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Feeling Like Nothing Was Accomplished

Sunday, June 27, 2010

I've been here a week now. I've been job hunting in this area for four months now. Although I've had interviews, I still don't have a job yet. I DO NOT want to go back to my husband because I have no money. I can't deal with his treatment of me anymore. I can't help but sometimes feel a little down about it.

I haven't really socialized much yet. I don't want to be a burden to my family by intruding on their family time. I did touch base with a couple old friends, but I really feel that I need to socialize more and meet more people. But how does a separated 51-year-old woman do this safely? I'll have to keep plugging away. Lord, give me the strength to keep going.


Role Reversal

Saturday, June 26, 2010

My daughter asked me if I would be okay by myself if she went to a friend's for the weekend. After assuring her I would, she asked what I would do. I mentioned the possibility of do a couple different things. She freaked out that I wanted to go by myself and strongly advised me against it. The events were in public places , I have my cell phone, and I know how to watch myself. Is she being too careful or am I being not careful enough?


First Full Weekend

Friday, June 25, 2010

I can't believe that at this time last Friday, I was still driving up to Michigan. I feel like I have done and accomplished so much since then.

I've put in job applications, been on job interviews and started selling Avon. I'm looking forward to finding a job. In addition to counting on the money, I will finally have more of a schedule to my days. I'm looking forward to this.

I've touched bases with family and friends. This has been very rewarding to me and very good for my stress level. I can feel it going now as I blog.

I've found a doctor that I feel very comfortable with. That's a big step. I will go to a counselor next Monday. Hopefully, I will feel comfortable with her. There are still some issues I'd like to clear up. I want to see if I can get off some of the medicine that I'm on. I feel like I have a pharmacy. I do know that one of the medicines causes weight gain.

What I am looking forward to is the first full weekend here. I want to get re-acquainted with the sites and sounds of the area. I'd love to find new and fun things to do. Hopefully, I will meet some people who will become friends. I have already sparkmailed a SP person who lives not far from me. What a small world!


Job Hunting

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Job hunting sure has it's ups and downs. I went to an employment agency today and I'm not sure I got a really good vibe from the place. But I did get a phone call as I was leaving from another company who wants to interview me tomorrow.

As much as I try not to get my hopes up too high, I do. I can never judge how I do in interviews. There have been some that I thought went really well only to have the company not call me back.

I'm trying to look at the positive side - I did have four job interviews this week. Trying and waiting and wondering is sometimes hard to do.


New Schedules

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I am playing around with my schedule now that I am in Michigan. It feels great to have more options and to be around more people that I care about. I even found that I have more options on when and where to walk; the heat is not stifling like it was in Alabama.

I feel that my stress levels are slowly coming down. What gives me the. most stress right now is trying to find a job. I desperately need some money coming in.

My husband didn't give me any money for anything when I was living with him; he hasn't even called me or asked if I needed any. But, I suspected as much when I left. His self-centeredness has really made itself known to me over the past few weeks. I can't help but think of the saying that "you can't see the forest for the trees'. I am determined to make a life for myself. I am taking baby steps each day.


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