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Life is Ever Changing

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

It seems like it has been so long since I've been wanting a "good scheduled" life: having a job that I at least don't mind going to, having a set schedule each day, being able to plan activities and being able to sleep well at least most nights. I haven't been able to find any of this since my temporary job ended in January. My work and sleep have definitely been erratic. My emotions have definitely been on that never-ending roller coaster ride. But, I'm trying my best to hang in there.

I've been busy this week so far. I'm applying for as many jobs as I can each day. And, at least I have Easter to look forward to. Some family will be coming over for dinner. So, I've been trying to get some of the cleaning done in the condo that I've been needing and wanting to do and that I've either put off or haven't had the time for. I just wish all this activity would enable me to sleep through the night at least one night. Maybe tonight will be the night!

  
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SLIMLILA 4/22/2011 1:59AM

    Yes, I hope tonite is the nite for you and you get a good sleep! I finally did last nite. My new granddaughter arrived yesterday a.m. and I agonized the whole nite and didn't get to sleep till 6:45 and had to get up at 7:30! Our contract allows for 2 personal leave days each year and I told boss I was taking mine, so I drove to city to see the new baby!!!! Feel much better, man was I stressed!!

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KAMAPERRY 4/20/2011 12:34PM

    Best of luck to you!! emoticon

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NPA4LOSS 4/20/2011 10:25AM

    Patty you are always so busy about trying to get things organized. Please be careful not to become to overwhelmed by what needs to be done. I am glad that you are continuing to work toward your goals but would it be better to limit those goals to just a few smaller ones. Slow down and take a deep breath, decide what must be done first like the job applications. Take some time for yourself and put that in the schedule. emoticon

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ROSERT 4/20/2011 10:21AM

    Better luck with your sleep! I know that I can get off schedule and it is terrible trying to get back on. What works for me is to get into a nightly routine, but it sounds like that is hard for you to do right now, with your changing job schedule. Keep on keepin' on!

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2NEWSTARTAGAIN 4/20/2011 10:02AM

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DAWNDMOORE40 4/20/2011 9:48AM

    emoticonI hope that your able to get some much needed sleep tonight! I know emotions can be a strong thing and can interrupt anyone's sleep! I had a hard time sleeping after 4am this morning. So what do I do? I get up and watch a Live Time movie! How funny is that?
Anyway, have a better day and be blessed! emoticon emoticon

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Decisions

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Decisions can be very hard. And the decisions where you're not sure you've made the right choice are even harder. I decided to give up the low paying job that had me all stressed out. I was feeling fairly confident of my decision until the washer went out on me this morning. Now I am kicking myself. So now I go back to applying for jobs and saying lots of prayers that I get one quickly.

  
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NPA4LOSS 4/19/2011 2:29PM

    Life just has a habit of throwing curves doesn't it. My thoughts and prayers are with you that the time offers you a better chance to find something new. emoticon

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PRAYINGSUZIE 4/19/2011 1:18PM

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I will emoticon more for you!!!!

Suzie

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2NEWSTARTAGAIN 4/19/2011 12:20PM

    Prayers for you to find one quickly and one that will pay the bills for you and not be stressful on you as well. Decisions are very hard to make and knowing if they are right or not is even harder. IMHO you made the right one regardless. You know what you want and need and I say go for that. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Still in Knots

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I'm still stressed and in knots about this job. I need any kind of money coming in, but this amount is not going to pay my bills. There's no room for advancement. The people are immature and not people I will get along with. The work is hard and there's a lot of stupid rules I'd have to follow. But, there's a part of me that says at least it's money coming in. I feel guilty for wanting to quit a job that not's right for me. I'm divided; the bad definitely outweighs the good, though. I will sleep on it and make a call in the morning.

  
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RR1_RR1 4/18/2011 5:00PM

    That sounds like every job Ive had.

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PRAYINGSUZIE 4/18/2011 12:20AM

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I am praying for you!

Suzie

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CTEMPLE 4/17/2011 11:22PM

    Visualise yourself without this job and see how you feel. If you feel happy go ahead.
Claudia

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KAMAPERRY 4/17/2011 10:47PM

    Pray and sleep on it, I wish you the best emoticon

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A Day to Take Stock

Saturday, April 16, 2011

I've decided that the past week's stress has got to stop. I have definitely been on stress overload. And I've learned the hard way that it shows up in my mental and physical health. So, I'm going to do some relaxing today first and foremost.

I'm going to do some hard thinking about this job and whether or not I can handle the situation of the job. It's stressing me to try to learn everything that is being shoved down my throat in a crowded, noisy room full of people that are not in the same place in life that I am. (I'm older, more mature, have trouble with ADD and a back disability.) The management is not paying very much and has a list of rules a mile long (geared towards people who are not committed to working). Is the job really worth it for me?

Some hard thinking to do, especially when I need a job. But...I will have to make a decision and be done with it.

  
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CTEMPLE 4/17/2011 12:42AM

    No point in letting work bring you down, dear Patty. What a hard decision...
Claudia

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ANGIEINTRAINING 4/16/2011 8:18PM

    Your mental health needs to come first. If you are not happy in one area of your life, other areas will suffer. You will be in my thoughts. Good luck with this!

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KAMAPERRY 4/16/2011 2:20PM

    Good for you. emoticon

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2NEWSTARTAGAIN 4/16/2011 2:14PM

    Sometimes decisions can be so hard. Just remember that to make a choice based on what would be the BEST for you in the long run. Then you worry about the "then what" after. My prayers will be with you through this tough time.

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NPA4LOSS 4/16/2011 2:10PM

    Making a choice on the basis of your health and well being is difficult but necessary. We are here for you and for encouragement and support whatever your decision might be. emoticon

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Stressed

Thursday, April 14, 2011

My daughter even mentioned to me how I see over-stressed this week. I'm glad I have about a hour breather tonight to sit down, slow down and try to assess what I need to do to clear some of this stress out of my life. I know I'm not sleeping well or concentrating like I should. Not a good thing!

  
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DIDMIS 4/16/2011 5:24PM

    Yes, we need to take time for ourselves and just sit back and relax.
Irene

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NPA4LOSS 4/15/2011 8:22PM

    I hope the breather helped. Hopefully this weekend you can find some ME time. Best wishes my friend for quiet rest and a low stress weekend.

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KAMAPERRY 4/15/2011 2:52PM

    Try some yoga, it helps!

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CTEMPLE 4/14/2011 7:49PM

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PRINCESSHERRING 4/14/2011 7:37PM

    I agree I need to do the same :(

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