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NO time like NOW

Saturday, December 20, 2014

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Good morning my friends.
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I write blogs infrequently because I don't get up early each day by any means. Falling asleep is difficult and wanting to wake hidden away, late into the day. Mornings are short now because I want to sleep it ALL away.

I woke with good news on the battle to extinguish food worship. It's finally turned over the peak and is back trending down again. What relief I feel, and welcome pride just out-picturing that regained last 10 pounds away once again. But I also forced myself to get up because I'm stirring at night in the backup pile I must climb of my life as 2014 comes to its last 10 days. I woke because I WANT to stop spinning out of control.
If I have indeed stopped my weight gaining and knocked the food god off its pedestal, it means I MUST be up to ending other chaos, right?

Folks often say the holidays are impossible or the toughest challenge but I have chosen to face it head on as an ultimately satisfying and accomplishable challenge. I lock down my brain that this IS the biggest high I CAN achieve. More than satiation. More than sugar highs. To command my desires to be controlled by a decision to win the holiday challenge has worked for me! And in a year when I had maintained my weight through a stroke and early recovery, the rehab overran the other discipline and pound by pound I watched it inch away from the weight I rejoice in.

Why do you think you must eat the fattening stuff because it's more special? What do you think you are victim to when salivating eyes feed your portion distortions? I decided that all the work I do all year to walk more and more, and recover the parts of me which can, that like quitting smoking by using the tools of nicotine anonymous, I can apply all the tools at SparkPeople and master them for this year end grand finale'.

I have found a salad that is very healthful and nutritious and tasty with VERY little calories. This has helped me prepare as I came towards the holidays. Of course other parts to this story will be left out so I don't run on and on here. The prepping, building towards the end of the year is not by buying presents and baking goodies. My preparation has been steady increases in determination to make this turn around goal my reality -- walk further to more places on paths that are beautiful and inspire me,
and plug away at cutting down craving cave ins until the switch is turned off and I know I am prepared to handle the year end events.

All this talk about 10 pounds? You betcha. If I know I can't have just one cigarette, and I haven't for 15 years now, I can be gentle with myself but firm on my conviction to accept whatever I have to learn at THIS time to make another day point in the right direction.

Peace be with you as you falter but please always steer ahead.
I love you all,
Dale the P T

  
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BRENDAGAIL9 12/20/2014 3:17PM

    Dale,

I admire your determination, you know you can do it. We have massive amounts of sweets here everyday but I seldom eat any. Just looking at all the morbidly obese residents here is an instant turn off for me. Plus I have a lot of will power and just eat my apple or a salad.

Sunday potlucks are very scary. I have to find out who made what before I will eat any. I usually just take a small spoon of a dish, then seeing my plate full, I instantly get full and end up throwing half of the food in the trash.

People keep telling me I don't need to lose any weight. I tell them "you aren't wearing my pants. "

Happy Holidays! Keep on doing what you are doing and you will be back to you old self.

Brenda

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FITMARY 12/20/2014 10:52AM

    Dale, you've got the Power Pose perfected! Onward!!
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Best wishes, my friend,
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NO time like NOW

Saturday, December 20, 2014

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Good morning my friends.
emoticon For being here with me. emoticon
I write blogs infrequently because I don't get up early each day by any means. Falling asleep is difficult and wanting to wake hidden away, late into the day. Mornings are short now because I want to sleep it ALL away.

I woke with good news on the battle to extinguish food worship. It's finally turned over the peak and is back trending down again. What relief I feel, and welcome pride just out-picturing that regained last 10 pounds away once again. But I also forced myself to get up because I'm stirring at night in the backup pile I must climb of my life as 2014 comes to its last 10 days. I woke because I WANT to stop spinning out of control.
If I have indeed stopped my weight gaining and knocked the food god off its pedestal, it means I MUST be up to ending other chaos, right?

Folks often say the holidays are impossible or the toughest challenge but I have chosen to face it head on as an ultimately satisfying and accomplishable challenge. I lock down my brain that this IS the biggest high I CAN achieve. More than satiation. More than sugar highs. To command my desires to be controlled by a decision to win the holiday challenge has worked for me! And in a year when I had maintained my weight through a stroke and early recovery, the rehab overran the other discipline and pound by pound I watched it inch away from the weight I rejoice in.

Why do you think you must eat the fattening stuff because it's more special? What do you think you are victim to when salivating eyes feed your portion distortions? I decided that all the work I do all year to walk more and more, and recover the parts of me which can, that like quitting smoking by using the tools of nicotine anonymous, I can apply all the tools at SparkPeople and master them for this year end grand finale'.

