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A Long Stressful Day Yesterday

Friday, August 05, 2011

I had an appointment yesterday afternoon with a state psychiatrist to evaluate my ADD and anxiety problems as I am applying for state disability (for that and my back problems). It was a distance away from my condo and they insisted I be there on time. Of course, I waited to be called in for over a half hour. The doctor was foreign and hard to understand. The whole afternoon was shot and definitely made my anxiety rise.

I got a call from my Avon District Manager before my doctor appointment. We've been trying very hard to make me a Unit Leader where I would actually make more money by having representatives underneath me. But, if I don't come up with a $250 order this campaign, I will lose the current representatives that are under me and have to start all over again. I've been trying to keep up with passing out books and getting orders. But the other part-time job has been so stressful and the hours have been so erratic that I don't always have the time I want to put into the Avon business.

If anyone out there uses Avon, doesn't have a representative, and would like to help me out so I can go more full time into Avon and quit the stressful job, I do have a website that you can order from. The web address is It would mean so much to me to be able to do this. I've been so stressed this past three weeks that I've had a couple anxiety attacks and have lost another seven pounds that I really didn't need to lose. I just haven't had the appetite or desire to eat anything.

I keep trying to keep my attitude up and my options open. Any ideas and/or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 8/9/2011 4:54AM

    I agree about the meditation. And I find hypnosis works well to setle me down to sleep. You can learn these techniques very cheapy or for free, get a DVD from the local library. It won't hurt to give it a try, and maybe it will help.

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KAMAPERRY 8/6/2011 1:21AM

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THREADS3 8/5/2011 8:27AM

    Meditation could really help you to handle the stress a lot better. But that is up to you!

Good Luck...I really hope you succeed!

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Going Back and Forth

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

My feelings about my job are going back and forth. On one hand, I know I need the job and that I am slowly learning the ropes (and a few other things along the way).

On the other hand, there are a few things I don't like about the job. The commute always gets me stressed - I hate traffic. I don't get paid enough. I never know what my hours will be. I was originally told 3 8-hour days and was quickly promised more hours. Every week has been different - none of them being 5 days.

The boss is not a good or patient trainer. She has explained very few things well. Sometimes she thinks she has told me something when she hasn't or she has actually given me incorrect information (like passwords). She has given me a job to do and then gotten mad when I've done it without letting her check my work before I finished it. There's been a couple hurtful comments. Sometimes I try to let it slide off me but most times it's a little hard. I realize that I don't know everything, but I must know something from all my schooling and experience.

At times I try to just put it in God's hands and sometimes it helps me feel resigned and hoping another journey will come my way. At other times, I just get stressed and depressed. There's a happy medium out there. So, I am continuing to look for other jobs and saying a little prayer every day that I make it through another day.

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MOSPARKS 8/4/2011 2:30PM

    It is very hard to be at a job you don't like. Have patience and keep praying. Look at it as experience that you can put on your resume. Keep looking and keep smiling. Something else will come up. No job is perfect so be grateful that you are working and money is coming in. Relax when you come home from work and try to forget about the stress of the day. It will get better.

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SPACEYKP 8/3/2011 10:37AM

    It can be so tough when you're unhappy at a job but know you need to work. It's even worse to have a long commute to a job you're not looking forward to going to. Try to weigh the pros and cons of having that job versus not having any job. If you decide that you will be truly happier and less stressed without a job, then it might be best for you to quit. If you decide that you really are better off having this job, even if it's not the best job, then try to focus only on the positive aspects and do as much as possible to forget about the negative. It can be hard sometimes, but just tell yourself that you're learning new things, that you have a lot of good skills because you're able to teach yourself things that you're boss can't. Or try to accept some things, like the random hours and commute -- they are what they are and you can't change them right now. But if your boss keeps up with the hurtful comments though, I would talk to her about it. Just keep your head up, try to stay relaxed, and use this job as just something to fill your time and give you some income until you find something better for yourself.


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PASTORJO 8/3/2011 10:02AM

    When you aren't where you are meant to be, work can be very difficult. I know that from years of experience. I was also an admin temp for about 2 years at the beginning of seminary. I remember the frustration of not being given the correct or enough information, then being treated as if I didn't have a brain.

This isn't the place you are going to end up working, and using all of your talents and skills, it is a stop along the way. Realizing it isn't permanent may help.

In the meantime, keep looking. The ugly truth is a person working is more likely to be hired than someone not working. Learn what you can about yourself as well as the job and you will be ready when the next opportunity comes along.

Thanks for being so honest with your blogs!

