you know what, there is no quick fix......it is a process and I'm packing my bags to enjoy the ride.
The past few months have brought with them a big change in me. People are not so much noticing my weight loss but something about me that they can't quite put their finger on. I'm making some great SparkFriends who like me for who I am. I can write about anything and nobody judges me which is encouraging me to be more open.
I know a lot of you are religious and I've taken the first step in admitting that, while I don't go to church, I am very spiritual. I do not like what organized religion did for me in the past (that is another story!) and I really feel happier with my beliefs. I have my chats with my god every so often and usually they occur in nature while walking the beasts.
I am challenging myself and nobody else! I'm not going to become more like so and so, as I'm going to finally discover who I am! I'll be 45 this year and what a year it is going to be!
Thanks for reading! xo Susan
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