Tuesday, January 04, 2011
Today was my first day back to work since December 21st, so I'm a bit tired tonight. Funny how that is, isn't it? I was up half the night again coughing and to cope I kept sipping on honey which probably put me in sugar overload! Ha!
Speaking of sugar, I had to take Mom to a diabetes clinic today as starting tomorrow she has to start taking insulin injections twice a day. She was first diagnosed 20 years ago and except for the first year, she did not make any lifestyle or dietary adjustments.
When we were talking to the nurse today, I found out that I have an increased risk of developing diabetes as well since both Mom and her sister had/have it. Plus, I'm overweight.....by a lot!
I was reading a newspaper article yesterday that stated that Newfoundland has the highest rate of diabetes in all of Canada and we are double the national average. That is scary!
So, what can I do? I guess I have to accept the family history but I can change my diet and lifestyle. I think I'm working on both of that now. I'm also exercising and trying to get my weight down to an acceptable range. Apparently, it has a lot to do with the circumference of your waist. I'm doomed....or am I?
The same nurse told me that the changes I am making are great. She also explained that I should be eating my fruit with meals rather than as snacks because the other foods help prevent spikes in blood sugar, Interesting.
Anyway, I'm not going to worry about it but I will make an effort to become more informed to see if I can beat the odds!
Thanks for reading! Still a balmy 5 degrees Celsius here!
Sunday, January 02, 2011
Happy New Year to all of my old SparkFriends and to my newest ones!
If you've been reading my blogs lately you will notice that I haven't been my normal upbeat self. In fact, it has been over a week since I've walked my dogs, drank my 8 glasses of water, felt normal. Do you see a trend here? I do! So I'm officially declaring that 2011 is going to be all about me!
This self-centred attitude flies in the face of everything I've been brainwashed into believing. I was raised to never consider my personal needs and to always think of the other person first. Well, this made me a "nice" person, I was and have been searching to find out who I really am...deep down.
I've so lacked in the self-confidence department that I've failed to ever decorate my house in the fears that others won't like it, I wouldn't wear makeup because heaven forbid, I thought something of myself. My poor mom still believes that using hair conditioner is a sign of vanity and I won't begin to tell you how she feels about skin care, let alone makeup.
2010 brought along a lot of changes in my life, most of which were self-made. I started blowdrying my hair (another sign of vanity), experimenting with makeup, (a big no-no!), wearing clothing colours other than neutrals (don't want to draw attention to oneself), etc.
Now, don't get me wrong, I love my mother and I think she has her own issues that are making her into the woman she is today. But now, thanks to my self-journey, I'm starting to realize that they are her problems and not mine. I can help her through them, I can listen to what she says, but I don't have to believe her negative self-talk and choke myself in the process.
So, this is a big step for me! I'm officially declaring that I am going to delve deeper into my journey of self-discovery this year. I'm going against everything I was brought up to believe in and I'm putting myself on the pedestal! My decisions will be mine and not directed by my negative body image and self-loathing. I've always known I've had very poor self-esteem and I had always tried to find a quick fix for it. But, you know what, there is no quick fix......it is a process and I'm packing my bags to enjoy the ride.
The past few months have brought with them a big change in me. People are not so much noticing my weight loss but something about me that they can't quite put their finger on. I'm making some great SparkFriends who like me for who I am. I can write about anything and nobody judges me which is encouraging me to be more open.
I know a lot of you are religious and I've taken the first step in admitting that, while I don't go to church, I am very spiritual. I do not like what organized religion did for me in the past (that is another story!) and I really feel happier with my beliefs. I have my chats with my god every so often and usually they occur in nature while walking the beasts.
I am challenging myself and nobody else! I'm not going to become more like so and so, as I'm going to finally discover who I am! I'll be 45 this year and what a year it is going to be!
Thanks for reading! xo Susan
Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Year to all of you, my very dear SparkFriends! As I like to say, I'd rather it be called Happy New "Rear" and other body parts as that is what I always wish for each time this year. For some reason it never pans out which is why I'm glad I started my Spark journey in August/September!
First of all, Lou had her third x-ray this morning which showed that the stubborn piece of rawhide should be passed over this weekend! That will be the best New Year's present ever. She seems to be over most of her discomfort and spent her time on the x-ray table wagging her table and trying to lick the people holding on to her!
Maddy is fine too but I expect will be very anxious later on tonight when people around us ring in the new year with rifle shots and fireworks. Any suggestions for dealing with that?
I'm in a bit of a funk. I like I've undergone a derailment and I'm just waiting to get back on the right track! I`ve had a weird sore throat and cough for over a week that is keeping me up at night, I haven`t felt like walking, I`m eating whatever, and I`m worried about Louisa.
I haven`t felt this ``down`` in several months but rationally I can understand why I am feeling this way now. It is like cause and effect which tells me this isn`t true depression. Still feeling pretty blah, all the same. I just went out with my husband and bought myself a magazine to browse through tonight. You can tell we aren`t big into celebrating New Years, hey.
I heard from my brother (who is travelling on some island off the coast of Australia) as the New Year is here, down there. My husband wanted to ask him for tonight`s winning lottery numbers....ha...ha!
Okay, you are all wondering what the big family news is! Well, my beloved grandmother is celebrating her 98th birthday today. We went to visit her this morning and she was all dressed up in her blouse, skirt and dress shoes. She looked awesome. Then we walked her to the dining room (she lives in an old age home) and there were balloons tied to her chair which excited her. She is in good health and her mind is mostly great except for some short-term memory loss. (Mine is like that now!)
Well, that is my rant for today! Wishing you all a safe and happy evening ahead and a great holiday weekend!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Yesterday we brought Lou into the vet clinic where they did a routine x-ray. This didn't show much other than that she was full of gas. She had stopped vomiting so we were told to feed her a tablespoon of canned dog food every two hours. She did her business several times and we...err...my husband...carefully checked through it as directed.
She slept most of the day but seemed fine. This morning she was out in our back garden chasing rabbits, tail wagging, and generally being the nutty dog that she is. Took her back for the follow-up x-ray which now showed the semi-hard chewie (they don't digest them but the rawhide does get softer the longer it is in the digestive system) and it is progressing nicely.
Today, we were sent home with three cans of a different food and we have to feed her about 1/4 can every two hours. She also has to be walked twice to see if she can pass this on her own. If not, tomorrow they will make a decision to open her up.
At this point, we are relieved to see her feeling herself. Our vet clinic is fantastic and even though they are not on call over the holiday weekend, they told us they would not make us drive 1 hour to see the other clinic. We are very pleased and Lou is looking and acting a lot better. Maddy, on the otherhand, is sulking slightly as he hasn't been the centre of our attention! Funny little critters, aren't they!
Keep those paws and fingers crossed!
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