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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I will be MIA today on the message boards and trying to respond to other people's blogs. It seems that something is wrong with my internet modem. The soonest someone can come out is tomorrow morning between 8am and 10 am. I ran to the library before work because I was having some withdrawals. But, my time is limited if I'm to make it to my "favorite job" on time.

I did go on the job interview with the personnel agency yesterday. I wasn't eligible for the CSR job because I had worked for the company before, but they are putting my resume in for some other positions. And I got to leave my Avon book there and a couple more new places. So the day wasn't a total waste.

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SLIMLILA 10/12/2011 10:22PM

    Bummer, on losing your connection, hope it's not for long...

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NPA4LOSS 10/12/2011 9:20PM

    See you when you return.

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Today's Plans

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I am supposed to have a job interview today at 11 am. I found out last night (when I read my emails) that it's for a company that I worked at for one week last spring. I was training with a bunch of kids fresh out of high school who thought it was more interesting to talk, play music and text than it was to pay attention to what we were supposed to be learning. The management was constantly yelling at the group. There were tests given that we had to get a 95 or better on or be let go. We had to be in our seats one minute before our breaks ended. People that worked there told us how difficult it was to work there. I woke up one morning with a migrane and was told to find a ride to training or to not bother coming back. So, I'm going to call the employment agency and politely decline on the interview. I doubt the company would hire me again and I certainly don't want to go from the frying pan into the fire. $8 an hour is not worth the stress again.

So, I'm going to spend the day job hunting and putting some renewed effort into my Avon business. There's got to be a job out there that is right for me. I just don't know yet what I'm doing wrong to not find it. I know that oft times God tells me to wait... so I'm waiting.

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SLIMLILA 10/11/2011 10:53PM

    Hi Patty,
That sounds like a strong decision you made. It sounds very much like a call centre I worked at. I did get a call back from the grocery store and he very nicely told me I didnt' get the job, but he also told me the person from the next town over applied and that's why he had to hire her. I said I had really enjoyed our interview and he said he had too. And he also told me that he thought I would have probably done a good job for them and I told him I know I would have. Then I also told him to keep me in mind or pass on my name to anything he might hear of.. I applied for another 4 or 5 jobs last nite too.
I sure hope and pray we both find something we can feel good about!

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GEEKSMEGGLY 10/11/2011 12:19PM

    Your situation will improve.

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NPA4LOSS 10/11/2011 10:04AM

    I think this is a good decision. Sometimes when we are stressed we jump into things that we end up regretting. emoticon

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OOPS! I did it again....

Monday, October 10, 2011

I was having a wonderful time yesterday with a friend at a local cider mill. The day was sunny and gorgeous. My phone rang and I noticed it was my boss. I didn't answer it. I didn't want to talk to her. It immediately got me stressed and aggravated, however, as it does whenever she calls. She left a message as she was boarding a plane asking if I could come into the office today. She wanted me to call her back and leave a message. She also told me that she would be calling at 7:30 to ask me a few questions.

I'm tired of getting last minute phone calls asking me to come in for only a few hours. I'm tired of her calling me on my off days asking me work questions when any normal person would realize that I don't have my work notes and computer sitting in front of me. I'm tired of making commitments to other things and having her expect me to drop everything to come in. I'm tired of all the criticisms when she gives me no clear directions on what needs to be done and how. I'm tired of this whole situation eating away at my self-esteem.

I did call back and left a message that if she wanted me to come in today or tomorrow, I couldn't make it in until at least 2 pm. This would mean I will drive 45 minutes each way for 2.5 hours of work. Not worth the effort! She never did call me back. So, here I sit, my stomach in knots, not knowing if she really expects me to come in today or not. I am not sure what she has questions about. She knows what I did Friday. She called at least 15 times in addition to emailing me directions. She got a bcc on every email I sent out. And I know she goes into my email and reads everything anyway. She responds to every email sent to me and tells me not to even bother.

I did apologize to my friend for spoiling the mood and complaining. He mentioned that it sounded like I have my mind made up about this boss. Yeah, I do. I'm just trying to find any way to make money so I can tell this person goodbye. I really don't think I can last much longer. I already struggle with self-esteem issues. I don't think I need to keep putting myself in a situation that is going to hurt my progress. But, there's always that little "but" that I tell myself about needing the money. Darned if I do and darned if I don't.

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SLIMLILA 10/11/2011 1:15AM

    Can you set your phone to not accept her calls? You gotta get out of there and stop feeling obligated to help her out... you've already explained how much time and money in gas it takes for he few hours and it's really not worth it that way and for sure the blow to your self-esteem is definitely too high a price to pay....

I know how hard it is, but you know what you gotta do too.

Here's a section I read in a book yesterday and it is very appropriate....
Welcome trials into your life and trust Jesus will remain at peace and come out stronger each time"... (Sk. author Henry K. Ripplinger "The Angelic Letters Series"

You strong lady you!

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SUMMARAH 10/10/2011 8:42PM

    Girl ... been there, done that. If I were in your position, I would see myself as her equal, and recognize that SHE needs ME, just as much as I need this job, as seems to be the situation here. I would tell her that I needed to speak with her when she returned from her trip. FEEL CONFIDENT. Then sit her behind down, and lay some ground rules, without being rude, if at all possible at this point. Explain to her that you DO have a life outside of that job, and when she calls you at the last minute to come in for just a few hours, that's infringing on your personal life, and that if she's going to do that, she needs to pay for your time in getting there and getting back home.

