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A cute quiz that I think you will all enjoy!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Hi! One of my dear Spark friends posted this quiz so I've reposted it with my answers in brackets. Maybe you will learn a thing or two about me!

1. Who used to be your superhero when you were a child?
(Mr. Dressup and Finnigan....couldn't stand Finnigan's sidekick Casey!)

2. Most hated chore on the chore list?

3. If you were to start your own restaurant, what would it be called?
(The Sweating Ass Cafe...this has been a joke between my husband and I for years...we would put a donkey on our sign to make it more appropriate!)

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
(Yes, Peaches' blanket that is now hogged by Maddy)

5. If you had to only eat three things for the rest of your life, day in and day out, what would they be?
(Popcorn, peanut butter and apples).

6. What are you listening to right now?
(The sound of Maddy snoring and Louisa whining because "Daddy" is outdoors and didn't take her!)

7. What's the last sporting event you watched?
(Something from the 2100 Olympics!)

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
(Yesterday I drove about 1 hour to finish up my Christmas shopping with my Mom)

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
(No, our local theatre is closed more than it is open so I haven't seen a movie in a theatre in about 5 years!)

10. What was the last thing you had to drink?

11. Last food that you ate?
(A raisin tea biscuit from Tim Hortons)

12. If you were a time traveler and could only go back in time or forward in time, which would you choose?
(Back! I think I would go back to the 1920's so I could see my 97 year old grandmother as a little girl)

13. . If you could tell your best friend one thing that you can't stand about him/her what would it be?

(That she is a lying cheat.....don't go there! She was finally caught by her husband and it was just today that I had a chance to talk to him and to reassure him that he can't take all the blame....aren't you sorry you asked this question!)

14. If you were to be famous what would you like to be known for?
(For establishing a retirement home for aged, homeless dogs)

15. What does your last text message say?
(Probably asking my cousin if she wanted a coffee at delivered to her at work)

16. How early do you start holiday shopping?
(I shop all year round because I find I can always find things for people on my list when I'm not really looking!

17. If you wrote a movie, what would the title be?
(A children's movie called "Hamilton's Home for Homeless Huskies")

18. When did you first realize you needed to change your lifestyle food-wise?
(When my brother was home this summer and I didn't have the stamina to keep up)

19. What color ink do you prefer to write with?

20. What was your favorite toy as a child?
(I was given a pink stuffed rabbit by my grandmother. I carried it everywhere and Mom had to patch it up so many times. When my father died 4 years ago, all that was left of "Rabbie" was a three-inch scrap of pink fluff. I took Rabbie out of the tissue paper and wrapped two milkbones into the fluff before tucking the works into Dad's shirt pocket. Rabbie, the milkbones and Dad were cremated on July 7th, 2006)

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VIXEN2188 11/22/2010 2:19PM

    There is a coffee shop here in utah called bad ass coffee house and they have a big donkey on top of their building!

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NEWFIEGIRLHERE 11/22/2010 11:41AM

    I LOVE reading your blogs!!!! emoticon

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LESLIES537 11/22/2010 11:32AM

    I would totally choose peanut butter too! emoticon

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BLESSED2BEME 11/21/2010 8:07PM

    Very interesting...makes me miss Tim Hortons though:(

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IBECCA 11/21/2010 6:44PM

    haha peanut butter for sure!

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JHADZHIA 11/21/2010 5:06PM

    Interesting most certainly!
I used to love popcorn and have it every single day, but had to get away from it because I only like it heavily buttered ;)
Your love of fur babies shines through in this list :)
That was a bittersweet send off of your favorite toy.

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S3XYDIVASMOM 11/21/2010 3:05PM

    Sometime you need to write a blog about the Sweating Ass restaurant. You've piqued my curiosity.

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I'm Thankful for SparkPeople!

Saturday, November 20, 2010


This blog is going to be short and sweet because Mom and I were out of town today finishing up all of our Christmas shopping! Done! Now it is all piled up in our spare bedroom and it looks like Santa's sleigh crashed in there.

As I was driving home tonight (in the dark!) I was keeping a watchful eye out for moose but my mind kept wandering to how my life has changed since I was told about the Spark program.

