Sunday, January 19, 2014
Well this past week we had a "homework" assignment in my Harry Potter team and I failed miserably. Want to know why? It involved finding someone from the challenge and making them your friend if wanted but mostly to find out about someone in the challenge.
What happened? Nothing I didn't do it.
Why? It was out of my comfort zone.
I admitted it too. Someone else asked why it was so hard(not so personally but just a why generally) so I posted this....."Well I know what some of my problem is.....being shut out by other people in my life growing up. Trying to make friends and because I was the "fat girl" being left out, so I read, and read and read. Which made me "strange" to the others....oh well.....I do have friends, but I can count on one hand how many I do have there at all times."
That's not saying that I haven't found friends on here. I have but sometimes I just need to reach out to someone and talk but that doesn't happen very often either. I'm a loner. I admit it. Do I like it? Not always, I keep things to myself mostly (one of the reasons I don't blog, I just can't set myself up for things, and I don't write!). And then I know everyone has things they do and family to see and interact with and I just don't want to intrude. Yeah that old training " if they wanted to be with you they would make the effort". I do know it's a two way street...but I just don't know HOW to do it!
I made a big step almost 7 years ago....(Yikes has it been that long?????) I got on here and started tracking food and exercise, I fell off the wagon quite a few times over the years which is why I am still here and still overweight...well lets call a spade a spade...I'm obese. I started to make friends on here by joining teams...that was a BIG step for me, putting myself out there to be made "fun" of picked on, etc. Guess what???? That didn't happen, everyone was so supportive and friendly!
But I still can't reach out to make friends easy. I still join different teams to try them, to make new friends, to get support, etc. Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't. I leave the ones that don't have what I'm looking for or don't fit me very much.
I don't plan on leaving Hogwarts I love being there, I love the support from my house and others on there. I love the challenges, I just couldn't do this one. Sorry house.
Sunday, September 15, 2013
It's my Birth Chart for astrology and I wanted it where I could find it later. It pretty much nailed me right on, there are a few things that are not me but what do you expect? Perfection? Not going to happen! LOL
You don't have to read it, it's just here....
The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.
Sun in Aquarius
One of the standout characteristics of those born under the Sun Sign of Aquarius is their unwillingness to follow the beaten track. With advancement and progress on their minds, there can be an irreverence to old and outdated ways of thinking and doing things. Many Aquarians aim to free themselves of personal and social conditioning. Although open to change in theory, Aquarians can be surprisingly stubborn. Their idealism runs strong, but they can be very fixed in their opinions.
Often a bit aloof and even standoffish, Aquarians nonetheless are usually well-liked. They are curious and observant, and tolerant in a broad sense. Prejudice and bias is offensive to the typical Aquarius. Aquarians are generally very clever, witty, and intellectual. They value progress and frankness. It's difficult to throw Aquarians for a loop--they're generally on top of things. There is a bit of reformer in Aquarius. They'll try to get you to see through superficiality, and encourage you to be open and forthright. "Be true to yourself" and "Don't follow the crowd" are mottos we easily associate with this sign. Aquarians need space and value personal freedom. Any attempt to box them in will likely fail. They'll happily return the favor; and they will treat people from all walks of life as equals. Equality and fairness are hallmarks of the sign. If you're quirky and "different", all the better.
She is independent, autonomous, and has progressive ideas.
Weaknesses: an unusual, rebellious and revolutionary spirit.
Aquarius ascendant Virgo
Sun in VI
The work that you do, and the services that you offer, are very important to your sense of identity. In order to feel good about yourself, you need to be busy with daily activities and to produce work you can be proud of. Focus on finding a suitable and rewarding avenue for expressing this part of you, being extra careful to choose an occupation in which you can express yourself. You are sensitive to criticism about the work you do, and you work best when you can create your own schedule. Positive feedback for the services you render is important to you, but be careful not to over-identify with the appreciation you receive from others, as your work and your health suffers when you feel under-appreciated. Motivation to do a good job should come from within.
