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A Nice Change of Plans

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

I was headed out to do my errands yesterday when I got a phone call. It was one of the employment agencies that I am registered with. A company that I have filled in at needed me to come in for a half day to replace the sick receptionist. It was a nice change of pace to work again for a company that not only pays more an hour but appreciates what you do. So, I just had to shift my plans a little. I got some things done after work and will finish the rest today.

People were asking me the date all day yesterday. I am having a difficult time dealing with summer ending. I really can't say I did a lot of what I wanted to this summer. And I really don't like the fact that the daylight hours are getting shorter. What happened to summer that I missed it again?

  
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SLIMLILA 8/30/2011 11:48PM

    I missed it too! And don't at all look forward to Seasonal Adjustment Disorder (SAD)... Glad it was a good day for you. I shared your story with the personnel agency I went to and she agreed no one should have to work in an environment like that....Check out my blog to see how that appt went....

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KAMAPERRY 8/30/2011 11:40PM

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MNABOY 8/30/2011 9:49PM

    Time seems to fly as we get older, for me Christmas comes bi-weekly

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NPA4LOSS 8/30/2011 8:28PM

    emoticon emoticon You deserve to have a good day and a happy paycheck! Hopefully as you find a new position the other job will just fizzle out and so you don't have to put down that you just quit without another job in the ready. Look for the silver linings! emoticon

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MISSLISA1973 8/30/2011 6:05PM

    Good to hear an opportunity came your way. I hope more come for you soon!

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FITMARY 8/30/2011 7:38AM

    I was in mourning for summer all last week. Time to move on, I guess. Glad you got a little change of pace. That helps!
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A Feeling of Resignation

Monday, August 29, 2011

I woke up this morning with a feeling of resignation about my job. I just don't want to go back. I'm tired of being "on call". I'm tired of being criticized and being told that I'm not going to be shown how to do things because "they have to be done correctly". All of this and the commute have just beaten me down.

I don't like the feeling of being beaten down. I somehow have managed to get myself in this position a few times in my life, despite all my efforts. I know that I want to be optimistic and believe the best of people will always come out. At least I'm learning to be aware of my instincts - I just need to listen to them more.

My lack of self-confidence is kicking in again. I have to fight back with every part of my being. I have to figure out what it is in myself that I have to improve and just do it. You'd think that I'd have this figured out at my age!

  
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SLIMLILA 8/30/2011 2:13AM

    I just had a letter written to you and it got lost in cyberspace, so maybe I wasn't meant to whine anymore, you've heard me and encouraged me a lot. I truly feel for you and you know I've gone through very similar circumstance... I know that not going with your gut feeling is one of the signs of poor self esteem, and I don't usually listen to my gut either... Today, I got a letter from the Primary Care Network and they had tried to call me. Thankfully they followed through with the letter. So, I have an appt. Wed. to talk with them about mental health... finally, seeing as the "stress breakdown" happened back in May... well, obviously, I still need to talk to someone, so better late than never...

What did you decide? Did you go to work, I know you need the money, but you can't let them continue to make you feel so bad, it's not right!!!

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KAMAPERRY 8/30/2011 12:02AM

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KKP4673 8/29/2011 8:18PM

    Patty-- I wish you much success in finding your passion/job that works for you! It is a hard road so often.

Many Hugs to you!!

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FITMARY 8/29/2011 7:11PM

    Oddly enough, we just have to keep learning. I don't know why.
But every day there's a new challenge, a new hurdle, a new demand for inner strength. Hang on! You can do it! I'm sure you're sick of having to keep fighting, but don't give up. You WILL get to a better place!
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FIFIFRIZZLE 8/29/2011 3:54PM

    Oh Patty that is hard. I noticed you blogged not long ago about being overdrawn. Here's hoping you can find another job closer to home, and quickly. In the meantime, maybe having made the decision to look for soemthing closer to home will make your time until you resign go better? Because you can just give up on the rest and just do what you are paid to do and chillax, as they say round here. Good luck with the job search.
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MPEACH87 8/29/2011 12:07PM

    It gets very difficult when people on a new job don't train you properly and then criticize you for not doing your job, when you were never told what to do in the first place. Try bringing this to your boss's attention. If it doesn't work, then maybe things aren't working out for a reason.

Terrible to say in this economy, but that just means looking around at different options and trying to stay optimistic until something right comes around.

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STRONGERLEANER 8/29/2011 9:47AM

    Hi, Patty!

I think we all go through this and I think it happens at various times in our lives. The world is always changing, expectations change, procedures change, operating systems change, fashions change, and we have to keep reminding ourselves where we fit.

The thing is, we do fit, and no matter what, we have to love ourselves. We all have value. Sometimes, because we're so busy looking at others, it's harder to see our talents and strengths. Sometimes, because we value others so much, we might see our strengths but not place any value on them.

From my exposure to you, you seem to be a WONDERFUL person. Please don't doubt that you are. Don't let other people define you. Even if someone points out a flaw, and we all have them, remember that our flaws don't define us. Our flaws are just one part of us.

Keep striving to be the best you. You are a kind and compassionate person. Don't let anyone take that away from you.

You'll find your niche. In the meantime, just keep loving you and taking care of the wonderful person that you are.

Ask yourself what it is that you want and give those things to yourself. If you get something and realize that you really don't want it, just move on to something else. We constantly learning, constantly growing.

Just continue to be the beautiful you that gives love, not only to others, but to yourself!
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Beautiful Day

Sunday, August 28, 2011

It's a beautiful day outside today, although a little breezy. Although I have a list of must-do's today, I'm going to put them off until tonight and go outside to enjoy the weather. I hope everyone has a wonderful week.

  
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SLIMLILA 8/29/2011 1:33AM

    Glad you got to relax and spend the day enjoying the outside.. I gotta get back to walking, I fall off track so easy.... not good for me..

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PASTORJO 8/28/2011 1:11PM

    Good for you to enjoy the day! Yesterday was pretty much the same here in Ohio. My husband's allergies are kicking in, but I will still walk this evening.

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Good Start to the Day

Saturday, August 27, 2011

I slept in a little later than I normally do, but woke up motivated. I made dinner for a friend whose oven is on the fritz. While that was cooking, I cleaned out a couple kitchen drawers and a couple in my bedroom. The vacuuming is done. I'm now getting ready to run some errands, then back to the house to clean a few more things. I hope this motivation gets me through the afternoon. When I feel like I accomplish things at home, at least I feel than I can do things right.
At least something helps my confidence a little.

  
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Enjoyed Accomplishing Things

Friday, August 26, 2011

The past two days, with me not having to go into my job, I've gotten a lot done. And it felt good. I had today planned out to do a lot more, but...I got a call to come in for a few hours. So, again I adjust my schedule and see how much I can get done before and after work. Unfortunately, some things will have to be eliminated and moved to tomorrow morning. This means less time with a friend - something I look forward to each weekend.

  
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SLIMLILA 8/26/2011 8:23PM

    I went to library today and did the personnel agency online testing,...whoa comprehensive testing of Word 207 and Excel2007, sure showed me how much I don't know...

Then I applied for 1 teaching job and 4 jobs for admin. that were in today's paper...

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KAMAPERRY 8/26/2011 1:30PM

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NPA4LOSS 8/26/2011 12:03PM

    It will be nice to have a few hours on your paycheck! $$$

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STRONGERLEANER 8/26/2011 10:00AM

    I love when things get done. If there's a checklist, I love seeing the little check marks by each completed task.

Hoping you still get some quality time with your friend!
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