I refer to the program and all of my friends as My Big Brother! I just love reading all of your blogs and your comments on my blogs! It makes me feel a part of something great...which is true because everybody's life makeover is something great. We are all in this together. I really appreciate each and everyone of you. Even if I ever felt like the lifestyle makeover was becoming too much I wouldn't be able to leave Spark because of all of you! It is like finishing a fantastic novel and you wonder what the characters did afterwards.

Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks to all of my great new friends. You definitely keep me sparked! emoticon

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MEMARE 11/24/2010 10:28AM

    emoticonand your blogs! emoticon

I may not comment on a lot of them but I do read them! emoticon


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NEWFIEGIRLHERE 11/22/2010 11:43AM

    ...and thank you very much as well. It is so nice to know that you can come on here, blog about your happiness or sorrows and you will get support...genuine support either way.
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DRGOMTI 11/21/2010 3:31PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really needed this positive reinforcement today!!! And to be reminded how much SP has done for me!! I was in a bad downward spiral for a couple weeks, but today I feel like I'm Sparking out of it!! Thanks to all you positive bloggers!! I love what you said, PCOHO, that "we are all in this tog"!! n am jealous that you have to keep your eye out for MOOSE when you drive!!! My sisters and I have been going on sister trips every yr. on moose quests, just want to see one, n I guess we'll have to come up to Canada!!! I loved what JHADZHIA, said, "The action is happening here!" SP has taken the place of my face booking too. So much more rewarding too!!! I'm thinking about printing out this page so when those dang sweets cravings hit, I can read this again n again!! emoticon dr

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TEMPEST272002 11/21/2010 12:59PM

    I know exactly what you mean. Even when I have so many other things calling for my attention, sparkpeople keeps me coming back. I want to know what you are doing and how you're doing and learn and connect and feel support and give support. Totally addictive - in a great way!

So glad we're on this journey together. I hope one day that we can meet in person. I have a dream of visiting all the provinces in Canada. I've made it from BC to Quebec. Maybe this summer, I'll journey out to the Rock and get to meet you in person.

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JLITT62 11/21/2010 8:22AM

    Love the novel analogy!

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HOPEFULANGE 11/21/2010 6:57AM

    I know! It's wonderful!! It's definitely the community at Spark that's helped me stay on track the most. Glad you feel the same!

Spark On!
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I'm with you, I love Sparks, it has helped me through some trying times. I love all my friends here they are worth their weight (high or low) in gold.

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JHADZHIA 11/20/2010 11:34PM

    Thanks very much to you too :) This is the only internet site I hang out at. My Facebook is gathering mothballs, have no interest in it what so ever. The action is happening here!! Is inspiring over and over again to read how people overcome their trials..
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S3XYDIVASMOM 11/20/2010 7:56PM

    And thanks to you, as well. emoticon

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APIRLRAIN888 11/20/2010 7:41PM

    emoticon and emoticon too ;p

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In your dreams sweetheart!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Okay, I'm letting you all know that I've officially lost my mind. My Spark times are usually early in the mornings and early evenings but last night I was out with my mom so I missed checking in.

Anyway, I logged in this morning to see if anybody replied to my blog about the outfit I was hoping to wear to the college's staff Christmas party. Guess what, I must have dreamed I posted it! It was going to be a toss up between a top I already own or a new one I bought yesterday on sale. And, yes, I'm going to wear bottoms but that decision is already made....black pants.

What I find the funniest about this is how much all of you are becoming an integral part of my life! You have all helped me through this lifestyle change by your encouragement and support. Now I'm dreaming about you guys!

So here is the deal...I have a grey longish blouse with sparklies on the shoulders that apparently I bought in a moment of pure insanity as I feel too young in it. It finally fits across the tummy area and my mom says it slims me down. Or, I found a dark purple satin tank top over which I was going to wear a little mini sweater (the ones that fit over your shoulders). It was on sale and I figure I can wear it again.

By now, I bet you are all rolling your eyes. The issue is that I still "see" myself as bigger and as the person who hid behind bagging clothes. The grey top exposes me in many ways as I feel like I'm pretending to be someone I'm not quite comfortable with. I don't mean it exposes flesh...my arms are bare and that is about it.

