Not a Good Morning

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

My best friend has two of the most adorable dogs I have ever known. It was so easy for me to get very attached to them very quickly. I affectionately refer to the boy, Rocky, as my boyfriend. He started not feeling too good at night over the weekend. My friend took him into the vet on Monday and the vet couldn't really see anything wrong. I got a phone call last night. He was feeling worse and my friend had taken him in to the vet again. This time the diagnosis was a ruptured spleen. The vet talked about options that involved a lot of poking and prodding and money without talking much about a good prognosis. My friend brought Rocky home for one last night and did a lot of soul searching.

This morning we took him in to have him put down. I've been through this many times with my own pets through the years. It doesn't ever get any easier for me. It was so hard to let go, even knowing it was for the best. But, I am reminiscing already about the joy he brought into my life and know that somehow life will go on. I just need some time.

Meanwhile, I have to shift gears. I have an interview to go to this afternoon. I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to come across confident and cheerful when I know I'm not. Go and give it my best shot for Rocky, knowing that I now have another guardian angel watching over me.

  

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SLIMLILA 3/28/2012 11:03PM

Oh no!! I so dread the thought of losing my pets. that;s right, put on a great show for Rocky!!! Good luck on the interview.... Please God, let this be that special job you have been holding just for Patty.... let her feel confident there and be comfortable in the work and with the money and benefits they offer as well. You have given her an abundant dose of patience and persistence, IN Jesus name, Amen.. Report Inappropriate Comment

SLIMMINJENN 3/28/2012 9:13PM

sorry about the loss of Rocky...losing a pet is never easy...i had to do this to my do last year...i took comfort in knowing she was in a better place and not hurting...hope your interview went well... Report Inappropriate Comment

Starting of my Schedule

Monday, March 26, 2012

I penciled in a schedule last night. Today, I'm starting to put down what I do and how much time I'm actually spending on doing it. I plan on taking a good look at it and the end of the week. I can then tweek it a little, keep track again next week, and again take a look at it. I figure two weeks will give me a pretty good idea of what I'm doing, how I'm doing, and if I'm wasting time on anything. My intentions are not to micro-manage things. My intentions are to fit in more of what I need and want to do. I'm looking forward to having somewhat of a report at the end of each week. I know things will come up that will have me rearranging things, but that is to be expected. I still want to make sure I get in some time for things that really matter to me right now.

  

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SLIMLILA 3/27/2012 12:42AM

Can't remember when I had a normal week and could try to figure out where my time goes.... keep us posted,how you make out.. Report Inappropriate Comment

CORKY1303 3/26/2012 11:26PM

I started doing that last week at work to see where I'm wasting time. (Don't tell anyone but Spark was a big time sucker! Ooops!) But I agree, its a great way to get a feel for things! Good luck on making your schedule work for you and finding a way to get it all done! Report Inappropriate Comment

MONKEYJO3 3/26/2012 9:53AM

That is a great way to organize your time. Good for you!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

PAMRAM4 3/26/2012 8:49AM

good idea and hope it works out well.. Report Inappropriate Comment

VEUVEGIRL 3/26/2012 8:40AM

Great idea! Report Inappropriate Comment

Another Shot at Scheduling

Sunday, March 25, 2012

I realized this morning that I get to re-think and re-do my schedule AGAIN. Today is the perfect day to do it. I am going to take into consideration the stuff I feel I need to do every day, such as job search, skill practice, and spend time on Avon along with my everyday household chores. There are things I want to do that I really want to schedule in: read more, visit with friends, spend time doing stuff just for me. It may take me a couple hours to get a flexible schedule set, but it's time to do it. I cam across a SP quote that seems quite fitting in remembering while doing this scheduling. "Never hide behind busy work. It takes just as much time to fail as it does to succeed." ~ Og Mandino. I want to succeed this time.

