Sunday, August 14, 2011
My family had planned for a couple months to go to my sister's cottage this weekend. I really felt that I needed to go because my mother really wanted to have all her children with her. I'm not sure if she'll ever get the chance to do this again. I didn't really know until the last minute if I would be able to get the time off of my "wonderful" job, but I did.
We got on the road about 1:30 Friday. The closer we got to the cottage, the worse the weather got. It absolutely poured all day Saturday until about 6:30 and was cool and miserable. Not the best of weather for being right on the lake with a beautiful beach and a pontoon boat. So, yesterday was not very exciting. We did play cards a little and sit in the hot tub in the rain.
I had a bad dream last night and couldn't fall back asleep. So, I just got up at 5:30 and started cleaning up the cottage. My brother woke up while I was taking my shower. About 8:20, we were going to go see what the weather was like outside. We heard a beeping noise and the power went out. So...we got everybody up and headed home as it was cool and still rainy outside.
So, I did enjoy spending the time with my family, but I was really expecting the weekend to go so differently and be so much more fun. No swimming...no boat rides...no bonfires to sit around. Now I'm home trying to adjust my spirits. It's a struggle. I'm hoping a good night's sleep in my own bed will help turn my attitude around. I'm thinking I'm going to have to journal and talk with some friends before I do this.
But I'm determined to get a better outlook. I'm tired of not being happy with how my life is going - I feel like I'm stuck in a rut and need to push myself out.