I have found a salad that is very healthful and nutritious and tasty with VERY little calories. This has helped me prepare as I came towards the holidays. Of course other parts to this story will be left out so I don't run on and on here. The prepping, building towards the end of the year is not by buying presents and baking goodies. My preparation has been steady increases in determination to make this turn around goal my reality -- walk further to more places on paths that are beautiful and inspire me,
and plug away at cutting down craving cave ins until the switch is turned off and I know I am prepared to handle the year end events.

All this talk about 10 pounds? You betcha. If I know I can't have just one cigarette, and I haven't for 15 years now, I can be gentle with myself but firm on my conviction to accept whatever I have to learn at THIS time to make another day point in the right direction.

Peace be with you as you falter but please always steer ahead.
I love you all,
Dale the P T

  
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SUNNYBEACHGIRL 12/20/2014 12:53PM

    I agree that facing the struggle with choices during this season is critical to success. You have my positive thoughts with you and congrats on continuing to be strong

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ROCKYCPA 12/20/2014 9:57AM

    Thank you for sharing. It is always one step at a time!

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NO time like NOW

Saturday, December 20, 2014

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Good morning my friends.
emoticon For being here with me. emoticon
I write blogs infrequently because I don't get up early each day by any means. Falling asleep is difficult and wanting to wake hidden away, late into the day. Mornings are short now because I want to sleep it ALL away.

I woke with good news on the battle to extinguish food worship. It's finally turned over the peak and is back trending down again. What relief I feel, and welcome pride just out-picturing that regained last 10 pounds away once again. But I also forced myself to get up because I'm stirring at night in the backup pile I must climb of my life as 2014 comes to its last 10 days. I woke because I WANT to stop spinning out of control.
If I have indeed stopped my weight gaining and knocked the food god off its pedestal, it means I MUST be up to ending other chaos, right?

Folks often say the holidays are impossible or the toughest challenge but I have chosen to face it head on as an ultimately satisfying and accomplishable challenge. I lock down my brain that this IS the biggest high I CAN achieve. More than satiation. More than sugar highs. To command my desires to be controlled by a decision to win the holiday challenge has worked for me! And in a year when I had maintained my weight through a stroke and early recovery, the rehab overran the other discipline and pound by pound I watched it inch away from the weight I rejoice in.

Why do you think you must eat the fattening stuff because it's more special? What do you think you are victim to when salivating eyes feed your portion distortions? I decided that all the work I do all year to walk more and more, and recover the parts of me which can, that like quitting smoking by using the tools of nicotine anonymous, I can apply all the tools at SparkPeople and master them for this year end grand finale'.

I have found a salad that is very healthful and nutritious and tasty with VERY little calories. This has helped me prepare as I came towards the holidays. Of course other parts to this story will be left out so I don't run on and on here. The prepping, building towards the end of the year is not by buying presents and baking goodies. My preparation has been steady increases in determination to make this turn around goal my reality -- walk further to more places on paths that are beautiful and inspire me,
and plug away at cutting down craving cave ins until the switch is turned off and I know I am prepared to handle the year end events.

All this talk about 10 pounds? You betcha. If I know I can't have just one cigarette, and I haven't for 15 years now, I can be gentle with myself but firm on my conviction to accept whatever I have to learn at THIS time to make another day point in the right direction.

Peace be with you as you falter but please always steer ahead.
I love you all,
Dale the P T

  
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INITFORLIFE3 12/20/2014 11:58AM

    Progress, not perfection, is always the goal. Congratulations for not waiting for New Year's resolutions.

May you find much peace and happiness in the season and the year to come.

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ICEWYNDE 12/20/2014 9:45AM

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Peace and blessings to you!

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Fear of Failure is False!

Thursday, July 10, 2014

I just read over my last blog and it felt bleak and heavy until I discovered the source which is feeling guilty.
When dealing with family, guilt is often what we summon up when anyone appears to be letting themselves or us down.
I was and continue to internalize that self condemnation without even recognizing that I'm doing it.

Walking the dog just now and thinking about my son I am struck by how much this very thing is keeping his life all shut down and toxic. It's what I've been doing since I smugly (or was it) enjoyed my maintenance weight stretch of time. Everything felt great and I was serenely pleased with myself, then something slipped. And I started the mental tape that I had to let myself down.

As a recovering nicotine addict, I know how much of our thoughts are not US really but some addictive tape running in our brain. And so it is with feeling guilty, about not doing enough or being enough or whatever can trigger the background (maybe underground) clatter 0f taped messages we carry without knowing it's not real and it's not me; but instead, something I concluded or accepted as true along the way because I think whatever is in my head belongs to me! NOT.

Today I have the will and the clarity to monitor my calories, be stingy with what I choose to intake. May that guilt tape be thoroughly seen for "the false self I harm myself by listening to!" I reclaim being ME, which is centered and clear headed.