224 Conjunction Sun - Mercury
Because your ego and your mind are aligned, you possess much mental energy. You are always in a position to think about what you want, and in many ways, this is an interruption of the will. You are highly intelligent with a great drive to communicate with other. You invest a lot of pride in your intellectual capacities. You may not always listen as well as you speak, however! You might be too busy thinking about what to say next. But you are very curious and although you enjoy expressing yourself, you usually don't dominate conversations completely. As far as studying or learning goes, you are better off reading the material than listening to a teacher. These traits come from a strong need to take an active role in communications. It is very hard for you to passively listen and absorb information.
Your opinions are usually strong and you are an independent thinker. You tend to be proud of your opinions and thoughts, and might easily get a bruised ego if you are not "heard", if your opinions are pushed aside or ignored, or if your opinions are criticized. You are expressive and possibly a very animated speaker. You are also very witty and others enjoy your playful and sometimes mischievous sense of humor.
149 Sextile Sun - Mars
You are enterprising and have powerful stores of energy that you can draw upon when needed. You respond to problems or challenges with a spirited and enthusiastic confidence that is admirable. You are naturally competitive, and this trait is generally well-received by others simply because it is unforced, unaffected, and sincere. You truly believe in fair play, and you seem to be in love with life. When you are expressing competitiveness and courage, it's easy for others to smile and accept these traits as positive ones rather than being rubbed the wrong way. You have good physical vitality. Although competitive, you are not naturally combative. You may enjoy sports or games that are competitive, but not violent. Breaking the rules of a competitive game is particularly upsetting to you. You are more able than most to control your desires, aggressions, and instincts. You know how to be fair, and you expect others to be fair. As such, sneaky behaviors, uncontrolled impulses, violence, and rage are offensive to you.
5 Trine Sun - Midheaven
She knows what she wants on the professional level, is aware of her objectives and does everything to achieve them, she will carry out plans to the very end. She has a good job as well as a good reputation.
The Moon represents the emotional responses, unconscious pre-destination, and the self-image.
Moon in Virgo
Lunar Virgos find security in the little things in life. They feel most content when they've straightened out all the details of everyday life. Many of them enjoy running errands, paying bills, and balancing the books. They take care of these things happily, although some won't let on. In fact, many Lunar Virgos are quite practiced at nagging and complaining. As long as they are appreciated, however, these people will help you take care of your life, too. They are at their best when they feel useful and needed. If somebody needs help, they are generally the first to jump up and take on the task.
Some people with Virgo Moons are accused of being underachievers. While it may be true that Lunar Virgos can lack self-confidence, many are--quite simply--content with living "regular", unassuming lives. They appreciate simplicity, and are often most comfortable when they're not getting too much attention from the world at large. Lunar Virgos are easily overwhelmed by pressure and stress. They worry incessantly when there is too much to think about; and they know their limits. Arguably the worst position for a Lunar Virgo is without a steady routine or a simply satisfying job. They need to feel useful, and they best express this by helping others in little ways. They need something to call their own, and the space to do what they want to do. The unhappy Lunar Virgos are fussy and complaining sorts. They are victims of routine and freak out when their plans are not followed. They are restless and nervous, and can't seem to see the big picture. Probably the best remedy for these people is a job or hobby in which they can express their deep need to analyze, attend to details, and micromanage.
These people express their affection for the people they care about in little, but practical, ways. They can be a little stiff when it comes to open, gushy displays of affection. Lunar Virgos are often shy with new people. However, when they are comfortable, they are anything but shy. More often than not, others can count on Moon in Virgo people. They are reliable and trustworthy. Above all else, Lunar Virgos are practical. Others turn to them for help and advice. In relationships, Lunar Virgos can be self-effacing and kind. Some are quite shy in love, and easily intimidated on a sexual level. Many are not very comfortable with their sexuality, but they aim to please nonetheless. The sign of Virgo is very body-aware, in general. If this awareness combines with a lack of self-confidence, Lunar Virgos can be too aware of the parts that make up the whole. This can lead to a tendency to be intensely self-critical. Once Lunar Virgos learn to come out of their shell, however, they can be earthy partners with a lot to give.
