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Friday, March 14, 2014

Today started off as a good day. I am a walker, and do enjoy being able to walk outside. It has been such a cold and snowy winter here, (like so many places!) that I have not had a chance to walk outside since December! So I was very happy to take advantage of the warmer day and head out for a walk outside , as opposed to walking on the treadmill.

It felt so good to be outside again!! Granted, there were still several slippery spots, but I just took my time on those areas. I was able to walk for about 40 minutes and then came home and walked on the treadmill for another 25. Yes, that felt good!

Then my SIL called and reported my brother had been admitted to the hospital. Hopefully he can get the help he needs there to get better. Then my SIL called again a bit later in the day and shared some stuff with me that just tore me apart. I won't go into details, but it really upset me. So what did I do? Eat. Nope, it did not make the problems go away and nope, I did not feel better after I ate. What started off as a nice day went too quickly downhill.

I was able to shake off that feeling by dinner and enjoyed a healthy dinner of chicken (cooked on the grill outside!) and green beans. Then a graham cracker for dessert. It feels good to have gained some control back in this day.

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    Life has a habit of throwing yet another worry at us when we are already feeling down, but you did so well not to give in to the temptation of eating to help yourself feel less upset. You have every right to feel proud of making that decision and sticking to it!

Hope the weather continues to improve, because I'm guessing you too try to walk away your worries. I can leave home feeling really frustrated, worried, or annoyed by something or someone, and just keep on walking until I've left those feelings behind me somewhere along the way. Hope your walks help you in the same way mine do me.

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LKWQUILTER 3/15/2014 6:13AM

    Praying all works out. emoticon

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Tuesday, March 11, 2014

I have been walking for exercise for 10.5 years now. I have walked well over half way around the world and am on my way home!!
These last few days I have been having a hard time getting going on my walks. Maybe it is because I am tired of walking inside and am anxious to walk outside again. I have been walking on the treadmill for 3 months now. I didn't think I would use a treadmill as much as I have, but this winter I have been very thankful to have it. (we kind of inherited it when we moved into our home). There has been so much snow this winter!
I have forced myself to get on it in the morning and once I do, I have no problem in keeping going. I am trying really hard to do spurts of high intensity and am really feeling like I am getting a good workout. I have to figure out a way to do more fast spurts consistently when I am outside. Maybe I will just do the treadmill for a small part of my walk to make sure I keep it up. We will see.

Some day I hope to be able to achieve the same level of control with my eating. I never believed I would maintain an exercise habit as long as I have, but still going strong!

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    Look at how far you've managed to come with your exercise! I'm guessing that when you started on that treadmill you started slowly and gradually increased both the time you walked and the intensity, right? Why should the whole eating thing be any different - it's a habit we've spent years perfecting, and generally we've put everyone's wants and likes and dislikes before our own needs.

Just focus on your next meal or snack, not the entire day, because if I try to do that I feel so overwhelmed. I am getting the idea of what I can eat at breakfast time,but also what leaves me satisfied and what I enjoy. Once I've eaten my breakfast, I go do something else, usually a walk with my dogs, then later think of what I'd like for lunch. Ok, so often the answer won't fit the Spark guidelines, so I then work on coming up with a more Spark-friendly version, and opt for that, and so on till I'm at the end of my day.

Maybe if you try it one meal at a time, you too could find the 'have to eat healthy' idea less overwhelming? Just a thought, and it works for me.

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CHERIJ16 3/11/2014 10:22PM

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getting back on track is so hard

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

I am so very frustrated. I was doing so well before I got hit with the nasty flu bug. I was not myself for about 5 days and didn't really feel like eating much.
When I finally felt like myself again, I did not jump right back into my healthy habits. Stuff just happens.
Then on Monday, my sister-in-law called very distressed. She wanted us to come and get my niece and nephew and take them for a few days. Things at their house were just in an uproar. Sometimes I would just like to bop my brother on the head. He is doing some stupid stuff and is hurting his family. (not physically) So frustration takes over as we host my niece and nephew for a few days.
We brought them home this morning, and my husband and I were just so wiped...emotionally exhausted. They were not demanding of our time, but still, exhausting all the same. I was able to help my niece make her first sewing project...a pair of pajama shorts. She was thrilled! I really had fun helping her too.
But now I really need to focus on me and getting back on the good path I was on. I need to do this for me!!! I will do this for me!! I need to just go work on a new project! I don't know why I am having such a hard time getting started on that either!! Maybe winter blahs??

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    You have had a really difficult time, first both of you having the flu, the weather, family problems, and it's you who are paying the price.

Must have felt great to see the smile and sense of achievement on your niece's face I'm sure, and it would have helped take her mind off what was happening back at home. When things are at their hardest, just try staying on what you will eat and drink for the next hour, no further, then when you've done ok with that first hour, you can think about what your plan is for the following hour, and so on. I'm sure that before you know it, you will be back to normal, your good health returned, your niece and nephew back home again, and life will be so much easier.

