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Beauty is more than skin deep...thank goodness!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Good Morning!

I thought of today's blog idea while standing in line for my morning cup of coffee at Tim Hortons.

Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) I was standing behind an old classmate of mine who made my life a living hell when I was in elementary school. There she was, standing almost 6 feet tall, skinny as a rake, dressed like a stick of gum, and pretty as a model pretending we were best buddies.

I smiled and made conversation but all the while my husband's voice was in my ear saying "Susan, you are all that but as an added bonus you've got a wonderful personality and that is something money can't buy". Okay, so maybe I'm not 6 feet tall, nor pretty but I always thought telling somebody they had a great personality was like telling somebody that they had a great FACE for radio. You know, the backhand compliment!

I'm not saying I have a great personality but I think I'm fairly friendly and can strike up a conversation with just about anybody. I think this is why people have a hard time believing that I am clinically depressed.

Anyway, I'm slowly, albeit, very slowly learning to accept compliments and not to automatically think a compliment means that something else is wrong with me. Yesterday I was in the staff room and a male colleague said, "wow, Susan, you're after losing some weight" and I graciously said, "thank you" instead of thinking "oh my god, he noticed how fat I had let myself become"

I'm learning there are many different components to beauty. I could go and have a total body makeover but I'd still be me on the inside. I'd still have self-esteem issues and second guess myself. This program is teaching me how to embrace myself....lumps and all!

Thanks for reading!


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TEMPEST272002 11/16/2010 4:56PM

    Another sparker encouraged me to do an exercise that I'd like to pass a long to you:

Every morning, look at yourself in the mirror and smile.

Sound simple? Well, the first day I did it I was horrified by all the brutal, nasty things I said about myself.

I had to force myself to look & smile every day for about a week before I wasn't being horrid to myself anymore... and then another week before I actually started to be able to like what I saw. Now, I look in the mirror & I actually like what I see.

It's a simple exercise, but can be transformational. If you try it, let me know how it goes.

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HOPEFULANGE 11/16/2010 3:18PM

    Ugh, I hate running into old classmates. That's one benefit of moving to a different side of the island!

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RIMAJO 11/16/2010 2:52PM

    You've reminded me (timely too) of a poem I love, and have shared with my closest friends.. Now, I'ld like to share it with you.. It's called On Beauty by S Levenson:

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.

For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.

People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; Never throw out anybody.

Remember, If you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.

As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows.


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OLDERDANDRT 11/16/2010 1:40PM

    I've always heard it said that admitting (or realizing you HAVE a problem is halfway to remedy!! So, I'd say you're at least half way!! You're growing stronger and smarter and yes, even more beautiful as you work out your self esteem issues and all!! emoticon
You're coming along beautifully!!!!

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APIRLRAIN888 11/16/2010 1:16PM

    love this blog! I hit the like button! SOO true!

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LESLIES537 11/16/2010 12:23PM

    I found this and did a copy and paste job...thought it was neat and pertained to what you blogged about. =)

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Behold the beauty, beauty is real. Beauty is what you make it-it is entirely your perception.

Behold the purple robes I wear. Are they not beautiful? The robes would not radiate if I didn't wear them. When I wear the robes, they take beauty and form. But is it the robes that are beautiful or is it my spirit?

So, I ask so many of you the same question. Is it your clothes or a painted face that makes you beautiful? Can beauty be found in a bottle?

If you truly want to become more beautiful, stop looking in a bottle or a fabric. The beauty you seek is within you. The clothes you wear only mask your beauty. You hide your true identity.

When you look at a flower, what do you see? You see beauty, an expression of nature. If you cut that flower and separate it from the plant, it will wither away. Has it lost its beauty? Most would say yes, but I say you only see the superficial beauty. Just because the flower is no longer visually appealing to you doesn't mean the flower has lost its beauty. The beauty is in the spirit, the essence of the flower. That beauty can never be separated.