Some of the most skeptical people are Lunar Virgos. They can't help but poke holes when faced with others' blind faith. Their criticism can be maddening, and their insistence on seeing the practical in anything emotional can be challenging, especially if you are the dreamy type. Virgo curiosity shows up big time with this position of the Moon. To some, it can be confusing. Lunar Virgos seem very interested in others' problems, for example, but can be quite cool and even unsympathetic in the long run. Their advice can seem hard to more sensitive folk; yet Lunar Virgos can be surprisingly delicate when faced with others' criticism. Virgo Moon people are generally busy and quietly happy when they have their lives under control. They aim for a simple existence, and are often quite content with very little. Many are early risers, ready to take on the day with enthusiasm. They scurry around, keeping busy and managing their life quietly and expertly. As long as their little world is manageable, Lunar Virgos can be a delight to be around.
She has a very good memory. Scientific or medical studies preferred above all others. She is humble and moderate, calm and reserved. Emotional discipline. She is willing to help, devoted and gentle.
Weaknesses: servile nature, frequent changes of occupation, gets annoyed, upset, worries. She is too shy.
Moon in I
Very sensitive. Fantasizes. She is easily frightened, she is fearful, shy, prudent and emotional.
Your feelings are right out there for everyone to see, and you can come across as emotional and impatient, or nurturing and caring (or both). Your first reaction is emotional, especially if the Moon is in close proximity (within ten degrees) of the Ascendant degree. You need emotional stimulation, movement, and freedom to express yourself in order to feel happy and fulfilled. Your moods are very changeable, and this can be quite obvious to others. Because of your emotional sensitivity, you might often take things too personally, and react too quickly. Developing an awareness that others' emotions are just as important, even if they are not as overt and immediate as yours, will be important.
-289 Opposition Moon - Venus
Because you value harmony, you may find yourself giving in to others too easily, especially in the first half of life. Resentment is possible, as you can feel that you are the one who seems to do all the acquiescing. There can be a distinct tendency to become friends (and lovers) with people too readily, simply because there is a strong need for approval and a hunger for receiving affection. As such, you may get involved with people who seem to really like you, and you fail to consider whether you actually like them back! It's somewhat of a weakness, as you are very charmed by the idea that someone seems to really like and appreciate you. Generally, one of your life's lessons is to learn to discriminate more and to get in touch with what you truly want and need. The functions of the Moon (which rules the emotions and feelings, amongst other things) and the functions of Venus (which rules social relationships, harmony, and partnership, amongst other things) are at cross-purposes. When you attempt to feed the needs of one function, it is often at the expense of the other, until you find some sort of balance. This can play out in a variety of ways. For example, there can be conflicts in partnerships about parenting or whether or not to have a family. You may find yourself compromising your own emotional needs in order to find and keep love. Peace and harmony are important to you--perhaps too much so, as you can easily be taken advantage of. Insecurity is something that you need to deal with at some point in your life. Very sensual, you sometimes replace love with food or shopping! You can also be quite sexually active and sometimes quite lustful. You possess a distinct lazy streak. You are capable of working hard, but you truly appreciate luxuriating and enjoying as many pleasures as possible, and self-discipline simply isn't always at your disposal!
-101 Square Moon - Mars
You can be precocious, animated, and passionate. You seek emotional excitement in your life. Although you often project a brave and tough image, your skin isn't as thick as you'd have others believe. You tend to put up defenses due to your emotionally vulnerable and excitable disposition. Unrest is characteristic, as you are bored by routine and become easily frustrated when life is "too easy". There's a buzz of energy surrounding you, and you tend to meet with many conflicts in your life. With the opposition, the conflict tends to be lived through relationships. The passions are quite raw, especially in youth.
If you can channel your excitable energy into sports or some other competitive field, all the better. Although you can be a decidedly amiable and interesting person, others always seem to sense your boundaries. Something is bound to get you worked up, and it's not always clear what that something will be. Your bluntness can be both appreciated and considered offensive, depending on your audience! You are eager to make a personal impact on those around you. It is possible that you are too eager in this sense, and you come across as self-absorbed and difficult to stomach. Patience is definitely not your strong point! Your responses are quick, and your are a passionate person who is usually quite courageous although your energy is sporadic and sometimes wasted. You are sexually responsive.