Has anybody else encountered this? There clothes become too big (yeah) but they don't want to get out of their comfortable rut? Both colors and styles are new to me as I usually wear earth tones. How do you learn to accept and embrace the new you instead of clinging on to the safer old you? Then I worry that people will think I'm putting on airs if I dress different than I usually do. Maybe deep down I am afraid that the old me will be victorious and that somehow I will go back to that mindset and accompanying body issues.

Once again, thanks for reading! You guys are truly a special bunch to me!

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REMEMBER2BME 11/22/2010 5:20PM

    Agreed, pic would be great. However.... I say Go Gray with Sparklies because why not. It is the holidays the perfect opportunity to dress up and different. If you end up thinking you wish you hadn't worn it then no biggie you will at least then know.

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JHADZHIA 11/20/2010 11:58PM

    I love the color purple myself, but the more fitted blouse with sparkles sounds pretty.. I still prefer my blacks and baggy. Probably won't get away from it, not because of how it looks, but because its comfortable which is more important for me then anything. I have fitted clothes, but with my painful elbow and hand, its a struggle to get myself into them. So much easier having baggy slip on clothing, no buttons, zippers, etc. needed.. I do like the compliments with the dressy clothing though :))
I hope you can post some photos!!

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S3XYDIVASMOM 11/19/2010 9:39PM

    Off hand, I'd say the gray because of the sparkles. Hey, it's Christmas and the goal is to be festive. But post the pictures. emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 11/19/2010 6:30PM

    oh yes, I think I know exactly what you're talking about. I find it hard to accept that I fit into a size 12 instead of a 22. I spent so long using clothes to hide in that I have no idea of what styles I might like to wear... even what colours I like. I agree with newfiegirlhere - why not post some pics & we'll give you feedback?

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HOPEFULANGE 11/19/2010 2:15PM

    Go Gray with Sparklies!!! Because guess what? That comfort zone is left over from the OLD YOU. Now you get to create a brand new comfort zone! I know most of us are used to hiding and hoping not to get noticed, but you deserve to have all your hard work rewarded. And with a more slimming top, I bet you'll get loads of compliments!

Well, that's my two-cents. Good Luck deciding!

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PRETTYLILHEFFER 11/19/2010 11:25AM

    I still do that! I think bigger is still better sort of thing.. but if your outfit, i vote purple! I love purple satin, brings some serious spice.

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OLDERDANDRT 11/19/2010 10:27AM

    Awwww....so sweet you dream about us!! emoticon My take on the top....your mom says the gray one slims you, so if it were me, I'd go with that one and wear a big smile with it!! HOpe this helps!


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JLITT62 11/19/2010 8:37AM

    I've always loved clothes, but when I was heavier, yes, I hid behind a lot of black. Black has its place, but too much is not a good thing!

I think there are 2 schools of thought here. One says you should be comfortable with what you wear (or you'll feel uncomfortable, obviously). Another says to push yourself out of your comfort zone.

I tend to push myself, in more ways than one!

It's really natural for your view of yourself to be stuck in the old you days.

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JUDYFRANCE 11/19/2010 8:30AM

    I found that it is most important for me to feel comfortable with what I am wearing. But, as time has gone on, I've also found that what I feel comfortable wearing has changed. The better I feel about myself, the more fitted my clothes become. Choose what you feel good in today - what you think makes you look your best. But, save that blouse that your mom thinks looks great on you! Soon will may think the same.

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NEWFIEGIRLHERE 11/19/2010 7:52AM

    I have a great idea. why don't you post some pics and we can all vote. emoticon
I know I have gone through that. I done have a style and I wonder what is appropriate. It is a work in progress but I will tell you the new you in newer and different looking clothes will make you feel VICTORIOUS emoticon

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APIRLRAIN888 11/19/2010 7:42AM

    love it! yes I still see myself as the big girl! i only have mirrors in the bathroom ;p so I totally agree!

I also blogged about it, BRAIN still thinks I am the fat girl! ;p

Yeah this month is working on making BRAIN stop thinking that

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I'm making a list and checking it twice

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Good Morning!

