Saturday, April 09, 2011
My schedule has been wacked out lately and doesn't seem like it's going to get better for at least a couple weeks. Combine this with some personal changes that are going on in my life, and I'm an emotional wreck lately. Tears spring up quickly at the worst possible moments. I know I have to be strong for myself and my daughter, but I'm still struggling to do this. "One moment at a time" has been my mantra lately. The next three days will be the hardest. I'm hoping things will start to even out for me after that.
I start my training for my job Monday. I really don't want the job, I don't think I'll like it, and it certainly won't pay my bills. Just not enough money per hour. But, it's a paycheck for right now. And I've been spending a lot of time job-hunting on line. I'm still checking into getting some re-training in some areas that I need to work on. I'm just not sure if it will be at a school: What school? How do I pay for it? I may be able to get an updated software program, buy or borrow a book from the library, and muddle through some of the training myself.
So much on my mind - so much to think about! How long will it be before I have all my answers? I just need to concentrate on my number one priority right now: my daughter. A lot of my decisions that will have to be made are with her best interests in mind.