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Monday's Fight with Weekly Goals

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

I started off really well yesterday morning. Got my exercises and walking in before I went to work. After work, as I was fighting the usual stressful traffic, I listened to my phone messages. My brother-in-law called to invite the family to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday. I had just enough time to go home, grab the present and get the mail. My daughter's proof of insurance cards came, so it was a quick throw into an envelope, off to the post office and then to my sister's. I didn't make it home until my 10 pm bedtime. So, I got to sleep about 45 minutes late. Somehow, I shut the sounds off on my phone and woke up about an hour late. Got my exercises done, but the walking will just have to be done when I get home. The weatherman is predicting evening storms, so the DVD it will be. I promise myself I will journal and get to bed by 10 again tonight.

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SLIMLILA 8/3/2011 12:55AM

    Today is my sister's birthday too!!

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    You're working with whatever comes your way! Way to stick to the goals!


Sorry things were so hectic.

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KAMAPERRY 8/2/2011 1:19PM

    Good plan!

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FITMARY 8/2/2011 8:58AM

    Woo hoo! Happy birthday to her! Sounds hectic but fun! Good luck with tonight!

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Is my Dream a Sign?

Monday, August 01, 2011

I did make it to bed by 10 pm last night - good for the first day of my goal for the week. But I dreamed about work all night. I kept thinking about what I needed to double-check and get done this week. I didn't want to goof up doing anything. At one point, I even woke up and wrote something down in my work notebook so I would remember to check it when I got into work.

This job and its commute is making me stressed as it is. It was not a restful night's sleep to be dreaming about it all night. So, I get to figure out: Is my dream just a fluke? Is the job really making me that stressed? Is it all worth it for the little bit I'm being paid and the few hours I get?

I do try to look at it this way, though: it is money coming in, I'm definitely staying busy, and I am learning some things. I will use this as a learning experience and keep my eyes and ears open for other opportunities. And I'm hoping tonight's sleep is more restful.

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SLIMLILA 8/2/2011 1:01AM

I know stress especially when it was about work, always kept me from sleeping too.

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DIDMIS 8/1/2011 11:07PM


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KAMAPERRY 8/1/2011 2:51PM

    Can you go yoga? That helps me alot with stress.

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NPA4LOSS 8/1/2011 11:06AM

    Be sure to do things that rest your mind when you come home. Enjoy life a little!

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MPEACH87 8/1/2011 10:33AM

    I have dreams about work every time I change what I do. I think if anyone is in a stressful or really active job, it tends to happen a lot.

A friend told me that if the dreams cause you any kind of distress, a trick is to try and make a goal out of it, so in the end it's like you had the dream for you. It helps a little sometimes.

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FITMARY 8/1/2011 8:14AM

    Sounds like you really want to do a good job so you can keep that money coming in. When I start having stressful dreams about work, the only thing that helps is some really demanding cardio. Maybe it would work for you? Good luck!

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Another Beginning

Sunday, July 31, 2011

It's another beginning of a new week. Every Sunday, I tell myself I'm going to map out my week - and I do. And every week, I somehow manage to get off track just by living life. The curve balls keep coming. This week, I want to fit in some small goals and really try to achieve them.
1) I am going to be in bed at 10 pm.
2) I am going to journal more than the one time I did last week.
3) I am going to spend at least 15 minutes relaxing each day.
4) During my commute home, I am going to shut off the radio and do relaxation techniques to relieve some of the stress that traffic causes me.
5) I am going to try my best to learn more about where my boss stuck all my files on my computer that I am supposed to be knowing where they are. I will be putting them in my own filing system to make it easier to remember.

The last one I know will be the hardest. I'm learning that I get lots of interruptions. And I know already that interruptions mean that it's harder for me to remember when and where I left off of things. But, I'm armed and ready to give them all my best shot.

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WALKERCAUFF 8/1/2011 10:39AM

    I'm the same way as you. Keep setting goals. It will kick in someday. At least that is what I keep telling myself. But the day that I don't make at least one goal is the day that I will have just given up. I'm not ready to just give up!! Don't you give up either!!

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KAMAPERRY 7/31/2011 6:18PM

    I love your goals, you will succeed!

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SWEETANGO 7/31/2011 5:15PM

    You're doing so well at goal-setting. congratualtions. I hope that your day is relaxing and refueling for you.

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NPA4LOSS 7/31/2011 12:47PM

    Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and soon you will be running! emoticon

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Emerging Pattern

Saturday, July 30, 2011

I'm starting to see a pattern at work. My boss is a highly motivated multi-tasker, which is fine for some people. I can be highly motivated and am perfectly capable at multi-tasking. But I have found that my boss's pace is faster than mine. And her pace seems to get faster at about 4:30 when most people are starting to wind up work projects for the day. I end up getting out of work anywhere from 15 minutes to two hours later than when I'm supposed to. Combine this with my long rush hour commute, and I come home very stressed.