So I ask you to see beauty in all things, for all things are beautiful. (Asmuth) Answers From Above

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JHADZHIA 11/16/2010 10:59AM

    emoticon emoticon Susan!
I get that all the time about my hair. I like it cropped very short, but when I don't have the time to get it cut and it grows out, I start getting all kinds of compliments, really emphasizing how much they don't like my 'butch' or masculine look I normally have. But I don't care. I have RA in my hands, its difficult for me to comb or wash my hair and keeping it in a brush cut is my solution. I gave up caring what people think of me a long time ago. I wear what I want and look like I want to and damn the torpedoes!!
Hold your head up high! You are worth it! You are a special and deserving individual!!

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SHELLPRO 11/16/2010 8:39AM

    I used to feel the same ways about the "BUT, great Personality". Now I do take it as a Compliment, so many today and in my past are just plain rude or mean. Nothing seems too Personal to address anymore. And Height envy has always been an issue- Longer/Taller, does hide fat better, lol. But just think of being "Cute and Petite"? and Momma always said, "Pretty is, as Pretty does." A good way to live your Life I believe and so can U. emoticon

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CURIOUS64 11/16/2010 8:23AM

    Great blog. I wish more people could understand that there is more to a person than physical beauty. I used to love the, "you have such a pretty face" compliment. What I always heard in that it, "too bad you are so fat". I'm trying to learn to play new tapes in my head, but it is hard. I am a single 46 yearo old overweight female so it is very hard to meet men and loneliness is a bit%#. Thanks for sharing.

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An Amazing Weigh-in

Monday, November 15, 2010

Just wanted to let you all know about my amazing weigh-in during which I discovered I have GAINED 3.8 pounds in one week.

Yes, I am amazed that I find that amazing! The old me would have found that so discouraging that I might have crawled back into my hole and resumed my old lifestyle of unhealthy food choices.

But, I'm NOT going to do that....I'm moving on! Today is a new day, the beginning of another week and I'm getting back into the groove.

The fact that I feel so gross for eating all of that salty, fastfood last week inspires me. I used to live my life like that and felt like that all of the time and didn't know any different. But, now I've been SPARKED!!!!

Thank you one and all who have reached out and encouraged me over the past few days! The decorating is almost done, the little animals we help will get a financial boost, and I've learned a valuable lesson!


P.S. I posted a note to myself on my fridge reminding me of how my fast food/no exercise has made me feel...for future reference! This is my note:

Dear Self,
Donít you just feel gross today? No amount of makeup can disguise how your skin looks and feels. No matter which clothes you put on you can't stop looking and feeling so bloated. And mentally, donít even go there!

Why, do you feel like this? Because for the past four or five days youíve abandoned the one plan that has been working so great for you. You ate two meals at Kentucky Fried Chicken, one Chinese food, one at Don Cherryís, plus a sundae and a smoothie from McDonalds. Oh, and donít forget the chips, doughnuts, sweets at Marie Joseeís house OR the cereal bars!!!

Also, you didnít eat your fruit or drink your 8 cups of water nor cook a meal at home! No wonder you feel so gross! The house is a mess and you are a messÖ.so what have you learnedÖ.follow the plan and plan for setbacks!

Donít let yourself fall off the bandwagon of healthy living just because you slipped up! Get out there today and walk those dogs, plan your supper and enjoy yourself.

Remember this is how you always felt and didnít know the difference!

P.S. I still love you!

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NICOLEEEOO 8/17/2011 4:27PM

    I love this! It's such a great way to get yourself back on track without beating yourself up about it :) You have a great attitude

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GAYLE-G-63 11/15/2010 12:54PM

    Every day is a new day and a chance at a new beginning! You're doing great!!!

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KAYDE53 11/15/2010 12:05PM

    Regroup & move on, that's the way to do it!! Way to go!! Great attitude!! Bless you for your honesty!! emoticon

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METALLICAT1 11/15/2010 10:19AM

    You go girl! That's great that you don't "beat yourself up" about gaining. Sounds like you're in a positive frame of mind and that helps alot. And the note is a good idea too. Good luck and keep up the good thoughts! emoticon

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LESLIES537 11/15/2010 9:34AM

    That's the attitude! Brush yourself off, get back up, and keep moving forward! Today IS a new day...let's make the best of it! emoticon emoticon

p.s. LOVE your note to self! I should do that too!

