Changes

Thursday, September 27, 2012

"If you change nothing, nothing will change." This quote hit me today hard. A couple months ago, I fully expected my life to have changed a bit by now. Although I have been slowly working on this, I don't have the changes that I had originally expected. Some of this is due to circumstances beyond my control. Most of it is that I feel that I haven't really defined my goals enough and worked towards them as hard as I should have.

I spent some time reading others' blogs this morning and really saw myself in a lot of them. It was a good day to do this. I realized that there are others out there that have been through similar situations and have lived through and learned from them. This has given me the courage to carry on. So, it's time to spend some time today redefining some of my goals and setting a time line for them. I'm going to work on my inner self. It's time to grow and do things for me. It's time to improve myself. Onward and upward!

  

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BERGBA7 9/28/2012 1:07PM

one comment on my blog about self image was to try "operation beautiful." Have your heard of it? I will try it out, maybe it is something for you too! Report Inappropriate Comment

SPIRALINGUP 9/28/2012 9:33AM

good attitude! Report Inappropriate Comment

YELLOW09RED 9/28/2012 7:38AM

Good morning, have a great day. Debbie Report Inappropriate Comment

NPA4LOSS 9/27/2012 5:47PM

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NESARIAN 9/27/2012 4:20PM

They say the first step is the hardest. You are already past that! whoo hoo! you got this! Report Inappropriate Comment

MOMMA48 9/27/2012 4:10PM

Love it, Patty! You can do it and so much more as you're a strong and wonderful friend who knows which direction she wants to go -- and let's do it -- and I'm with ya all the way, hun! Report Inappropriate Comment

Blah

Friday, September 21, 2012

My days at work have been extremely busy in the morning and extremely boring in the afternoon. By the time I get home, I'm beat. I feel like the work takes all my energy and I'm definitely not used to that. There's things I need to be doing after work but just don't get around to doing them. I don't like this.

I read a quote that hit me this morning. "Your desire to change must be greater than your desire to stay the same." I usually go through a blah spell in October each year. It seems to have hit a little early this year. I need to give myself a swift kick to get out of this gear.

I still have important decisions and happening hanging over my head. This probably doesn't help my mood but it's just unavoidable at this time. These issues probably don't help my mood. I am really hoping that within two to three weeks, these issues will be resolved. This will definitely help my mood - or at least I'm hoping. There's always hope.

  

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MUTEDPROPHET 9/25/2012 2:01AM

Fall is a great time to focus inward. Appreciate yourself for all the beauty that you are. Report Inappropriate Comment

SLIMLILA 9/22/2012 9:58PM

an 80 y.o. asked me today how I am coping with these long nites, and I know I usually suffer from S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder) but haven't had time this year. not that I am doing anything really great, but I am doing something... as you know things are out of kilter in my life, but at least I am continuing to feel kind of upbeat and still hopeful, but I too have to make some decisions soon and I'm not ready yet e Comment edited on: 9/22/2012 10:00:37 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

LYNNA1968 9/21/2012 11:31PM

I'm sorry this is an off month Report Inappropriate Comment

NPA4LOSS 9/21/2012 7:21PM

Seasonal Disorder is coming around. I hope that you are able to put some things at rest soon. Keep enjoying the job. It is the best one yet and I know that you are happier! Report Inappropriate Comment

MISSLISA1973 9/21/2012 6:44PM

Oh, I am so sad to hear October is a hard time for you. My husband and I both love the fall so much, we got married in October. I love the crispness of the air, the colors of the leaves, mums, hayrides, Thanksgiving and pumpkins. I think I love everything about the fall (except that we have to renew our license plates then)! I hope an early arrival of the BLAH season for you means it comes and goes quickly so you can enjoy this wonderful time of year! (((hugs))) Report Inappropriate Comment

CANDOSUE52 9/21/2012 6:40PM

I hope that you're feeling better sooner than you think. Hang in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

Better Days

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Thursday and Friday were definitely better days for me at work. I'm settling into a routine finally and learning my job a little more each day. It will be nice when they finally hire the other receptionist, however. I find that it's a little difficult to get everything done that I need to accomplish with that many hours. But, then again, the first paycheck was nice. It's a shame that it goes out so much more quickly than it comes in.