  

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SLIMLILA 3/25/2012 8:10PM

Awesome quote....makes a lot of sense... and I think life would even make more sense if you could follow that idea. I did get up and make a list to do today, like my income tax, which I haven't even started cuz I was audited (for the 7th time) and I did provide them with what they needed, but then I had found out where I was living in the remote area, I was allowed to claim travel costs for medical etc. So, they agreed with that, but now I have to prove I made the trips... Fighting govt!!!!!! And also it is very likely I will owe them big time this year since I worked over half the year at a good salary, and then got unemployment, so I could owe a lot of it back.... scarey thought... I'm tired again, and I am so envious of you that you keep on going after all the challenges you go through.... Report Inappropriate Comment

GLASSART43 3/25/2012 11:55AM

Since I retired last June I can't seem to maintain much of a regular schedule except on the 3 days a week I go to Zumba. Hmmm, now you have me reflecting on creating a plan to get more important things accomplished. Report Inappropriate Comment

KENTUCKYGIRL01 3/25/2012 9:21AM

This is so true! I have that problem too. Report Inappropriate Comment

Attitude

Saturday, March 24, 2012

I've been in a funk ever since Thursday when I got the call saying that the job wasn't working out and to not go in. I've been trying to stay busy, I've been applying to jobs, spending time running errands, doing things for myself like getting my hair cut - anything to try to keep my mind off the fact that they didn't think I could keep up with the fast pace. It's only worked a little. I imagine my mood will improve a little each day, but I'm not sure how to get my confidence back up. I went into the job with the attitude that I was going to give it my all and make it work. I also knew that it was a lot of work with odd hours and little pay ~ this doesn't make it any easier. I'll keep trying. Something eventually will have to work.

  

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SLIMLILA 3/25/2012 12:12AM

I so know how you feel. I'm so sorry Patty. I reiterate that it's just a job, and it wasn't a personal rejection... (now if only I could believe that when it happens to me too!) Report Inappropriate Comment

BERGBA7 3/24/2012 2:47PM

Perseverance always pays off in live! I am sure you will find a new job. It is not nice to hear that an employer does not want you anymore, but it is just a job. He did not reject you as a person! You are a very good and dedicated person as far as I can tell and am sure you will find a better job that suits you better! Report Inappropriate Comment

Disappointment

Thursday, March 22, 2012

I know that I felt that I still had a lot to learn on the job that I just started last week. I know that it is a fast paced, high stress office with weird hours and little pay. I just didn't expect the phone call that I just got from the employment agency. I was told that my assignment has ended. The company told them that they didn't feel that I would be able to keep up with the fast pace. How could they tell when I only worked 7 days?

So, now I'm back to looking for work. Not a good time to be doing this, as my car is still in need of $600 worth of repairs. Needless to say, although I suspected the job wasn't right for me, I'm still bumming. All they talked about last week was giving me a chance to learn everything. I definitely have a complex now.

  

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DIDMIS 3/23/2012 7:55PM

I'm so sorry Patty. May the Lord give you just the job which would be right for you and be in His perfect will. Report Inappropriate Comment

SLIMLILA 3/22/2012 11:26PM

Oh Patty, I don''t know what to say. When will this all end? I talked with a friend of mine last nite from many years ago and she was telling me a story so similar to yours. I even told her about you. I have an interview tomorrow at a day care. Even she asked me why I applied at a day care if I am a teacher... maybe cuz I want food on the table and a roof over my head.. it certainly does get frustrating.... Sorry, Report Inappropriate Comment

PEPPYPATTI 3/22/2012 11:30AM

The right job will come along at the right time! You have to believe in that! You didn't want that one anyway-lol! Report Inappropriate Comment

LANSELMI 3/22/2012 9:41AM

The Lord works in mysterious ways. He has something better in store for you. Report Inappropriate Comment

FARRAH511 3/22/2012 8:48AM

Don't worry, God will provide. Be faithful. Report Inappropriate Comment