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Nice Weekend, But..

Sunday, September 18, 2011

I had a very nice weekend this weekend. I helped someone who wasn't expecting it and got in some exercise doing it. I got to go to my first baby shower in years and visit with people I hadn't seen in awhile. Last night, I had a chance to have a good visit with someone dear. I went to church this morning after sleeping in too late the last two Sundays. After church, I got to stop and buy stuff for another baby shower. (Guess I shouldn't have made the comment about not having gone to any showers!) I love babies, though, and it cheered me up just looking through all the baby stuff that's out there. It was hard to make decisions on what to buy, though. I may go to the cider mill this afternoon, but that will depend on how tired the person is that I would go with.

But, now that I'm home from the store and sitting in front of the computer, I think of all the things I should be doing. Should I have spend so much time and money at the store today? I should be applying for jobs and practicing my job interviewing skills. Not to mention, there's always cleaning to do. I have this major side of me that thinks I have to be doing something constructive all the time instead of taking time out just to enjoy life.

At times, I think it's because I don't have a job and money and structure in my life that I feel I need to do this to have structure. At times, I just wonder if it's in my psyche just because I have ADD. At times, I just want everything to be different and perfect. I remind myself to make lists and to put things on them in order of importance. Do I really do that every day to the best of my ability?

It's a good thing that I have an appointment with my counselor tomorrow. I want to throw a few of these questions that I have out to her and see what kind of feedback she gives me. Meanwhile, I will get done what I can and just start all over tomorrow.

  
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SLIMLILA 9/18/2011 11:36PM

    Yeah, why do we feel like we need to be doing something productive all the time? I've seen a post on the message boards that says, "what should you be doing right now?" and I always want to say (maybe even have) why should I have to be doing anything at all right now? I know it always seems like there's something to do, but even if we don't get it done, iy will still be there if we enjoy something instead. emoticon

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NPA4LOSS 9/18/2011 7:49PM

    I think it is great that you took timeout to relax today. It will make your thinking clearer when you go back to your lists.

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PRAYINGSUZIE 9/18/2011 7:02PM

    There is always something to do but you need to take care a little time for yourself.

Suzie

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DONNABRIGHT 9/18/2011 3:04PM

    It's ok to give yourself a break now and again. None of us are perfect.

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Not a Good Start

Saturday, September 17, 2011

I didn't sleep well last night and the dogs made sure I was up when they wanted me up. It's made for a sluggish morning. The computer must have been awakened too early, too, because it's been acting up: locking up, etc. I don't know how many times I've had to get out of the internet and start over. I've even shut down the computer a couple times. It's almost noon and I can't say I've accomplished much yet today. So, it's time to get busy and at least get dressed.

I've got a baby shower to go to this afternoon. I can't remember the last time I've been to one: definitely years. I debated on what to get as a gift, then decided to go with my standard gift. I made a baby afghan, bought some baby food, and gathered together some stuff that most people forget to get until after the baby is born (i.e. bags for dirty diapers, plugs for the outlets, containers for finger foods for when you're out and about with baby) I hope I got enough and that it doesn't look cheesy.

I'm not sure what I will be doing this evening. I'm so used to planning every minute that since I didn't, I feel lost. I'm sure I will come up with something relaxing. After my busy week, I think I can handle that.

  
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NPA4LOSS 9/17/2011 4:17PM

    emoticon Sometimes the best plan is to not have a plan and enjoy what comes along. emoticon

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POINTAFTER 9/17/2011 3:09PM

    The gifts sound very thoughtful, actually. Not stuff people put on a registry, but you're right; something they need and don't think about - until they need them emoticon

I'm sure something to do will pop into your head on the way home from there. Enjoy your day!

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One Journey on New Path Started

Friday, September 16, 2011

I started going through my folder on what employment agencies I'm registered with, my job interview notes, thank you letter notes, etc. I emailed all the agencies an updated version of my resume. I already got one response that wants to send my resume off to a position that's only two miles from my house. I guess the squeaky wheel sometimes does get the grease.

I also started answering some of the interview questions that were listed in the packet I have from a seminar I took through the state. It got me thinking about what I really do want from a job and what I liked and hated about the jobs that I've had. This was a really good thing for me. I feel like it's my start on getting some new goals in my life. I want to go through and answer more questions and see how I can improve some of my answers.

I couldn't believe how long it took me to do this project. I didn't get as far as I wanted to and I certainly didn't get to a lot of other things that I wanted to do yesterday. But I believe it was an important step in defining my new paths in life and figuring out how to get down those paths.

I will be working on it again today. But I will pay more attention to the time and limit myself on this project. There are other things that I feel I need to do to help me get organized in life. I'm counting on all of this helping me define the new me.