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SHELLYKOCH1 11/15/2010 8:25AM

    You truly have a great attitude. We all have those times when we stumble. However, your note to yourself is a great idea. Picking yourself back up and starting again and not beating yourself up is wonderful. Keep up the good work. Drink extra water and those ugly 3 lbs will shed off right away.

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HOPEFULANGE 11/15/2010 8:23AM

    Not everyone sees a gain as a lesson learned! emoticon

I love your letter...I should write myself one!
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JUSTMOLLY13 11/15/2010 8:18AM

    We have all 'been there done that'..good for you that you have decided to take the high road and get back on track. emoticon emoticon

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WILLOWWINDS 11/15/2010 8:16AM

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Glad it went well and you took it in stride.


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APIRLRAIN888 11/15/2010 8:06AM

    Love the attitude! A day at a time! New day new chance to do t
Right by You

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DORYH20 11/15/2010 8:03AM

    emoticonSusan. emoticonon standing strong! You are so ready to do this. It a tough lesson learned, for sure. But, now you know what you have to do. Get tough GF! emoticon
Note to self... emoticon

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OUBACHE 11/15/2010 7:58AM

    I've been afraid to weigh myself for fear of such "amazing' news myself. You have the right attitude. Learn the lesson and move on. The note on your fridge is a good idea!

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Tired and frustrated

Sunday, November 14, 2010


If you've been following my blog you will know that for the past four days I have been involved with decorating a local car dealership as the money we earn will be given to Central Paws Humane Society of which I am treasurer.

This is my first year for doing this and all I can say is "what was I thinking"? I haven't exercised in four days (other than climbing up and down a ladder at least 50 times a day) and I've eaten nothing but crap. I even had Kentucky Fried Chicken twice and I don't even like that stuff.

I came home tonight and I was saying to my husband how gross I feel and then it dawned on me..of course, I feel like crap. I'm totally off my eating and exercising schedule! But the funny thing is, this is how I used to live every day of my life! This feeling of grossness is how I used to feel and I didn't know any difference until I joined Spark.

So, I'm not giving up and I will make every attempt to get back on track tomorrow. We are still not finished decorating but tomorrow I'm bringing along a sandwich and some fruit so I won't be tempted by the unhealthy options.

I know that my weigh-in tomorrow will be disappointing but I have to keep my head down and continue up and over this speed bump!

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HOPEFULANGE 11/15/2010 8:21AM

    Great revelation! emoticon

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JHADZHIA 11/14/2010 11:27PM

    Nothing like getting a wake up call. That you have accepted the healthy lifestyle as the norm and eating this gross stuff as falling off the wagon. You will feel so much better once you get back on track and realize how precious living the healthy life is.
So don't worry about the weigh in because if its bad you will know why and will soon correct it..

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OLDERDANDRT 11/14/2010 9:11PM

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WILLOWWINDS 11/14/2010 7:25PM

    Don't sweat it. Here are 3 of my favorite quotes.

~Don't look where you fall. But, where you slipped.

~There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation. "Failures" are as much a part of the process as "success."

~"The only real failure in life is the failure to try."


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APIRLRAIN888 11/14/2010 7:17PM

    you can do it!

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S3XYDIVASMOM 11/14/2010 7:08PM

    I think in an odd way it is good to slip up. As long as you don't beat yourself up , you can learn from it. As you say, you felt gross. And you certainly don't want to feel that way. Good for you. You'll get over this speed bump and move on.

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Enjoying the little things in life!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Woke up this morning to heavy frost but sunny skies! Such a beautiful day! Thoroughly enjoyed the day off yesterday (November 11th is a stat holiday in Newfoundland) and since just about everything closes for the day the whole town seemed more relaxed.

I haven't exercised in a few days and I'm feeling a bit down because of it. I am working this morning and then have volunteered to decorate a local car dealership for Christmas this afternoon and tomorrow. In lieu of pay, they will give a donation to Central Paws Humane society which is the only reason I got myself involved in decorating. I'm not the most creative person around so my attempts at stringing up beads, garland, lights don't always look festive! Ha!