Short description: She is very emotional and is driven to do things by her emotions. She does not think things over or through in a given situation. She is irascible and easily angered or fired up. Marital disputes are very likely, and a heated domestic atmosphere.
46 Conjunction Moon - Ascendant
She has a good influence on the family, which loves and helps the person. She likes travelling, movement, change. She likes contact and is open to other people.
Mercury represents communication, Cartesian and logical spirit.
Mercury in Aquarius
Not necessarily loud or flamboyant, but she often has a quiet way of stirring others up. Delights in exposing what she deems biases in others' way of thinking. Very quick to contradict others, and to offer a different perspective, she enjoys intellectual debates. Amazing powers of observation, and a quirky way of looking at the world. Humorous and interesting. Loves practical jokes and raising eyebrows.
Mercury in V
Taste for intellectual games, sports that require skill and finesse. She is very curious about everything, even in love. She likes children.
You tend to use your voice, whether written or spoken, as a means of creative self-expression. You can be witty and humorous, an engaging communicator, and a fun friend. You love playing games, especially ones that employ your intellect. You love tricks, jokes, plays on words, and mimicry. You might be skilled at impersonations. Some of you could be clever at lying. You might have a tendency to promise more than you can deliver, or overstate your case. In some way, you are very entertaining with the spoken and/or written word. Communication and intellectual rapport is most attractive to you when it comes to romance. In some cases, this can indicate more than one lover at once. Curiosity can be a strong motivator for making social and romantic contact. You might also take much pride in your children's intellectual abilities and talents. You would make a good teacher, as you are very curious about how people learn and can come up with many ideas that allow you to teach others creatively.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Are you frustrated with what you feel to be a lack of progress…?
Take a breath and relax... Getting fit and getting in shape is more than just what you end up looking like in the mirror. It's a lifestyle, it's a way of life, and at the end of the day you are ahead of everyone else who is sitting on their backside at home in-front of the TV!
I know the feeling of not seeing results quickly enough. Of not seeing that ripped physique in the mirror after working your butt off at the gym for months on end.
I'm impatient with a lot of things….including my fitness goals!
However, this impatience (which I know a lot of you share) is not uncommon, and in a way, not really our fault.
We have been raised in a society of instant gratification. Everything is promised to us right now, overnight, or even ten minutes ago. So when results don't happen right away, it is easy to feel discouraged, to feel like your efforts aren't paying off, maybe even like you don't deserve it.
It is a shame this is often the reason why people give up on their fitness and wellness goals - that they have been conditioned to believe results can be attained overnight. Not because of a lack of time. Not because of a lack of effort. Not because of a lack of will, but because of unrealistic expectations bestowed upon us by over-hyped marketing designed to make us feel inadequate.
Keep motivated, remain disciplined and stay strong!
Sunday, March 03, 2013
"Having a positive body image is directly connected to your overall happiness.
Love yourself no matter what stage of life you are in, size or shape you are.
Don’t think if you were younger, thinner, etc you would receive more love.
What you look like is not what people love you for, they love you for your heart & how you treat them.
And your LOVE for YOURSELF will shine in your eyes & your happiness will make you GLOW. ~ Namaste ♥ Anna" (on a poster)
I have got to remember this as I know I need this. I always think what if? and How come? and I do feel inadequate at times. Then there are the other times that people just seem to love me and I have idea how or why. I don't do anything different than what I am but I get " we miss you" and "what are you doing now" "where are you working" from people that I used to help at the stores when I run into them at different places.
Most of the time I do like myself, then of course there are the days and times I don't like anyone! lol But again that goes for everyone I guess.
As a kid I was the shy one, the "fat" one, the one that never got invited to a lot of things. Some of that was because I grew up in a military family (moved a bit) but when you're shy that compounds things and ideas. And kids are cruel......just plain and simple.
I'm still pretty shy until I get to know someone, still don't say much on the threads of the teams I'm on, and most of all I don't do blogs very often. I think my last one was over a year ago...yep sure was, just looked!
Well this is to a new thinking....a new way to look at things....a new way to feel
Hope it sticks!!
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