  
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NPA4LOSS 9/17/2011 4:19PM

    It sounds like a great plan! emoticon

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SLIMLILA 9/17/2011 1:38AM

    Good for you Patty... Sounds like you had a productive day... nice thought to think about what you liked or disliked and what you would like to have in a job... I think I have always been in the same boat as you that I needed money coming in ASAP, and couldn't stop to think and only look for what I wanted. I hope this new job you heard about so close to your house works out, that would be so awesome..

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New Paths

Thursday, September 15, 2011

"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths." - Walt Disney

This quote that was posted today really hit home with me. I know I am at a stalemate in my life. I must keep trying to move forward, open new doors, keep my curiosity up and learn new things. I want to change the path my life is on right now. Today is a great day to start.

I'm going to go through my job interviewing skill notes and apply for more jobs. I am going to work on getting more Avon customers, as this seems to be the only way right now that I can possibly earn more money. I will take time to organize my house a little in hopes that I can feel some accomplishment and feel more orgaanized in my head (and life). I will set time limits on each of these as I know it cannot be done in one day. Then I will start all over again tomorrow.

  
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LINDA! 9/15/2011 8:18PM

    Good luck!! emoticon

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MISSLISA1973 9/15/2011 2:40PM

    I'm proud of you. You keep moving forward every day. You feel like you are in a stalemate, but you are pressing through. You are not giving up hope, but are looking and relooking at your situation. You see what you can do to work through each issue and pursue new and creative things each day. I know some days are harder than others, but you never give up. Keep up the amazing work!!!
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NPA4LOSS 9/15/2011 12:09PM

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TOPAZROSE 9/15/2011 10:32AM

    congratulations on your determined and positive attitude. Bit by bit you will make your goals a reality.
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Good Intentions

Monday, September 12, 2011

I woke up motivated today and I hope it lasts. It's going to be the best day of the week weather wise, so I definitely want to walk outside, run some errands and get some Avon books out there. I also have a long to do list today: I'm beginning to wonder if this is becoming a bad habit of mine. I most often don't get everything done. But I do have high hopes again today. Never knowing when my boss will call me to work makes me want to do everything I can when she doesn't call. Is this just an excuse I'm using? Am I becoming a Type A personality in my aging process? Is this my way of making sure I'm not bored/thinking of my problems/not dealing with my loneliness? It's probably a combination of all of the above. I need to take the time to sit and think about all this and make my new goals. I've been threatening to do this for at least a month and haven't penciled it in. I think it's time.

  
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SLIMLILA 9/13/2011 1:47AM

    I find I accomplish so much more when I had a To Do List.. haven't done one in a while, and at least now I am blogging about what I do accomplish in a day, cuz I was feeling like I never got anything done, so this is helping ...... no luck on my job search front either...

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DIDMIS 9/12/2011 6:25PM

    I am a list maker and I keep it beside me. I do the essential things and mark them off and keep working on it until I do what I can do.

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SPACEYKP 9/12/2011 12:53PM

    I am the same way with lists. I always have them, they are usually long, and they rarely ever get done. I try to write them out so the stuff I HAVE to get done that day is on the top with everything else that I WANT to get done that day below it. Or sometimes I will write out two lists so I only have to look at the things I need to get done and I don't get as stressed when I see a list of things that I wanted to get done but couldn't.

It helps to remember that you probably won't get everything done that's on your list. Remind yourself not to stress out when you don't and that it is okay if you can't get to everything. I don't know what you're lists look like, but I know on mine there are plenty of things that are going to be life-shattering if I don't finish them. There are more important things in life than making sure you vacuum the carpet and wash all the dishes right now.

Even if making lists and trying to stay busy is you're way to avoid boredom, thinking about problems, and being lonely, it's a good thing. It's a much more productive activity than doing something like eating or even just sulking. Dwelling on being or bored or lonely won't make you feel good and neither will thinking about your problems unless you're trying to solve them. In reality, you making lists and keeping busy is a solution for fighting boredom or loneliness and a way to deal with some problems.

Stay motivated! emoticon

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STRONGERLEANER 9/12/2011 9:46AM

    Lists can be good and bad. If you find your lists make you feel worse instead of better, revamp your lists.

Revamping would mean prioritizing/dividing what HAS TO BE DONE and what you'd like to get done paying close attention to solid deadlines.

I think you're doing great. You've been very thoughtful about what steps to take and you've jumped right in to get things done.

Remember to give yourself credit for what you do. Give yourself positive reinforcement. Dismiss negative thinking!

You're well on your way to wonderful things! Always keep that in mind.

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