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Yesterday was a Bad Day

Friday, October 07, 2011

I went to work yesterday against my better judgment. I know I should have a better attitude, but I also know that I should let go of people who make me feel bad. I have this sense of "do my best and be committed" that I'm still struggling with. But yesterday sure made a good argument for getting out of Dodge.

The boss was out of town. I was there from 10-4:45. She called - no lie- at least 15 times. She called the other worker to tell me to not answer any of my emails - she already did. She called to ask if we had received an email. She actually had to make three calls before I got it. It had two attachments on it, one of which was empty. She swore she only added one attachment. She called to ask me if I had the form to send the insurance company for the employees that would soon be covered with health, life, eye, dental insurance. She didn't believe me when I said I had it. So, she called back to say she talked to the representative at the company and he would be sending it again. And make sure I save it this time! She called to ask if we got a fax from a company and didn't understand why we didn't know why we didn't.

I barely got my little bit of work done by the time I had to leave for the day. I will probably be criticized for what I did with the insurance papers. (I talked to the insurance guy myself and know I did it the way he wanted me to do it!) I also know she had made a mistake and sent a letter out to someone with the wrong name on it - I don't think I was supposed to overhear that one! I found it very hard to concentrate with all the phone calls. I also found that it was harder to remember how to do things when I don't get a chance to do them very often. Everyone has to stop and think about stuff when they haven't done it in awhile. But she honestly doesn't see it that way. She thinks I lied when I told her all that I had done for other companies. She got a little ticked at me when I told her one day that every company doesn't do things exactly how she does them.

I realize that I'm rambling. But I do find that putting my feelings and thoughts into words on paper helps me sort things in my mind. I do know that I was so exhausted last night that I couldn't really do anything after 8 pm. I was dozing at 9, and I so very much wanted to watch the whole Tigers-Yankees game!

I'm going to spend some time on my Avon job today. And I'm going to apply for as many jobs as I can, along with practicing my job interviewing skills. I'll give myself today to recuperate and think things over. I really expect that my decision will be to tell the boss that I'm not coming back in. My mental health isn't worth the little bit of money that I make and all the stress that this job comes with.

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WRITEFROMHOME 10/9/2011 10:44PM

    Can you take stress leave? It seems to be a popular thing to do around here. it would give you time to think and plan.
its too bad you have to go through this - wish I could help.

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SLIMLILA 10/8/2011 2:05AM

I feel so bad when I hear how she treats you. You said it, now you have to do it, you can't have horrible people like that in your life, your mental health is certainly not worth the few bucks you get and all the stress..
I sure hope you get a real job in a nice environment real soon.
Relax and enjoy your Avon job, at least Christmas sales will be starting soon and you will make some more money there for a while!

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LOSEITLINDSAY 10/7/2011 1:28PM

    Ugh! I am so sorry!

Perhaps you should think about taking a short-term disability leave if you have coverage? Go to a stress center, and focus on yourself for a bit. You'll still get some income, and can job search during that time.

I would suggest that you have something lined up before you leave permanently, though. I was unemployed for over a year after a similar situation. Talk about stress! But, that was me.

The number 1 thing is to take care of yourself!

Comment edited on: 10/7/2011 1:29:17 PM

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NPA4LOSS 10/7/2011 12:11PM

    Patty, maybe you should just make a final decision and not look back. emoticon Talk to your daughter about your financial situation and see if she has any ideas about the condo. You need some peace in your life and much less worry. emoticon

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PRAYINGSUZIE 10/7/2011 10:28AM

    I am so sorry that you had a bad day. I hope you find today to be better! I have a boss like yours! The only way that I can stay sane is to know that I am doing everything to the best of my ability. Keep your head up and keep going. Please remember that YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!!


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STRONGERLEANER 10/7/2011 10:26AM

    So sorry about how things went. Some people are more difficult to work with than others.

Keep applying for new stuff. Someone who will appreciate you and not second-guess you is out there!

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I was thinking...

Thursday, October 06, 2011

I got my usual last minute phone call from my boss late last night wanting me to come in tonight just as I was delivering some Avon. On my way home, I stopped and got $25.00 worth of gas so I wouldn't have to stop this morning. If I work 5 hours at $10.00 an hour, that's $50 before taxes. It takes me a good 45 minutes of stop and go traffic to get to work and back. So, when I subtract the taxes and the gas (I usually have to put in $30 a week but didn't have the extra $5), that doesn't leave me much profit for all the grief I go through. This is not a situation I want in my life right now.

I want to make the most of everything, including my time. I started going back through my Avon notes. I am thinking if I finish that, take some more training and put some more time into it, I should be able to make as much money as I am at this one-day-last minute job. I know I enjoy it a lot more.

It's just thoughts that I'm throwing out there. I will ponder this some more and still keep putting in applications wherever I can.

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SWEETANGO 10/7/2011 7:15AM

    So hard to figure things out sometimes. And sometimes there is a clear choice. You are on the right track and you will figure out what is right for you. emoticon

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SLIMLILA 10/7/2011 1:41AM

    I wish I could be there to help you get through this and see you be done with that place forever..
I am stupidly trying once again to complete things around here. I asked dh to copy my DL and Birth certificate 25 minutes ago and he just brought it back to me.. now he is gone to let the dog pee, no wonder I can't get anything finished...

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    It's time to be done with the part-part-time job. It isn't making you any money and causing you nothing but stress. Focus on your Avon and being happier!

