Saturday, March 26, 2011
I often sit and wonder why? about a lot of issues concerning food and weight. Why does food have so much control over me? Why, when I'm sitting watching TV, do i feel the need to eat something? Why can't I ignore that feeling? I tell myself that I'll feel bad later about eating while watching tv, but I do it anyway. Why? Why does food comfort us and make us feel good? Why are our family celebrations and holidays always centered around food? Why do we reward ourselves or our loved ones with a special food?
Why are some people thin their whole lives while others struggle with their weight? Are the thin people born with something that helps them maintain their weight? Look at Oprah. She has all the resources and support available to help her stay thin and she can't do it. And she has the motivation of being on tv in front of millions of people who might be judging her. Why are my sisters thin and I'm not (yet)? We have the same parents, the same upbringing.
I know there are theories to answer many of these questions, but they don't help me when I'm fighting with that nagging voice in the back of my head that's telling me to eat chips and dip. I need to keep working on making that other voice stronger. The one that says that chips won't make the tv program any more enjoyable. The one that says eat an apple if you're really hungry. The one that says you'll feel a whole lot better about yourself in the morning if you stay away from the kitchen tonight.