She may just be doing it cuz she knows it irks you. This same thing is happening to my son right now. His boss calls him demanding that he be at work an hour earlier than what he's scheduled for. I'm pretty sure she does it to take out her frustrations about things that are happening in her personal life. She KNOWS it makes him nervous and antsy because he doesn't have a car and has to ask for a ride to work every day. And she constantly threatens to fire him if he does not comply, which makes him even MORE nervous. (While I'm typing this, I'm thinking she might could do with a good "talking to" from his mom, but I assure you, it wouldn't be pretty lol.)

You have the right attitude about getting yourself together and looking for another job. I would just try being a little more assertive on this one. Life is too long to have to put up with the bs. I'm sure if you act like you don't need her, she may just straighten up. Good luck. I'll be rootin' for ya!
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NPA4LOSS 10/10/2011 7:21PM

    Maybe she won't call back after your message.

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NUTRON3 10/10/2011 8:53AM

    Awful boss

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Sunday Habits

Sunday, October 09, 2011

I have made some observations about my Sunday habits and think I should review them. Make some changes where I need to and leave some of them the way they are.

I let myself sleep in until 7-7:30. I enjoy the sleeping in, but I find that I do my exercising in little groups instead of first thing when I get up. (It's hard to fit them all in before church.) I guess that's okay one day a week.

At the church I go to, there are three men and two women that alternate giving the sermons. It dawned on me today that I tend to relate more to what the women are saying. Maybe I'm paying more attention to them or relating to them more. But I think on this one that I have to start listening to the men a little more carefully and see what more I can get out of what they are saying.

I'm a little more laid back about planning my day and staying busy. This can be either good or bad. I need to relax more, BUT maybe if I do a little more on Sunday and/or plan my week out better, the rest of the week might not be so crazy for me.

I don't take the time to touch base with family and friends like I've wanted to. This is a must work on project! I don't want to give up any friendships and they must be cultivated. Shame on me for being neglectful!

I know there's always things I can do to improve myself or do around the house. I don't know if the "It's Sunday" attitude needs to change on this or not. Maybe as the weather grows colder, it will be easier to take out a half hour to hour to do something to improve me and/or my surroundings.

Just a few things to ponder on this beautiful Sunday afternoon. I think I will go for a walk around the block and ponder some more!

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SLIMLILA 10/9/2011 10:58PM

    Take me with you on your walk. I've eaten a big Thanksgiving Dinner today and dd has been experimenting with baking and it's all been successful, thus, my eating has not been successful... cheesecake, sweet potato pie, rocky road squares and red velvet macaroons..... to contend with.... My sis and bil were here and it was a nice visit.
I am reading my second book (in the series I bought for my other sis in NS, I guess I will have to mail them to her seeing as I got to read them for free - but I did get an inscription to her from the author). It's written by a former teacher from Saskatchewan, the next province to me. Starts with a 15. u.o. growing up in Regina, Sk in 1959. He starts working at an old grocery store and the man there treats him like a son and instills values and teaches him life lessons... awesome book set....

Take time for yourself on Sunday. maybe a visit with family or fiends, but you deserve a break Patty, you are always so busy and trying so hard... Pamper yourself.
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Motivated to Have New Goals

Saturday, October 08, 2011

I had such a bad day at work on Thursday that the mood followed me into yesterday. I then decided enough was enough! I have two goals that I've actually started on yesterday and another one that I need to start on.

One: I am going to put a renewed effort into practicing my job skills (including interviewing). I will put a renewed effort into finding a job that is closer to my house and more enjoyable. I will be flexible in what I'm looking for.

Two: I will put more effort into my Avon business. I've been going over my notes. I will take more training. I will actively seek out new customers and not be afraid to ask. I really think this one will help my self-esteem. The more I talk to people, the more comfortable I will be, the more successes I will have, the more my self-esteem will build.

Three: I will find something I am interested in to volunteer my time to. I will get satisfaction from helping others.

I've been feeling like I needed some new goals in my life for a few months now. I feel a little better knowing that I at least have three that I can start with. I just wish I had more time today to start working on these goals. But, I have a commitment of a baby shower in the middle of the day and dinner with a friend afterward. Maybe I can talk my friend into helping me with my job interviewing practice....

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DIDMIS 10/9/2011 4:15PM

    Goals are so important and when you say emoticonyou will know it is not the end of your life and you will have even higher goals.
Sounds like you are going to be a very busy lady.

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SLIMLILA 10/9/2011 1:51AM

    Hi Patty!
Sounds like good goals, I really should be setting some... But each day is such an emotional upheaval that I don't get very far. For instance, today I weighed in at 207.5, up another 1.5 lbs... not feeling good about that, so how did I deal with it, ate a lot of chocolate, that's how and I sure do know that doesn't work!!

Have you ever volunteered at a soup kitchen? I did that for over a year and actually did it at 3 different ones. Also, you like to knit/crochet, I used to knit those little sets for preemies, and also I made slippers for hospitals and abused women shelters...How about going to the hospital and reading to someone. I've never done that, but maybe I should try it myself!!

Think of how much actual time and money you could save by working closer to home... that long trip you had to make sounded horrendous. I was so spoiled at the 3 teaching jobs where I worked with living in their teacherages and only having to walk across the street or a little bit further... less car expenses for sure...
I hope you're having a great weekend and finally have the strength to tell that old boss to stuff it!!

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NPA4LOSS 10/8/2011 11:28PM

    emoticon emoticon Great plan!

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SUMMARAH 10/8/2011 10:49PM

    Hey Patty! Good to see that you know what you want and are determined to get it! Best of luck to you, from a fellow Avon Rep :)
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