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FRANCESLUCAS 10/6/2011 4:32PM

    You go girl! You are on the right track thinking about those things. Doing what you enjoy will pay off in the end and the rewards are much greater! When you are in control of your career and enjoying what you do, the opportunities are endless! Will be praying for you!!

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Still Trying to Plug Away

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

I got some more things accomplished yesterday that needed to be done. But I didn't get near as much done as I had hoped. For whatever reason, my sister wanted me to pick her up from work to take her to an appointment and then take her back to her car. (And it was an appointment she should have made six months ago.) But, I was the good sister and did it. So that was a waste of a couple hours.

The family did pick up my mother and take her out to dinner for her birthday. It was nice to take her out and spend time with the family. But, it was hard to find something on the menu to eat (as it was a pizza place). And it did take a little longer than I had anticipated - about three hours. Necessary obligation, though.

So, today I'm getting ready to start in on my ongoing projects. Let's see how much I can get done today, as I'm not planning on having to go anywhere.

The boss has yet to call me to come into work. If she doesn't call me for tomorrow, she'll be out of luck for this week. I have an appointment on Friday afternoon that I can't miss. My attitude towards that whole situation is definitely at a low and continually getting worse. I must spend some time on the computer today applying for more jobs and sharpening my skills up. Enough is enough!

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SLIMLILA 10/6/2011 12:46AM

    I even went out and bought myself a big mug that says, "You are Appreciated". I certainly empathize with you, as you well know... I'm still giving you the persistence away. I wish we lived closer, I would so like to meet you in person...

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KKP4673 10/6/2011 12:18AM

    Keep trying!!! Keep moving forward!!

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FITMARY 10/5/2011 6:34PM

    Hang in there!

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MPEACH87 10/5/2011 4:42PM

    Keep going at it! If the boss doesn't appreciate you, gotta plug away at the rest of it!

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Getting There

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

I got a bit done yesterday. Not as much as I would have liked, but I did feel like I accomplished something. I tackled the front closet looking for my daughter's Halloween costume box. I took pictures of some of them and put them on Craig's List. I was able to condense a couple boxes. That project was my biggest of the day. I've been putting it off and am glad that I got it done.

I applied for a lot of jobs yesterday and touched base with a few of the employment agencies that I'm registered with. I broke down and practiced my typing again. I'm down a few wpm and know that I need to keep practicing to keep it up. I've got to take time to go through the Microsoft Word and Excel class books that I have. The more skills I have, the better chance of getting a job I have. Speaking of which, I've got to go over my job interviewing questions again. I know this is my major weakness - my lack of confidence shows through a bit. So, I want to spend at least an hour to an hour and a half on all those today.

I stopped at Wal Mart and bought some white paint to do the trim work in the condo. I want to get it done before I put the clear plastic on the windows for the winter and before I have people over for Thanksgiving.

I also have to be realistic. If I don't get another job soon, I won't be able to keep up the payments. This bothers me mostly because it's my daughter's condo and I really don't want to let her down. But...if I can't make the payments, we need to get a renter in here. Fresh paint always helps on the presentation of a place.

So, I've got another day that I hope will be productive. I have to stop at 1:00 and take my sister to her lawyer's office and stop again to have dinner with the family as it's my Mom's 81st birthday. My family always gets on my case because I usually don't eat at restaurants. As we all know, most of the meals just have too many calories and other bad things that I just don't need to be eating. But, I'm always dedicated and determined. I can probably get by with a salad or a piece of grilled chicken. (Of course: the family picked a pizza place.)

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SLIMLILA 10/5/2011 12:29AM

Did you see on the news today there was an 83 y.o. and on her birthday, she finished a full marathon

You sound like you are so resourceful!!

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NPA4LOSS 10/4/2011 12:30PM

    Sending positive thoughts you way for a good day. emoticon

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Monday, October 03, 2011

I must have really needed my laid-back weekend. I woke up this morning well-rested and raring to go. I've got my long list of things I want to accomplish today. There are things that I have just been putting off for awhile and really want to get done. I am kinda hoping that I don't get called into work - it would definitely break my mood, although I can always use the money.

I am still thinking really hard about letting that job go. In reality, it doesn't pay enough to go all that way in traffic to work 4-6 hours a week. My self-esteem has been battered by the way the boss treats me. There's absolutely no way that I'm going to get any more hours from her at least through the new year. She's already told me that she will be out of the office a lot. (She doesn't have me come in if she's not there.) And she's told me that December is always slow. I noticed Friday when I was there that it was hard to remember what I had already completed and what I needed to still do. It had been that long since I had been in there.

I know I am putting this down trying to rationalize everything. I also know that I don't like to be a quitter. But the bottom line is still this: is the job really worth what little money I'm getting from it? I'm certainly not getting any satisfaction out of it.

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SLIMLILA 10/3/2011 11:58PM

    emoticonWhen this is how the job makes you feel, think about how much stress it is and what that stress does to your body! I know it takes a lot of courage to so something so decisive - remember I did it too. And I also know, at least it's a little bit of security and you're between a rock and a hard place.. Only the best to you my friend emoticon

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NORASH3 10/3/2011 8:23AM

    While bubbling with that energy try to get all things on your priority list accomplished. Don't let your job distract you.
You'll make the right decision when the time comes.
Have a spartakular day!! emoticon

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FITMARY 10/3/2011 8:07AM

    It was great to read your title and hear that you got some well-deserved rest! Very nice! You'll figure out what to do with the job too.
Hang in there!!!

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