In my attempt to get myself organized for the upcoming holiday season, I am making my list of what I have planned, what I need to do etc. I know this sounds like a regular daybook but what is new is that I'm finally getting the knack of scheduling some "me" time.

I printed off a blank calendar and have commitments written in but I'm also writing in when I plan to exercise. I figure if I schedule it in it has less chance of being forgotten.

I always get very overwhelmed by Christmas preparation but this year I am trying very hard to get prepared. I've booked my volunteer time (I volunteer to sit with the Salvation Army Kettle) for the first week in December and will get 6 hours of volunteering in then. I usually do it the last few days before Christmas but this year I'm doing myself a favour.

Maddy, Lou and I walked 3.5 km yesterday and during our walk I planned part of my Christmas list. Then when I brought the two little monkeys home, I ran out and did part of my list. This year we are trying hard not to focus on material goods so it will be interesting using our imaginations rather than our wallets. I thought I would ask my husband's father for his Christmas cake recipe as it is my husbands all time favourite. Then I would attempt to make it myself as a surprise.

Anyway, wishing you all a wonderful day! I've got to go and get ready for work!

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S3XYDIVASMOM 11/18/2010 8:09PM

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Good luck with your plans. They sound well thought out.

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OLDERDANDRT 11/18/2010 6:11PM

    Great idea!!! emoticon

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    That is emoticon

doing stuff for yourself AND for others
and you even did stuff for US by writing this blog
so we can learn your good ways!

Keep up your good deeds!

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JLITT62 11/18/2010 12:28PM

    Sounds like you have a great plan! And we're all here to make sure you stick to it (as much as possible, of course).

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JHADZHIA 11/18/2010 12:00PM

    Well done! This is what Spark recommends, making appointments for yourself. If you know exactly what your plans are coming up, then filling in your planner will work for you! All the best with it!! You will show us all how its done right!!
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NEWFIEGIRLHERE 11/18/2010 10:34AM







good luck to you on keeping focused and on track this holiday season.


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PRETTYLILHEFFER 11/18/2010 10:32AM

    woo salvation army! I am a bell ringer for them! Check that list and enjoy your me time!

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RIMAJO 11/18/2010 9:52AM

    I love the idea of scheduling "You" time for exercise, especially as the holiday season nears.. it practically guarantees you'll stay on track! Great thinking Susan!

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MEMARE 11/18/2010 9:39AM

    Sounds like you've definitely got a plan! emoticon

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KTACKEBE 11/18/2010 7:25AM

    Sure wish I could get organized!

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APIRLRAIN888 11/18/2010 6:59AM

    great plan! keep checking 'em off!

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TBONE13 11/18/2010 6:57AM

  good plan, good luck !!

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LUVDOGZ 11/18/2010 6:25AM

    THat sounds like a great plan! emoticon

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Beauty is more than skin deep...thank goodness!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Good Morning!

I thought of today's blog idea while standing in line for my morning cup of coffee at Tim Hortons.

Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) I was standing behind an old classmate of mine who made my life a living hell when I was in elementary school. There she was, standing almost 6 feet tall, skinny as a rake, dressed like a stick of gum, and pretty as a model pretending we were best buddies.

I smiled and made conversation but all the while my husband's voice was in my ear saying "Susan, you are all that but as an added bonus you've got a wonderful personality and that is something money can't buy". Okay, so maybe I'm not 6 feet tall, nor pretty but I always thought telling somebody they had a great personality was like telling somebody that they had a great FACE for radio. You know, the backhand compliment!

I'm not saying I have a great personality but I think I'm fairly friendly and can strike up a conversation with just about anybody. I think this is why people have a hard time believing that I am clinically depressed.

Anyway, I'm slowly, albeit, very slowly learning to accept compliments and not to automatically think a compliment means that something else is wrong with me. Yesterday I was in the staff room and a male colleague said, "wow, Susan, you're after losing some weight" and I graciously said, "thank you" instead of thinking "oh my god, he noticed how fat I had let myself become"

I'm learning there are many different components to beauty. I could go and have a total body makeover but I'd still be me on the inside. I'd still have self-esteem issues and second guess myself. This program is teaching me how to embrace myself....lumps and all!