I've got a cute dog story to make you all smile...or at least I hope it does. I got up this morning and found Louisa (Lou) staring at me with a stuffed toy across her face. She lit right up when she saw that I was awake and took off to the living room where she proceeded to squeak her toy very loudly. Maddy stumbled out of the bedroom when he heard the patio door open so witnessed Lou racing out across the frost covered boards and sliding into the BBQ! At first she looked back at me but then she looked at her feet as if to say "how did that happen". So there I was, outdoors on a frosty morning wearing my husband's robe and.....get this......high heel shoes....(I had left them out after I tried them on yesterday with my "goal" outfit) laughing my head off at Lou. Of course, this wound her up even more and she was racing across the garden barking on top of her lungs just because she could. Maddy was just making his way back up the patio steps (he is NOT a morning dog) when Lou barrelled into him and sent him flying across the slippery boards. The expressions on their faces was hilarious! Maddy looked indignant and Lou looked like "can we do that again?"

Anyway, have a great day and please remember to enjoy the little things in life! emoticon

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LESLIES537 11/13/2010 6:07PM

    LOL....I love it!! I can just picture it all...even with you in your robe and high heels! emoticon Thanks for the laugh! Have an awesome weekend =)

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DORYH20 11/13/2010 10:44AM

    I just DID! Thanks for the emoticonI needed it today.
Lou and I seem to share the same personality emoticon

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JHADZHIA 11/12/2010 12:12PM

    emoticon Love a good cute pooch story :)) They are the best companions you could ask for :)))
Hope today goes better for you, and try get some exercise with your dogs they will love you for it. Even if its just playing toss or something that doesn't require much effort on your part.

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OLDERDANDRT 11/12/2010 11:23AM

    emoticonSounds like there is no gentle easy rising at your house!!! But there is no doubt, after that, that anyone would still be thinking of sleep!!! What fun to get up to fur-babies playing like that!! WooHoo!!! What a kick!!!

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HOPEFULANGE 11/12/2010 10:50AM

    emoticon A bath robe and high heel shoes...priceless!

Glad the frost gave your puppies so much enjoyment! emoticon

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JOMAMA99 11/12/2010 9:34AM

    What a cute dog story, thanks for sharing!

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TEMPEST272002 11/12/2010 9:23AM

    Dogs are fabulous for bringing humour to our lives! Always good to start the day with a laugh.

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RIMAJO 11/12/2010 9:08AM

    Oh my! But you've started my day off with a good chuckle, thanks Susan! What a great story for a Friday morning, you're dogs are so precious (almost as cute as your outfit)!! Enjoy your weekend, and umm.. the decorating too. emoticon

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APIRLRAIN888 11/12/2010 9:00AM

    Lol loved it thanx for sharing!

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ARTHURTOM 11/12/2010 8:53AM

    Have fun decorating and enjoy the little things that happen while you're doing it!

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Remembrance Day

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Please take a moment today to remember those who have served our country in the past and those who serve our country today.

Today is Remembrance Day in Canada! ! emoticonI'm trying to remember the fallen soldiers of past battles so that they will not have died in vain.

For those of you not familiar with my province, Newfoundland and Labrador did not join Canada until 1949 so in both World Wars our soldiers were basically slaughtered in battle. The statistics were staggering!

Please remember your soldiers today!

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S3XYDIVASMOM 11/11/2010 9:31PM

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Today was a work as usual day. I hadn't given Veteran's Day much thought at all. Thanks for the reminder.

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BLESSED2BEME 11/11/2010 2:33PM

    Happy Rememberance Day to my Canadian friends and Happy Veterans Day to my American friends. I have served in the military while stationed in both countries. I held a special duty assignment at the US Embassay in Ottawa and I was honored to get to know Canadians in uniform while I was there.

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APIRLRAIN888 11/11/2010 1:29PM

    happy veteran and remeberance day

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ARTHURTOM 11/11/2010 12:35PM

    Here in the United States it is Veteran's day to remember those that served in the military as well. Today marks the anniversary of the signing of the Armistice that ended World War I. On Nov. 11, 1918 the Germans signed the Armistice, bringing an end to the hostilities of WW I.

Many soldiers from North America served and died overseas to protect freedoms for all. Today is a somber day of remembrance.

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