Sunday, September 18, 2011
I had a very nice weekend this weekend. I helped someone who wasn't expecting it and got in some exercise doing it. I got to go to my first baby shower in years and visit with people I hadn't seen in awhile. Last night, I had a chance to have a good visit with someone dear. I went to church this morning after sleeping in too late the last two Sundays. After church, I got to stop and buy stuff for another baby shower. (Guess I shouldn't have made the comment about not having gone to any showers!) I love babies, though, and it cheered me up just looking through all the baby stuff that's out there. It was hard to make decisions on what to buy, though. I may go to the cider mill this afternoon, but that will depend on how tired the person is that I would go with.
But, now that I'm home from the store and sitting in front of the computer, I think of all the things I should be doing. Should I have spend so much time and money at the store today? I should be applying for jobs and practicing my job interviewing skills. Not to mention, there's always cleaning to do. I have this major side of me that thinks I have to be doing something constructive all the time instead of taking time out just to enjoy life.
At times, I think it's because I don't have a job and money and structure in my life that I feel I need to do this to have structure. At times, I just wonder if it's in my psyche just because I have ADD. At times, I just want everything to be different and perfect. I remind myself to make lists and to put things on them in order of importance. Do I really do that every day to the best of my ability?
It's a good thing that I have an appointment with my counselor tomorrow. I want to throw a few of these questions that I have out to her and see what kind of feedback she gives me. Meanwhile, I will get done what I can and just start all over tomorrow.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
I didn't sleep well last night and the dogs made sure I was up when they wanted me up. It's made for a sluggish morning. The computer must have been awakened too early, too, because it's been acting up: locking up, etc. I don't know how many times I've had to get out of the internet and start over. I've even shut down the computer a couple times. It's almost noon and I can't say I've accomplished much yet today. So, it's time to get busy and at least get dressed.
I've got a baby shower to go to this afternoon. I can't remember the last time I've been to one: definitely years. I debated on what to get as a gift, then decided to go with my standard gift. I made a baby afghan, bought some baby food, and gathered together some stuff that most people forget to get until after the baby is born (i.e. bags for dirty diapers, plugs for the outlets, containers for finger foods for when you're out and about with baby) I hope I got enough and that it doesn't look cheesy.
I'm not sure what I will be doing this evening. I'm so used to planning every minute that since I didn't, I feel lost. I'm sure I will come up with something relaxing. After my busy week, I think I can handle that.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths." - Walt Disney
This quote that was posted today really hit home with me. I know I am at a stalemate in my life. I must keep trying to move forward, open new doors, keep my curiosity up and learn new things. I want to change the path my life is on right now. Today is a great day to start.
I'm going to go through my job interviewing skill notes and apply for more jobs. I am going to work on getting more Avon customers, as this seems to be the only way right now that I can possibly earn more money. I will take time to organize my house a little in hopes that I can feel some accomplishment and feel more orgaanized in my head (and life). I will set time limits on each of these as I know it cannot be done in one day. Then I will start all over again tomorrow.
Monday, September 12, 2011
I woke up motivated today and I hope it lasts. It's going to be the best day of the week weather wise, so I definitely want to walk outside, run some errands and get some Avon books out there. I also have a long to do list today: I'm beginning to wonder if this is becoming a bad habit of mine. I most often don't get everything done. But I do have high hopes again today. Never knowing when my boss will call me to work makes me want to do everything I can when she doesn't call. Is this just an excuse I'm using? Am I becoming a Type A personality in my aging process? Is this my way of making sure I'm not bored/thinking of my problems/not dealing with my loneliness? It's probably a combination of all of the above. I need to take the time to sit and think about all this and make my new goals. I've been threatening to do this for at least a month and haven't penciled it in. I think it's time.
Get An Email Alert Each Time PATTYKLAVER Posts