At times like this, my lack of self-confidence comes out. I know I'm not the fastest person in the world. And I know, especially with my ADD, that I like to double-check my work without someone watching over me and pushing me to get things out yesterday. I've got to figure out how to be quicker, more efficient, and better at getting things right the first time all the time. Maybe this position will motivate me to become more perfect. Maybe this position is just a stepping stone for something more suited to my capabilities.

Is there a job out there that I would be able to do? I am having a doubting-myself day: one of many. Lots of thinking and soul-searching to do...and waiting and seeing how I do next week.

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MOSPARKS 7/31/2011 12:46PM

    See if you can talk with your boss and maybe at the end of the day have a meeting to talk about what you need to do the next day. Then you will have all day to get those things done and I think you will feel better. I don't know if what she wants done at 4:30 is urgent - but it seems like maybe you can meet her half way. Good luck and I hope my suggestion is useful. emoticon

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INGMARIE 7/31/2011 10:28AM

    emoticonBelieve in yourself, good advise, go ahead Believe you can do this because You Can.
Do not doubt,besides this is fairly new to you ,yes?
sometimes it takes a while to get int the swing of things.

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SWEETANGO 7/31/2011 7:25AM

    Believe in yourself. We all need to be our own advocate. Everything takes time.
emoticon I'm rooting for you. Judy

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SLIMLILA 7/31/2011 2:18AM

    Patty, don't beat yourself up, there are more than enough people in the world who will do that.... Remember God made you just who you are and he has a special job just for you...Relax and feel good about yourself. You are an amazing, persistent, thoughtful, hard-working woman! emoticon

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NPA4LOSS 7/30/2011 7:45PM

    Take your time about things. It sounds like your boss has a lot of confidence in you. Believe in yourself my friend.

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    When do you do your workout? I find that when I work out first thing in the morning, I am quicker on the draw the rest of the day. It did take me a while to get used to getting up at 5:00 every morning (I have always been a late sleeper!), but now that my body is used to it, I love it! Good luck finding the balance!

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KAMAPERRY 7/30/2011 2:41PM

    I hope they pay overtime for that! What I tell myself daily is "Do my best and forget the rest". No getting down on yourself, if you give it your all everyday, then you can have peace of mind about it,

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Still Thinking and Trying

Friday, July 29, 2011

I'm still thinking of ways to get more money coming in. I had a chance to put in a couple job applications in, but not nearly as many as I would have liked to. I spent the day yesterday trying to catch up on chores and errands that I had planned to do the day before (before I got called into work). I've got a couple ideas, but have not had the time to implement most of them.

One thing I want to do is to weed through the stuff I have in the condo. This allows me to throw away or give away the things I won't ever use again. I can inventory the things that I think I may be able to sell. I sent back a bunch of Avon products that I've had sitting around for awhile. At least this way I got a credit for the items.

Doing this has been therapeutic. It's helping me dust out the cobwebs in my head and in the condo. And, if by chance I have to move, there will be less things that I have to move or deal with when the time comes. It's not something I want to do. I have no clue on where I'd go. But, I'm trying to be realistic and look at all my possibilities.

There is an obvious solution if someone else would be realistic. (It's hard to go into details.) But, the solution doesn't seem to want to happen any time soon. If only I had a magic want.

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MISSLISA1973 7/30/2011 12:14AM

    emoticon It's not a magic wand, but sometimes music helps, so it was the closest emoticon I could think of. emoticon

Cleaning our space seems to be good for the soul. I wish you well as you go through this emotionally difficult time. emoticon

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SLIMLILA 7/29/2011 9:36PM

    I can certainly relate to how you feel about not knowing where you would live....

Do they deliver flyers on Sundays where you live? I know from talking to the people who run the storage unit, they have that job and they are also agents for UHaul and they also deliver the weekly newspapers.... they appear to have at least 3 sources of income. That seems to be the way of the future.... multiple mini jobs.... I probably told you already that I also sold Avon for several years.

You have been so patient and persistent, I am sure God has good plans for you.
God Bless..

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KAMAPERRY 7/29/2011 2:54PM


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INGMARIE 7/29/2011 8:27AM

    Sounds like you know what to do and want.
I am sure you will come out on the other side ,smiling .
Good Luck. emoticon emoticon

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DORENC 7/29/2011 8:10AM

    Sounds like you know what you want and have some control over the situation. Good luck to you.

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