Tuesday, June 04, 2013
I committed myself to Weight Watcher on January 30, 2011. My starting weight was 253lbs. When I started the program, I was actually in pretty good shape. I had a trainer that pushed me and I was doing exercises that I had never been able to perform. Unfortunately, I was a little arrogant. I thought to myself that if I did the “ABC’s” of the program that I would loose the weight in no time. In retrospect, I didn’t have a true perspective of what I really looked like to my peers. I work in the Cosmetic and Beauty Industry, so I know that most people have no clue as to how they really look to their friends and family. In my perspective this reality check is the best weight loss 101 motivator and should be emphasized. The most life changing moment was sadly at fifty-one years of age I didn’t even know who I was. I believe weight loss begins in the heart.
As of two weeks ago, I weighed in at 235. Yes, it is a success, but I have been in and out of the program. I could give you my entire sob story, but I won’t. What’s the point? I have kept my online membership but my diligence has lacked. Over two years into this program I have learned a lot about myself. Firstly, I look nothing like I imagine. I definitely have a better perspective on that area. Along the way, I have learned to stop mourning what will never be. I know that ship has sailed. The beautiful part is there is a better journey waiting for me. Injuries and illness have sidetracked my journey, but I stay hopeful. I will be exercising again in a new way and soon. I have a lack of commitment to my goals for the long haul. I am that way with everything. I get tired of TV series. It doesn’t take long before I am bored. I am an all or nothing gal. I start the week well, but I know toward the end of the week, I better have those extra points handy. I get tired of work, life and the mundane, so I eat to soothe myself. For a long time I use to say if only I had this or the other my life would be better. Guess what? I t wouldn’t be better because my quirky mindset is still a part of the equation. There is nothing wrong with quirkiness if you don’t self-destruct. We also have to know how to deal with who you are. I think its called coping mechanisms. Sometimes I feel like Moses. I am only getting to see the promise land but not getting to enter it. In my heart of hearts, the reality is that the promise land is waiting for me. I will enter it because it’s part of that better journey I have started. This time I will be on that ship when it sails.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Chronicles of a Fat Lady
Chapter One…….Conquering My Emotions
It is today, oh God, that I call out to your holiness, grace and righteousness. Have mercy on me, your daughter and servant. Hear my prayers, Savior of my soul. I pray that you would give me spiritual ears to hear. Spiritual eyes so that I might see what you would want me to see. Give me new insights to recall memories and insights that are helpful to my growth. Help me identify my emotions with clarity, understanding and compassion. Reveal to me in your holy scriptures the truth about my heart. Help me to live out the desires you have for my life so that all will see your glory. Seal my heart with your scripture, so that they may be bound to my heart. Transform me into the likeness of my Lord, Jesus Christ taking me from glory to glory.
My desire is to rely on you solely for my health, protection, provision, purpose, ability, capability, strength, courage and wisdom. Transform me and make me whole. I place my total trust in you, which I have failed to do knowingly and unknowingly. Let my prayer be as heavenly incense to you. My offering is of my total being to you. You are the potter who knew and made me even before I entered my mother’s womb. Today take my emotions and make them whole, healthy and complete in you. I thank you for all that you are doing and going to do in my life. Bless you. O” my holy one that together we will walk out this journey into my eternal life.
In Yeshua/Jesus Name Amen!
Today’s’ Scripture: “Thus says the Lord who made the earth, the Lord who formed it to establish it-the Lord is His name: “Call to me and I will answer you, and tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.” (Jeremiah 33:2-3)
My Psalm: How good and wonderful are the hands of my creator. The blessed one who brought forth the sacrificial lamb. The Holy One who died for me. Blessed be the name of the Lord, who is and will forever be with me. Amen!
Monday, January 18, 2010
One day my little eight year old niece was watching the program, "Man vs. Food." To her amazement, the show featured Big Lou's Pizza which showed a man consuming a 40" pizza. Well, when you are eight years old and can see someone eating a 40" pizza you want to try it yourself.
Immediately, she called her parents to see the program. The whole family thought it looked like a really fun place. What made it even better was that Big Lou's was only an hour away from their home. My niece began to yell,"Yeah, yeah take me, Daddy.!!!" Of course, my little brother thought it was the least he could do, so he said,"Okay, we'll have your birthday party at Big Lou's."
When he told me of his plans and where we would meet for the party. I felt sick. I haven't eaten pizza in over a year. It is one of my favorite binge foods. I feel the best way to eat pizza is with a sugary cola or beer followed by some kind of decadent desert. I was a bit nervous thinking that this would be the catalyst to destroying my goal to lose 70 lbs this year. I didn't gain weight this holiday season, so would this be the deal breaker for me? Crazy thoughts traveled through my mind.
Yesterday was the day we all gathered at Big Lou's Pizza. The place opens at noon so you better be there before noon waiting in line to barrel through the door because it is first come, first serve. Trust me this is not the place for healthy eating. After we were seated, as I looked around the table, both sides of the family were there waiting to pounce on the 40" pizza. Most of us are obese, except the children and my husband. Thoughts of anxiety ran through my mind and pizza smells throughout the place made my stomach rumble. It takes about an hour before the 40" is ready. We laughed and carried on so the hour passed quickly. Suddenly, we hear in a loud voice," Clear the way hot pizza!" and "Hot Pizza!!" Before my eyes appears the largest pizza I have ever seen. My mouth is salivating because I am hungry and maybe a little overwhelmed. My niece is so excited to see the pizza like the one on the show. She doesn't know what to do. We sing the Happy Birthday song and dig in. Big Lou comes over to our table to thank us for coming. My husband, the Doubting Thomas, ask Lou if he was sure we had 35lbs of cheese on our pizza. My gosh! I am pretty sure Lou heard him but, just turned a deaf ear. The slices are so long you are instructed how to roll them off the pan onto the plate. We got some fun photos of the pizza eating event.