I still have things going on that I don't have answers for yet. The waiting and wondering are a little aggravating. I'm hoping that things will have settled down by the end of October. At least that's what I'm hoping for.

  

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SLIMLILA 9/17/2012 6:43PM

I hope you get what you're hoping for... I had an appt.with Career Development. Serv. today and on Monday, I have 2 appts. there, one with same person to discuss resume and job hunting tips, and the other one to discuss that horrid work situation and ways to answer when people ask etc. we'll see how it goes Report Inappropriate Comment

MOMMA48 9/16/2012 10:13PM

Sounds so Patty and I hope things keep getting better with each new day! Report Inappropriate Comment

NPA4LOSS 9/16/2012 1:27PM

on having a Great week! Report Inappropriate Comment

TYEASLEY 9/16/2012 12:44AM

I'm currently training, learning new things and multitasking drives me crazy but it keeps me sharp. Don't mind me, the glass is always full with me. Comment edited on: 9/16/2012 12:45:01 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

MUTEDPROPHET 9/15/2012 4:30PM

Been there, know how it feels to be swamped. UGH. My heart goes out to you. Hang in there! Yes, paychecks are nice, indeed!! Especially when you receive them punctually. Lol, Italy seems to have an issue with paying employees on time from what I am observing. Totally unacceptable. I hope things settle down for you too. Report Inappropriate Comment

Bad Day

Monday, September 10, 2012

I had a bad day at work today. The more I tried, the more flustered I got. It was not a pretty picture. If I have too many more days like this, I don't know if they'll want to keep me. I guess I'm having a pity party.

  

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THEBETH43 9/14/2012 12:42AM

I hope work is getting better. Report Inappropriate Comment

SLIMLILA 9/13/2012 9:34PM

Hey Patty, I hear you, that's how \i feel too. It's been a long day... with lots of family. I am not used to that. Everyone else is used to being together and know how they do things together and I seem to do everything different than them. I finally spoke up this evening and said so... Can't imagine why I thought it would work living here with my mother.... Guess I'm looking for a pat answer, and \i should know better. All the best, take care of yourself and do your best and remember that they sure do expect a lot from people these days and it's not easy. Lila Report Inappropriate Comment

NPA4LOSS 9/11/2012 5:34PM

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HIKINGSD 9/11/2012 3:45AM

Hang in there. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Report Inappropriate Comment

NELLBELLA26 9/10/2012 11:23PM

Sorry to hear you had a bad day. Reframe it into another chance to be really great tomorrow. Don't let your head go to a place it doesn't need to yet. Here's hoping tomorrow is much better. Report Inappropriate Comment

MOMMA48 9/10/2012 7:00PM

Hang in there, Patty! and Report Inappropriate Comment

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TINYBUBBA1 9/10/2012 5:57PM

There's always tomorrow! Report Inappropriate Comment

NOREEN88 9/10/2012 5:54PM

Never let one bad day ruin your week :) Report Inappropriate Comment

IMSUNSHINE 9/10/2012 5:52PM

Hope it gets better!! Report Inappropriate Comment

The First Week

Friday, September 07, 2012

It's definitely been a crazy week for me. I worked four days from 8-4:30 instead of my usual 8-1 because of the holiday. I've had commitments after work every day and that didn't help me get used to the schedule or really allow me the rest I needed. I'm hoping that next week will be a little easier on me. I will be on my normal schedule and I don't have much to do in the evenings. I am really hoping that I will be able to get a little quicker at what I do. I'm still working on the confidence thing, but I am hoping it will kick in a little more next week as I'll get more practice in. Starting new jobs sure is nerve-wracking.

  

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GUNNSGIRL91303 9/8/2012 9:43PM

Before you know it the job will be second nature. Hang in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

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HIKINGSD 9/8/2012 5:55AM

Hope you have a restful weekend. Report Inappropriate Comment