Saturday, November 12, 2011
This past week was a busy week. I didn't really get a lot accomplished that I wanted to do, but I did stay busy. This helped me not think too much about the things that didn't really go as I had wanted them to.
I had a couple job interviews. One told me right then that I wouldn't be hired. Another told me that it would take up to two weeks to find out if I can be re-hired. I was told it depends on what the person wrote down on the report when I left the company 5 years ago. (That was the first time I broke my back.) I went on a third interview that I thought went okay, but then found a posting for the same position on a jobsite yesterday.
I really don't know what to do anymore to get a job. There have been hundreds of applications that I have filled out in the last few months. I've been turned down for disability because "although you have problems, you should be able to at least work part time". I realize I'm not in my 20s anymore, but I am a hard worker and can be a dedicated employee. I'm at a loss at this point in time.
I'm working hard at selling Avon. I can honestly say that I've had my first good order this past week. But, it's a hit and miss business. I've met a lot of great people though, made some friends, and it's given me a little confidence that I didn't have before. But, I'm not making enough to pay the bills. I have people working under me, but they're not working very hard at it. They either don't place orders or they don't pay for them. How do I get others motivated when it's often a struggle to keep myself motivated? It's something I have to work hard at right now, though. It's all I have right now. I've got some ideas that I'm going to try this week to see if I can get another good order. And I know I want to go onto the Avon site to get some training in. Maybe what I try and learn will work.
I am looking forward to Thanksgiving. My oldest will be coming in from Alabama. I haven't seen her since last Thanksgiving. I'm really excited. I've been so busy this week doing other things that I'm not ready to have everyone over. I need to kick butt and get a lot done today and tomorrow. I guess that my not working right now is a good thing in that respect. I can get the place in order and enjoy the holiday with my family without having to worry about going to work.
So, I've got some goals set for myself for the following week. Number one is no feeling sorry for myself. Keep applying for jobs and practicing my job skills. Work on my Avon business. Get the condo in order - getting rid of some stuff that is just collecting dust should be something to help me feel better and like I've accomplished something. I have to start wrapping my daughters' Christmas presents because they must get in the mail soon. I'm looking forward to getting this all done this week.
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
I was sitting here on the SP site, thinking about how my lovely boss never called me to come in and do the payroll. Sounds like that job is now a hopeless thing in my past. So, that leaves me to kick up my job-search efforts and my Avon business just to get some money coming in. Lo and behold, I got a call from one of my employment agencies that I'm registered with. The place that I usually fill in for needs me again today. Hooray! A little bit of money I can count on this week! Now I just hope that it doesn't rain too hard as my Avon order will be sitting on my porch when I get home. Busy day again today, but I'll take it.
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
I had a bad day yesterday. I really fought the depression by the end of the day and couldn't wait to go to bed so I could start over today with a better attitude. Please let today be better!
My mom's neighbor told me over the weekend that the city was looking for poll workers to work today. I went down to city hall to find out that they didn't need any help. But, at least I signed up for next year and got the chance to print out a thank you letter for the interview I had last Friday.
Then, I ran back home to grab my lint brush before I went to my 1 pm interview at Toys R Us. (the bad thing about having a long-hair white cat and a pair of navy blue pants!) The job interview was a group interview consisting of 11 people, of which I was definitely the oldest one. I really gave it my best shot, stepping out of my comfort zone to volunteer answers and do the little "selling" and "teamwork" games. After two hours, the HR director called me and the next oldest person out of the room to tell us that she'd keep our resumes on file, but she couldn't use us at this time. Age discrimination is supposed to be illegal, but I really feel that it's still out there.
I played phone tag with another guy about setting up a job interview. I finally talked to him and set up a time today to talk to him. His office is across town. At the end, he finally told me the name of the company. This interview is NOT going to happen! I've interviewed with another franchise of the same company. It's basically a door-to-door commission sales job for financial products that people who are having financial difficulty can't afford to buy. A person could also make money by signing up other people to sell - a pyramid scheme in a sense. And I'd even get to pay for books and training a little over $300.00. If I had $300, I'd be putting it towards my rent payment!
Another guy called me for a job interview. When I applied for the job, it read that it was a permanent job at a company that had various locations, some of them in the suburbs. Come to find out, it's a temporary, tax season only job with all the locations in Detroit itself. A couple of the locations he mentioned I will not go to with a bunch of people, let alone by myself. The car I use is someone else's and I'd like for it to not get stolen!
All of these happenings in one day did "wonders" for my self-esteem. I ended up skyping with my daughter just to talk to someone and unload a little. Thank goodness that helped a little.
I also got a late phone call. I have an interview today at a company that's close by for an accounts receivable clerk. So, I'm picking myself up, dusting myself off, and trying my best to go in with a positive attitude. It's getting harder for me to do this, but...I have to. I haven't gotten a call in two and a half weeks to come into the job that I'm supposed to be working at. But, then again, that may not be a bad thing. That job has been a downer. I just need a little bit of luck and someone to give me a chance. I'm a good worker - really! I just happen to not be 25 years old still.
Monday, November 07, 2011
As much as I've been saying that I want to get a handle on my schedule and be able to have some time for relaxing, I have my week so filled up with stuff to do that again I don't know how I'm going to do it all.
The week actually started filling up on Saturday. A friend and I met at a local appliance store and picked out a dishwasher that I needed for the condo. That also meant getting a new garbage disposal at a different store and various other things needed to install everything. After going to church (where I had a reading to do) and stopping at the store to pick up a couple things, it was back home to take out the things from under the sink and start taking out the old dishwasher and putting in the new one. We still need to get a cord for the disposal to work. Then I can start putting things back in the cupboard under the sink or figure out where I'm going to put them.
I've got an appointment with MRS to help me look for jobs this morning. I got a lead on the city maybe needing poll workers tomorrow so I will stop there after my meeting to check on that. I've got an interview at 1 for a job with Toys R Us. Then, it's my usual apply for more jobs and pass out more Avon books.
If the city can use me tomorrow, it will mean getting up early and working all day. But I hear the pay is really good - much more that my last two-week check from my "regular" job. I haven't been called to work for two weeks now, and this week is so busy that I am really hoping I don't get a call. I don't need the aggravation.
I've got Avon meetings tomorrow night and Thursday night. I've got a huge order coming in on Wednesday and I know it will take me all day to get it organized and hopefully start to deliver it. I'm excited that I had such a great order this time: it's my biggest yet. It's got me geeked about working on my Avon business. If only I can get more organized and spend more quality time working at it.
I've also got a chance to get my carpet and living room furniture cleaned either Thursday or Friday. With me having Thanksgiving here and my daughter coming in, it would be great to have that done so the place would look better.
I've journaled more than I have been, but still missed a couple days. I also haven't practiced my job skills as much as I promised myself that I would. I need to be as sharp as I can in case I do get more job interviews. I feel that I won't be able to get and keep a decent job if I can't give a good job interview and do the work well. My self-esteem is still in the dumpster and I need to do things to improve that. I saw my counselor last week and really didn't get a lot of encouragement from her on the job market and how to improve myself. So, I've got to work on improving myself however I can and hope it works.
Off to do everything....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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