At the end of the meal, presents were opened and family pictures were immediately uploaded unto facebook. My niece had a wonderful time. She said the best time ever. It was a great memory for us all.
Despite, all my fears and anxiety, I ate half a slice which is probably equal to a regular small slice with a diet soda.
All in all it turned out to be a really good time and the pizza didn't even turn out to be an issue for me.
Check out pictures of the pizza by googling Big Lou's Pizza in San Antonio,Texas. There is no website.
Friday, January 01, 2010
When you pause and reflect on the past decade as you look ahead
to a new one, it makes you appreciate how short life is, how
valuable time is and how quickly the time can pass you by...
with nothing to show for it, if you don't plan otherwise.
That's why the passing of another decade can feel like a wake up
call as much as a fresh start: Looking at the technological wonders
that surround us in 2010, I can't help thinking it feels like
In fact, one of the reasons some people have succeeded at body
transformation while others have failed is modern technology...
I'm still in awe of the web. The satellite navigation system in
my car amazes me every time I drive. I can store a library of books
in a device that fits in my pocket. It blows my mind that we can
speak to each other face to face through the internet live on video.
That's straight from Star Trek! And those are just the everyday
The cover story of the January 2010 National Geographic magazine is
titled, "Merging man and machine" - it's about bionic limbs. Richard
Branson's company, Virgin Galactic just unveiled spaceship two and
is preparing to launch civilians into sub orbital space flights.
It's the greatest time to be alive in all of human history.
Unfortunately, today's modern conveniences have brought a dark
side upon us.
Rising obesity has paralleled the march of technology. The chair-bound,
desk-job, computer, car, elevator, television based society of today
is helping to make millions of people fat and lazy.
Our current way of life is less than a century old, yet our biology
hasn't changed in tens of thousands of years. Our bodies were designed
to move and work, not sit and click.
We've become spoiled. Complacent. Dependent. And we are paying a price
for it. We are fatter than ever before in all of human history. More
than two thirds of Americans are now overweight. One third are obese.
People are dying simply because they're too fat.
Ironically, None of our new technological marvels can solve our
body fat problem.
There's no easy way. No pill. No machine. No drug. More knowledge
isn't going to help. We already have most of the answers. We know
more about the human body than ever before. But it's all academic.
The problem lies in the doing. You have to do the work - in the gym
and in the kitchen. That takes will, discipline and mental toughness.
Simultaneously fighting the pull of human nature and the convenience
of new technology is no easy task. But there is a way...
Solution: Future Orientation
The most successful people in the world today are those who have a
long term perspective. They plan 5-10 years in advance and beyond.
They know how to enjoy and live in the present moment, but they
take action and make decisions based on their future vision.
The passing of another decade makes you take stock of yourself and
your achievements, or lack thereof. "What did I accomplish in the
last 10 years? Am I a better person today than I was in 2000?"
If you don't like the answers, then it's time to finally get serious
about your future because the next 10 years are going to fly by even
faster than the last 10 as the pace of life and society gets even faster.
Today, at the dawn of a new decade, is the perfect time to do this.
I challenge you to think beyond new year's resolutions. Think beyond the
12 week fitness goal. As you write your goals this year, don't stop with
3 month or even 1 year goals.
Project yourself into the future, 3, 5 and 10 years. For each point,
dream, fantasize, visualize: if your body, your health your physical
performance were perfect in every way, what would that look like?
Describe it in vivid detail.
With our ingrained penchant for quick fixes, we often over estimate
what we can achieve in the short term and set unrealistic deadlines
on our short term goals. But the flipside is that we often underestimate
what we can achieve in the long term, so we set our long term goals
My challenge for you this year is to start thinking about your body
and your life with the same type of creativity that has lead to our
greatest technological advances:
Not the same thoughts as yesterday. Not just positive thoughts.
just bigger thoughts. NEW THOUGHTS! Creative thoughts! Inventive
thoughts! From new thoughts will spring new goals, new actions
and new achievements.
Fitness goals should not take over your life, they should enhance
every other part of it. So be sure to take this opportunity to
achieve balance. Set long term goals for every area of your life -
health, fitness, finances, career, relationships, experiences,
travel, possessions/toys and spiritual growth.
Most people didn't set any goals 10 years ago. They're among the
masses who are in the same place today as they were a decade ago.
Some people only set short term goals, so they accomplished a few
little things, but then stopped, as if a goal were a final
destination rather than a stepping stone along a path.
Other people set goals but didn't follow through on them. They
forgot that goal setting and goal achieving are two different
things. Don't fall into these traps.
If you need coaching in the goal setting process - from the
daily and weekly baby steps to the long term goals and dreams
that span a decade - read chapter one of Burn The Fat,
Feed the Muscle. If you already have it, now is the time to
If you don't own a copy yet, you can get the program online at:
Most people make resolutions. Some people set well-formed goals.
But long term goals are the goals that almost everyone forgets to set.
If you didn't do this exercise 10 years ago, do it now. If you do,
I guarantee that in 2013, 2015, 2020, you'll not only find yourself
living at a whole new level, you'll find yourself living in another
world - one of your own creation.
Happy New Year!
Tom Venuto, author of
Burn The Fat Feed The Muscle
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
"The worst day of a man's life is when he sits down and begins thinking about how he can get something for nothing."
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