Thanks for reading!


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TEMPEST272002 11/16/2010 4:56PM

    Another sparker encouraged me to do an exercise that I'd like to pass a long to you:

Every morning, look at yourself in the mirror and smile.

Sound simple? Well, the first day I did it I was horrified by all the brutal, nasty things I said about myself.

I had to force myself to look & smile every day for about a week before I wasn't being horrid to myself anymore... and then another week before I actually started to be able to like what I saw. Now, I look in the mirror & I actually like what I see.

It's a simple exercise, but can be transformational. If you try it, let me know how it goes.

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HOPEFULANGE 11/16/2010 3:18PM

    Ugh, I hate running into old classmates. That's one benefit of moving to a different side of the island!

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RIMAJO 11/16/2010 2:52PM

    You've reminded me (timely too) of a poem I love, and have shared with my closest friends.. Now, I'ld like to share it with you.. It's called On Beauty by S Levenson:

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.

For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.

People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; Never throw out anybody.

Remember, If you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.

As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows.


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OLDERDANDRT 11/16/2010 1:40PM

    I've always heard it said that admitting (or realizing you HAVE a problem is halfway to remedy!! So, I'd say you're at least half way!! You're growing stronger and smarter and yes, even more beautiful as you work out your self esteem issues and all!! emoticon
You're coming along beautifully!!!!

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APIRLRAIN888 11/16/2010 1:16PM

    love this blog! I hit the like button! SOO true!

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LESLIES537 11/16/2010 12:23PM

    I found this and did a copy and paste job...thought it was neat and pertained to what you blogged about. =)

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Behold the beauty, beauty is real. Beauty is what you make it-it is entirely your perception.

Behold the purple robes I wear. Are they not beautiful? The robes would not radiate if I didn't wear them. When I wear the robes, they take beauty and form. But is it the robes that are beautiful or is it my spirit?

So, I ask so many of you the same question. Is it your clothes or a painted face that makes you beautiful? Can beauty be found in a bottle?

If you truly want to become more beautiful, stop looking in a bottle or a fabric. The beauty you seek is within you. The clothes you wear only mask your beauty. You hide your true identity.

When you look at a flower, what do you see? You see beauty, an expression of nature. If you cut that flower and separate it from the plant, it will wither away. Has it lost its beauty? Most would say yes, but I say you only see the superficial beauty. Just because the flower is no longer visually appealing to you doesn't mean the flower has lost its beauty. The beauty is in the spirit, the essence of the flower. That beauty can never be separated.

So I ask you to see beauty in all things, for all things are beautiful. (Asmuth) Answers From Above

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JHADZHIA 11/16/2010 10:59AM

    emoticon emoticon Susan!
I get that all the time about my hair. I like it cropped very short, but when I don't have the time to get it cut and it grows out, I start getting all kinds of compliments, really emphasizing how much they don't like my 'butch' or masculine look I normally have. But I don't care. I have RA in my hands, its difficult for me to comb or wash my hair and keeping it in a brush cut is my solution. I gave up caring what people think of me a long time ago. I wear what I want and look like I want to and damn the torpedoes!!
Hold your head up high! You are worth it! You are a special and deserving individual!!

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SHELLPRO 11/16/2010 8:39AM

    I used to feel the same ways about the "BUT, great Personality". Now I do take it as a Compliment, so many today and in my past are just plain rude or mean. Nothing seems too Personal to address anymore. And Height envy has always been an issue- Longer/Taller, does hide fat better, lol. But just think of being "Cute and Petite"? and Momma always said, "Pretty is, as Pretty does." A good way to live your Life I believe and so can U. emoticon

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CURIOUS64 11/16/2010 8:23AM

    Great blog. I wish more people could understand that there is more to a person than physical beauty. I used to love the, "you have such a pretty face" compliment. What I always heard in that it, "too bad you are so fat". I'm trying to learn to play new tapes in my head, but it is hard. I am a single 46 yearo old overweight female so it is very hard to meet men and loneliness is a bit%#. Thanks for sharing.

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