In the mean time, you can tell yourself each time you begin to feel that frustration level increasing that you are doing a wonderful thing in allowing your nephew and niece to take a break away from the tensions of home and allowing your brother and sister in law some time to work on the problems. You are both to be congratulated for taking them in for a few days - not everyone would, sadly.

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CHERIJ16 3/7/2014 4:57PM

    I've been feeling the same way too. I am at a standstill with my weight and I have been making poor choices on my diet. I know it's warmer here in the RGV than it is in Michigan but it has been quite nasty here as well. At home I have exercise equipment to use but down here our place is smaller and there isn't much room to walk inside. My DH takes me to Walmart to get some walking in but I haven't felt like doing that day after day. I think we all need a weather break! Hang in there. emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 3/7/2014 7:00AM

    You sound like me. I am so wanting to start a new project and just can't get started.

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GORDON66 3/6/2014 2:17PM

  This winter has been just awful, so I would guess you're dealing with cabin fever. Don't get stuck thinking about missed opportunities. Just think about today.

Good luck!

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Anyone ever try to eat the kitchen sink?? :)

Saturday, March 01, 2014

I know it is just an expression, but I really hate those days when that is exactly what I feel like the kitchen sink! Today is one of those days. I just can't seem to get satisfied. It does not help that we are going out to eat tonight to a place I know nothing about. I always try to plan ahead so I make wise choices, but that is not an option tonight. :(

I was so proud of myself yesterday for a bit. I went to the store and a display right when you walk in the store was a display of Paczki. I have never had one before and I was so tempted to buy some. I finally talked myself out of it and left the store feeling proud of myself for having resisted. But when I got home, again, I could not stop eating. Sometimes I think I might have been better off just getting the one thing I really thought I wanted. But then I think, would one have been enough??

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CHERIJ16 3/3/2014 10:13AM

    I have found myself in the same boat. I get a craving for something and I deny myself. I keep looking for something to take it's place and I end up eating everything but the kitchen sink! I have learned to get just one of something and allow myself to eat it and enjoy it. (I don't do this every day!) But then I put it in my tracker, make allowances for it, and move on.
Just keep your eye on your goal. emoticon

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    If you're like me, you lie awake when you first get into bed, mentally going over your day and how well you did, or the things you regret not having had a little more willpower just so you could get past that moment of temptation. If you do that too, you can at least congratulate yourself on the willpower you showed by not giving in to that temptation, then walking out of the store. You have every right to feel proud of yourself.

Would one have been enough? Well, if you were me, one would be all you intended to have, but buy a few extra for other days and times when you just needed 'something'. All my extras were usually eaten well before I arrived home, and the only thing left was a huge feeling of disappointment at not having said no to the first.

We all have those days where nothing we eat to substitute for those things we are craving will satisfy us, You stayed accountable, and you were strong enough to resist that temptation. Tomorrow is another day, Leave today in the past when you wake in the morning, other than remembering your strength in not buying just one Paczki. (By the way, I can't even begin to imagine what it/they are... nothing of that name here where I live in Australia). emoticon

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flu bug

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Well, it happened. I woke up in the middle of the night on Thursday and just knew something was not right with my stomach :( :( My husband had the flu two days before and I tried so hard to be extra careful. Clean, clean, clean. Sanitize, sanitize, sanitize. Wash hands, wash sheets. Wore myself out I guess!
Anyway, I did get some kind of bug. My stomach was not happy. So Friday I spent much of the day on the couch doing much of nothing. Fortunately, my stomach did no more revolting, but still was not happy.
So my diet for the day was some saltines, a graham cracker, and a little tiny bit of 7 up. My stomach is still not settled down yet today, so I am just going to let it simmer down. I have not felt hungry yet today. I have been drinking plenty of water. I am going to try to refrain from eating until I feel hunger. I could just nibble on stuff, but this seemed like a good time for me to remember to feed by body when it needs to be fed. Maybe it doesn't need to be fed just yet.
I am feeling better today and have more energy than yesterday. Maybe I will have enough energy to walk on the treadmill for a bit; just a slow walk.

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    Hope you take things slowly till you're eating properly again and fully recovered from your stomach bug. Strange, but I had much the same problem yesterday morning, so all the exercise I"d scheduled the evening before, I had to delete this morning. I was feeling ok again by mid-afternoon, but wasn't willing to risk another episode while dog walking, so it was a lazy day on the recliner for me with lots of water too, plus some Sparking.

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LINDA! 2/23/2014 11:43PM

    I agree with Raesun - be careful about returning to exercise too early. Hope tomorrow is a better day.

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 2/23/2014 8:50PM

    Hope you get to feeling better soon!!

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COOP9002 2/23/2014 3:49PM

    Hope you're feeling better soon.

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RAESUN54 2/23/2014 3:36PM

    emoticon And only eat light food. Lots of fluids. 7 up is good for upset stomach. Careful exercising cause your body needs rest to heal and recuperate. Sounds like you are doing everything right.

Take care and rest rest rest.


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