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Fighting my way back

Monday, May 26, 2014

I have not written a blog in a very long time. Mostly out of embarrassment I guess. I worked so hard to get to my goal weight and get fit. I managed to accomplish both goals. But then things happened. I had issues at work. Because of the issues at work I developed health problems. I lost the ability to do much exercising. And although I could tell you anytime how wrong it was, my inability to exercise became my excuse for eating whatever I wanted. I had gone from running an entire half marathon to not being able to walk up a flight of stairs without being out of breath. It took a serious toll on my emotions and my attitude. And as a result I gained all but 6 lbs. of my weight back.

I have recently encountered several things in my life, some good, some bad, that have once again given me the drive that I needed to kick myself in the butt and do this again. I still can't do a whole lot of exercising, at least not how I want. So I am concentrating on what and how much I eat. I have rediscovered how much I enjoyed trying to be creative with my daily allotments. Although I realize only concentrating on eating is not ideal, it is better than nothing. And for now it is working. Since December I have re- lost 34lbs. and I am continuing to stay on track. I have had a few small bumps in the road, but they have turned into NSV when I was able to overcome them and not let them railroad me. And I will keep taking the baby steps toward being able to exercise more also.

I know I can do this!!!!!!!!!! emoticon mm emoticon emoticon

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GOOSIEMOON 5/26/2014 9:27PM


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RAPUNZEL53 5/26/2014 8:31PM

  Good Luck!

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seeking helpful information

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Well, I have now officially been diagnosed with asthma. And I have learned that my best source of support and helpful information is my spark friends. So here I am asking for just that. Let me start by saying that I have been a paramedic for almost 20 yrs. So I am by no means unfamiliar with asthma. However, with that being said, I must say that as a medic my dealings with the condition are usually when someone is at their worst. Learning to live with it on a day to day basis is a different story. That is where my spark friends come into the picture. I feel like my doctor did a really poor job of "education." Does anyone have any ideas for any good websites that I can go to for good, informative, helpful information. I am just wanting to learn about all the ins and outs and the things I would never expect. Any personal advice would be greatly appreciated also. Thanks everyone.

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SRBSRB26 8/22/2012 10:42PM

    Singular is a great medication for Asthma!

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one day at a time

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Here is the latest update of everything that i have been experiencing. To answer my last blog, if any of you ever need to have a methacholine challenge test done beware!!!! I wouldn't wish that test on my worst enemy. It was extremely challenging physically and left me completely exhausted for the rest of the day and into the next day. However, the result is that I have unofficially been diagnosed with asthma. I say unofficially because the respiratory therapist doing the test told me it was definitely positive. In fact, the test is supposed to use 4 tiered doses of methacholine. She stopped after only 3 because the result was so positive. So now I have an appt with the pulmonologist tomorrow where I assume I will officially be diagnosed. I am not happy about it but at least it is a definitive answer so maybe I can start taking the right medications and start to feel better.

In the meantime, I am really trying hard to log my food again and go back to eating right. My brain knows that I will feel better if I start over for soooo many physical and emotional reasons. I have said this too many times lately. So I am doing what we all know is best and taking one day at a time. Today is day 2 of logging again. I have been within my calorie range both days. Need to tweak my fat and protein amounts a little (too much fat, too little protein) but like I said, one day at a time. I am going on the hope that once I start feeling a little better I will be more motivated to continue. Fingers crossed. I guess One Day At A Time will now become my new inspiration.

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JENJESS48 8/15/2012 9:41AM

    At least it's asthma that's ailing you and not something scarier. Asthma is usually very manageable and you'll return to feeling good and your normal activities in no time.

Taking it one day at a time is often the only approach that works. You'll get through this and back on track! emoticon

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Anyone had this done before????

Sunday, August 05, 2012

The next step in answering my questions, and hopefully feeling better, is a methacholine challenge test which I am having done on Wednesday. Have any of you ever had this test done before? I read online that it is very physically challenging. Just a simple pulmonary function test kicked my butt. Just wondering how bad this one will be. I am not (obviously) enjoying this quest for answers at all. I would just really like to hear that this isn't going to be as bad as I am anticipating. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOPE2011 8/6/2012 6:00AM

    I haven't had one - sorry! But I am hoping for the best for you - take care!!

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Still looking for answers

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Here is an update from my last blog. Unfortunately, it is not good news. The results of my echocardiogram were negative, just as i suspected. This was followed by an actual visit to my Dr. instead of just a phone call. He informed me that we would find out what was going on but "it could get ugly." Not exactly the words you want to hear from your Dr. So the nest step was chest x-rays and a pulmonary function test. Let me just say that this short, 15 minute test kicked my butt. And the worse news is that it was absolutely normal. emoticon

So now we are on to the next step. I am so not happy about this step. Let me back up a bit. I have a VERY difficult time seeing Dr's. The only thing that gets me through going to my Dr. is the fact that I have known him my whole life. I grew up with him being my Grandparents' neighbor. I consider him a friend. Therefore, I can be comfortable with him and my overall severe shyness is somewhat kept in check. Now the next step of this process is that he is sending me to a specialist. I know this may sound ridiculous, but I am having serious apprehension to this. I am really struggling to make myself go. And to top that, because all of my tests are coming back negative, I am now questioning whether there really is something wrong or if it is all in my head. I am really close to just throwing my hands up and saying that I am just crazy so I guess I will have to live with it. I just wish that I could have a simple little answer in a nice neat package. Deep down, I really am not dealing with any of this well.

Ok friends, I am done whining for now. Thanks for always being there and thanks for listening.

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GOLDDUSTMOMMY 7/31/2012 11:56AM

    from reading your blog before this, I would suggest finding another job (if you havent already). If nothing else, I would say the the job is seriously depressing you. and I know well how much depression can make you feel dead. and to be around an allergen that long can actually kill you. I hope everything works out for you and you feel better soon.

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