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C11ELF16 8/3/2011 8:59AM

    Having a job is both good/bad and pretty much EVERY job comes with it some headaches. Hopefully as you learn each day will get easier and bring less stress your way. When I am at work trying to get through a rough day - I stop & remind myself that I WORK so that I can ENJOY my time away from work with LESS stress. Sending lots of ((HUGS)) and patience your way. Hoping that this works out for you - or that something even better falls in your lap. Hang in there !

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Monday's Fight with Weekly Goals

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

I started off really well yesterday morning. Got my exercises and walking in before I went to work. After work, as I was fighting the usual stressful traffic, I listened to my phone messages. My brother-in-law called to invite the family to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday. I had just enough time to go home, grab the present and get the mail. My daughter's proof of insurance cards came, so it was a quick throw into an envelope, off to the post office and then to my sister's. I didn't make it home until my 10 pm bedtime. So, I got to sleep about 45 minutes late. Somehow, I shut the sounds off on my phone and woke up about an hour late. Got my exercises done, but the walking will just have to be done when I get home. The weatherman is predicting evening storms, so the DVD it will be. I promise myself I will journal and get to bed by 10 again tonight.

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SLIMLILA 8/3/2011 12:55AM

    Today is my sister's birthday too!!

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    You're working with whatever comes your way! Way to stick to the goals!


Sorry things were so hectic.

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KAMAPERRY 8/2/2011 1:19PM

    Good plan!

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FITMARY 8/2/2011 8:58AM

    Woo hoo! Happy birthday to her! Sounds hectic but fun! Good luck with tonight!

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Is my Dream a Sign?

Monday, August 01, 2011

I did make it to bed by 10 pm last night - good for the first day of my goal for the week. But I dreamed about work all night. I kept thinking about what I needed to double-check and get done this week. I didn't want to goof up doing anything. At one point, I even woke up and wrote something down in my work notebook so I would remember to check it when I got into work.

This job and its commute is making me stressed as it is. It was not a restful night's sleep to be dreaming about it all night. So, I get to figure out: Is my dream just a fluke? Is the job really making me that stressed? Is it all worth it for the little bit I'm being paid and the few hours I get?

I do try to look at it this way, though: it is money coming in, I'm definitely staying busy, and I am learning some things. I will use this as a learning experience and keep my eyes and ears open for other opportunities. And I'm hoping tonight's sleep is more restful.

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SLIMLILA 8/2/2011 1:01AM

I know stress especially when it was about work, always kept me from sleeping too.

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KAMAPERRY 8/1/2011 2:51PM

    Can you go yoga? That helps me alot with stress.

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NPA4LOSS 8/1/2011 11:06AM

    Be sure to do things that rest your mind when you come home. Enjoy life a little!

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MPEACH87 8/1/2011 10:33AM

    I have dreams about work every time I change what I do. I think if anyone is in a stressful or really active job, it tends to happen a lot.

A friend told me that if the dreams cause you any kind of distress, a trick is to try and make a goal out of it, so in the end it's like you had the dream for you. It helps a little sometimes.

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FITMARY 8/1/2011 8:14AM

    Sounds like you really want to do a good job so you can keep that money coming in. When I start having stressful dreams about work, the only thing that helps is some really demanding cardio. Maybe it would work for you? Good luck!

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Another Beginning

Sunday, July 31, 2011

It's another beginning of a new week. Every Sunday, I tell myself I'm going to map out my week - and I do. And every week, I somehow manage to get off track just by living life. The curve balls keep coming. This week, I want to fit in some small goals and really try to achieve them.
1) I am going to be in bed at 10 pm.
2) I am going to journal more than the one time I did last week.
3) I am going to spend at least 15 minutes relaxing each day.
4) During my commute home, I am going to shut off the radio and do relaxation techniques to relieve some of the stress that traffic causes me.
5) I am going to try my best to learn more about where my boss stuck all my files on my computer that I am supposed to be knowing where they are. I will be putting them in my own filing system to make it easier to remember.

The last one I know will be the hardest. I'm learning that I get lots of interruptions. And I know already that interruptions mean that it's harder for me to remember when and where I left off of things. But, I'm armed and ready to give them all my best shot.

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WALKERCAUFF 8/1/2011 10:39AM

    I'm the same way as you. Keep setting goals. It will kick in someday. At least that is what I keep telling myself. But the day that I don't make at least one goal is the day that I will have just given up. I'm not ready to just give up!! Don't you give up either!!

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KAMAPERRY 7/31/2011 6:18PM

    I love your goals, you will succeed!

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SWEETANGO 7/31/2011 5:15PM

    You're doing so well at goal-setting. congratualtions. I hope that your day is relaxing and refueling for you.

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NPA4LOSS 7/31/2011 12:47PM

    Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and soon you will be running! emoticon

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