These tapes are hard to detach from but honestly, they are nothing more than
"False Evidence Appearing Real ~ FEAR."

  
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CLAYMACT 9/3/2014 10:45AM

    This realization is so important! the mental health is as important as - and necessary for - the physical health.

So many people don't realize "the tape" (Are we dating ourselves? LOL!) is running. they also don't realize we can turn it off - or even record over it! You realize that. Rewrite you legacy!

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LENORE048 8/8/2014 10:11PM

  Thanks for your insight. So helpful for me. I have to separate myself
from all the negative chitter chatter and remember who I truly am.


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LENORE048 8/8/2014 9:58PM

  Thanks for sharing your insight. It helped me get through a trying
time I'm having with my weight and nicotine withdraw. I get caught
into negative thinking and realize the voices are not me just passing
thoughts.

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SUNNYBEACHGIRL 7/11/2014 3:01PM

    The tapes in our head are hard to erase completely. Takes a lot of concerted effort. You are doing well to work on them.

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FITMARY 7/11/2014 10:56AM

    I love the indictment of Fear Evidence Appearing Real! We will banish it from the kingdom!!!

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SWEETCLEANER 7/10/2014 1:12PM

    Very True! If only life was linear! emoticon

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SJMONROE2 7/10/2014 12:40PM

  You are right!
Those condemning tapes can run in our head whenever we 'stumble" at whatever it is we are doing to better ourselves. And they turn on so quickly & automatically we sometimes don't notice they are whispering to us. But you hit the nail on the head...those tapes are not giving us a REAL message; they are False Evidence Appearing Real. emoticon

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meandering morning mind

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Fuzzy head, fuzzy stroked arm, under slept a few hours, pushed to wake up early enough for a really good walk (to make up for this week's step count), wanting to hide again in oblivion and sleep. But I dreamed. And that pulled me up into this day. Is this really appropriate spark blog or more just semi conscious rumination like I peddled for myself long, long ago? Will it rain or clear up; will my troubled rumblings of self awareness undertones flush to the surface to see?

Journaling before being fully awake was fun once. What do I care about being brutally honest now, other than to get out of my head and into better functioning. Darn it, I need more than I'm providing for me.

Just two pounds over goal and you think that's not a danger? I know my eating habits and the s.o.s. rings clear. Don't go back to sleep this day but drink that iced coffee and type and wake up more. The walk will do me so much good. Stay present to every awareness I can muster in this day.

honor the passionate tiger in you,
dale

Ah, the post script!
144.5

Floating head, under slept brain and body, I'm up very early in order to make up for the lower step count of this week. KARON, you complimented me and this urged me to be here now:
I want to deserve the consistency impression I make!

Last night my tenant changed up his routine weekend and instead of leaving (for where ever) like all other weekends, he brought a girl back here. Oops; he forgot to mention to me that this is what he planned on doing, and I want the notice for my own peace and freedom around here. I told him it would be okay but he forgot to just let me know the when. Youth. I'm in need of 3 hours' more sleep.

Here's what I want to say before I go walking and waking from now. I feel GUILTY. I'm cheating myself. That's the feeling that's stirring my pot; I'm not taking care of my business. I'm avoiding all kinds of things that are my responsibilities.

Exhale. The point of the blog a moment ago is this. Here. I can edit the addition to tag on.

It should and will be a very good day. From fuzzy heads, feelings froth upward.
I love you all,
Dale

  
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PHOENIXNICKI 6/22/2014 6:14PM

    Please never feel guilty about not doing your responsibilities. You are doing the best you can and that is all that is necessary. Be kind and loving to yourself, you deserve that and you are one of a kind. You are perfect the way you are.


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FITMARY 6/21/2014 2:31PM

    Dale, please remember that the fuzzy head has to be respected too. Finding just the right balance between doing enough and doing way too much gets trickier when you are sick so don't feel bad if you are having trouble and if that perfect balance seems to change daily or even hourly! Knowing you---as we do!---I bet you are much more likely to try to push yourself than you are to sit around and twiddle your thumbs. With that in mind, then, if your body is telling you to go a little slower, it's undoubtedly okay to let yourself do that. Nerves repair themselves very, very slowly, part of an inch at a time, so you cannot hurry things. You will get better! It just takes T---I---M---E!
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ACCEPTHECHLNGE 6/21/2014 1:07PM

    I admire your commitment to get back to a 'normal' way of life, as you have known it, before your medical problems. I know it takes determination that you are known to have. I hope that good weather will encourage you to return to your regular walking routine. Good luck with that.
I will respond to your 'outreach', soon, but have to find the time. My apologies.
Take care of yourself.

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NOILEDNWAD 6/21/2014 10:20AM

    It's like you say on your page ... " I can exclusively afford to shape my days with the things that work for my higher good - " emoticon

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